Starting a journal for 3.3. I will only post events that I think are TID before I start the actual run.
So far..
-Been on DMSI for about 5 months (late February). This is my first sub I have used for more than a week (I only used subs on youtube before this)
-People showing me much more respect, with some people showing fear due to my perceived status. Girls getting awkward but attracted around me like they dont know what to do or say.
-Much easier to hook up with girls in social circles or girls that are mutual friends.
-Have not been approached for sex but have gotten a lot more IOIs from the kind of girls Id try play it cool with.
Some things Ive noticed externally:
-Girls seem to like me beyond just pure lust- I could have and have got that without DMSI (with some girls). Now, a girl showing me just pure lust is one of the 'lesser IOIs'
-Babies in prams have stopped crying when Im in their line of sight
-Random cats have come and stroked against me
-People go out their way to please me.
-People more willing to support me in my business endeavours
-Better relationship with family
-Have not watched porn since I started. I fap once a week or so (its the dreams I get, theyre too much to hold in and feel too real. lol)
-Some People are jealous but try hide it
These are just a few things I have noticed but there's a lot more. The world just seems different. People actually want the best for me as compared to before when people didn't care as much.
Things I have noticed internally:
-Loss of anger and insecurity
-Attraction and removal of fear regarding the 'darker' things in life
-Loss of interest in a lot of things other people care about
-Strong alignment with my purpose outside of sex/girls
-Non reactive to most things.
-Willingness and actual increased control of my own thought process. Realizing some of my thoughts are not my own and rejecting thoughts and feelings I don't like
-Less judgemental/care regarding anything outside my 'purpose'
-More confidence and motivation regarding my purpose. Almost like I should dedicate 100% of my life to it with only girls being something that I enjoy while being dedicated to the purpose.
Dreams:
-When first staring, Id have dreams of killing armies of zombies.
-This then changed to me being a demon, saving myself (in another body) and breaking myself out of prison. I had 2 bodies, one I was controlling, one I wasnt.
-Now, most my dreams are of me having sex, girls trying to convince me to stay with them, 3 somes etc.
-I have also got book recommendations in my dreams.
-Have got 'warnings' telling me that certain guy friends are gay and i should keep a distance as they might try something. lol wtf
Some things I noticed that might need to be changed:
-Sometimes, I think that people near me can take in my aura and project it as their own.
-The outside effects (though much more than 3.1) are not as consistent as I would like it to be
-Might need a stronger sniping module. I have felt energy sometimes when I snipe, but most of the time, I don't and I am not sure who I am sniping. But when I do know who I'm sniping, Im never wrong.
-Stronger nofap module (no fapping to imagination)
-Girls(strangers) seem to show me less IOIs when Im with other people as opposed when Im by myself. IDK if this can be worked on.
No blatant TIDs to report but thought I'd update.
Seems like there is a baseline level that I always execute to no matter what. Basically, Im always one of the hotter people around, and the more I'm around someone, the more they feel the aura.
Few things I realized:
I feel jealousy/anger when a girl gives me signals, but then her attention goes to someone else in the same way. But when I let myself feel the anger and non-verbally express the anger, even to myself, I seem to execute better. I'd prefer not having to go through this process
Today, when I was only executing at the baseline level, I was thinking about how every animal/plant/insect/fish (that aren't living under humans) has to live constantly around death of either their own species or of a different species.
I realized that there is a part of us which is subconsciously attracted to danger and death. I started getting thoughts that when I die, I don't want to die normal and old, I want to die a 'beautiful death', the kind that would take you to 'Valhalla'. Keep in mind, this personal philosophy will only be attractive to someone whose personal philosophy of life after death loosely resembles mine. I believe when you die, you go into a reality that is most resonant to the energy/vibration of your subconscious/unconscious.
Most people are fearful of death and so at the end of their lives, the fear consumes them, hence making them weak. Not me. I wanna look death in the eye and laugh as I die. I wanna f*** lady death.
Executed like crazy right after this realization.
I like that death point. Sounds like the philosophy GG Allin had about death.
(08-23-2018, 05:04 PM)kingpill Wrote: [ -> ]No blatant TIDs to report but thought I'd update.
