(12-10-2018, 04:51 AM)Infinite Wrote: [ -> ]You’re doing really good on this sub. My SO was doing good on just one loop a day, too.
Still have not broken even yet
(12-10-2018, 03:51 PM)Benjamin Wrote: [ -> ]Yes, in the future it's safe to assume in every new version as with DMSI that the loops and secondary ASRB will be different.
I see. I am not familiar with DMSI development. Thanks for letting me know.
Every change I make to the script in 5.5G changes the power level, because everything advances the technology and development. That means that I must calculate the primary ASRB, secondary ASRB and optimal loops per day for each program. Sometimes the subject of the program and the scripting style it requires will also, so always check every title and every version of every title for these pieces of information.
(12-10-2018, 06:54 PM)Shannon Wrote: [ -> ]Every change I make to the script in 5.5G changes the power level, because everything advances the technology and development. That means that I must calculate the primary ASRB, secondary ASRB and optimal loops per day for each program. Sometimes the subject of the program and the scripting style it requires will also, so always check every title and every version of every title for these pieces of information.
Ok. I checked at the time it was 1 loop for most, and 7 loops for some and secondary was 6+2 (different from the initial 8+2), so I thought that was all the changes needed. It did not occur to me there could have been more changes.
In any case all is well, I used v3 for about 1 month on 1 loop.
Last night was rest night
I am resting 2 nights, and last night was the first. This morning was harder to wake too, despite having slept enough hours.
I also had a dream (nightmare?) last night. It was a sex-related dream. It was weird, even though in the dream I did not feel that way.
When I woke up, I had a "reply" to the questions I had been asking myself (not related to the dream). I wrote them down. They seem like a piece of a puzzle and I'm supposed to collect them. The words seem to make sense, yet they don't. Enigmatic.
Oookkkk... I had a dream last night, and just like my last dream, this one is vivid and weird too.
In the dream there was this lady, we seemed close. She was sharing her troubles with me and then, her father died (it seemed like it was an accident). It was a relief for her (her father caused some of her troubles), but at the same time brought her grief (it's her father after all). I shunned the accident area and avoided going to look at the dead person, even though many were curious and went to see anyway.
Somehow, in order to get back home I needed to pass by the area and caught a glimpse of the dead body. It was lying in a C-shape and the head appeared bigger than I would expect and bald.
I'm surprised at how clear the dreams were and I remembered all the details of it. I wonder what it meant...
I feel a little impatient. I feel like I want to switch subs to E2 or Breast or MLS. At the same time I'm feeling excited that 5 loops on USLM is bringing new results. I'm overflowing with enthusiasm...
The husband is argumentative today. Give me a clue guys, I am noticing a pattern in his behavior.
After he has a good session (making love) with me, he behaves out of character. He becomes less patient, and more aggressive. It's as if he had an ego boost and feels angry a lot of the time.
For example:
It's the holiday season and there are discounts offered left right center, so I ask him, do you have anything you want to buy?
I meant that as "if there's anything else, now is a good time with the discounts", but he interprets it as "must you fill up the basket just so you can use the coupons?" and (kinda) stomps off.
Normally, he'll just say "No." and we'll leave it as that. Or he'll open up the computer to take a look. What happened to that appreciation for me?
This is not desirable behaviour from him of course... I am at the receiving end of his aggressiveness and impatience, when he is usually nice and kind and patient. This upsets the harmony of the day.
Why do I have to suffer his behaviour after a good session? He makes me not want to do it as often.
It could be something else is bothering him. It doesn't necessarily have to have anything to do with you.
Maybe see if you can wrangle that out of him. Don't take what's happening personally, and gently probe him to see what's bothering him.
It may also have to do with the sex triggering a release of a lot of testosterone, although I'm guessing, since I don't know if sex triggers that. But those symptoms sound like high test or high andrestenone. Does he shower frequently?
(12-15-2018, 04:35 PM)Quote Wrote: [ -> ]The husband is argumentative today. Give me a clue guys, I am noticing a pattern in his behavior.
After he has a good session (making love) with me, he behaves out of character. He becomes less patient, and more aggressive. It's as if he had an ego boost and feels angry a lot of the time.
For example:
It's the holiday season and there are discounts offered left right center, so I ask him, do you have anything you want to buy?
I meant that as "if there's anything else, now is a good time with the discounts", but he interprets it as "must you fill up the basket just so you can use the coupons?" and (kinda) stomps off.
