Thanks for the laughs! Please post more. LOL
I was thinking this morning how one of my high school nympho crushes was stolen by a meth dealer. I had no idea what to do with the opposite sex at that age and thus never made a move on her even when she was in my bed at 18 when I had my own apartment. She was one horny young slut (or at least put up a great act because now I realize she might have actually been frigid like most American women wow what a mind****)(birth control has a lot to do with this). Saw a pic through friends of friends on Facebook and she got married recently - just lol at that sucker. Many such cases, sad!
I've been calling women/girls attractive and realize I better define my words more carefully. Like attracts like is the principle. So when I'm calling women/girls attractive that would mean they are slim yet robust, intelligent, forward thinking, leading-edge types, dangerously magnetically sexy (strong masculine/feminine dynamic), enlightened health gurus and forever young like me… OBVIOUSLY NOT THE CASE. That' why I make a lot of gay jokes, because women and of course most men can't hold a candle to this.
Really, all a women has to offer me is her BEAUTY and YOUTH. A sexy figure. That's pretty much it, along with obvious physical comforts that every man need be entitled to. I like my girls HOT and that means teenagers-25 with NO CELLULITE. Back in ye olden days single women used to be called old maids after 25 and I have to agree. I'm talking high metabolism and peak hormones. A lot of teenage girls I see are fat which is just another example of how abysmal the dating market is and why skinny white girls are some sort of unobtainable mythical creature with unlimited demand. Things like cellulite send me into a furious rage along with lesbians and I'd only consider a chick over 25 if it was some rare mommy fetish OR she was well taken care of and pregnant which means her hormones kicked into overdrive.
Loyalty, commitment, haha don't make me laugh. In this age of Tinder… It's fucked, everything is fucked. I used to have some sense of moral code and turned down a lot of girls (who I was always better than), thinking I didn't want to lead them on, taint them, and then not get into a relationship, but that is totally out the window. That's why virgins are prized, because they are much more biologically predisposed to become a loyal companion/wife/gf which lessens with every partner. Guys deflowering virgins and then tossing them aside was once one of the more heinous crimes but that's what society celebrates now, it's the hedonistic treadmill better kill or be killed, fuck or be fucked.
Since society no longer puts restraints on female behavior (once out of wisdom for their own good - and everyone else's for that matter), they get away with anything and it's back to the law of the jungle. Becoming hypermasculine, hyperviolent, that's the road to gauranteed pussy and success for me in the future and joining a worthy militia/mafia/gang is starting to seem like the most reasonable option in this wasteland. The raw essence of 'game' is pretty much provoking, accosting, and bullying a chick into submission which they find endearing. I used to always get hot women turned on my insulting them, less sexy ones by toning it down a bit. I've been way less confrontative with women on DMSI and it's not helping me in that regard of DOM behavior (real DOM like outlaw bikers not BDSM cuckolds). I've also lost most motivation to get anything done but I can feel that turning… I hope. Nevermind, hope is for the weak. Gotta get those dopamine levels up.
I've had a sneaking suspicion that DMSI has programming in it to make the user operate within bounds of what's "socially acceptable" and that's a mistake.
So you're saying DMSI A is draining you. Do you believe this is a result of the sub overpowering your brain or from all the senseless dumping into your sex doll? lol
Also... have you done AM6?
DMSI A is all about clearing, as you know, so I'm wondering if my clearing experience will be less intense since I have done 3 stages of AM6.
I think it may be time to get checked out for narcissistic personality disorder. Seriously. If you really believe all that...stuff...you wrote in Post #17, you could use some professional assistance. Not a flame, not a joke.
Lmfaooo you're a funny ass mf, mayne
Yes, you're finding all that in the world because of all your anger towards women and bad experiences. Not everyone has the same experience, reading too much red pill makes you believe that though.. i've been there myself.
Yes some women are like that, but it's taking the extreme cases and generalizing it to everything. It's similar to how women are like 'all mean are assholes' and then that's all they see.
