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RE: Ascending to Alpha - DavisMind91 - 05-05-2018
(05-05-2018, 10:29 AM)JCasterlin Wrote: @DavisMind91 I meant to tell you a major reason I decided to run EPHRA 2.0 for at least 90 days but probably 180 before do multiple run of AM6 is because I came across your EPHRA 2 journal. Thank you for the inspiration
No problem bro. I’m always glad to help directly or indirectly
RE: Ascending to Alpha - DavisMind91 - 05-05-2018
Stage 6, Day 16:
- Just got back from a first-time home buyers seminar. It made me realize just how much I messed up things for my future self. Not just on the financial front either. Not crying over spilled milk but it sobered me up in terms of realizing how the choices you make now can either hurt or help you both in the present and the future. I’ve got a long way to go to actually fix my life. Life tune up is looking good right about now lol. Just kidding. AM6 has already helped me come so far on the internal level. Now it’s time to step it up in every way and manifest concrete external results.
RE: Ascending to Alpha - JCasterlin - 05-05-2018
(05-05-2018, 01:19 PM)DavisMind91 Wrote: Stage 6, Day 16:
- Just got back from a first-time home buyers seminar. It made me realize just how much I messed up things for my future self. Not just on the financial front either. Not crying over spilled milk but it sobered me up in terms of realizing how the choices you make now can either hurt or help you both in the present and the future. I’ve got a long way to go to actually fix my life. Life tune up is looking good right about now lol. Just kidding. AM6 has already helped me come so far on the internal level. Now it’s time to step it up in every way and manifest concrete external results.
Are you going to do a 2nd run of AM6 after this?
RE: Ascending to Alpha - DavisMind91 - 05-06-2018
(05-05-2018, 02:17 PM)JCasterlin Wrote:(05-05-2018, 01:19 PM)DavisMind91 Wrote: Stage 6, Day 16:
- Just got back from a first-time home buyers seminar. It made me realize just how much I messed up things for my future self. Not just on the financial front either. Not crying over spilled milk but it sobered me up in terms of realizing how the choices you make now can either hurt or help you both in the present and the future. I’ve got a long way to go to actually fix my life. Life tune up is looking good right about now lol. Just kidding. AM6 has already helped me come so far on the internal level. Now it’s time to step it up in every way and manifest concrete external results.
Are you going to do a 2nd run of AM6 after this?
That depends on what my financial status is by the end of 2018. No matter what, I’ll be doing another full run somewhere in the next couple years.
RE: Ascending to Alpha - DavisMind91 - 05-06-2018
Stage 6, Day 17:
I now realize that something happened to me in that seminar yesterday. All night I’ve been plagued with thoughts of how my external life looks and it just doesn’t sync up with who I really am. It wasn’t supposed to be like this. I feel motivated in the sense that I realize that every area of my life is out of order, and I need to be the handyman that fixes it all. I compiled a list of 11 life areas that I’ll be closely monitoring my progress on from here on out. I’ve been making efforts to improve all along but the new me looks back upon the old me and wants to compete with him, and take me to even greater heights.
RE: Ascending to Alpha - DavisMind91 - 05-07-2018
Stage 6, Day18:
- I'm acting pretty extroverted today, I also can't stop working, it's like I'm in the zone. I barely pulled myself away long enough to post and update.
- My wife has done a 180 in regards to how she's interacting with me. There's no tension or awkwardness at all for the past week. Waiting on the court hearing speaking of which.
RE: Ascending to Alpha - DavisMind91 - 05-07-2018
Update:
I was just told by a female coworker that the other day, most of her department (mind you 90% are females) asked her why I seem to laugh differently when I'm on the phone with her vs every other woman in the dept. I laughed it off and she found it pretty strange. She noted that they may be jealous for some reason. *Shrug* no idea why. I don't think they have a crush, I believe it's just that natural urge some women have to be in competition with each other, and the need to feel special above all. Perhaps they just crave the same sort of attention.
