Subliminal Talk

(09-27-2011, 08:25 PM)mat422 Wrote: [ -> ]I've definitely gotten results from this subliminal. I remember in the beginning I felt like it wasn't doing anything, but gradually things shifted. My thinking changed, my attitude changed, and I feel like I have let go of some things that have been weighing me down for a while now. It's all very subtle. So subtle that you would think that you did it all on your own without the subliminal. But the subliminal really did fuel my growth. It was a combination of me working hard consciously and the subliminal working equally as hard subconsciously. I feel like some subconscious aspects were brought to my conscious attention and that allowed me to see the why, which allowed me to let go of it.

Something interesting I'm learning in one of my college classes is about the scientific method. They generally say testimonials from individuals are biased and inconclusive because human emotions get in the way. While I agree in some respect, I also don't like how they just negate the importance of testimonials. I've learned that change can be slow, almost imperceptible to the conscious mind which causes you to believe that nothing has changed and you have always been this way. I'd say that subliminals work, but I'm sure science would want to disagree. Sometimes I get upset when people put down subliminals as a form of placebo. Our minds are perfectly capable of processing information in a variety of ways so why not subliminals?

Good post Mat . I agree completely . My experience too . Sometimes it looks like the subliminal isn't working , but give it enough time and you wll see you have come a long way since starting it.

Thought I'd update this thread instead of making a new one. Anyway I'm running through the 4G remove negativity within updated sub. I'm going to be running it for about 3 months or so. So far I think I've had about a week of exposure, maybe more. What I can say so far with this sub is it is pulling up a lot of stuff. A lot of emotion, a lot of negativity that I feel like I have to release.

Some days I wake up dead tired and getting through the day is tough. The thing with this subliminal is, I've already got a lot of stress in my life right now and anxiety about things. But I've noticed this sub really helps me counteract those negative feelings and let go of them. I've found that sometimes I want to cling to those negative feelings, and in the past I usually would. Now I know and understand holding onto those feelings doesn't get me anywhere and I feel better not getting pulled into them.

I feel like the sub is definitely doing it's thing. But I've got a lot of things on my mind and I've lost direction in life. My one crippling vice is my social anxiety. It's this mental block, this fear, and the more I push against it the worse I feel. I'm trying not to become complacent and I feel guilty a lot of the time for not being able to push through that fear.

That being said I'm not expecting this sub to work miracles. But if it does I'll gladly take it. As of right now I feel like I'm stuck in limbo with regards to my life. I'm having trouble enjoying things or taking the time out to hang out with friends because I feel like my clock is ticking and I have to do something with my life. It's like this constant pressure to make sure that I'm anxious, otherwise I feel guilty.

Overall it's just a big bundle of emotions inside of me. I have trouble expressing a lot of my feelings in words. Sometimes my own subconscious programming baffles me. I can see how irrational the behavior is, understand why I need to change it, but it's like running full speed into a brick wall. An invisible brick wall to be exact, I know it's there, but I can't see the issues or understand them that well.

You know at first I was reluctant to keep writing in a journal thread. But I've realized something important. No matter how small a change, it is still a change. This change should be valued and I should congratulate myself on making this change. Too often I get caught up in a mentality of not being where I want to be, all the while never acknowledging my hard work and small achievements in bettering myself.

I believe my all or nothing attitude influences the way I view a lot of things. So far I have improved myself and I can confidently say that I am in a better place than I was a couple of years ago. Am I where I want to be? No not right now, but the important thing is that I'm taking steps to get there. It may be slow, it may be gradual, but I know I will get there because no matter how rough things get I always make it a point to pull myself out of it.

Sometimes it helps to take a step back, realize how far I've come and just enjoy the present moment. Too much focus on the destination and not the journey is bound to make me feel too detached from my life.

