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RE: PTSDRA 6G (Round 2) - Frosted - Frosted - 02-09-2026
Btw here's a self assessment of where I'm currently at for the stats I'm trying to cultivate. I had AI help me self assess. I made sure everything's pretty accurate and the AI provided a helpful framework I approve of. It might be off slightly here and there, but overall I'd say it paints a pretty accurate picture of where I'm at right now. I approached this with as much honesty as I could. I hope you are able to get as much value from this and my future posts as possible.
Baseline Self-Assessment — February 9, 2026
Context: 10 years of subliminal development (2021-2023 = LTU6 became the first turning point, 2023 - 2026 = All healing subs. (5.9+ subliminals accelerated growth significantly)).
*Starting point ~1-1.5 average.*
*Average person = 3.0 average*
*Scale is 1-10 where 5 = functional/average, 7+ = genuinely transformed, 9+ = extraordinary/mastery*
Concentration: 4.5
Diffuse attention, strong metacognitive awareness, catch wandering quickly but can't sustain full focus without significant effort
Baseline Hedonic Tone: 6
Pleasant undercurrent most of the time, occasional spontaneous bliss, still context-dependent under social pressure
Equanimity: 5
Stable under mild-moderate stress, freeze/withdraw pattern under strong triggers, hours to fully recover fully.
Somatic Healing: 6
Significant healing from catastrophic starting point (<=1), still processing layers via PRA, background relaxation with surface tension.
Metta / Radiating: 4.5
Genuine warmth present but blocked/contracted, not yet freely flowing.
Insight: 5-6
Direct perception of self-construction, nondual glimpses, can see "veil of fabrication," strong natural talent.
Physical Embodiment: 3.5
Sedentary, low physical confidence, decent somatic awareness from healing work.
Social Freedom: 4
Moderate inhibition, comfort in familiar contexts, avoidance of unfamiliar social situations, likely some habitual inertia beyond actual fear.
Pressure Resilience: 4
Functional under moderate pressure but high cost, performance degrades and depletes under sustained stress.
Compassion: 4
Growing, still primarily self-focused (appropriately so during healing phase), expanding toward wider circle.
Relational Wisdom: 4
Limited relationship experience, developing communication and boundary skills.
Ethical Integrity: 5
Strong on big things, occasional small compromises, high meta-awareness of self-deception patterns.
Energetic Development: 4
Subtle energy perceptible but undirected and undeveloped. Still not sure if this is placebo. *Frosted note: AI assessment says I likely have latent potential freed up from healing. Take with a grain of salt.
Shadow Integration: 6
Strength area — comfortable acknowledging full humanity, minimal projection, humor about own patterns.
Devotion / Surrender: 4
*Frosted note: Kinda not sure about this one, didn't really care that much and just shot from the hip on it. It's probably approximately accurate though and I could see it being 3 or 5 instead.
Death Relationship: 5
Sat with mortality through many dark nights, residual sorrow but not dominated by fear.
Average4.7
Highest: Somatic Healing (6), Shadow Integration (6), Hedonic Tone (6), Insight (5-6)
Lowest: Physical Embodiment (3.5), Social Freedom (4), Pressure Resilience (4), Compassion (4)
Pattern: Internal/healing dimensions developed, external/engagement dimensions lagging — consistent with subliminal-only development path.
Plan: Increase scores through contemplative practice (various meditation practices (starting with focus and metta)), possibly a martial art (if circumstances allow), and social exposure (when cicrumstances allow (still haven't gone to the trouble of buying a car)).
RE: PTSDRA 6G (Round 2) - Frosted - Frosted - 02-09-2026
(02-08-2026, 08:57 PM)Have at ye Wrote:(02-08-2026, 08:40 PM)Frosted Wrote: My goal is to become a living legend. I want to become somebody with a unique vibe. Someone who can open almost any door just with their vibe alone. I want to feel awesome all the time for no reason and to make other people feel awesome in my presence effortlessly. I want the results to be consistent, none of that spiritual bypassing nonsense. I think PRA will be a big help in that regard.
All the best to you! Enjoy your meditation practice.
As to the quote, I have a similar goal in mind (becoming a Golden God of Sex and Song, to be exact, haha), and that is why I'm focusing on PTRA right now to later on use further programs and methods to achieve it and not have the past stand in the way.