Seems like there is a baseline level that I always execute to no matter what. Basically, Im always one of the hotter people around, and the more I'm around someone, the more they feel the aura.
Few things I realized:
I feel jealousy/anger when a girl gives me signals, but then her attention goes to someone else in the same way. But when I let myself feel the anger and non-verbally express the anger, even to myself, I seem to execute better. I'd prefer not having to go through this process
Today, when I was only executing at the baseline level, I was thinking about how every animal/plant/insect/fish (that aren't living under humans) has to live constantly around death of either their own species or of a different species.
I realized that there is a part of us which is subconsciously attracted to danger and death. I started getting thoughts that when I die, I don't want to die normal and old, I want to die a 'beautiful death', the kind that would take you to 'Valhalla'. Keep in mind, this personal philosophy will only be attractive to someone whose personal philosophy of life after death loosely resembles mine. I believe when you die, you go into a reality that is most resonant to the energy/vibration of your subconscious/unconscious.
Most people are fearful of death and so at the end of their lives, the fear consumes them, hence making them weak. Not me. I wanna look death in the eye and laugh as I die. I wanna f*** lady death.
Executed like crazy right after this realization.
I've noticed the EXACT same thing. V3.2 generates/generated a lot of fear in me. My anxiety would ratchet up. I found that most of the fear in my life centered around death. I would sometimes visualizes myself holding lady death's hand and looking her in the eyes and saying "I'm not afraid of you". By releasing this fear of death I also found it easier to execute DMSI.
I believe the reason for this is because part of the subconscious for some people equates losing/relinquishing control to DMSI as dying. Almost EVERY person is wired to avoid death and survive but I believe that people who are "resistant" have this subconscious "survival program" running in overdrive. The reality is that death is unavoidable and a necessary step that all of us will eventually take. When the subconscious realizes this and begins treating death as something natural it relaxes so to speak and this is when DMSI is able to work its magic because the instructions are no longer seen as a threat.
I reserve the right for my opinion to be totally wrong!
I am starting to see 3.3 everywhere... It's coming, It's coming for us
(08-23-2018, 08:44 PM)K-Train Wrote: [ -> ] (08-23-2018, 05:04 PM)kingpill Wrote: [ -> ]-SNIP
Most people are fearful of death and so at the end of their lives, the fear consumes them, hence making them weak. Not me. I wanna look death in the eye and laugh as I die. I wanna f*** lady death.
Executed like crazy right after this realization.
I've noticed the EXACT same thing. V3.2 generates/generated a lot of fear in me. My anxiety would ratchet up. I found that most of the fear in my life centered around death. I would sometimes visualizes myself holding lady death's hand and looking her in the eyes and saying "I'm not afraid of you". By releasing this fear of death I also found it easier to execute DMSI.
I believe the reason for this is because part of the subconscious for some people equates losing/relinquishing control to DMSI as dying. Almost EVERY person is wired to avoid death and survive but I believe that people who are "resistant" have this subconscious "survival program" running in overdrive. The reality is that death is unavoidable and a necessary step that all of us will eventually take. When the subconscious realizes this and begins treating death as something natural it relaxes so to speak and this is when DMSI is able to work its magic because the instructions are no longer seen as a threat.
I reserve the right for my opinion to be totally wrong!
Shannon in regards to this post from Kingpill's journal, does Key #1 or Key #2 address the subconscious identifying the relinquishing of control/compliance to DMSI's instrunctions with death? As someone who has had issues with "being told what to do" I can most certainly attest to sometimes equating "loss of control" with dying. My results with DMSI improved drastically when this was overcome and I believe it may hold an important key to improving the results for others.
Also sidebar question: Do you think that US/LM is having a positive benefit on your progress with DMSI? If yes could you please continue running it for the next year so we get more kickass subs? Thanks!
Well, the fears that DMSI touches upon tend to be survival-based, and - thus - obviously related to death, because one of the most essential functions of survival mechanisms is the avoidance of danger and death, heh.
I think that some of the stuff that's been added to, say, UM/OP does result in an improved ability to bypass that. I mean, heck, CatMan's executing the darn thing.
BTW. I think I had a dream regarding the 3 keys to bypassing resistance Shannon's been talking about. I do not remember it exactly, but I do remember them being mentioned in some way in that dream.
