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RE: lano1106 BASE v2.1 journal - tolgaocal80 - 12-31-2019
good updates lano, I'll be waiting for major updates, There is a huge list, btw do you have any startup idea?
apologize if you told, is this your second run of BASE?
RE: lano1106 BASE v2.1 journal - lano1106 - 12-31-2019
I have my own digital marketing business. I launched it in 2016 as a sideline. It became self-sustaining around fall 2017.
Back then, my #1 priority was to escape from the office work boredom and gain a financial freedom.
There are issues currently with it.
#1. There is a lot of grinding. Countless of hours to get some growth.
#2. Marketing, while fascinating isn't my #1 passion.
I used to be a software engineer. That is my thing. That is my passion. This is in what I'm excelling at (I have at least 2 patches credited to me in the Linux kernel for instance). When I wanted to change my situation, I wasn't escaping from developing software. I wanted to escape the working condition. The open office space reminds me more a chicken coop than anything else and I'm worth better than be treated like a hen.
Even now with my current business, the time that I am the most thrilled is when I am finding an opportunity to write some software to automate stuff.
The current state is this:
#1. I don't have a boss anymore but the price is very high. I have enslaved myself with my demanding business. I work 7 days/week.
#2. I need to find something else if I want to reach my financial goals in a short-time frame. ie: 7 digits income/year.
In my SM3 journal... Around October, I did receive a phone call from an old acquaintance that had a marketing/FX trading opportunity to offer me...
Some connection did happen in my head. Long time ago (about 10 years ago), I had the dream to work for a big Wall Street bank, work as a Quant trader. I did enroll in a math/finance master degree program. I have been hired by Morgan Stanley. Knowing that this firm prefer hiring fresh graduates, I felt special that they made a job offer to an old wolf like me. and to top it off, I got a newborn daughter at home. It was way too much in my plate and the whole thing fall apart. I did sacrifice my master degree only after 2 difficult (but very enjoyable) semesters (Math is something else that I like very much and that I'm good at. This is why I choose an egineering degree in the first place) because my employer was asking people to do overtime due to the Tokyo earthquake (the Tsunami that caused Fukushima disaster). It was the worse ever decision that I made as they fired me few months after.
So, I'm definitely feeling it very strongly that cryptocurrency day trading could be a winner move for me that could improve my situation and address my current issues.
And no. It isn't my second run. This is a first run.
RE: lano1106 BASE v2.1 journal - lano1106 - 01-01-2020
Stage 1, day 2:
I listen to the ultrasonic track that I keep running in my computer room/bedroom in infinite loop.
That way, I effortlessly get exposed to the track 15+h per day. I have done that with AM6, SM3. With DMSI as well except that I was limiting the loop number.
With BASE, it is the first time that in the morning, I feel "saturated" to a point where I want to turn off the playback until the next evening.
idk why this is only doing that now. Is it the program content? The fact that the format is FLAC instead of MP3 with AM6 and SM3?
I have no idea but the feeling is annoying enough for me to notice it and do something about it...
RE: lano1106 BASE v2.1 journal - Benjamin - 01-01-2020
I'm not totally sure what you mean exactly. But on Am6 at one point I was trying something like 20 hours and I just felt like it was too much for my brain to process, I felt kind of on edge, like my brain was overworked and I couldn't sleep.
I was gonna say it may be the 15 hours, but if you did that with AM6 and SM3 then maybe not. From what Shannon has said the flac is slightly more effective, but I wouldn't think enough to explain that. He should be able to expand on it.
RE: lano1106 BASE v2.1 journal - lano1106 - 01-01-2020
what you describe fits what I felt.
lets see if the feeling persist. I'm not excluding yet a simple coincidence between the feeling and the start of a new program.
Even if this program was making my subconscious work harder and that would explain the feeling. I have still managed to be exposed for 10h. So I am good with the minimum exposure time.
I'm confident that things will settle down but I'm feeling that BASE is stirring different parts of me than AM6/SM3 did.
RE: lano1106 BASE v2.1 journal - lano1106 - 01-02-2020
Stage 1, day 3:
I'm ready to switch my simulations from using stored data in files to live data source. A big part of being able to analyse the simulation is to see it with the help of graphs. Like a lot of people, I'm a visual person. Seeing helps a lot my comprehension.
Therefore, a goal to achieve to make the switch successful, I wanted to generalize my graph engine from my initial prototype where a lot of thing were hardcoded.
things that the refactoring would allow is to transparently for the engine switch data source from file or live. I also want to be able to configure the graphs on the fly from the UI and add/remove different graphs to the set without the engine caring or knowing about all the various graph types and combination.
Identifying abstraction, extract them from existing code and refactor the code by creating new classes is demanding a lot of mental juice. When prototyping, ideas are easily flowing, code gets written frantically. You can hear the difference by listening to the keystroke pace.
