02-21-2018, 05:56 AM
Hi,
I am a 23 yo guy. I am new to subliminals and I got drawn to this place because of the many positive testimonials that many have given. Currently I suffer the following dysfunctional thoughts on a day to day basis for the past 1 year, prior to that I could be called a male with a healthy functioning mind bordering on rational pessimism:
1. 3 parts fear, 1 part courage: If I find something very encouraging to involve myself in, I will be elated at first then be overwhelmed by all sorts of catastrophic thinking associated with it and hence disregard it. I have lost many an opportunity this way.
2. Giving too much importance of what others think about me. I guess I always had this in a measure normally seen in most people but this escalated in the past 1 year to the point that I dread interacting with people. I really need to get the IDGAF attitude back.
3. Intense overthinking about which actions to take because I can’t deal with uncertainty, but I know it is only when you jump in water, you know if you can swim or drown. I have never pictured myself swimming because of the fear of drowning.
4. I have this thought that if anything can go wrong; it will most certainly go wrong for me. I always had this mentality for most of my life but I was able to power through it with sufficient will but for the past several months, I spend most of my hours battling it – and well whatever you resist will persist.
A bit about my background: never had a traumatic childhood, but I can only count 2 instances of childhood bullying vividly, but that must be because I had an idiotically sensitive mind. I can never recollect a memorable event let alone be grateful for anything good that has happened in my life due to never being able to see things from a glass half full perspective. I have never dated and never was interested until now, but I doubt I will be able to do that because of all the negative stuff that occupies my mind space now.
What I would like to instil: (I am a firm believer that only two things are finite and of immeasurable value – time and mind space, and I am getting older and older and running out of time to make proper use of these resources)
1. IDGAF attitude: I want to be led to take actions that were inspired by self-interest and passion which at one point dictated my life.
2. I want my subconscious mind to cooperative with my conscious intentions i.e. if I want to take on actions, both sides of my mind must comply with one another instead of spiraling out of control ending up in a very depressive mood quickly due to combating one another.
3. 3 parts courage, 1 part fear (or maybe no fear): more balls to take action (social, career or general life problems) in spite of having fear.
4. Optimism - be motivated to action by opportunity to succeed rather than fear of stagnation: pretty self-explanatory.
Now I estimate I would probably save up 600 - 800 USD in about 10 months alone from the internship I am currently enrolled in. So given my background details, I would like to know which sub I should start off with in order to instil the above positive beliefs. My idea is to start with EPRHA & ASC (both free versions), but how much will I be missing out on if I don’t get the paid version of EPHRA. A large part of my suffering comes from overthinking (i.e. living inside in my head), which is actually resisting a fearful thought to such an extreme that it loops in my mind without my permission and giving me a general feeling that I am not in control of my mind.
Thanks
I am a 23 yo guy. I am new to subliminals and I got drawn to this place because of the many positive testimonials that many have given. Currently I suffer the following dysfunctional thoughts on a day to day basis for the past 1 year, prior to that I could be called a male with a healthy functioning mind bordering on rational pessimism:
1. 3 parts fear, 1 part courage: If I find something very encouraging to involve myself in, I will be elated at first then be overwhelmed by all sorts of catastrophic thinking associated with it and hence disregard it. I have lost many an opportunity this way.
2. Giving too much importance of what others think about me. I guess I always had this in a measure normally seen in most people but this escalated in the past 1 year to the point that I dread interacting with people. I really need to get the IDGAF attitude back.
3. Intense overthinking about which actions to take because I can’t deal with uncertainty, but I know it is only when you jump in water, you know if you can swim or drown. I have never pictured myself swimming because of the fear of drowning.
4. I have this thought that if anything can go wrong; it will most certainly go wrong for me. I always had this mentality for most of my life but I was able to power through it with sufficient will but for the past several months, I spend most of my hours battling it – and well whatever you resist will persist.
A bit about my background: never had a traumatic childhood, but I can only count 2 instances of childhood bullying vividly, but that must be because I had an idiotically sensitive mind. I can never recollect a memorable event let alone be grateful for anything good that has happened in my life due to never being able to see things from a glass half full perspective. I have never dated and never was interested until now, but I doubt I will be able to do that because of all the negative stuff that occupies my mind space now.
What I would like to instil: (I am a firm believer that only two things are finite and of immeasurable value – time and mind space, and I am getting older and older and running out of time to make proper use of these resources)
1. IDGAF attitude: I want to be led to take actions that were inspired by self-interest and passion which at one point dictated my life.
2. I want my subconscious mind to cooperative with my conscious intentions i.e. if I want to take on actions, both sides of my mind must comply with one another instead of spiraling out of control ending up in a very depressive mood quickly due to combating one another.
3. 3 parts courage, 1 part fear (or maybe no fear): more balls to take action (social, career or general life problems) in spite of having fear.
4. Optimism - be motivated to action by opportunity to succeed rather than fear of stagnation: pretty self-explanatory.
Now I estimate I would probably save up 600 - 800 USD in about 10 months alone from the internship I am currently enrolled in. So given my background details, I would like to know which sub I should start off with in order to instil the above positive beliefs. My idea is to start with EPRHA & ASC (both free versions), but how much will I be missing out on if I don’t get the paid version of EPHRA. A large part of my suffering comes from overthinking (i.e. living inside in my head), which is actually resisting a fearful thought to such an extreme that it loops in my mind without my permission and giving me a general feeling that I am not in control of my mind.
Thanks