RE: Ascending to Alpha - Zane - 05-07-2018
(05-07-2018, 11:29 AM)DavisMind91 Wrote: Update:
Perhaps they just crave the same sort of attention.
Perhaps they crave "You".
RE: Ascending to Alpha - Zane - 05-07-2018
(05-07-2018, 08:54 AM)DavisMind91 Wrote: Stage 6, Day18:
- I'm acting pretty extroverted today, I also can't stop working, it's like I'm in the zone. I barely pulled myself away long enough to post and update.
- My wife has done a 180 in regards to how she's interacting with me. There's no tension or awkwardness at all for the past week. Waiting on the court hearing speaking of which.
I know it might be little personal but do you think your wife is having second thoughts and at some level even regrets being in this situation..but is afraid to say so cause she knows its too late and that u stand firm on ur decision..
After u started on ur AM journey
RE: Ascending to Alpha - DavisMind91 - 05-08-2018
(05-07-2018, 06:04 PM)Zane Wrote:(05-07-2018, 08:54 AM)DavisMind91 Wrote: Stage 6, Day18:
- I'm acting pretty extroverted today, I also can't stop working, it's like I'm in the zone. I barely pulled myself away long enough to post and update.
- My wife has done a 180 in regards to how she's interacting with me. There's no tension or awkwardness at all for the past week. Waiting on the court hearing speaking of which.
I know it might be little personal but do you think your wife is having second thoughts and at some level even regrets being in this situation..but is afraid to say so cause she knows its too late and that u stand firm on ur decision..
After u started on ur AM journey
That thought has crossed my mind. It’s like once I decided once and for all to say screw it and go though with divorce, she began acting differently. This simply confirms a lot of the things I’ve heard and read about in regards to dealing with women. Indifference really does make a difference. I’ve pretty much have always been indifferent as to whether or not a certain woman was in my life, but I also don’t act like a dick. The past few years this has kept women wanting to come back to me but I naturally have the mentality of being done with someone once I decide that it’s all over with. My wife is progressively acting nicer though, even becoming affectionate. The only explanation I have for this are the auras, perhaps mixed in some of her own second thoughts which is causing this shift.
RE: Ascending to Alpha - DavisMind91 - 05-08-2018
Stage 6, Day19:
Feeling more motivated and determined than yesterday. My level of production was beast yesterday, and I'm certain it'll be similar today. This morning I almost didn't wake up to go to work early, but right now I have a plan to do overtime to help me accomplish certain financial goals. I was tired and procrastinated a bit because of that. Then I asked myself..."are you really going to let your weakness make decisions for you?...that's how you let your life get messed up in the first place." I jumped out of bed, and I've been exhibiting and feeling masculine traits x5 ever since. See you guys next time for another update.
RE: Ascending to Alpha - DavisMind91 - 05-09-2018
Stage 6, Day 20:
- Attention from women increasing, not always in sexual ways but it's increasing nonetheless.
- Had a female supervisor from another department ask me to message her, there are rumors that she has a crush on me. Since she asked me through business Skype, which can be monitored by upper management, I had to indirectly answer her. Lol, feel like she's trying to escalate things.
- Feeling calmer than the past couple days, but I'm still productive.
RE: Ascending to Alpha - DavisMind91 - 05-09-2018
Update:
I went outside for lunch to get in touch with nature. When I got back, the supervisor mentioned in the previous post asked me where I was, and asked if I was ready to Message her, and that she was looking for me. she seemed hesitant though because another supervisor from the same department was there. I said F*** it. But when I asked if she was ready she looked back at the other supervisor, gave me a wink and a smile and left the room. A few minutes later she skyped me and asked if I was really going to do it, lol a test, seems I've been getting tested a lot by women this year.
RE: Ascending to Alpha - JCasterlin - 05-10-2018
@DavisMind91 how long did you run E2 prior to starting AM6?