So never before made a journal anywhere, i dont actually type anything out online like this so no idea what im doing or how to type this out really so bear with me and most of this might be confusing jumping from point to point cause i have to write stuff down as soon as it comes otherwise i completely forget about it
So been listening to DMSI since 2.4 now doing 3.2 B 4 loops hybrid trickling stream low volume with headphones
Now i have received looks from girls some very blatant one where she was with her boyfriend or husband and she turned her head completely around while walking forward and stares at me for a good 5 seconds, others where its just quick looks here and there, i have had a two girls brush right up against me at work but i work in a kitchen so that could be just tight space although one of the girls has bent over in front of me repeatedly with a low cut shirt and the other always has her butt pointed in my direction. I have also noticed alot more beautiful women around although i cant get out much as i have epilepsy although its mostly cured now which question for Shannon, could the spot i have on my right temporal lobe that caused the seizures could that affect dmsi? As the right temporal lobe controls nonverbal communication like facial expressions or understanding aspects of nonverbal communication like humor and sadness and also the personality like unable to consider the perspectives of other people, doesn't help ive also had around 4 concussions though could be more ive lost track
As to The Wall im forgetting what its supposed to block i know porn was in there but i am still masturbating to porn although i get angry with myself afterwards.
I also have a job opportunity i can take that will pay me between 6-7 grand a month but ill be out in the middle of nowhere so not sure if DMSI is pushing me towards that to become more financially stable or a self sabotage cause there wont be any women there and if there is its the kind you don't want anywhere within 100 feet of you
I know theres alot more stuff but its 5 in the morning so im pretty tired and going to bed[/align]
One other thing i forgot to mention is i have been radiating heat from chest that spreads to my whole body within seconds, it has happened while i was sitting at home and reading not thinking about any woman and while at work it will start up when a beautiful girl walks in although i work in the back so i dont see her walk in until i go up front and see her.
also did 4 loops ultrasonic through speakers last night, was going to do hybrid through headphones but something kept me putting it off until late at night to do them so just did it through speakers, also had a dream last night first one i can sort of remember in a while, the first part iw as walking through town and kept seeing this girl who kept looking at me and smiling at me whenever she saw me, she was my ideal looking woman, looked a bit like valenti vitell and then dream cut to me lying in bed with my ex who had gained weight and stretch marks all over and i got her to sign a consent form for a dominant relationship then we were about to have sex and woke up.
No idea what the significance of that is or just a weird dream
(06-15-2018, 03:02 AM)Greenhaze Wrote: [ -> ]So never before made a journal anywhere, i dont actually type anything out online like this so no idea what im doing or how to type this out really so bear with me and most of this might be confusing jumping from point to point cause i have to write stuff down as soon as it comes otherwise i completely forget about it
So been listening to DMSI since 2.4 now doing 3.2 B 4 loops hybrid trickling stream low volume with headphones
Now i have received looks from girls some very blatant one where she was with her boyfriend or husband and she turned her head completely around while walking forward and stares at me for a good 5 seconds, others where its just quick looks here and there, i have had a two girls brush right up against me at work but i work in a kitchen so that could be just tight space although one of the girls has bent over in front of me repeatedly with a low cut shirt and the other always has her butt pointed in my direction. I have also noticed alot more beautiful women around although i cant get out much as i have epilepsy although its mostly cured now which question for Shannon, could the spot i have on my right temporal lobe that caused the seizures could that affect dmsi? As the right temporal lobe controls nonverbal communication like facial expressions or understanding aspects of nonverbal communication like humor and sadness and also the personality like unable to consider the perspectives of other people, doesn't help ive also had around 4 concussions though could be more ive lost track
The brain is of course the focus of input/output on the physical level. Damage or abnormality to it may cause alteration of input/output.
It is also possible that DMSI-A may be interpreted in such a way as to trigger healing and regeneration of said damage or irregularities.
I cannot know for sure.
Quote:As to The Wall im forgetting what its supposed to block i know porn was in there but i am still masturbating to porn although i get angry with myself afterwards.