Normally, he'll just say "No." and we'll leave it as that. Or he'll open up the computer to take a look. What happened to that appreciation for me?
This is not desirable behaviour from him of course... I am at the receiving end of his aggressiveness and impatience, when he is usually nice and kind and patient. This upsets the harmony of the day.
Why do I have to suffer his behaviour after a good session? He makes me not want to do it as often.
It’s pretty rare for us to be in a worse mood after sex. His behavior may be a reaction to the changes you are undergoing with USLM. My wife is doing that, the way she is dealing with me has kind of destabilized, and she doesn’t seem to quite know how to deal with me now. I used to be a lot less assertive in the context of the relationship than I am now. Also I think she’s afraid that I’m going to be “better than her”. You may be getting something similar.
Quote:It could be something else is bothering him. It doesn't necessarily have to have anything to do with you.
Maybe see if you can wrangle that out of him. Don't take what's happening personally, and gently probe him to see what's bothering him.
This was what I thought until the pattern of behavior became clear. It happens some of the time for reasons I don't know of, but it definitely happens after a "better session".
(12-15-2018, 06:34 PM)Shannon Wrote: [ -> ]It may also have to do with the sex triggering a release of a lot of testosterone, although I'm guessing, since I don't know if sex triggers that. But those symptoms sound like high test or high andrestenone. Does he shower frequently?
He showers at least twice a day... More if he does some kind of "sweaty" activity, like sex? He showers more than me, but I am not much of a "sweaty" person.
I noticed that only after sessions that are "better", that he behaves this way. He gets easily irritated. It feels like he's in a trance, an "easily irritated" trance.
Quote:It’s pretty rare for us to be in a worse mood after sex. His behavior may be a reaction to the changes you are undergoing with USLM. My wife is doing that, the way she is dealing with me has kind of destabilized, and she doesn’t seem to quite know how to deal with me now. I used to be a lot less assertive in the context of the relationship than I am now. Also I think she’s afraid that I’m going to be “better than her”. You may be getting something similar.
I do not think it's related to USLM. His pattern of behavior happened before USLM.
I'm not sure if he's in a worse mood. If I look back on it, it might be that his mood is better, but he's more sensitive to the little things that would change that mood, so he gets irritated at the smallest things? Maybe... mood swings? (I'm shocked as I write that. Mood swings always go with menstrual periods)
Could be the increased testosterone then.
(12-16-2018, 06:41 PM)Shannon Wrote: [ -> ]Could be the increased testosterone then.
Thank you Shannon, I will google it.
USLM
I had a dream (socend dream) that was so clear I thought it was real. I had 2 dreams last night.
The first was a child (less than a year old?), who had long flowing hair, had her hair cut off real short by some stranger (without prior permission of the child's parents). I was chasing that stranger down, the child in one arm, and it was an office building.
The second was an expensive pot I wanted to get at the recent coupon sale, but did not because I wasn't convinced that I had a need for it. In the dream, I managed to use the coupon and bought the pot. After that I was thinking of what to cook in it
Well first, something "bad" happened. One of the water pipes burst. Suddenly.
But then few things happened at the same time... things went smoothly and I was glad. I felt fortunate.
Because of the water issue, we discovered more issues and what was supposed to cost $90 escalated to over $300. Fortunately I had enough cash on me. I had enough cash because I won in my past few weekly games. I wouldn't carry that much otherwise.
Because of the water issue, I had to remove everything near the sink area and managed to use the lining paper I bought some weeks back, and I was just wondering when I'll be motivated enough to move everything out to line the bottom.
I had to cut the paper to fit the cabinet, so I roughly measured and cut. It turned out to be too small. But when I unrolled the other half, it FIT. (how did I do that???)
I always wanted to change the kitchen tap. It was my chance. (part of the escalation)
I honestly don't know if I was overcharged. Fortunately my husband did not mind it.
I managed to throw out some things that were sitting white elephants the cabinet as well. It's good to declutter again. My cleaning and packing around the house the last round got arrested after 2-3 days. So glad to see it's back again, even if only for a bit.
It was a beautiful day. But I'm tired as a dog now.
More pimples than usual.
I'm not sure, but maybe FRM is detoxing fear from me? I am having persistent acne breakouts (same spots). It's unusual to me since I haven't had them in a while (years).
The fortunate thing is I came across this gel that seems to ripen them quickly, or I would be so embarrassed to be walking around with pimples that big.
I'm also having them on my scalp, and recently acquired a mouth ulcer (I didn't bite myself). They are taking quite long to go away.