That's why I started this journal again. To remind myself that I am changing, that I am moving forward. This is proof right here, I've felt my mindset shift very subtly in the past few days. To ignore this would be wrong because it is ignoring change and improvement to myself. So from this day forward I'm taking a focus on how I'm improving and not how I expect to improve.

Matt, as a person who struggled with severe confidence issues and self doubt I believe you have made a very good decision to run this sub for 3 months. Before using ASC I was a wreck. Everything I'd gained from the Alpha Set appeared gone and distant. But I made it a point to run ASC for 3 months. Best decision I've made all year. Running RNIW will completely change you man, for a while, it will feel strange because you're mind will be devoid of negativity creating a serene feeling within you. I urge you to stay the course and no matter what, DO NOT STOP.

K-train have run remove negativity within?
I'm a little scared to do it but have a gut feeling its one I should run
Why did you choose that over something designed to enhance positivity?
I was gonna run ultra success/luck magnifier with remove negativity within
for a bit before my next 6 stage monster.
I can't decide between ultra or lucky but am leaning towards ultra

No, I ran ASC but I honestly felt it was tackling the same thing. I did have thoughts of using Happiness and Joy but frankly, there were things inside me that I just didn't like and I was being consumed and crippled by fear. I wanted a subliminal that would force me to confront that fear/negativity which is why I turned again to ASC.

I did use Ultra-Success for 3 months along with ASC but honestly, I'm thinking I should have done Luck Magnifier. I will say this though: I was more driven in those 3 months than I had ever been and since then good things just...happen. I can't explain it, but I'm successful at my endeavors more. If it were me though, I'd say run Luck Magnifier simply because I feel it's more "in your face" than Ultra Success. Run Luck Magnifier for 90 days along with Remove Negativity and I'll bet that you'll be one clear minded lucky man .

And yes, I understand your apprehension but realize that once you've cleared away a lot of the garbage in your mind (and trust me, even the best of us have some garbage leftover) you will feel much better and this will enhance your future effects with subs like AM or WM.

Yea... I am scared to run Remove negativity within but I may just have to do go through that before running gratitude like I originally planned.

(06-16-2012, 08:18 AM)Spiral Wrote: [ -> ]Yea... I am scared to run Remove negativity within but I may just have to do go through that before running gratitude like I originally planned.

I was never really scared to run this sub because I was at rock bottom and willing to do anything. Here's the thing to keep in mind, I may not have been scared of the sub itself, but I was sure as hell scared of the results. The thing is I've realized that when you go to remove fear or negativity that holds you back, imagining a life without it is hard because that same fear still exists within you. It's like you fear letting go of the fear because then that opens you up to the world which you may currently fear haha. It's a little confusing, but it makes sense when you think about it.

But like I said in my other post, remove expectations and just take it one day at a time and notice any changes that occur. The other reason I decided to run this sub was so I could allow other subs to affect me with minimal resistance from my mind. I have a deep fear of change and that caused heavy resistance from the alpha set, so I'm addressing that fear more directly with this sub.

K-Train Wrote:Matt, as a person who struggled with severe confidence issues and self doubt I believe you have made a very good decision to run this sub for 3 months. Before using ASC.I was a wreck. Everything I'd gained from the Alpha set appeared gone and distant. But I made it a point to run ASC.for 3 months. Best decision I've made all year. Running RNIW will completely change you man, for a while, it will feel strange because you're mind will be devoid of negativity creating a serene feeling within you. I urge you to stay the course and no matter what, DO NOT STOP.

Hmmm, I may run through ASC after this as well. What you described is similar to what I felt when I ran Alpha. I think I may have rejected a lot of the programming in alpha after I was done due to my fear of change. The changes were more prominent during alpha probably because I was getting consistent exposure, once that stopped my mind might have sabotaged those efforts in a way.

Anyway I do feel like I'm moving closer and closer to that serene feeling. At first I felt very reluctant to give up my negativity, almost like a selfish child. But I've slowly been able to part ways with it.

