Sex was good with girlfriend ( she lives in a nearby country i see her only once every two months). I thought I’d c***m too soon because of two weeks not fapping.but it was not the case. She complimented me on the energy in bed.but that is not new really. The first sign of an external result happened yesterday. Went to a burger place with girlfriend. In front of me was a blond girl (she must be 20 something). She was sitting there with her parents.at first i didn’t notice her but after I finished eating I noticed she was hypnotised,or may be the right word is mesmerised.she could not move her eyes off me.it was awkward because in front of me sat my girlfriend and she was sitting with her parents. Imagine if it was just me and her. As she was going away she kept looking,pure charm. I noticed personally i am firing aura after eating,a sort of pope who needs his spinach
I continue to wake up Autopilot before my alarm goes off and feel fit.only later in the evening I get bit tired. I am literally texting 4girls i got from tinder and they are all warming up.it is likely i see them all this week. The girl i snipped on Dmsi 1.2 is getting wild sending me half nudes. She told me yesterday that her mom told her that a good woman is someone who takes care of her man in life and is a real wohre for him in bed!!!!! She said she agrees with her mom!!!
I am calm and gathering momentum.i feel it is gonna be massive this time....
Just now I got approached by an Asian gay at work.
I know i am being very sexy when gays start to gravitate to me. I dont mind the attention but I cut it short. I am going on my second date with C from tinder. Today she has to warm up enough for me not to lose my interest. We will see
Girls that are just average no longer belong to my league. I will now no longer date an average girl. c for example yesterday was very warming up but still i shall disapoint her that I cannot meet her again. I have been playing in amateur regional league, to borrow a sport term,now it is really time for champions league. I can’t waist my time and energy on less. I will be watching over the hot ones which will fall my way anyways. I know that! I know they fall in my aura.it is contagious.
I think Shannon mentioned a Module that helps redifine what sexy and hot is.
This module is working for me along with massive self-esteem.
No fap and no porn for over three weeks now. I see a clear light ahead of me of becoming extremely attractive and sexy and I am getting to that light with every new loop.
Nothing seriously new to report.i was sharp-tempered and angry yesterday.very angry at a manipulative gester from one of the secretaries.i was so mad but then I calmed down.
I run my loop three hours ago and I feel i am radiating the aura.i know exactly where it comes from,right on the upper part of my cheek bones. It is cold but I feel very warm in my face.
I am bit horny but it doesn’t even occur to me to fap or watch porn.it is like i have absolutely no need to do that,no pleasure in that really.
The girl I snipped booked in a Hotel in my city and we are meeting tomorrow afternoon and it is time to see what it looks like in bed.she sent me nudes yesterday and told me literally she is going to be my slave!!!!
We will see how it goes tomorrow. Other that I am having less guilt and anxiety. These are my two big enemies for full execution. In this run,i know when I am resisting and when I am executing fully or partially. The sub has become transparent to me.i know it,it knows me.
I noticed also I am typing better. Normally I am terrible at that.
I get nodges to be productive,so I am learning Spanish and Russian for my work and it is fun.
The night with the Milf H at the hotel was good. Although I didn’t fap for almost four weeks, I lasted long enough and I noticed also I was dominant like never before.she was quite submissive.
I also noticed I had zero anxiety. I feel i have way less anxiety generally and it permeated now to bed.
The milf told me I am cocky and she kept complimenting me. I was having the DGF attitude all the way.
I find myself reading biographies of Casanova almost autopilot and I have an urge to read a lot.
I am slowly getting it how to kill my neediness because when I do I am unstoppable.
There is a change in how I think I have to approach women,and it goes like this:dont do a thing,just be,just let myself be and they will fall.doing something in my case is just not congruent with what I basically am. I am not talking here about approaching or not approaching girls. I am talking about a general mindset.the mindset that I am hot and they ve gotta do something about it.
It is gonna be abundance and more abundance.
I drive back on the train home right now. I ran my loop just before my date with milf YV.
Honestly I didn’t feel the effects of DMSI in terms of Aura during the date. However,the mindset I was going with,the self esteem,confidence and positive thinking was the decisive in how things turned in the end. This is the third Milf in a few weeks now who are attracted to my confidence and not giving a f***.
No fap and no porn provide me with raw energy and horny state that make it easy to draw the women to sex.
The date went very good and in the end the milf started complimenting me and she writes me now texts to inquire how I arrived. To put a long story short,i have gathered a lot of momentum and so much courage.
