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RE: OCF4-Road to Freedom 2: A New Beginning (SCUUD) - Shannon - 08-31-2022
You do understand that your "subconscious" comprises multiple different parts and aspects of "you" and "your self", right? That is why people can have some parts cooperating and at the same time, parts that dislike the cooperation and fight the execution. If AutoConfig tells you to increase it, and you get negative pushback because some part of you doesn't like that, that means it's doing something the resistant parts don't like. Most likely, it's making progress.
RE: OCF4-Road to Freedom 2: A New Beginning (SCUUD) - MrGnome - 08-31-2022
(08-31-2022, 11:51 AM)Shannon Wrote: You do understand that your "subconscious" comprises multiple different parts and aspects of "you" and "your self", right? That is why people can have some parts cooperating and at the same time, parts that dislike the cooperation and fight the execution. If AutoConfig tells you to increase it, and you get negative pushback because some part of you doesn't like that, that means it's doing something the resistant parts don't like. Most likely, it's making progress.
To be fair I thought the conscious was 1 part and the subconscious was another part But now that I know,
That the subconscious are multiple different part's, alot of things make a whole lot of sense now.
Mainly why it's so difficult to change yourself even with subs/Experiences.
(I'm glad I get to learn these things, They are very interesting.
) Also glad to know I'm still making progress.
(wait I just remembered I did read multiple lines of a part of you wants this but another part of you wants that kinda thing.... so yeah I should have already known..)
RE: OCF4-Road to Freedom 2: A New Beginning (SCUUD) - MrGnome - 09-08-2022
Day off 4 Cycle 6
3 days ago I got someone visiting me, asked to help me by my friends (cause I got a few rant moments about my live wich I no doubt was helped by the fact I used my subs wrong in the past) and asked me what I needed help with and if it was okay my Mom was sitting with ous.
So Interestingly I had no problems because normally I would avoid my mom's involvement because of fear of conflict but it turned out, she was okay with all the improvements that I wanted. This surprised me alot, cause I always thought she always wanted me to live with her till she died, guess I didn't know everything after all..
(ofcourse I haven't said anything about this site's experiences. although one of my friends who I told about it earlier seems to be okay with me using it now,although it could also be because she knows I wont stop anyway. xD)
So soon I will get coach to help me with some problems, The best part will be in the sociolicing cause then I would destroy my fears both inside and outside
.Speaking of fear I noticed it being very weird lately like things that I used to fear are less but things I didn't used to fear became higher,
This and being extreemly tired in the past few days are the reason why I'm only writing it now.
I bought tranquillizer sleep yesterday and despite still waking up in the middle of the night I also went back to sleep faster (despite only 2 loops)
I dont know if doing this is save on off days since I already use OCF4 but I saw Shannon saying he used 2 loops before the program begins but it still might be different on off days.. So yeah.. I still should have asked though... glad I atleast feel better now.
RE: OCF4-Road to Freedom 2: A New Beginning (SCUUD) - Shannon - 09-09-2022
Quote:Speaking of fear I noticed it being very weird lately like things that I used to fear are less but things I didn't used to fear became higher,
You mean you noticed that the things you were consciously aware of being afraid of were reduced in fear, but the things you are afraid of at a deep subconscious level that you didn't consciously know were fears are being worked on.
Quote:This and being extreemly tired in the past few days are the reason why I'm only writing it now.
Extremely tired because of what the sub is doing, and/or resistance fighting it?
Quote:I dont know if doing this is save on off days since I already use OCF4 but I saw Shannon saying he used 2 loops before the program begins but it still might be different on off days.. So yeah.. I still should have asked though... glad I atleast feel better now.
I suggest that you only use 2 loops if it is necessary. I have since dropped to 1 loop. Should be okay though.
RE: OCF4-Road to Freedom 2: A New Beginning (SCUUD) - MrGnome - 09-09-2022
Quote:Extremely tired because of what the sub is doing, and/or resistance fighting it?
If this is true:
Quote:You mean you noticed that the things you were consciously aware of being afraid of were reduced in fear, but the things you are afraid of at a deep subconscious level that you didn't consciously know were fears are being worked on.
Than I think it's from the sub doing it's work but i also hear things that happend outside that might wake me up aswell Like:
A party,whatever my neighbor is doing,thunder,rain apparently.. I start to think my ancestors might have been gaurds in the past.
It also happend 3 days in a row, so that why I thought about using Tranquillizer B with it.
I still wake up in the middle of the night but atleast I'm less tired now.
In the past Thunder used to be this cool and exciting thing but nowadays I fear it probably because my mom always had a fear for it..
I do need to learn how to become better aware of what is happening with my subconcious though.
RE: OCF4-Road to Freedom 2: A New Beginning (SCUUD) - MrGnome - 09-23-2022
it has been a while but here's a little update:
Day off 2 Cycle 9:
Last week while I was walking with my dog, I met this kid who was very wise for his age and so I had no Idea how to respond to him and thats where it hit me, The reason I'm scared of starting conversations is because I have no idea what to talk about because my knowledge and interests are so limited..