Completing this particular step is longer than expected. I started it on day 1 and I should finish it today. So 3 days. I don't want to be to hard on myself for that. For one, this is still the holiday vacation. I cannot work full time. We have a lot of friend and family visiting in the last 2 weeks.
But also, the weird 'saturated' feeling is still present. This is hurting my productivity. It could be resistance. It start feeling a lot like how I was feeling during SM3 stage 3,4,5 where I was constantly complaining about lack of energy. I feel my mind like in a sort of fog.
For that reason, I did just stopped the program playback to resume it later this evening.
Another possible explanation, I'm sleeping a lot. Maybe this is the program processing that makes me more exhausted or maybe it is some sort of vacation pace. We will see if things return back to normal next week.
Either way, the goal is crystal clear. I would like to move things faster but everyday progress is achieved and I am getting closer to the completion of the current step of my success plan.
RE: lano1106 BASE v2.1 journal - lano1106 - 01-03-2020
Stage 1, day 4:
I did a dream last night. In the middle of the night, I told myself. wow, this is a dream related to BASE. It is rich in wisdom and meanings. However, this morning, I totally forgot what it was about. I only remember what I told myself about it in the middle of the night.
I am starting a cold. My throat start to be soar. This is dragging down even more my energy level.
Motivation and enthusiasm to work isn't there at all. It is a challenge to my will. It is with several kicks in the ass and a strong will that I'm moving forward progress of my project.
Update: Damn. I just realized that with my stop/start playback chenanigans, when I restarted the playback yesterday evening, I forgot to put back the repeat on. That means so far today, I only got 1 loop of exposure instead of the 8 minimum ones.
It is almost 3PM. That means that in order to catch up today, I would need to listen to it 7 hours out of the remaining 9 hours today. It seems very hard to squeeze in...
RE: lano1106 BASE v2.1 journal - tolgaocal80 - 01-03-2020
(01-03-2020, 06:01 AM)lano1106 Wrote: Stage 1, day 4:
I did a dream last night. In the middle of the night, I told myself. wow, this is a dream related to BASE. It is rich in wisdom and meanings. However, this morning, I totally forgot what it was about. I only remember what I told myself about it in the middle of the night.
sometimes it happens to me as like that, but I dont know if that was dream or real.
and I cant remember what I told myself or did, only feelings I had.
RE: lano1106 BASE v2.1 journal - lano1106 - 01-05-2020
Stage 1, day 5:
The mental exhaustion feeling went away. In the afternoon after a long productive stretch. I had the idea to take a break to change my mind. I had an errand to do at the postal office. Going there by walking would definitely be killing 2 birds with 1 rock.
It seems to me like changing my mind once in a while is a reflex that I lost down the road that is now resurfacing.
RE: lano1106 BASE v2.1 journal - lano1106 - 01-06-2020
Stage 1, day 6:
There is good and bad elements in day 6.
The bad:
I have been fighting with the used Application framework to make it do what I want. What is bad about that is that doing the framework do what I want isn't mandatory at all for what I want to achieve ultimately...
The good:
I succeeded overcome the problem so:
1. My framework understanding and mastery has increased as a result of my investigation
2. I am creating solid and reusable building blocks for possible future use.
but down the road, it depends what I desire. Do I want to be the best developer or the best entrepreneur and achiever? because they aren't the same especially when delivery speed is a crucial key to success...
I'll need to refocus stronger on goals and get rid of old habits to go deep in my tools understanding and mastery...
RE: lano1106 BASE v2.1 journal - lano1106 - 01-06-2020
Stage 1, day 7:
Fantastic day.... I am $300 shy from breaking the damn $1000 in sales per day... Last time it did happen was almost 1 year ago when I parted away with my partner.
I just sent out a promo email so, it is quite possible to make it happen today.
I did noticed it few days ago but omitted talking about that observation. I feel like my analytical and problem solving skills are on steroid. I'm enjoying this state a lot as my big fun in life is to solve tough technical problems. Finding an elegant solution provides me a lot of satisfaction.
And it isn't just in my business ventures. I did plug some VOIP system in my network. I was short of Ethernet input behind my router. I figured that since my VOIP device had 2 Ethernet sockets (Internet and Home), I could unplug a network cable behind the router. Plug it in the VOIP device and plug the new device in the router.
it sounds simple, but when I discovered that printing was broken, I had no idea what the problem was and how I would fix it. I was under time constraint as I had only half hour to print a packing slip and go to the postal office to mail a package before it closes. Mission accomplished. It felt almost like I was some sort of James Bond defusing a bomb or MacGiver or some other cheesy hero doing something awesome with Mission Impossible theme music in background!
Any normally designed network device should have accepted this usage and it took some time to realize it since I randomly print stuff... but the damn device wasn't letting all traffic pass through it. Therefore, it was making the printer invisible to the rest of the network...
