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RE: 6G bonanza J & RM vol. 2 (OGSF v3) - Have at ye - 04-14-2025
Day 6/93, OGSF v3
So I put on OGSF... or so I thought! I'm listening, listening, and I'm like, "hey, this is a different wonky sensation than I had before" and then I checked and I mistakenly put on OSC, lol.
So now I'm back to OGSF, haha. I did preemptively remove the old playlist with OSC from my media player so that I don't slip up again.
I'm currently feeling pretty good, went to a thingy yesterday even though I did not really feel like it but I'm glad I did. Anyway, going to see my analyst lady today. I figure my resentment towards her is also a form of transference, haha.
I currently feel slightly disinterested with things and people, and somewhat distracted, and honestly had I the means to do so, I'd shut myself off from people and the world until I'm done healing and clearing trauma. But life goes on, oyy.
RE: 6G bonanza J & RM vol. 2 (OGSF v3) - Have at ye - 04-15-2025
OGSF v3, Day 7/93
I'm feeling better emotionally and all that, but I did break my diet yesterday and now I feel fat.
Hints of wonky sensations still.
RE: 6G bonanza J & RM vol. 2 (OGSF v3) - Have at ye - 04-16-2025
Day 8/93, OGSF v3
Started getting some slight changes in internal wonky sensations. Feeling better, not experiencing anxiety/fear as much or as often, although I do feel a little bit down. Getting some dreams.
RE: 6G bonanza J & RM vol. 2 (OGSF v3) - Have at ye - 04-17-2025
Day 8/93, OGSF v3
Pianist chick seemed a bit annoyed I did not use up the full hour today, lewl. It's way too hot to sing today, man! The singing itself went pretty well, though. I did pay her for the full hour so I don't see why she's complaining, she can - and should - use the leftover time to practice my repertoire, oyy, haha.
Honestly, she kinda sucks at working with singers, but expert vocal pianists don't grow on trees and are usually booked up the wazoo. She'll do for the time being.
Anyway, feeling pretty well, still a bit down, some wonky sensations here and there but nothing as radical as in the beginning, hopefully this shall bear fruit over time. Whenever I actually do stuff I'm doing pretty well but I want to get shit done as quickly as possible to go back to OGSFing and processing the sub, heh.
RE: 6G bonanza J & RM vol. 2 (OGSF v3) - Have at ye - 04-19-2025
OGSF v3, Day 10/93
Not getting much in the way of wonky sensations anymore, not feeling much motivation to do things, either. Still feeling a bit angry/annoyed with people, but less so than before. Wanting more sleep. Having some dreams but they're not as vivid as on OSC and they're somewhat more positive, I guess.
The program seems to be working so smoothly now I don't even know what exactly it's doing right now.
I got annoyed a bit because I was offered a big translation job yesterday and then they cancelled it. It'd have been worth about 600 USD for 5 days of work. Oyy!
RE: 6G bonanza J & RM vol. 2 (OGSF v3) - ncbeareatingman - 04-19-2025
(04-19-2025, 08:32 AM)Have at ye Wrote: OGSF v3, Day 10/93
Not getting much in the way of wonky sensations anymore, not feeling much motivation to do things, either. Still feeling a bit angry/annoyed with people, but less so than before. Wanting more sleep. Having some dreams but they're not as vivid as on OSC and they're somewhat more positive, I guess.
The program seems to be working so smoothly now I don't even know what exactly it's doing right now.
I got annoyed a bit because I was offered a big translation job yesterday and then they cancelled it. It'd have been worth about 600 USD for 5 days of work. Oyy!
I betcha something Bigger is coming !! hang in there. You're growing !
RE: 6G bonanza J & RM vol. 2 (OGSF v3) - Have at ye - 04-19-2025
Thanks, I'm keeping at it come hell or high water.
Day 11/93, OGSF v3
Had a vivid dream which was about self-defense mostly, I think. Now I'm feeling annoyed with people again. Otherwise, not much happening.
RE: 6G bonanza J & RM vol. 2 (OGSF v3) - Have at ye - 04-20-2025
Day 12/93, OGSF v3
My libido is making a bit of a comeback, I feel a little less sleepy. Had some more dreams. Feeling a bit better in general. Hopefully this trend will keep up.
RE: 6G bonanza J & RM vol. 2 (OGSF v3) - Have at ye - 04-21-2025
Day 13/93, OGSF v3
Not much happening that I can tell, hopefully the program is working overtime and simply beneath my concious perception.
RE: 6G bonanza J & RM vol. 2 (OGSF v3) - Have at ye - 04-22-2025
Day 13/93 continued
Got a bit of a headache today, hadn't had one in quite some time. Going to my psychotherapy session and then to the cinema with my buddies, tomorrow I'll be recording some singing with pianist-dude.
I'm still kinda angry at people in general, feeling kinda condescending towards them even. But I guess it's part of the process, releasing stored negativity which I was reluctant to express, apart from maybe listening to angry metal music.
I feel fat because I visited my crazy family over the holidays and overate. Back to dieting and EMS workouts from today on.
RE: 6G bonanza J & RM vol. 2 (OGSF v3) - Have at ye - 04-22-2025
Day 14/93, OGSF v3
I'm noticing results. F. In. I'm way less prudish in my thinking on various women I encounter, with no sense of apprehension or guilt (and since the weather's nice ladies are out in scores and dressed to impress, heh). Also my libido is making a return after the initial slump.
Had dreams related to my best bud from primary school days, he didn't always treat me as well as he could have and so I think this is getting worked on now.
Met up with my buds yesterday to watch the Minecraft movie, lol (it's very bad). That one girl I find attractive impressed me with her legs and butt by wearing a skimpy dress, so it's settled - I'm totally shagging her, haha. I also walked her home and she invited me up to pet her kitty, lol. We'll get there.
Gonna do that recording today. Back to dieting and exercise.
RE: 6G bonanza J & RM vol. 2 (OGSF v3) - Have at ye - 04-23-2025
Wonky sensations have made a bit of a return, but I don't mind. I think it simply means the program is working overtime.
We rescheduled the recording session until tomorrow.
I found some sort of dating app that matches people based on their musical taste, could be fun.
Chilling today, gonna go and practice in the evening.
RE: 6G bonanza J & RM vol. 2 (OGSF v3) - Have at ye - 04-23-2025
Day 15/93, OGSF v3
Had some really wonky dreams but which seem to be friutful. Still feeling pretty meh, but not too bad, so there's that. The program seems to be progressing in what it's doing. Can't wait to switch to something more positive that gives some oomph, motivation and outside results, though! Hah.
RE: 6G bonanza J & RM vol. 2 (OGSF v3) - Have at ye - 04-24-2025
Day 15/93 continued
Did the recording, I'm very satisfied with one of the pieces, less so with the other one (as it kinda feels as if I were off-tempo because the pianist-dude is hell-bent on playing it extremely fast, lol), but eh, it'll do, I guess. I'll be sending them out tonight/tomorrow.
Now gotta get back to translation jobs as I've been slacking off on them lately and I want moar monies for future programs and suchlike.
Feeling pretty well, all things considered. Back to physical exercise today (I did not do that yesternight as I got sleepy
).I'm getting a real handle on using OGSF v3 and 6G programs in general which is good. Can't wait for DMSI 6G and US(LM) 6G.