A few days ago I had a conversation with my neighbor who asked me about when I was working again so I told him I will start next month (10/3) and then asked me where it was and after that told me a story about his past,
So atleast I can listen to people.
I also noticed my self censor is getting weaker but I still haven't succeeded into ditching sociale media because I dont know what else to do so I hope I can get some control of it before I start to get into conflicts.
Also the past 4 days I was taking care of my dog and I have to say I learned the difference between fear and guilt..
where I kept feeding my dog human food because it would be sad otherwise.. But I stopped beating myself up for making a mistake like I used to.
I also cut a off day off so its 2 Days on and 3 days off.
RE: OCF4-Road to Freedom 2: A New Beginning (SCUUD) - MrGnome - 10-07-2022
Day on 2 Cycle 12:
Welp it has been a while, I wanted to report last sunday but our internet modem died so we had to wait a few days for it to be fixed.
Even though now it turns out we will switch to glass fiber.
so we will have to leave our current provider soon and I learned recently that I preffer to have all stress related things come all at once and be over and done with as soon as possible, Wich brought me in conflict with my Mom who wants to spread things out more.
Anyway: last Saterday I went to a very bussy restaurant wich useally brings me stress and the feeling that everyone will notice when you do something wrong: Like putting raw food and cooked food together (like I did last time) but now everything went perfectly fine : )
I'm also glad I decided to use Aura of Love after this journey cause I notice I really need it at some point especialy after being mentally tired.
I also Notice I become slightly more aggressive, Wich is probably related to the reduce of self cencorship.
RE: OCF4-Road to Freedom 2: A New Beginning (SCUUD) - MrGnome - 10-08-2022
Day off 2 Cycle 12:
Last night I had a dream about having a conversation with a few woman and making them laugh in the beginning,
Sadly my jokes became worse later on but it was still nice.
Edit: I also feel very fearfull and really misses the past right now.
So yeah I can really feel the sub messing with my emotions right now.
I also realised I'm lonely and really mis the times where I had fun with my friends even if it were only a few times a year I saw them in Real Life.
RE: OCF4-Road to Freedom 2: A New Beginning (SCUUD) - MrGnome - 10-19-2022
welp things have not been so well lately, a week ago I found an AI image generating site wich meant a lot of happy fapping moments.
I do know it would hurt the alpha male program but i have no idea how much damage it does to OCF4.
also last monday, I got really depressed because i got mocked by a higher up for being to slow while at the same time not much was going on at work,
To the point where I was playing with the thoughts of killing myself wich I would never do thank god,
But I still couldn't help myself of doubting my self worth and if life would ever get better. (I know it will because I fully trust the experiments on this site.)
So yeah past moments where full of doubt about: jobs, relationships, weightloss cause I still have to buy myself sometime (1 whole year) to start using HOWL.
Anyway, I just stick to my plan and have to stay strong in the meanwhile..
RE: OCF4-Road to Freedom 2: A New Beginning (SCUUD) - dissonance - 10-22-2022
(10-19-2022, 12:07 AM)MrGnome Wrote: welp things have not been so well lately, a week ago I found an AI image generating site wich meant a lot of happy fapping moments.
I do know it would hurt the alpha male program but i have no idea how much damage it does to OCF4.
also last monday, I got really depressed because i got mocked by a higher up for being to slow while at the same time not much was going on at work,
To the point where I was playing with the thoughts of killing myself wich I would never do thank god,
But I still couldn't help myself of doubting my self worth and if life would ever get better. (I know it will because I fully trust the experiments on this site.)
So yeah past moments where full of doubt about: jobs, relationships, weightloss cause I still have to buy myself sometime (1 whole year) to start using HOWL.
Anyway, I just stick to my plan and have to stay strong in the meanwhile..
what does AI. image generating site mean? And which site is it? I'm curious cuz I've heard about this A.I. artist image creation thing in various social media posts showing what it can do, is that the same thing?
RE: OCF4-Road to Freedom 2: A New Beginning (SCUUD) - MrGnome - 10-22-2022
(10-22-2022, 01:09 AM)dissonance Wrote:(10-19-2022, 12:07 AM)MrGnome Wrote: welp things have not been so well lately, a week ago I found an AI image generating site wich meant a lot of happy fapping moments.
I do know it would hurt the alpha male program but i have no idea how much damage it does to OCF4.
also last monday, I got really depressed because i got mocked by a higher up for being to slow while at the same time not much was going on at work,
To the point where I was playing with the thoughts of killing myself wich I would never do thank god,
But I still couldn't help myself of doubting my self worth and if life would ever get better. (I know it will because I fully trust the experiments on this site.)
So yeah past moments where full of doubt about: jobs, relationships, weightloss cause I still have to buy myself sometime (1 whole year) to start using HOWL.
Anyway, I just stick to my plan and have to stay strong in the meanwhile..
what does AI. image generating site mean? And which site is it? I'm curious cuz I've heard about this A.I. artist image creation thing in various social media posts showing what it can do, is that the same thing?
the site is Called: Novelai,Its main use is to write stories either by your own or with help with an A.I they also got an image generator thing,where you just to some tags and prompts into it and boom the A.I will make a picture for you.
