3.2B has been pushing me hard into YouTube motivational videos. Never before have I felt such a strong pull towards them and have never before watched them with any consistency or regularity. After watching them I feel energized and much more motivated at work, to workout and to cut porn out of my life. I haven't necessarily felt a pull to cease masturbation but porn has begun to feel unappealing to me for the first time in my life. It's very interesting how 3.2B is finding a way to achieve it's goals even if very indirectly. I'm not feeling the need to give up masturbation but I think I will give up porn.
Day 10 of 3.2A
A has been odd. I have been happy and very motivated at work but my libido has been very low unlike on B. I have not desired to masturbate but also no desire get laid either. Hopefully my aggression and libido comes back on A.
Day 14 3.2A:
Today I got to thinking about the last six weeks of 3.2 B then A and the one thing that kept standing out to me is I experienced more and stronger results with 3.1. I'm not saying I'm not getting results with 3.2 but it just doesn't feel as strong as 3.1. I don't really feel resistance or anything negative either just not much of anything but a small uptick in the subs goals. Same ultrasonic flac during sleep with JBL speakers used for both 3.1+3.2
IDuring my nearly 7 weeks of 3.2A I haven't journaled much simply because there has been little to nothing DMSI related to report. I have experienced a decrease in masturbation but very little increase in any female attraction towards me. I experienced significantly more sexual attraction from females in all other versions of DMSI.
Things were not all bad though. 3.2A has felt more like LTU to me. My personal and business life is more organized, less masturbation, completed several work related courses, cut television out of my life and read 5 novels. Maybe all this is an avoidance of sex, I really have no idea but it has been good. It may be resistance but I find that odd since I have had sex with about 50 different women and have no conscious sexual hangups (not saying that's a lot of women, just making the point I'm far from a virgin).
At any rate I'm switching back to 3.2B to see what happens. Last night was my break day so tonight I will return to B side.
Satisfaction from both masturbation and sex has been way down. I get it on the masturbation side since Shannon put in place the anti-masturbation scripting. The problem is for me, desire for sex has decreased directly proportionally to masturbation. The first time I ran 3.2 B my libido went way up. Then with A it dropped below normal and now going back to B it has dropped so far I have no desire for sex or masturbation.
It's called "Flatline".. Its a NoFap concept.. read about it. It's only Temporary. Nothing to worry about, the desire for sex will be back. I am going thru same,so no worries. All healing process
DMSI is pretty much speeding up the healing process which would normally take months..
(05-29-2018, 02:04 PM)Zane Wrote: [ -> ]It's called "Flatline".. Its a NoFap concept.. read about it. It's only Temporary. Nothing to worry about the desire for sex will be back. I am going thru same,so no worries. All healing process
DDMSI is pretty much speeding up the healing process while would normally take months..
Thanks for the info. That's a new term for me and sounds like what is likely going on. Prior to 3.2 I used to edge a lot. I also had a healthy sex life so never thought it to be a problem. Now that I am no longer edging I am beginning to see how much it actually effected me negatively.
(05-29-2018, 03:52 PM)JakeKennedy Wrote: [ -> ] (05-29-2018, 02:04 PM)Zane Wrote: [ -> ]It's called "Flatline".. Its a NoFap concept.. read about it. It's only Temporary. Nothing to worry about the desire for sex will be back. I am going thru same,so no worries. All healing process
DDMSI is pretty much speeding up the healing process while would normally take months..
Thanks for the info. That's a new term for me and sounds like what is likely going on. Prior to 3.2 I used to edge a lot. I also had a healthy sex life so never thought it to be a problem. Now that I am no longer edging I am beginning to see how much it actually effected me negatively.
Can you talk more about how it affected you negatively?
Thanks!
Couple things I should mention about 3.2 I haven't:
Since running 3.2B the second time I have been doing 4 loops since Shannon lifted the loop number restrictions and have been getting more attraction from females. Not as much as 3.1 yet but much more than I previously was getting with 3.2 (which was zero).
My girlfriend has listened to approximately 75% of all the 3.2 I have listened to. This is because I listen to ultrasonic during sleep and she has slept with me about this much. She claims she has experienced zero results positive or negative. But she is also a 100% non-believer of subs. Especially ultrasonic.
Tonight is my off night for 3.2B. I think I will go back to A Tuesday night. I haven't really executed the script much with either so I figure I might as well have the HC going for me. I will be doing 4 loops for A as I have for B.
Just got a ridiculous tit display from gf's sister. She leaned over right in front of me to pick something up and then started talking to me but remaind bent over the entire time we talked so I could see everything except nipples. We were the only ones in the room.
(06-06-2018, 11:41 AM)JakeKennedy Wrote: [ -> ]I could see everything except nipples.
She knew that u could imagine those.
(06-06-2018, 12:10 PM)Zane Wrote: [ -> ] (06-06-2018, 11:41 AM)JakeKennedy Wrote: [ -> ]I could see everything except nipples.
She knew that u could imagine those.
Hahaha. Yeah it was a nice view.
Last weekend my GF and I attended one of her co-workers weddings. The three hottest women then other than my GF all initiated small talk with me at different points during the reception. I didnt previously know any of them well. Just well enough to say hi. Two of the three are married and the other lives with her boyfriend. All three times within five minutes of the woman initiating conversations with me their boyfriend's/husband's came straight over to break up the conversation. Even though the interactions didn't go far I feel like they were all 3 dmsi manifestations. So finally I am at least partially executing 3.2.
Tonight is my break night. I am debating moving up from 4 to 5 loops but haven't decided yet. On one hand I am starting to get results so maybe I should leave things alone. On the other hand maybe more loops will further aid execution of the sub.