Subliminal Talk

You're executing the sub pretty quickly. Looking forward to reading more about your future conquests!

(07-02-2017, 05:27 PM)Benjamin Wrote: [ -> ]The cumming quick and taking longer to recover has been the main issue, mainly on B. I'm hoping back on A it will improve again as it seemed to when I went back to A last time.

Hi Ben, I was holding off pointing to side B as the culprit because I hadn't had sex for 2 weeks and the first time I have sex after that long a break, I always end fast. Plus the night before I had been edging a bit. Today it was better but inconclusive. We'll see tomorrow.

(07-03-2017, 05:40 AM)Duke.Togo Wrote: [ -> ]You're executing the sub pretty quickly. Looking forward to reading more about your future conquests!

Thanks Duke! Your journal is inspirational! I can't say I'm executing yet though. I still haven't been approached or got any unmistakable IOI from strangers. No girl I know made any moves on me yet, like your friend K. If I don't put in effort, nothing happens. But it's true that the results from my efforts have improved. Probably executing a little, definitely not at your level yet.

Day 45 (Day 3 of B)
So today I f*cked G. Got her to come to my house. Swam at my pool first for a good hour. Then back at my place, showered and then escalated. Like yesterday, most of the legwork had been done in the previous date (got a BJ from her last time) so there wasn't any resistance. It's like she was expecting it. Got to the sex smoothly but it wasn't perfect. It was around 2 minutes of f*cking and my tempo was just picking up, she was in pain and we had to stop. Her pussy was bleeding. She wasn't on her period but apparently she's taking medication for her irregular periods and she's not supposed to have sex while on it. I was pretty bummed but I noticed that I still felt pretty good. I wasn't that into her. I closed her and that's all that matters. Now that I know she can't have sex, this will be the last time I see her.

What she didn't know was, I was recording the whole thing using my hidden camera, disguised as a power bank! So I got the whole thing on video!!

Why I wanted to record it was mainly to see how I act when getting sexual. I imagined I would cringe. But it wasn't that bad, I'm not as awkward as I thought I'd look. In fact I look pretty relaxed and amused. Fancy that!! And my dick doesn't really lose to the dicks in porn

Yesterday I came within a minute, today no urge to cum in those 2 minutes. But of course it's inconclusive.

Tomorrow my FWB will come. And of course, I will be recording it

i've had enough of this placebo ass journal, full of awesome DMSI stories. clearly, you need to run DAOS 4g for some real action!

jk. inside joke.

I'm not sure i'd appreciate it if a girl was recording me during sex and i'm sure they would feel the same.

(07-03-2017, 04:20 PM)Benjamin Wrote: [ -> ]I'm not sure i'd appreciate it if a girl was recording me during sex and i'm sure they would feel the same.

How do I double catman upvote this?

That's some straight creeper nonsense.

Bullshit, don't shame this dude. With all the false rape allegations here in the U.S., I record all my interactions too, at least the audio. I have last week's audio, just didn't post it because it's nothing special.

A few weeks ago, one of my oldest friends had a chick accuser him of rape. She cheated on her boyfriend with him, then tried to save the relationship by claiming she was afraid to say no because he's an accomplished weightlifter. Luckily, my friend listened to me when I said to record all interactions (he originally said it was "creepy" too) and was happy he had her on tape, on all fours screaming how much she loved being "his little slut."

Do whatever the hell you want in your own home. It's your domain. You wanna record, record.

(07-04-2017, 03:55 AM)chaosvrgn Wrote: [ -> ]*****, don't shame this dude. With all the false rape allegations here in the U.S., I record all my interactions too, at least the audio. I have last week's audio, just didn't post it because it's nothing special.

A few weeks ago, one of my oldest friends had a chick accuser him of rape. She cheated on her boyfriend with him, then tried to save the relationship by claiming she was afraid to say no because he's an accomplished weightlifter. Luckily, my friend listened to me when I said to record all interactions (he originally said it was "creepy" too) and was happy he had her on tape, on all fours screaming how much she loved being "his little *****."

Do whatever the hell you want in your own home. It's your domain. You wanna record, record.

I concur and wished I could double upvote you. On this side of the border there's been a few well publicized cases where scorned women completely and utterly ruined men's lives with false allegations of rape.

(07-04-2017, 03:55 AM)chaosvrgn Wrote: [ -> ]*****, don't shame this dude. With all the false rape allegations here in the U.S., I record all my interactions too, at least the audio. I have last week's audio, just didn't post it because it's nothing special.

A few weeks ago, one of my oldest friends had a chick accuser him of rape. She cheated on her boyfriend with him, then tried to save the relationship by claiming she was afraid to say no because he's an accomplished weightlifter. Luckily, my friend listened to me when I said to record all interactions (he originally said it was "creepy" too) and was happy he had her on tape, on all fours screaming how much she loved being "his little *****."

Do whatever the hell you want in your own home. It's your domain. You wanna record, record.

Always be safe. But there's safe and then there's too much.

