(05-20-2011, 07:31 AM)Spiral Wrote: Can you fly Shannon?

(05-22-2011, 01:51 PM)mat422 Wrote: Haven't posted here in a while, but I've got a few things I want to unload off my mind. So far stage 5 has me feeling really smooth, pretty confident, and incredibly detached from what other's have to say. The other day some guy was pretty much yelling at me where I work, cursing me out, etc. I had no anger, instead I saw this man as weak and took pity on him. I stayed calm, answered him in an unemotional logical manner and soon enough he was no longer angry. When you don't feed a person's anger with more anger, they tend to see how irrational they are sometimes. Right now I feel like I'm operating at a higher level of consciousness. I'm able to detach from anyones opinion of me and I have a greater understanding of human behavior. My ability to control my emotions is pretty amazing, I no longer hold grudges or become angry because I see it as their problem and not mine.

Something else that I'm aware of is my indifference towards women. I no longer feel like I have an obligation to look for beauty in a woman. I feel it is now their responsibility to display their good qualities, instead of me sifting through all the bad ones to find the good in them. This relates to looking beyond the image she portrays and understanding who she actually is. Unfortunately as a side effect of this awareness, I feel sometimes it is hard for me to appreciate the positive side.

This is the one thing that I'm struggling with now. In a way I feel colder, but I'm also not. I think it might just be my perception based on my old beliefs which seemed to put people and especially women above me. Once I internalized that I'm just as important as everyone else out there, things shifted. I guess you could say I've developed a sixth sense for bs, which allows me to see the truth of the situation. In the past I would look for the positive, so much that I would bury the negative and refuse to accept it.

Also I think a lot of what drives having a conversation with other people is the emotion attached to it. While I do enjoy having conversation with people at times, sometimes I just don't feel like it. I feel like that emotional drive has always been relatively low. I don't really have a desire to be more social or outgoing, I'm content being myself even if some people don't like it. In the past my desire to become more outgoing was just because I felt I was broken and it was wrong to be the way I was.

However, I can be very charismatic when talking to people and I'm not rude and I don't ignore them. It's just that it is more on autopilot and a mechanical process rather than something I derive pleasure from at times. Lately I've had more people talking to me for no reason which never really happened much before

I guess I just feel disconnected at times. It might be the sub though, hard to tell until I actually finish the set. I feel very fulfilled most the time which just makes me feel content by myself. I just kind of feel detached from humans lol, that's the best way I can put it. It's really more of a feeling that I'm still coming to terms with and is kind of like looking at a fuzzy TV, I can kind of see the picture but there is still more that I can't see.

(05-29-2011, 04:00 PM)Jeff Wrote: You shut that guy down quick. It feels good being able to do that with ease. The subliminal challenging past believes puts me in strange moods at first, then I feel like not just one million bucks, but two million lol.

Hey Mat, I bought a skateboard today, it is hella tight. 8inch Almost board. I am glad I bought it. The ride is very relaxing, but intense. The breeze when you pick up killer speed, nearly fell on many occasions. You weren't kidding on the cardio workout. I was feeling it more in my calfs and foot. Spare a fellow brother some tips? I'd be much appreciated.

Quote:Sure, have anything in particular you need help with? The most important thing I've found when skateboarding is to stay centered, if you are off center everything gets screwed up. Always keep your weight centered evenly between your two feet. Also try to keep a slight bend in the knees, standing up straight might be more relaxing when you are cruising around, but if you hit a pebble you are going to go down hard.

Also it's good to get a feel for how the board responds to you. How much you can turn, how shifting weight effects the board, etc. Before you start trying tricks, it's good to really get a feel for the board. Also be ready to fall lol, it's not a question of if but when. If you stay centered you will prevent the slip back that a lot of beginners deal with. A common tendency for people first starting is to lean back too much and the board slips out from under them.

Oh and one more thing. This is a bad habit I'm glad I got rid of, it's called pushing mongo. When you push you want either your left foot up by the bolts and right foot pushing(called regular) or your right foot up by the bolts and left foot pushing(called goofy). Mongo is when either your left or right foot is at the bottom of the board instead of the top. The problem with mongo is sometimes the board will lift up when you are pushing and it's harder to get your feet on the board to set up for tricks.

Just wait till you start learning tricks, your legs will hate you lol. After an intense day of skating my legs are like jello the next day.