(08-24-2018, 07:06 AM)K-Train Wrote: [ -> ] (08-23-2018, 08:44 PM)K-Train Wrote: [ -> ] (08-23-2018, 05:04 PM)kingpill Wrote: [ -> ]-SNIP
Most people are fearful of death and so at the end of their lives, the fear consumes them, hence making them weak. Not me. I wanna look death in the eye and laugh as I die. I wanna f*** lady death.
Executed like crazy right after this realization.
I've noticed the EXACT same thing. V3.2 generates/generated a lot of fear in me. My anxiety would ratchet up. I found that most of the fear in my life centered around death. I would sometimes visualizes myself holding lady death's hand and looking her in the eyes and saying "I'm not afraid of you". By releasing this fear of death I also found it easier to execute DMSI.
I believe the reason for this is because part of the subconscious for some people equates losing/relinquishing control to DMSI as dying. Almost EVERY person is wired to avoid death and survive but I believe that people who are "resistant" have this subconscious "survival program" running in overdrive. The reality is that death is unavoidable and a necessary step that all of us will eventually take. When the subconscious realizes this and begins treating death as something natural it relaxes so to speak and this is when DMSI is able to work its magic because the instructions are no longer seen as a threat.
I reserve the right for my opinion to be totally wrong!
Shannon in regards to this post from Kingpill's journal, does Key #1 or Key #2 address the subconscious identifying the relinquishing of control/compliance to DMSI's instrunctions with death? As someone who has had issues with "being told what to do" I can most certainly attest to sometimes equating "loss of control" with dying. My results with DMSI improved drastically when this was overcome and I believe it may hold an important key to improving the results for others.
Also sidebar question: Do you think that US/LM is having a positive benefit on your progress with DMSI? If yes could you please continue running it for the next year so we get more kickass subs? Thanks!
I think a good way to do this would be to tell the subconscious to relate death to a 'positive transformation' if we 'allow death' or 'let go/surrender' to DMSI (if this is not done already of course).
Few ways I am resisting and the kind of thoughts that I can consciously gather when I do so:
Losing energy and thinking the girl(s) not worth it. Thoughts like 'what's the point?', 'I cant be bothered' etc. Even having thoughts that the whole gender isn't worth it.
A clever way my subconscious might be avoiding execution is by being way more interested in girls that are taken and/or are with their SOs. My body heats up around girls that are taken more than ones that are not (even if both are equally attractive).
Maybe my subconscious knows it is less likely to hit design goals if it only goes for 'taken' girls.
This has ramped up my jealous side to a whole different level. In the past, I have been notoriously un-jelous, but now, it seems like Im jealous of every guy with a half decent girl. Funnily enough, just as I thought of this, I walked past a building with a huge sign saying 'Jealous'. lol.
Parts of my subconscious also still at times holds on to the 'Madonna/Wh***' complex which arouses anger and I know for a fact this is stopping execution. I don't want this here as it will get me less girls.
However with all this in mind, there is still a base line execution happening (though this fluctuates depending on what kind of thought I have in my mind). For example,when on a crowded train, while I was thinking about something in anger, I wasn't executing as much. Then as soon as I thought 'F**k that, Im starting my business soon', I immediately executed. I know so because the two people immediately in front of me looked like they physically got hit by a wave that made them feel good. The guy immediately smiled at me, the woman let out a big breath and looked like she started to relax.
My question is: Is it possible to somehow execute to that level or better without having to watch our own thoughts as much? Sometimes, we don't know that we are pondering on some negative thoughts until we catch ourselves doing so. Will we be able to execute regardless of this in the future?
Hopefully this is of use to Shannon for 3.3.
(08-23-2018, 06:28 PM)Darkness Wrote: [ -> ]I like that death point. Sounds like the philosophy GG Allin had about death.
Thats interesting, didn't know that. Might have to check out more of his philosophies to see if there is anything I can learn.
(08-23-2018, 10:36 PM)Zane Wrote: [ -> ]I am starting to see 3.3 everywhere... It's coming, It's coming for us
Haha I see it too!
This talk of death is really interesting. Couple of times on my 3.2 run I had it, only to "release" and fully "let it in". When im walking on the streets tho, there are times im feeling stiffled, and get in my head so to say. Its almost like night and dsy like my subc says "oh hell no" depending on the "danger levels" ny subc perceives as.