I'm saying this as I went through it.. kept finding evidence of all my anger due to what I was holding onto and when you're in that it's hard to see it any differently.
I hope you don't take it as me having a go at you, as it's me genuinely saying it hoping you might see a different perspective.
If you've been there you know that what he's saying is true. Let him vent his anger in his journal. It'll pass.
(08-18-2017, 05:31 AM)enoch Wrote: [ -> ]If you've been there you know that what he's saying is true. Let him vent his anger in his journal. It'll pass.
I second that. MLS has been digging up some deeeeeep buried shit from my past so since DMSI is geared toward woman and sexuality it makes sense in his case. Let the clearing games begin, as Shannon would say.
Quick Theory:
It has been scientifically validated that losing competitions causes a lowering of testosterone in men (as opposed to WINNING!). Western women have been trained to compete with men in the workforce and in general ('I don't need no man'), many times being given de facto victories due to Affirmative Action and other policies. So, being around Western women who are pretty much propped up imitation men at this point will cause even high testosterone males to take serious hits to their hormone levels. Then I look at studies that show how testosterone levels have been in "general decline" in Western nations for the past 100 years, rapidly accelerating in the past 20, and it all makes sense.
Being around Western women is bad for my health and I am completely justified in moving to one of the most 'backwards' part of the country and hiding in the woods. That is still not enough, though.
Look at the rapacious refugees flooding Europe (who women hold up banners saying "Refugees Welcome" lol) and you will see men with high testosterone levels. This is all part of the hypocritical undoing of the West. Whew… What a time to be alive.
I don't feel very alive, though. Been having panic attacks and erratic sleep (3-5 hours at a time) these past few days, even chest pain last night because I felt I was being invalidated by some female online. A lot of women appear to get off on that, but that's another issue entirely and I know it's due to personality disorders. Yet, I also seek out these emotionally abusive types, why? Listening to 10+ hours a night of DMSI hybrid. I was thinking about and clearing a lot of missed connections and opportunities in the past last night as well. Have had pretty much zero motivation to leave my house and am barely keeping up with hygiene. When I did leave my house yesterday to go to the laundromat I was getting blank predatory stares from the women there, but of course nothing came of it, and the younger male relatives they were with looked really beat down. I should be furnishing and moving into my newly built off-grid home but that is at a standstill entirely due to lack of motivation on my part.
I also have insect bites all over my entire body.
Its all how you handle the western woman my man. I am agreeing with you, by the way. A male who is in charge and has people subservient to him will produce more testosterone. The human body says "ayeee I'm in charge" and because of this it adjusts its physiology. So... If you're able to put yourself in positions of authority in your freetime or handle women in a way that you acknowledge them but dont let yourself get walked on like a doormat then you should still be able to produce high levels of test. Not many guys realize this, so kudos to you. Any woman who dont need no man aint worth pursuing and aint worth getting walked on, mkayy. Insert nail painting emoji.
Its absurd really that woman have this idea that they dont need no man and that theyre the alpha to end all alphas and that they are in fact superior to man in every way, not just an equal. Its annoying as hell but theres nothing we can really do about it aside from keep your own frame in tact and go about your life. Its annoying as hell.
Screw what people think man. A woman isnt worth your sanity. They have their own opinion, regardless of how stupid it is, and they will not change it no matter what you say. You can't win an argument with a stupid person. Walk away! and in fact, LAUGH YOUR ASS OFF when you encounter stupidity! Laugh at how absurd people are, the absurdity of the whole situation. But, if you're still having that panic attack thing, Google Noopept Nasal Spray. Helps ya think and greatly reduces anxiety.
(08-17-2017, 10:01 AM)Arsenic Wrote: [ -> ]So you're saying DMSI A is draining you. Do you believe this is a result of the sub overpowering your brain or from all the senseless dumping into your sex doll? lol
Also... have you done AM6?
DMSI A is all about clearing, as you know, so I'm wondering if my clearing experience will be less intense since I have done 3 stages of AM6.