I feel like either i win or I win. There is no loss,I can’t lose now.it is all good. Two more dates this week all just from tinder. Ido not even bother to approach anymore. I feel it in my bones I will soon start to be directly approached.
Taking up Russian at the moment.it is much fun.
The most amazing thing though is not women or dates or anything else. It is this feeling that All anxiety,whether in daily life in bed or at work, all slowly but surely vanishing from my life.
I need to add this the Milf is taller than me.her legs are huge but I wasn’t bothered by that.
Faced again with a family situation that left me very very anxious two years ago. This time I am way calmer and way less anxious. To give Dmsi its due, and not just this Version, I have radically changed and it is only situations like these that show me how radically changed I am.
I get looks of pretty women here and there but they are by now not a big deal. I am surging through my path and I am getting all i want.
Cancelling dates with women i dont think anymore that they are in my league. Lowered age for me on tinder because the young ones now are welcome.
Put Deezer on my phone for the first time in my life and enjoying music a lot.
Cooking healthy every time I am free ands enjoy very bit of it. I am learning more stuff for an international cuisine. Soon I will have a lot to offer in the kitchen and beyond.
Negatived: i am withdrawing from social life a bit the last days.
I also just want to sleep. I can sleep endlessly these days. Still productive though. I enjoy my work and try my best to brush up my spanish and Russian.
As you can see as soon as i start to talk about negatives the positives pop up. That is why I say It is all good.
I dont want to talk now about fap and porn. They are no longer in my dictionary. But chapeau to all of you who are abstaining from that. I am finding it easier because I have sex in between.
Arranging two dates for next week. And I will cancel on one date. I am upgrading my flights!
Thinking of a new haircut now and may go back to my dandy style soon. I usually keep that for the summer.
Nice clothes on plus the seductive smile Dmsi gave me, can be irresistible!
I feel there are things changing in my face but I can’t tell what exactly. My face is constantly warm,all the time. It is like it glows most of the time!
I had my break yesterday. I was feeling a bit of depression and even my colleagues felt it and told me so. I am more commanding at work and show leadership traits.
I woke up this morning crying deep deep for no obvious conscious reasons.it
Yesterday I had also some anger surfacing and it is often the same situation I am reminded of.
Strong urge to read a lot.even after 8 hours of work I drove to cafe and was reading a book on mastery.
I also did my languages exercises.
The date with N will be postponed after Easter.she is keen on meeting me and I have a feeling this is going to be another rose to smell.she looks great and it would be a major upgrade on the quality of women I meet.
Porn and fap are irrelevant in my life. Not me.
My anxiety levels are the lowest ever. I handeled a family situation that was causing lot of anxiety before with a lot of calm and serenity.
Urge to support fellows here on the forum when I see that they are trying to derail themselves but no need to argue or discuss. Just add some positive value, take it or leave it. All positive.
Sleep very deep and wake up just before my alarm goes off.
Unusual increase in tinder matches and girls hinting they want to meet. „I am free after easter“ „I finish work at six....“ ect
One of them was playing it cold, but she wrote me today, out of the blue, do you know some good cafe or bar in town!!!!
This is coupled with fierce self-confidence. If I meet anyone of them, there is no way it could go down.
Too confident too calm and smooth to let any possibility go by
I only understand now what happened to me yesterday. My colleague at work told me „light „ you look sad and you hardly talk today. I felt a bit unwell,too. I went to bed when I woke up I was literally sobbing for no f*** reason!!!
It must have been some deep stuff being worked on and released today. I feel great today and moments of bliss and happiness are back.
Easter week and the few days after it was a week and half of some heavy resistance. I had feelings of guilt. Guilt that I am with several women at the same time and that made me feel down. I was feeling down on some days and a bit anxious. I was so tired on other days and tired here is an understatement. I was like hit by a truck. I could not move from bed for several hours. It was not a good time for me.
I am sure I was fighting something in the script big time.
Since yesterday I am beginning to emerge from this cycle.
The good news is I remained solid. I haven’t tried A and won’t do it. I want my ass right against the wall and fight through. I feel this is my Version and I will stick to it no matter what it takes.
I haven’t fapped since Dmsi 2.b emerged and I have a strong sexual energy right now that helps me in my several tinder dates.