Point is, when this stiffledness passes, or meets a point of "collapse" im on a totally new level. Even to the point im wondering about immortality and being an otherworldly being.
Makes me wonder how far we can push this sub and bend reality.
"I dont wanna die" popped up just now. Neat.
(08-24-2018, 09:10 AM)Kol Wrote: [ -> ]This talk of death is really interesting. Couple of times on my 3.2 run I had it, only to "release" and fully "let it in". When im walking on the streets tho, there are times im feeling stiffled, and get in my head so to say. Its almost like night and dsy like my subc says "oh hell no" depending on the "danger levels" ny subc perceives as.
Point is, when this stiffledness passes, or meets a point of "collapse" im on a totally new level. Even to the point im wondering about immortality and being an otherworldly being.
Makes me wonder how far we can push this sub and bend reality.
"I dont wanna die" popped up just now. Neat.
I totally get you, I feel untouchable, like nobody can f**k with me and I can do anything.
This reminds me of another resistance and possible cause of it.
Parts of my subconscious can only fathom the 'men must hunt' scenario and nothing else. This has led me to see dreams which seems to be clear a few things but I don't think it has fully cleared by this version yet. Let me explain:
I had a dream that a group of people including myself were being hunted by 'normal society' special forces. Seemed we were 'different' in some way. We were all cornered and told to give ourselves up. Some gave up and went to join the 'normal' people. Others like myself didn't and started escaping. I was escaping by myself, when suddenly, I turned into a demon that could jump few hundred feet at a time. Though I was more powerful, I was now hunted even more vigorously than before.
What I interpreted:
Part of subconscious thinks that 'being hunted' can only mean 'danger'. It cannot fathom that someone pursuing me could lead to something good, and that if someone is pursuing me, it must mean they are trying to harm me.
In the beginning, as I started executing and being "hunted", that part of my subC sensed danger. In reality, the 'hunting for me' really is people finding me more attractive and so coming towards me.
The people who gave up and joined 'normal society' seems to me like the people who gave up on DMSI
Therefore I escaped to avoid execution. However, because I was still listening to DMSI while essentially 'running away' (feeling lethargic, using resistance tactics I mentioned in a previous post) I became more powerful (transformed into a demon) but this led to me being hunted more vigorously than before(girls liking me more), which in turn made me even more avoidant of the 'hunter'(getting even more lethargic, etc).
Parts of our subconscious (especially who live/ grew up in rougher neighbourhoods or people grew up being bullied/still getting bullied etc), I believe, would take any form of being hunted as a sense of danger.
I hope this helps.
Yes definitely. To throw in my 2 cents, lately, im feeling very much engaged with hunting. Perhaps not "men must hunt" but definitely an craving to hunt, like fullblown instinctual with a huge smirk on my face. Akin to world domination and wanting to "rip the world to shreds" its all incredibly primal and almost animalistic. ( hence the vampire thingie )
What you say makes sense about the "being pursued not leading to something good" my subc seems to rebel against by throwing up "hopelessness" powerlessness and I recognize now how "in control" is a thing to me.
Each time when I feel I have released it, new thoughts and memories come in aswell feeling it body-wise.
Besides that, im more and more becoming this irresistable eternal stud.
(08-24-2018, 09:51 AM)Kol Wrote: [ -> ]Yes definitely. To throw in my 2 cents, lately, im feeling very much engaged with hunting. Perhaps not "men must hunt" but definitely an craving to hunt, like fullblown instinctual with a huge smirk on my face. Akin to world domination and wanting to "rip the world to shreds" its all incredibly primal and almost animalistic. ( hence the vampire thingie )
What you say makes sense about the "being pursued not leading to something good" my subc seems to rebel against by throwing up "hopelessness" powerlessness and I recognize now how "in control" is a thing to me.
Each time when I feel I have released it, new thoughts and memories come in aswell feeling it body-wise.
Besides that, im more and more becoming this irresistable eternal stud.
Yes, I can definitely relate to that. There's almost 2 'mes'. One near exactly like how you described and one who resists and gets tired and dosent think girls are worth the time but still wants them. lol