Talking of this VOIP device. My telco bill was becoming insanely high. In October it did spike up to almost $400... I was pissed when I did discover that they were charging me insane long distance fees done on their VOIP service. In 2019... no honest company should charge for long distances... I called them... and they didn't correct the situation in a satisfactory manner. I made a short stop at Best Buy. Bought a Ooma device (VOIP), and few Android Kodi devices to plug on TVs... That way, I'm going save a minimum of $75/month.... That is a lot of money at the end of the year....
Yesterday, I did fixed a lot of BS cause by the choosen UI framework in my code only to stumble into a new BS issue coming from the framework. Everytime that I take time to workaround the problem. I tell to myself, now it is going to be fine and I'll be good to finally address the real purpose of all this dev... Only to stumble into new BS problem. I know that the way that I'm talking about the framework, it may sound like BS... but it is not... It is an open source framework... The way that I address the issues I have is by looking up in the code to understand how it works. Code quality is high and it is a fun framework to use but it tries to be so much things, address so many possible use-case that sometimes the result from the very complex codebase is hard to explain and no one knows why it is like that.
Here is a short description of what I have stumbled in. There is a Layout manager that is supposed to maximize the available space usage to display widgets. I have 3 widgets that can be displayed or hidden from a menu. My expectation is very simple. Just share evenly the available space among my displayed widgets. I mess around by hiding/showing widgets and I fail to get them have the same height when I return to the identical widget combination. Their LayoutEngine accounts for SizePolicies, spaces, margins and so on and so on.... I'm just going write my own stupid Layout class that take the available space and divide by the number of widgets to display. It will give consistent and predictable results and I'll be done with that crap.
This is going to be done by the end of the evening... As an extra bonus, it will even be faster than the one from the framework... just from the fact of being much simpler
Wow, I didn't expect this entry to be that long... 2 more things.
1. I went to the gym for the first time since I started BASE. It is insane how fast the projected aura and somehow state of mind can change fast. In the last 6 months. I was focused on the women and how they were reacting to me. They didn't pay much attention to me so did I. I am so much somewhere else right now...
2. I find myself still extremely charming but in a different way. I feel like people find me very charismatic except that my charisma isn't sexually charged as I think it was just 2 weeks ago...
RE: lano1106 BASE v2.1 journal - lano1106 - 01-07-2020
Stage 1, day 8:
Holy crap. I made it yesterday. This morning when I woke up. I did look at my sales dashboard to find out that I have surpassed the psychological $1000/day ceiling yesterday. If I could consistently do that, it would result into a $350K annual income... Next, you aim for 3x that, at least $3000/day for a $1M+ per year...
First time in almost a year that my sales meet this level. To top it off, I did nothing out of the ordinary to meet that objective. The only thing that I made special was when I saw that doing it was a real possibility during the afternoon, I sent out my promo through webnotification, something that I rarely do because not much sales come from that channel (it takes 5 minutes to setup usually for nothing. but it made $25 yesterday). I didn't beat around the bush with the evening promo. I picked one that I was pretty sure it would do well.
RE: lano1106 BASE v2.1 journal - lano1106 - 01-09-2020
Stage 1, day 10:
My time management skill still needs improvement. I am advancing my crypto trading project but at the same time, I'm neglecting a bit my digital marketing biz. I have a pile of emails to look at since last week-end.
Crypto trading project is definitely a priority and receiving most of my attention.
I'm still agreeably surprised by how people react to me since I started BASE. It seems like I am receiving better attention from women than when I was running SM3 or DMSI. It really feels like some sort of celebrity aura effect giving some special treatment from strangers. I did look into the list of scripts contained in Stage 1. What I'm experiencing must be from 'Natural Socialization'. It seems like tweaking this seemingly not that important aspect of myself is making a big difference in my everyday interactions... That must be the one. I don't see any other stage 1 script that could do what I'm getting with others...
RE: lano1106 BASE v2.1 journal - lano1106 - 01-11-2020
Stage 1, day 12:
I have completed integrating my market data graph code with live feed data. I did squash out a lot of problems with the code. Giving me a robust and solid foundation on which I can build further.
The last 2 days have been for polishing the code. I kinda like that part. It let you discover small details that you have overlooked and the result is concrete and immediate.
I had this great feeling of accomplishment when I started seeing graph plotted and slowly slide to the right in the default 1h long window as the data was coming in. I had clear picture in mind of what I wanted it to look like, it is even better in reality.
The whole point of this whole 12 days exercise was to be able to plug the initially simple trading algo and see visually where it opens/closes positions. Without graphs, it is hard conclude anything if it is right or wrong by looking at a mountain of numbers.
So I'm at the start of the pluging process and this makes me looking back at work that I did around December 30. It is not that long ago... but my first impression when I looked back into what I did then... It is like it was something a stranger wrote... It took some time to get back into the mindset I had when I wrote those things... pretty sure some can relate to that feeling...