Quote:Oh boy where to begin with this. Lots and lots of changes and I have to think of most of them since I haven't felt the need to post any of this. I'm only doing so now because (1) I have plenty of time to do so, (2) It might help out some people by reading this and possibly give some hope to those still resisting, and (3) It might not be best to get results then just disappear like some forum members have done in the past. I do admit I was very resistant to this due to this idea I have now that I rather not focus on past victories when there are still more victories to come. 

- Fear is pretty much completely destroyed and even times when I would "almost" feel that emotion it only takes me a second to say "nah" and dismissed whatever I might have tried to be fearful of. 

- I would say before that my general sense of well being before the breakthru was probably fluctuating between a 1 and a 4 based on how bad the PTSD might be that day. Now, I would say I fluctuate between an 8 and a 10. I reach a 10 at least once a day as it is, a kind of high on life type feeling. Other times its just a relaxed calm happiness and confidence. A very grounded feeling.

- I don't give a crap about calling people on their BS to their faces. I've actually already done this to several women automatically with little thought. For some reason I find it now "fun" to do this to people and see their reactions. I also don't mind blocking them when it gets stupid and just moving on to something else with my time. My time is more valuable than dealing with idiots. 

- Funny enough I actually enjoy texting people, etc a lot more or going outside. When I was very, very young I was actually quite outgoing to a degree and talkative. Only reason that changed was because of past situations which caused me to slowly withdraw emotionally and personally from engaging people. 

- A somewhat minor thing but shows a big shift in how I do things. I've been playing the Hitman 1 and 2 series the last couple of weeks. At the beginning I would look up how to efficiently do certain challenges and story quests for various stages. Now I don't even look them up anymore and just try to figure them out which can take quite a while and kind of have this huge resistance to looking up how to do them. This actually touched on a huge fear of mines: Fear of making mistakes. I think this fear kept me from trying lots of things in the first place unless I had detailed instructions or something to guide me so I wouldn't make mistakes. If I could or didn't feel confidant enough about the info I was given (or it was a field where it was impossible to move throughout without making mistakes) I would probably just not even try whatever it was. Essentially failing before the race even started. Now I don't give a crap if I make a lot of mistakes along the way and i have a persistence now to keep on trying until I get it. I don't want some easy way handed to me. 

- I deserve to live a life of luxury and deserve to sleep with hot women if I want to. More than anything I feel like I am destined for such a lifestyle. I "know" therefore that the new DMSI and UMS will work when they come out.

Quote:Cycle 6 - Day 2 &3

Latest achievement: jealousy is at an all time low. Other than that still feeling good and enjoying life at its fullest :-)

Quote:Hi Shannon. Perhaps you don't recall my posts about this issue. I can add some perspective here. My brother has Schizophrenia. I've spoken about it before here, as well as his use of subs. He is followed by a doctor, medication etc.

That said, as I've mentioned before, OF 5.75G is the first sub to finally show real progress with his paranoia, that has derailed more things than I can count. E2, E3, OF4G, OF5G, ARA, all of them did not help beyond at times stopping an attack or lessening it. Even then, that was pretty rare. When OF 5.75G debuted, I hesitated getting it for him for awhile, remembering how hard we tried with the other subs with getting the loops in and just huge hours of listening daily with the earlier versions. But, I thought the money to me is nothing...having a chance to rid my brother of this horrible paranoia is worth it! At present, OF has given him over a month of zero paranoia. Which has been unheard of, since the attacks began over 15 years ago when I took him out. They've happened ever since...for 15 years. Awful, wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy. Hopefully now, this will hold and he will be rid of them for good. I plan to keep him going on the 8 month run. Excellent response to this one, at last. I told him I'm jealous of his results with a sub, haha! undefined

Anyway, just wanted you to know. All the best.

Quote:Cycle 11 - Day 4
OF decreases my approach anxiety dramatically. Yesterday at the gym a girl was doing a calisthenics skill which I tried to learn some time ago. I complimented her and asked her about her routine and we chatted a bit. Today at the supermarket a girl with a very nice summer dress crossed my way and I told her that I find her dress beautiful.
I could not even image doing that (sober lol) a few weeks ago.

Quote:Well I think its time for an update.

So far it feels like a few things have become permanent (as far as permanent removal which this FRM was supposed to accomplish from my understanding). Still despising people who try to manipulate me and I will continue to call them out on it. It is amazing how much people try to manipulate others. Had a women try that game on me. Try to manipulate me to do something for her which was trying to play on a now none existent fear (a fear that produced neediness). All it ended up doing was making me ignore her for a while and also not giving a shit about whether she was in my life or not. Can't stand people who try to manipulate me and I find it a major turn off now. Don't try to find some excuse for them now like I might have done in the past or doubt if it really was manipulation because I might be "afraid" of offending them.

