(04-18-2018, 01:10 AM)DavisMind91 Wrote: Stage 5, Day 31:

- Went out with my best friend last night for his bday. He was depressed because his grandma is in the hospital so even though I wasn’t fully in the mood I thought what the hell its his bday anyway. We went to hooters and talked about current events. Around the time we were about to leave, he actually expressed to me how he’s been feeling more alpha lately and speaking his mind to everyone. I found that funny because me and this dude go through similar situations and transformations in our lives at around the same time in life. It’s been this way since we became adults and we’ve known each other for almost 16 years now. This is the same guy who used to complain about missing his ex a lot but is now in a much better headspace, at least in regards to that situation even though he still expresses that he misses her.

- The wife called me at work for a stupid reason. I stopped myself from flipping out because I didn’t want to let her foolishness give me a reason to lose self control. For reasons I won’t mention due to rule 4, I’ve been making efforts to simply use anger or any other negative emotions more constructively. The past couple days though she’s been proving me right on why things aren’t gonna Work long term between us. Divorce should be finalized any day now anyway.


- While at hooters last night there were 2 waitresses specifically who kept staring at me. One was waiting on my table and even though she never said anything directly, she had a certain look on her face like she wanted to Evry time she looked at me. She was the first Asian woman in a while that I found so attractive. My best friend agreed. Thought about getting her number but decided not to. I know I’d end up wasting her time and my own. Not because I lack confidence but because I knew I wouldn’t have stayed interested enough to actually take it too far.

- speaking of interest, I haven’t seen the woman I mentioned the another day that giggles when she sees me at work... oh well.

(04-19-2018, 08:34 AM)DavisMind91 Wrote: Stage 5, Day 32:

Finally got through stage 5, right now I'm just letting all the info digest and assimilate into my subconscious. Ever since last night, I've been feeling more assertive, calm, relaxed, collected, composed, carefree, confident, cool, courageous, joyful, light, smooth and happy. The types of thoughts that usually bother me and arouse physical, mental and emotional stress have no effect on me. Even when bringing up negative events from my past, I no longer feel any negativity associated with many of the events.

I'll admit, all this positivity snuck up on me. For a while last night, I actually felt a huge sense of perpetual bliss. I never realized until last night and this morning, how even something like typing on my keyboard at work triggered subtle stress within me, and now....nothing. On the way to work, there was a woman with her boyfriend who stared at me, when I met her gaze, she held for a couple seconds and then looked away smiling. I chuckled a little and even smiled for about a minute afterward. Looks from women today are abundant to say the least, and I'm staring right back at them. I'm guessing because of my breakthrough, I'm emitting all the auras at a whole new level.

My self-control has also seemed to have reached a new level, all of this before stage 6 too. One more month of AM6 to go, at least with the core programming, then I'll be doing the refresher stage for at least one month, even though my original plan was three months. I'll be evaluating where I'm at by the end of the first 32 days of stage 7.

(04-25-2018, 04:14 AM)DavisMind91 Wrote: Stage 6, Day 5:

- Felt frustration with the people around me due to realizing that they don’t truly want to change their circumstances, they just want to bitch all day. Even when they’re given advice on how to progress by someone who has what they want, they just nod their heads and move on still complaining. I’ve simply decided to stop offering advice to those that don’t ask for it and even then I’ll be volunteering as little info as possible to see if that person actually puts the advice into action to avoid wasting my time.

- Right after that decision I felt a sudden urge to become argumentative. I just have to keep reminding myself that arguing gets people nowhere since they’ll believe what they want to, mainly defend what they’re either familiar or comfortable with.