Thanks! Hopefully I'm able to enjoy it so I can stick to it! ADHD is a bitch.
I hope you achieve everything you are hoping to and more. I can attest that PRA will not let you down, as long as it is given the proper time to work. Best to luck with you and your goals!
RE: PTSDRA 6G (Round 2) - Frosted - Frosted - 02-09-2026
Fuck it, I'm committing to a 30 day meditation challenge. 1 hour per day minimum. I will post every day to prove I'm doing it, no excuses.
RE: PTSDRA 6G (Round 2) - Frosted - Frosted - 02-09-2026
Day 1 of meditation challenge:
~Focus Meditation~
Time: 1 hour
Stability: 2/5 | Clarity: 2/5 | Effort/Ease: 2/5 (1=straining, 5=effortless) | Dullness: 2/5 (1=very dull, 5=none)
Don't feel that great about this focus session. Drifted off for a decent amount of it. Could have been my posture being too relaxed or something. Also kind of felt off. Possibly because I only got 6 hours of sleep (still feel surprisingly good regardless, likely thanks to my healing using these subliminals). Did get some decent focus in though, so I'd say I'm not too upset with how I did. The most important part though is that I just did it even though I didn't really feel like it. If I just keep showing up like this, there is no failure.
~Metta Meditation~
Time: 1 hour
Stability: 2.5/5 | Heart-warmth: 3/5 | Ease: 2.5/5 | Sincerity: 3.5/5
As I direct the love energy towards others, I notice blockages coming up. As the warmth comes up I notice that part of the reason my development isn't as outwardly expressing around people is that I still have trauma around it. I feel this sort of distance from people because I was radically ostracized the first 18 years of my life. I feel like this love is one of the missing pieces in the puzzle of the life I'm building. Things are just kinda clicking and I can feel this is an important direction to develop to have the kind of life I want.
It feels like the metta is synergizing well with PRA. Blockages come up and get released or softened by the loving energy. Overall good session. Felt a decent amount of warmth and released blockages. I feel like if I continue this with PRA my social life will become more enjoyable, deep, authentic and free. Did some metta on general people around me as well as difficult people or times I had friction with people. Overall a fruitful session.
RE: PTSDRA 6G (Round 2) - Frosted - ncbeareatingman - 02-09-2026
Your journey of health and healing never ceases to inspire!!
RE: PTSDRA 6G (Round 2) - Frosted - Shannon - 02-09-2026
I suggest you consider that it might be a good idea to work your way up to an hour of meditation per day. It depends on your ability to focus and concentrate, and what kind of meditation you're doing, and you may need to develop your focus and concentration skills to reliably be able to do an hour or more per day.
RE: PTSDRA 6G (Round 2) - Frosted - Frosted - 02-09-2026
(02-09-2026, 06:06 PM)ncbeareatingman Wrote: Your journey of health and healing never ceases to inspire!!
Thanks man!
RE: PTSDRA 6G (Round 2) - Frosted - Frosted - 02-09-2026
(02-09-2026, 06:17 PM)Shannon Wrote: I suggest you consider that it might be a good idea to work your way up to an hour of meditation per day. It depends on your ability to focus and concentrate, and what kind of meditation you're doing, and you may need to develop your focus and concentration skills to reliably be able to do an hour or more per day.
Alright I'm going to put more thought into my approach. Thank you for the advice.
RE: PTSDRA 6G (Round 2) - Frosted - Frosted - 02-09-2026
After listening to my loop of PRA I feel awesome. I feel like I have the star power up from Mario Kart. It’s honestly crazy to me that it’s possible to actually feel like this and it’s not a dream.
Honestly this is a big part of my motivation to meditate now that bliss has become more real to me. But honestly meditation probably isn’t even necessary judging by the trajectory I’m on. Damn I feel good right now
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RE: PTSDRA 6G (Round 2) - Frosted - Benjamin - 02-09-2026
Awesome man.
I tried to find a video just of a character picking up the star but I couldn't, so this will do.. old school.
It was better playing 'multiplayer' with your friends actually there even if it was on a small tv split into 4 parts back then.
RE: PTSDRA 6G (Round 2) - Frosted - Frosted - 02-09-2026
(02-09-2026, 10:59 PM)Benjamin Wrote: Awesome man.
I tried to find a video just of a character picking up the star but I couldn't, so this will do.. old school.