Getting angry at yourself afterwards, how's that working out for you on improving execution instead of hiding behind energy depletion and de-motivation through masturbation to porn? Sounds pretty effective to me. I'm going to presume you seriously don't want to achieve the program goals.
The energy depletion and de-motivation make complete sense to me now as i have a sort of general apathy for everything didn't realize where it was coming from until you said that then everything started clicking in my head, so to stop resisting this switch to side A after B run is done and try to ignore all forms of porn?
Also on another note i did get a double take from a 8.5 asian girl as i was leaving work
(06-16-2018, 01:38 PM)Greenhaze Wrote: [ -> ]The energy depletion and de-motivation make complete sense to me now as i have a sort of general apathy for everything didn't realize where it was coming from until you said that then everything started clicking in my head, so to stop resisting this switch to side A after B run is done and try to ignore all forms of porn?
Also on another note i did get a double take from a 8.5 asian girl as i was leaving work
Well, to stop resisting it, choose to refuse to play along with the parts of you trying to resist. The subconscious parts trying to resist can be thwarted with conscious recognition of and refusal of the resistance tactics.
So... simply choose not to use porn or masturbate.
Doing a swap of A and B every so often is a good idea in most cases.
(06-15-2018, 03:02 AM)Greenhaze Wrote: [ -> ]I have also noticed alot more beautiful women around although i cant get out much as i have epilepsy although its mostly cured now which question for Shannon, could the spot i have on my right temporal lobe that caused the seizures could that affect dmsi? As the right temporal lobe controls nonverbal communication like facial expressions or understanding aspects of nonverbal communication like humor and sadness and also the personality like unable to consider the perspectives of other people, doesn't help ive also had around 4 concussions though could be more ive lost track
Thanks for posting that. I had temporal lobe epilepsy for decades on my right side. Had seizure clusters, which is normal. Meaning I'd have none for 3-4 days, then 2 or 3 in a day or two.
In 2006 I had an operation which removed the scar tissue which triggered seizures (from meningitis during infancy), and it was successful. However, an anesthesiologist's error caused a major stroke, which I recovered from maybe 98%. I was unconscious for almost 2 weeks, had to learn to eat, walk, talk, all over again.
But the brain does compensate. Removing the right temporal lobe meant my brain had to adapt, meaning other parts of my brain had to compensate.
And I share this to let you know: you're not alone. Epilepsy is its own challenge, making precautions for possible seizures in public. My wife and I had a system that worked for us. It was an adjustment for her (post operation) to not be hyper-alert for possible seizures. A major one for her.
But welcome to IML. Shannon's subs work wonders. They're (still) growing me up
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And you asked if the spot on your right temporal lobe affected DMSI. Something I remember being under doctor's supervision and daily meds was the unspoken message that "this damage will affect nearly every area of your life FOREVER". It can promote a learned helplessness.
The right temporal lobe does involve perception. And if damaged, those abilities will migrate to other parts of your brain, meaning your awareness will not suffer. The brain has a powerful ability to adapt and create abilities using its own resources.
That damage, if any, may decrease awareness immediately after to focus on repairing itself, but neurogenesis (the brain renewing itself) is a constant. So, no worries. You have hope. Do some research on neurogenesis, as it's not exposed much; the business of medicine does not profit when we're told we adapt and heal naturally.
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Thanks for posting that. I had temporal lobe epilepsy for decades on my right side. Had seizure clusters, which is normal. Meaning I'd have none for 3-4 days, then 2 or 3 in a day or two.
In 2006 I had an operation which removed the scar tissue which triggered seizures (from meningitis during infancy), and it was successful. However, an anesthesiologist's error caused a major stroke, which I recovered from maybe 98%. I was unconscious for almost 2 weeks, had to learn to eat, walk, talk, all over again.
But the brain does compensate. Removing the right temporal lobe meant my brain had to adapt, meaning other parts of my brain had to compensate.
And I share this to let you know: you're not alone. Epilepsy is its own challenge, making precautions for possible seizures in public. My wife and I had a system that worked for us. It was an adjustment for her (post operation) to not be hyper-alert for possible seizures. A major one for her.