It can be both familly friendly or 18+ depending on your tags. (and I seem to have a thing for randomness considering catcha games are also one of my weaknesses xD)
But yeah if it does hurt OCF4 then I need to find the strenght to kick off again.
RE: OCF4-Road to Freedom 2: A New Beginning (SCUUD) - MrGnome - 10-24-2022
day off 2 Cycle 15:
August 8: I placed an order on an unkown website to preorder a PS5 and that was the start of a hell hole...
August 18: At first I was supposed to get it 7 days later but 10 days later I got a mail saying that there's a delay nothing weird yet..
September 12: I got tired of waiting so I wanted to cancel the preorder and they responded with the question if I wanted to continue my cancellation if send it a week later so I said I would wait for it...
September 21: Still no delivery.. So I told them I wanted to cancel it for sure. they asked me why and I told them but they didn't cancelled even though I thought they did..
October 5: I found out that it never got cancelled so I asked them to do it.. and they finally did..
October 19: I waited 2 weeks to get my money back but it didn't came.. So I had to ask it AGAIN and I made a trust pilot review on there crappy service
October 20: they responded immediatly, They called me and they DEMANDED that I would remove the review first before I would get my money back (the money that I was supposed to get back 2 weeks before this..)
So I standed strong and told them No Give me back my money first! Then I removed it after a few pushes to change my mind they gave in, I got my money back and I DIDN'T remove the review because of there Horrible buisiness actions.
It also helped that I got some help from my friends: 1 who told me to keep an eye on the shop, 1 Who had experience with the law and stuff and 1 Who Improved my review..
So now I finally got my money back, The company also Demanded to keep my words but after all the BS I had to go trough I just blocked there whatsapp and now I'm living my life with proud that I finally got the strenght to stand up for my self.
Thanks to my friends and Thanks to OCF4 : )
RE: OCF4-Road to Freedom 2: A New Beginning (SCUUD) - Z-Man - 10-24-2022
(10-24-2022, 08:43 AM)MrGnome Wrote: day off 2 Cycle 15:
August 8: I placed an order on an unkown website to preorder a PS5 and that was the start of a hell hole...
August 18: At first I was supposed to get it 7 days later but 10 days later I got a mail saying that there's a delay nothing weird yet..
September 12: I got tired of waiting so I wanted to cancel the preorder and they responded with the question if I wanted to continue my cancellation if send it a week later so I said I would wait for it...
September 21: Still no delivery.. So I told them I wanted to cancel it for sure. they asked me why and I told them but they didn't cancelled even though I thought they did..
October 5: I found out that it never got cancelled so I asked them to do it.. and they finally did..
October 19: I waited 2 weeks to get my money back but it didn't came.. So I had to ask it AGAIN and I made a trust pilot review on there crappy service
October 20: they responded immediatly, They called me and they DEMANDED that I would remove the review first before I would get my money back (the money that I was supposed to get back 2 weeks before this..)
So I standed strong and told them No Give me back my money first! Then I removed it after a few pushes to change my mind they gave in, I got my money back and I DIDN'T remove the review because of there Horrible buisiness actions.
It also helped that I got some help from my friends: 1 who told me to keep an eye on the shop, 1 Who had experience with the law and stuff and 1 Who Improved my review..
So now I finally got my money back, The company also Demanded to keep my words but after all the BS I had to go trough I just blocked there whatsapp and now I'm living my life with proud that I finally got the strenght to stand up for my self.
Thanks to my friends and Thanks to OCF4 : )
Hey MrGnome, Why didn't you contact you credit card company to help you with this. It seems like a dispute. By law they have to cancel. You get time date and who you spoke with and request a cancellation #, if they give you a problem demand to speak with supervisor. You have every right to give them a bad review. They should like they don't really help there customer and take advange of them.
RE: OCF4-Road to Freedom 2: A New Beginning (SCUUD) - Benjamin - 10-24-2022
Quote:I do know it would hurt the alpha male program but i have no idea how much damage it does to OCF4.
I better clarify this because unfortunately you don't seem aware of it. Which is fine because I got stuck in that pattern for a long time. So this is coming from a place of my own experience and knowledge.
I'm not sure why you have the impression that porn would just hurt Alpha Male V6. Does it also harm OF v4?
Yes.. but that's because porn usage harms your whole life. It drains your energy, your confidence, makes you feel weaker, causes you to feel more anxious in general and especially around women, gets you craving the next hit of dopamine, drains your drive in general.
And the best way I could explain it, and when I talked about it with my friend he agreed. It basically drains your desire to go out and engage with life.
It may sound like harsh thoughts about porn, but it is very damaging.
I don't have a specific video unfortunately, I haven't watched this guys videos but I do get his newsletter and it has some good stuff around porn usage and the issues it causes.
https://www.youtube.com/c/MarkQueppet/videos