It was better playing 'multiplayer' with your friends actually there even if it was on a small tv split into 4 parts back then.
How it feels to chew 5 gum:
RE: PTSDRA 6G (Round 2) - Frosted - Frosted - 02-10-2026
Day 2 of meditation challenge:
Note: Taking Shannon's advice under advisement. Removing the 1 hour minimum and replacing it with a 20 minute minimum, with allowing for more time as long as it feels productive.
~Focus Meditation~
Time: 12 minutes
Stability: 1/5 | Clarity: 1.5/5 | Effort/Ease: 2.5/5 (1=straining, 5=effortless) | Dullness: 2.5/5 (1=very dull, 5=none)
Mind was wondering a lot, couldn't find a spot in my body I wanted to direct my attention and I didn't want to strain too much to keep my awareness from drifting constantly. I think my poor sleep lately might be affecting this. Went a little over 10 minutes to see if I just needed a "warm up", but I don't think any more practice will be productive. I might pick up again later if my mind feels like it's up to it. The most important part is that I'm building the habit through consistency.
~Metta Meditation~
Time: 10 minutes
Stability: 2/5 | Heart-warmth: 2.5/5 | Ease: 3/5 | Sincerity: 2.5/5
This was a lot easier. Some warmth, but still it seems my brain isn't really in it. Mostly focused on giving love to myself, since I didn't have much time. Was enjoyable regardless.
RE: PTSDRA 6G (Round 2) - Frosted - Frosted - 02-11-2026
Had a dream this morning that I was being chased to be locked up. A lady found me and then on the way back to the prison she asked me if I wanted to do it one time before she locked me up. We then went to the bathroom lol. There was a certain warmth and comfort with the interaction, I think I remember us holding hands on the way to the bathroom. The rest of the dream was rife with symbolism and stuff as I kept escaping and running away from the prison only to be found again or find dead ends.
Day 3 of meditation challenge:
~Focus Meditation~
Time: 10 minutes
Stability: 1.5/5 | Clarity: 1.5/5 | Effort/Ease: 3/5 (1=straining, 5=effortless) | Dullness: 2.5/5 (1=very dull, 5=none) (btw I think dullness might be a different type of metric than I thought. I'm using it to measure how boring the session was, but I think dullness might be a technical term for something I'm not quite sure, like dullness of awareness or something.)
Terrible session. Mind kept wandering and no ability to focus. I wonder if it's my lack of sleep, or just the fact that my mind is groggy from just waking up. Only got 7 hours. I haven't been getting 8-9 hours the past while. I feel like this was a win for consistency, not for quality of practice.
~Metta Meditation~
Time: 10 minutes
Stability: 2/5 | Heart-warmth: 2.5/5 | Ease: 3/5 | Sincerity: 3/5
This was a lot easier. My mind also seemed to be more awake by this point. Felt some warmth and enjoyed the session.
RE: PTSDRA 6G (Round 2) - Frosted - Frosted - 02-12-2026
If it weren't for this meditation challenge, I wouldn't be sticking to this as strongly. I ended up going to bed early so I could get up early before work to meditate. This time I actually got decent sleep and then waited till I did my other morning stuff before starting, so the groginess wasn't as bad.
Edit: never mentioned it, but I’ve been having headaches every day for at least a week now. It’s been long enough that I’m not comfortable taking ibuprofen anymore cause you’re not supposed to take it for too long. Definitely stuff being worked on. Feel a bit of nausea today too.
Also don’t think I mentioned it, but a big part of why I’m doing meditation is to make bliss a stable state. That is, if these subs don’t do it before then. Either way the bliss from the healing subs has inspired me to use meditation to cultivate my mental and emotional state.
Day 4 of meditation challenge:
~Focus Meditation~
Time: 10 minutes
Stability: 2/5 | Clarity: 2/5 | Effort/Ease: 2.5/5 (1=straining, 5=effortless) | Dullness: 2.5/5 (1=very dull, 5=none)
Not terrible. Still not as great as I'd like since I still had some groginess, but I'm bound by work duties so I gotta cut it short.
~Metta Meditation~
Time: 10 minutes
Stability: 2/5 | Heart-warmth: 3/5 | Ease: 3.5/5 | Sincerity: 3.75/5
Comfortable and enjoyable. Easing up on some subtle tension towards others.