Nah, dude, I tossed that thing it the trash. It was an experience but that's it. I've been on NoFap for 16 days but still come across porn online sometimes on the forums I visit. I'm going celibate for life. Did you hear about how they opened a brothel in Spain with only sex dolls, it became successful, then the nearby prostitutes complained and got it shut down? Eh... Typical.
I've ran AM6 3 times and should probably make it a 4th. On AM6 is when I got the most affection from girls, had women offer me sex verbally, physically etc. I even had my friends younger brother offer me sex verbally on AM6 while we were standing in Chipotle... Uhhh... Just more missed opportunities. I burned a lot of bridges while on it, too, though. That was all part of growth. It helped me develop spiritually as well. It made me see women as only a distraction that will drag a man down from such loftier pursuits, which is actually my chief purpose in life. I've probably been on monk mode and a misogynist since birth.
Yeah, I have high standards but I'm not some incurable narcissist or lack empathy. Leaders are required to have a healthy level of narcissism and it's vital for development in youth. Am I tough on women? You are damn right I am. I feel I've been collectively abused, traumatized and neglected by women in this culture. That's nothing, though, since it's merely their nature. I understand(or overstand) their nature and have had to overcome so many false conceptions from living in a pussy-whipped society. Social media, online dating (Tinder) experiments, the manosphere etc has revealed to the world their dark side. I do not like their nature, but of course I can't sugar coat it because for me truth is all that matters.
(08-17-2017, 04:09 PM)Benjamin Wrote: [ -> ]Yes, you're finding all that in the world because of all your anger towards women and bad experiences. Not everyone has the same experience, reading too much red pill makes you believe that though.. i've been there myself.
Yes some women are like that, but it's taking the extreme cases and generalizing it to everything. It's similar to how women are like 'all mean are assholes' and then that's all they see.
I'm saying this as I went through it.. kept finding evidence of all my anger due to what I was holding onto and when you're in that it's hard to see it any differently.
I hope you don't take it as me having a go at you, as it's me genuinely saying it hoping you might see a different perspective.
That's fine, Ben. I've met some great people from Australia and I know great people exist in this world, despite this cultural SWAMP. I've probably been spending too much time reinforcing these negative viewpoints you are absolutely right and too many online echochambers are not productive.
Here's a story:
One time I was attending a seminar in California with a teacher from Australia. There was a girl from Australia there, too. She was a pretty savvy chick and very fit. She was there with her beta boyfriend who wasn't interested in the content just dragged along and stayed in the hotel. Nevertheless, the class ended and we all parted ways on a high because it was discussing advanced spiritual topics/healing that we learned to implement through teamwork.
I then left California went to go see my high school buddies in another state for a few weeks. One day I had enough of those low consciousness dolts and decided to go check out this cafe in a nearby town that I know had great beverages. I walk in the door, totally unplanned, AND SEE THIS AUSTRALIAN CHICK WITH HER BETA BOYFRIEND. Over a thousand miles away, we attracted each other - or I manifested her. Of course I go up and hug her and her beta boyfriend. It was a feeling words cannot describe. Then she ghosted me.
So yeah, I know we are actively determining our reality and to a very magical extent if we can concentrate and put our heart/minds to it. This chick still had a beta bf and ghosted me for some hedonistic concert, though.
Quote:That's fine, Ben. I've met some great people from Australia and I know great people exist in this world, despite this cultural SWAMP. I've probably been spending too much time reinforcing these negative viewpoints you are absolutely right and too many online echochambers are not productive.
Cool.. it's good that you can see what I mean. I say it because I know how my own anger has affected me and with all the stuff i've been discovering lately, and how my intense emotions I was holding onto were affecting how I was seeing the world.
At the same time there is some point to the things you're saying, how things in western society have gone downhill and such. And it's unfortunate and sometimes it does my head in some of the articles I read about things.
But what i'm learning now is unfortunately I can't control that, I can only control how i'm perceiving the world and what i'm holding onto or not holding onto.
That's pretty cool seeing her so far away like that.. 1000 miles is even more in kilometres haha