A propos dates, I had one with A that I snapped from tinder. She is not hot but she has probably one of the best breasts I have seen. She came with a tshirt showing the ampelness despite unsuitable weather. I remained solid and was not feeling needy. It is a weird feeling I am horney but I don’t act in some needy way. I remain restraint. I was touching her a lot and she felt very easy to touch me. Very unusual for some girls on first date. I didn’t try to kiss her because if we meet next time it is inevitable. The attraction is in the air. It is very subtle but deep. She complimented me thanked me for the nice time and we promised to meet again!
Tomorrow I am meeting N for the first time. We matched on tinder we wrote two weeks now and we arranged to meet tomorrow evening. This is a high quality woman. Sweet fragile and beautiful. We will see how it will go.
R is anorher Girl from tinder.she works in politics and represents some important companies. She is so sweet and sexy and she is very keen to meet me but she is busy moving from her apartment to another. We are planning to meet next week drink some coffee together and go to a Museum in my city. We are also planning to cook together. I am looking forward to that beauty just me and her in some kitchen:-)
In the next two weeks there should be realy between two to four dates... I will start to have time problem to fit everyone in.
I am getting nudges to go pursue my doctorate studies or reach higher jobs and Status that fits who I am becoming. I feel it that if I stay with Dmsi I am going to achieve that, I just have to keep at it and not derail myself.
Something else, my back pain disappeared again in the last two days and it is a sign for me that I am walking better.
I seem to have gained volume in my chest but I don’t go to the gym at all. This sounds weid but there is really something going on in my chest. It looks larger or probably it just looks so.
That is all for now
I will come back to report about my date with N tomorrow.
Final thought I am getting more and more away from media news social media and the like. Only a bit of Facebook but I don’t even care enough to read what is in my inbox
Edit: I have a hunch beautiful N is a manifestation. It is the same pattern I have with two orhers I snipped before. They are sweet fragile , sexy and they come to you effortlessly. If it is the case, N is going to be a really good catch
Edit: in the last sentence I meant R not N?The one into politics
I had two dates today. One spontaneously with R who wrote and wanted to meet shortly for a coffee. The date went terrible for me,in my own analysis.there was no sexual tension and just random talk.The main reason for that was that I felt turned off be cause the girl on tinder looked differently than in real life. I was not happy about that. Still i was not in my head. The most positive thing was, I knew it was not going well but I didn’t give a F*** or tried to do anything about it. I had to leave after 40 minutes hugged her goodbye and went away. As usual after a bad date I delete the number from my phone. I deleted her number not because I am frustrated but because I know it is not going anywhere. And I was pretty sure she was feeling the same.
Three ours later she wrote me a message that she enjoyed the date and asked me when are we meeting again to go to a Museum. Sometimes I don’t understand stuff like this!!!!!!
I went later to my second date today. The girl is okay but again not what I expected. I had a coffee with her told her about my passions and things I do and all in all it was not bad. But I am not sure i want to see her again.
I would be more interested in meeting now A with the awesome breast. We are chatting on WhatsApp and she is really interested
Overall, I think Dmsi is doing its work but not in terms of aura, rather changing my mindset and mending the cracks in my seduction tactics.
I noticed a lot of IOIs today and the two girls I dated must have had some of my attractiveness. This i will know only later. Usually girls will admit their attraction on first day only after I fu** them.
I am very calm, less anxious. Still tired but not as much.
Whatever suggestions I am fighting in the script ( the reason why I feel tired) is being slowly cleared up.
No urge to fap or watch porn. These things seems to me now like some habits I have absolutely outgrown. They make no sense to me, anymore.
There are some more dates coming up this weekend and next week. This is sharpening my experience about women in particular and about life and success generally
I forgot to mention something yesterday. I was really radiating some aura yesterday pretty big time.
I noticed that specially in the supermarket near my house. I went there to buy some stuff and saw the girl I was always watching all the time when I go there. She has an ass that only Monet can draw.Before, she was very cold to me and never looked at me. Yesterday she beamed into a big smile when she saw me. It was a very submissive and sexual smile.
She was definitely hit by my Aura.
Had sex with a girlfriend. I c*** quick two times. It was expected because I have not fapped for over a month now (since Dmsi B). I was relaxed about it and made her c** too.
I will not fap until I have real sex.it does me good. I have a alot of energy to channel to other things.planning to meet up with A next week in her town. I think resistance is slowly over and I am finding again my calmness and anxiety-free life. I will stick to this damn sub no matter what and how long it takes.
I am dressed to kill today. Few IOIs have become the norm. It is going to be better.