I've worked and volunteered with rape victims of both genders for years. Even a simple text after the sexcapade about how you had a great time and her responding in a similar manner shows there was consent given. I've seen that clear a guy on a false rape accusation. I've also seen guys lose everything they've owned from false rape cases.

The audio recording thing is also a good way to prove innocence.

Video taping sexual interactions and enjoying the idea that you'll be doing it more isn't really in the same ballpark, in my opinion.

Obviously do whatever you want in life. Right and wrong are usually just societal programming. My opinions are just opinions.

(07-03-2017, 04:20 PM)Benjamin Wrote: [ -> ]I'm not sure i'd appreciate it if a girl was recording me during sex and i'm sure they would feel the same.

(07-03-2017, 04:23 PM)Nox Wrote: [ -> ]How do I double catman upvote this?

That's some straight creeper nonsense.

Yeah I get it, Nox and Ben. Believe me I do. I know it's an evil thing to do, to film her having sex without consent. But these vids are not for anyone else's eyes but mine. I'm not gonna post them anywhere, I have nothing to gain from that. What she doesn't know won't hurt her. I know that the one harmed is actually me, because I have to live with that and deep down I will see myself subconsciously as someone who did an evil thing. And as I do it more and more it will get easier and easier to do. By doing this I started rolling down a slippery slope towards a path of evil and isolation where I can't feel any caring towards others.

But out of curiosity I decided it was worth it. In my tennis training I always gained a lot from recording a video of myself. I'd become aware of some weird faults in my technique that I would never know if I never saw myself. I always wanted to see how I look when escalating and when having sex. I thought I'd see many kinks in my behavior I would never see otherwise. The self feedback was all I wanted. And I got it. I spotted a few habits that I need to stop and it was clear as hell that I need to work on my voice. Maybe part of why pickup instructors are so good is because they always record themselves. But yeah doing it like this came at a cost, like what I mentioned above.

Day 46 (Day 4 of B)
Met my FWB. It was good to see her. Talking to her felt so much better than talking to G yesterday. Just felt more connected in our wavelengths. That's why I could keep her as a friend all this while. Of course it wasn't as good as when talking with my ex when we were dating, but these days that level of connection is rare to come by. And I'm not looking for something that deep nowadays as I'm still in a confusing time with my life direction.

Anyway, sex was great. Pounded her for 20 minutes straight and loved every minute. Definitely no sexual performance issues. I also recorded today. Today's video was definitely more useful because not only it recorded a longer sex, it also recorded the rest of my interaction with her. Very informative. I am going to stop doing it for a while. I've learned enough for the time being and I don't want to keep rolling down that slope.

Is DMSI making me a super cold person? Or do I just lean that way? We'll see. I need to watch myself.

Today I saw many attractive girls in my neighborhood. I was walking past some of them when I realized that I feel acquisitive when looking at them. Like I want to get something from them. I also noticed a deep buried emotion which feels like spite. I want them but in my mind they reject me and I can't get them. I don't genuinely believe from the bottom of my heart that I deserve the very attractive girls. That's how it is now.

So that's 3 out of 3. It was fun. Last time I would get sick of sex after just 2 days straight of sex, but now I can't wait to go again. Guess something's been cleared.

Flying to UK tomorrow!!

Don't call yourself evil man. You gotta live and enjoy your kinks without letting them get the best of you. You're cognisant of it, more so than I guessed at first so my apologies there, but don't think you're doing anything "wrong."

There is no wrong or right. Only effects and reactions. I was a prick there as I've seen similar "harmless" situations end up in some really nasty places.

I'm with Nox on this one, you don't want to start demonizing yourself. It's a slippery slope, and it only goes down.

The world will cast you as a villain every chance it gets, make sure you realize the distinctions for yourself.

As for the video debate, I had a few women in the past who used to love recording our sessions and then watching it together. Usually I would delete it right after we watched it, because I hated the idea of seeing my mug on some amateur porn site, but the girls loved it.

Maybe try suggesting it to them as something fun to do and watch together afterwards. You might be surprised at how many of them say yes, and at what they are then willing to do during sex also.

My two cents...

I hate how these days all kinds of shit is rationalized with 'oh don't shame people'. Of course recording that is a very, very mild example of it and there's much worse things that if I go into people will probably get upset.. but mainly alot of the shit you see going on facebook connected to SJWs for example.

I'm not saying you're evil. But even if it was deleted or whatever if I found out a girl filmed me like that i'd have lost all trust for her.

Yeah ok maybe evil is not the right word. It just doesn't feel right doing it. And I don't want to be someone who can do these things without second thought. Oh wells, it was fun!

The word "creepy" is inherently a shaming word. It's a non-descript word that has no concrete meaning, very nebulous. It's only function is to elicit feelings of shame in the target so they'll change their behavior. Hence why women use it against low value males that exhibit sexual attraction.

Protect yourself. I, for one, will keep recording anything I choose, regardless of how "creepy" it seems. My personal safety is now important than any "morality" involving the modern woman, who has no morality of her own.