Actually won't let people get away with trying to blame me for shit that is not totally my fault. I will literally tell them to fuck off for the most part. Also getting less interested in playing toxic online competitive games for this reason. Why should I add more stress in my life dealing with morons , most of whom don't even have anything going for them in real life and just talk down to each other in these games to make themselves feel good? Seems like a waste of time and the beta way of making yourself "feel" alpha in an area that doesn't even matter in the real world. I mean maybe if you were playing this stuff competitively and getting paid for it sure but most people aren't. They are just using that shit to make themselves feel good and to hide away from the real world. I'm very tempted to just start option trading and Forex trading early but its not so much fear stopping me but I rather have all things going in my advantage. So I rather wait until the new UMS comes out and I have all my energies focused on that one singular goal.

Quote: A few weeks ago my mind deemed it impossible to overcome all my fears. Now, flash forward, I am starting to believe it is possible. It still seems a ridiculous notion, but achievable. 

My energy levels are the best they've ever been, except today, but then I haven't managed my sleep well. This shall pass. I am vocal about my thoughts and re-enforcing the line right away when someone tries to cross it. As a matter of fact, I stood against some people I've been meaning to all my life. Not with the intention to pick up a fight or demean them, but calling them out on their absurd thought process especially when it involves me. But despite my best intention, I still do need to find some finesse when it comes to that. 

There's a sense of novelty all around me. As if I am viewing the world from a different set of lenses altogether. It's fresh, it's exciting, and it is filled with content. I am pondering upon a success lot of lately and what it would mean for me to be successful. What I always thought I need to be successful is turning right on its head.

Quote:So here we go - I will list the bigger ones
First of all it didn’t make me a ladies men or some kind celebrity (well that’s not the Programms goal right)

1. I like socializing much more. I now enjoy being around people. OF has helped me to be myself in social situations.

2. approach anxiety is almost gone. I have no problem approaching strangers anymore. 

3. fear of driving is completely gone.

4. I masturbated a lot in the past. Now I reduced it to a healthy amount. 

5. I am a perfectionist and always have been. But the need to do everything perfectly is not that much present anymore. 

6. My attitude to life changed. I am muuuuuch more relaxed reacting to life’s circumstances. 

7. jealousy is not an issue anymore.

8. In the past I sometimes got angry for no reason with my girlfriend. This is not the case anymore.

9. My mind and my thoughts are much more clear. 

10. No more overthinking over everything

11. Flirting is now great fun and I noticed I am pretty good at it :-)

12. I don’t fear being left alone anymore. In the past this made me really needy in my relationships 

All in all it allowed me to do things I wanted to do but hesitated  to do. It changes your thought patterns a lot but it’s not that it hits you in the face. You have to watch very carefully. I suddenly noticed that things I didn’t do in the past are no problem anymore. I also stopped overthinking every bit and piece. If I want to do something I do it. Of course sometimes the nagging voice is still there but hey I have another 4 months ahead and it’s much more quiet than before. Due to the fact of being much more fearless my performance in my job has improved. But not only in my job but also in bed with my girlfriend. Expressing myself freely sexually has been a big one for me.

Quote:A little comparison from past and now  for me as a reminder for negative deppressive days

In my past i had no and negative relationship to my mother and brother, now i am talking everyday with my mother and i am building a positive relationship with my brother we even went out after playing basketball. I can sense that he is respecting me more et cetera.

In my past i had really bad addictions like drugs and smoking bcz of some childhood trauma and now i stopped all of them.

In my past i had a very chaotic life without any routine now i wake up every morning meditate for 15 minutes and read for at least 20 minutes books that help for self improvement.

In my past i was always anxious and feared every little situation now i am a much more laid back person that never looses hope

In my past my thoughts were all chaotic and unconscious now i am more in control and direct my thoughts. Im aware of them.

In my past i was always avoiding everything and thought i am an introvert but now i am longer sure because i really think that was a lie have feeded my mind with. I literally want to do so many things and i want to socialize.

In my past i was holding unhealthy friendships for ten years and now i finally had the courage and let go of them without feeling guilty

In my past i was not caring about myself and now i am caring about myself my appearance my body my diet.

In my past i couldnt hold eye contact i was the worst person for holding eye contact and now i feel like i am a pro in that. So much that i sometimes feel like it was too much and i dominated that person. I have to practice it more.

For me OF in combination with no PMO (porn,masturbation and orgasm) and some supplements for brain like fish oil et cetera is perfect.

Quote:My fear of confrontation is reducing very noticable so much that i seem very aggressive and i am verly talkative i am not like i used to be before i used this sub.

I have this i dont care attidude. I talk different, i walk different everything is like i dont care and more fearless.

I noticed that girls that i was not attracted to (average girls) look now attractive to me. This no PMO thing make girls look so beautiful its so hard to focus on buying food from the supermarket while girls walk by and they only look average. I dont see them as sex objects anymore something changed inside me i really see them as beautiful and interesting humans. 

The other strange part is i started a conversation with one of them without introduction i never did that ever before. I was so interested in that girl and a "hey" came out of my mouth automatically lol like who the .... talks to girls in a supermarket. I could sense that she liked that confidence (because nowadays the way i look into girls eyes changed too and they feel it like im looking at them deeply). I dont know why but i am really enjoying looking at them deeply without paying too much attention to their bodys. Before no pmo and OF i could never hold eye contact and had this shame feeling plus only looked at the bodies but now everything seems different. Feels great.