But welcome to IML. Shannon's subs work wonders. They're (still) growing me up
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I'm sorry to hear about that, I thought i was going to have to have surgery as well because i was having a seizure almost every day, none of my pills were working but they finally put me on one that's worked, been seizure free for awhile now but its affected every aspect of my life where i couldn't work so had to move back in with parents but things are starting to look up now which is wonderful.
On DMSI note i installed K9 Web Filter so it blocks all forms of porn so i get no urges to masturbate and also switched to side A last night at 4 loops. also at work i was saying to myself the saying shannon told us about "i now choose to willingly consciously and subconsciously execute all of the script of DMSI 3.2 A/B and i do." something to that effect, as i was saying it i started feeling this energy start from my heart and spread out and then a group of beautiful girls walked in which before i would have said it was coincidence but not this time, so not sure if installing that web filter cleared something along with switched to side a all i know is it was like a block lifted in my mind when the energy started it was almost euphoric is the best word to describe it and then i felt like i could do anything i had no fear, so hopefully this continues and i start executing the script fully.
Quick update while running my 4 loops of A side since i started it tonight ive been burning up actually sweating alot and alot of manifestations today when i went to go get paycheque beautiful women everywhere got a couple stares and one blatant one where i was stopped waiting to turn the corner and she was about 10 feet from me on the sidewalk when she was talking to her friend she just stopped talking and stared until i turned the corner a good 10 seconds later but other than those not much been happening
So since last update ive been doing 7 loops of A side, i did masturbate twice since then but with no porn jut imagination, since upping the loops i have had ioi's of every kind i have had girl stare at me, playing with their hair while biting their lip putting their finger on lip while looking at me, looking back at me with a huge smile while walking with her husband, another girl who was helping someone kept looking at me and smiling completely uninterested in the person she was helping like they didn't exist, i have had girls push their boobs against me when there was more than enough room to walk past me and the manifestations of gorgeous women are off the charts, its insane, i have also had an instant connection would be best way to put it where i lock eyes with a girl and something in my mind just clicks, im just drawn to her, interestingly doesn't happen with the hottest girls either, usually happens with girls who are a 7 and more cute than hot, not sure if the hottest girl would give me more drama and the 7 wouldn't but with all that happening i haven't had a girl actually open me up talking to me dont know if im resisting that part of the script for some reason i cant put my finger on it or if im just not getting enough energy to execute fully not entirely sure
Also completely slipped my mind until right now that most of the time when i see these girls who smile at me or stare at me im usually with family members so that might have something to do with them not opening me up
havent posted anything in awhile i started a new job and i now know dmsi is working almost 100 percent, yesterday had this conversation with a hot girl that worked there, she didnt want to work with anyone else but me, but had this very sexualized conversation for at least 4-5 hours, she was talking about how she likes rough sex and bdsm all sorts of stuff, then she had to go do something else, she kept sending someone to come get me to work with her but the guy couldnt find me.
Interesting thing is i only talked once to this girl which was last week and i just said hello to her that was it, so big change from hello to that conversation, another thing is she did keep touching me repeatedly first time was on my inner thigh when i was kneeling down then on my arms, and she kept having to go on her knees in front of me and when she did she started smiling and winking.
So big massive changes from nothing happening to that, so i think that is most of the bulletin points on the dmsi page for what they will do to attract you, only thing missing is sex repeatedly, and heres the thing i think im a pretty good looking guy in the face although i am overweight a bit and am pretty short so its kind of noticeable,
so for that to happen is quite amazing and hopefully happens alot more when i start going to the gym
So same things happened today as well lots of sexual innuendos, lots of staring at me when she thinks I'm not looking, lots of smiling, winking, ass presentations everything. I am 100 percent sure if were alone we would have had sex, also new girl started today not even 5 seconds of talking to her she was calling me handsome, still don't even know her name
I'm very interested in knowing if you think DMSI or another subliminal has had any effect on your seizures. Some of these programs may potentially trigger healing in ways that could conceivably reduce or prevent seizures, but I have had very little opportunity to explore this, as I don't have testers for the right kind of experiments.
You said you went from having seizures every day to not much, I think I read?
Congrats on executing.