Quote:I have reached the half a year milestone!
I can not recommend this subliminal enough, at least with what it did to me. It takes really long time with sh**** phases but it’s worth it. I don’t recognize myself compared to half a year ago. More maturity, more relaxed and calm in any situation.

Less meaningless argues, more intense time spend with girlfriend, family and friends.
I still notice that it removes some fear and I have the feeling at the moment  it clears another big one.
I will do the 8 months .. maybe even longer. I was thinking about giving DMSI a shot afterwards but I have to say the interest in it decreased. I have really no idea why. Afterwards my idea is to try ASC 6g and AM 7 undefined But yeah .. one has to be patient for all this cool stuff.

Quote:So last night was my night off after the first full cycle of OFv2 and so far I'm feeling really good. It's almost as if I feel more natural so to speak, and that's about the only way I can describe it. What that means i don't really know to be exact, but I just feel more like myself. There were definitely days where the mental exhaustion was heavier in the mornings, but it never really lasted that long, and certainly didn't last all day. The rest day was needed but I can't wait to get back to listening this week.

Quote:I have great news, I went from being severely depressed and so anxious I couldn’t see my family or friends without having strong anxiety and wanting to use drugs or alcohol or numb it.

I got a number from a cashier today, I been approaching women and men (I’m not gay, just to talk) left right and Center.

I also just went on a date with a beautiful young Colombian women SOBER and it was the best date ever. We were making out at the restaurant and I was even giving her a got massage. I never get awkward or any anxiety. It was unbelievable. Best date I’ve ever had.


We’re playing soccer tomorrow, it seems as tho I have a gf in colombia now. She’s a good girl too not a slut.

Usually I get severe anxiety before dates. I also had issues living with people because of anxiety but I live with four roommates and I have 0 anxiety. They love me and we connected really well. I also made friends with a. Taxi driver and I’m playing soccer with him every Wednesday with his soccer team. I’m blessed.

Quote:This post is the end of the OF V1 journey for me. And it is by no means a testimonial, rather simply a snapshot of where I am. I am going to get OF V2 in the next few days and give it a run. It's been a couple of cycles since I've switched to masked and it has been absolutely incredible. There's no price you can put on being zen. Safe, and secure in your own skin. Happy, and living in the moment. And this state of being has dominated all my run except the patch where I hit resistance and felt hopeless. But that is sorted out.  I'd be happy to run it for the rest of my life and not look for more, but leveling up is the name of the game.

It is sort of a "neutral" state. I am progressive towards healthy self-esteem, solid self-confidence, but there are no fireworks attached to it. I believe if I run any of the subs focused on that, I'd have insane results, But I don't need to. And I am patient enough to take all my time with OF journey continuing with the next version. Can you imagine how amazing it would be to run DMSI, for instance, not because you need the results, but for the playfulness of it? I'd like to get there. There have been some insecurities popping out now and then, but I've been able to handle them logically. Sooner or later, I look forward to getting rid of them completely. 

On the social front, I don't get depleted anymore being social. I, no longer, feel that I fit the stereotype of being an introvert anymore. Sure, I need my time alone, but I can be around people all the time and not feel like I need to sneak away and recharge myself. I am on my way to starting my own business, which has been tricky waters to navigate in these times. But I do have trust in myself and believe I can take calculated risks and succeed. It's been years, I can't let the fear of failure hold me back.

Quote:Been just over a month since I got OFv2, so I thought I'd give another update.

Felt like it took some time, but I am feeling really good on this sub lately. There are still days where I feel like I have brain fog or just feel disconnected from reality a bit, but when I feel the execution of the sub it really does feel like I'm on a cloud and just relaxed. Socially I feel much more like myself and can be myself a lot more around people. When looking at others I can see why some people are stuck where they're at in life. You really do get a sense of who's being held back by deep seeded fears and insecurities in life.

From a health standpoint, I feel like I'm no longer afraid to live a healthier lifestyle. While it's not perfect yet, my diet has slowly been improving and there are a few bad habits that I had that I've completely eliminated. I used to drink about 3-4 sodas a day, and now the last few months I've had maybe one each month? Alcohol intake has also been reduced quite a bit. I do still drink alcohol every now and then, but unlike last summer during quarantine where it was almost daily, I'll maybe have a few drinks on the weekends. I no longer have to find a way to motivate myself to exercise either. I'm now working out an average of 5 days per week, compared to last year where it was maybe 3 days per week if I was lucky and was able to motivate myself enough to workout even that much.

Before using OFv1 or v2, I used to have a lot of negative thoughts that would disrupt my normal way of thinking. I'd have these preconceived notions that everything I say was silently being judged and was always being taken negatively by whoever I'm talking to. As mentioned with socializing, negativity really isn't there anymore and I seem to not care nearly as much what people thought of what I say. Friendships with people at work have seemed to get a lot better over the last month.