You're right Mat. It's just a weird fear to have. It makes no sense really to hold your self back like that. So with that said I know I need to run the sub. And like you mentioned.. I'll just take it one day at a time.

(06-16-2012, 09:44 AM)mat422 Wrote: [ -> ]

(06-16-2012, 08:18 AM)Spiral Wrote: [ -> ]Yea... I am scared to run Remove negativity within but I may just have to do go through that before running gratitude like I originally planned.

I was never really scared to run this sub because I was at rock bottom and willing to do anything. Here's the thing to keep in mind, I may not have been scared of the sub itself, but I was sure as hell scared of the results. The thing is I've realized that when you go to remove fear or negativity that holds you back, imagining a life without it is hard because that same fear still exists within you. It's like you fear letting go of the fear because then that opens you up to the world which you may currently fear haha. It's a little confusing, but it makes sense when you think about it.

But like I said in my other post, remove expectations and just take it one day at a time and notice any changes that occur. The other reason I decided to run this sub was so I could allow other subs to affect me with minimal resistance from my mind. I have a deep fear of change and that caused heavy resistance from the alpha set, so I'm addressing that fear more directly with this sub.

K-Train Wrote:Matt, as a person who struggled with severe confidence issues and self doubt I believe you have made a very good decision to run this sub for 3 months. Before using ASC.I was a wreck. Everything I'd gained from the Alpha set appeared gone and distant. But I made it a point to run ASC.for 3 months. Best decision I've made all year. Running RNIW will completely change you man, for a while, it will feel strange because you're mind will be devoid of negativity creating a serene feeling within you. I urge you to stay the course and no matter what, DO NOT STOP.

Hmmm, I may run through ASC after this as well. What you described is similar to what I felt when I ran Alpha. I think I may have rejected a lot of the programming in alpha after I was done due to my fear of change. The changes were more prominent during alpha probably because I was getting consistent exposure, once that stopped my mind might have sabotaged those efforts in a way.

Anyway I do feel like I'm moving closer and closer to that serene feeling. At first I felt very reluctant to give up my negativity, almost like a selfish child. But I've slowly been able to part ways with it.

Matt that's some awesome realization's you've made there and they have actually made me see that maybe this is the best sub for me to run as well. I to felt like I resisted most of alpha very heavily even now almost at the end of stage 6 I can feel some of the effects starting to fade a little.

I can relate a lot to not being able to imagine a world without negativity for me that combined with being in my head all the time and thinking things through to much are what gets me all wound up.

Ill be interested to see how this sub continues to work for you.

So a little update. I feel like this sub has been doing me some good. The other day I was hanging out with my friend at his house and he was training in some MMA with another friend of mine. My original intention was just to come by and watch them train, just talk a bit and chill. They were practicing some basic moves with light striking and it just reminded me of how much I used to love MMA. So I decided to train for a bit with them and I was alright, but they were a lot better. I just remember when I used to train MMA I was very hard on myself if I did bad or if the other guy was better than me, but this time I just enjoyed it and took the losses as a good way to improve.

It just made me realize that I'm too hard on myself and I'm not realistic a lot of the time. That might come from a perfectionist mentality, but I realized a lot of the time there is a steady stream of negative thoughts I might not even be aware of after. Well this time I caught it and I was able to redirect those thoughts into something more positive. Instead of dwelling on the bad I emphasized more of the good. A small change like this is huge because it may seem like a conscious realization, but believe me I've had it before. The difference this time is I felt like it kicked in more like a habit, without me having to try hard. So I know my subconscious mind is helping me deflect a lot of negativity now.

Slowly but surely I can feel that I'm internalizing better habits for dealing with my negative thoughts. I think sometime in the future I'm going to start training in MMA again because I definitely enjoy it. What held me back in the past was that fear of failure and the never ending stream of negative thoughts that killed my motivation. It's also a little bit of ego, if someone beats me up in the gym it makes me less confident in my own skills, and instead of facing that fear and building up my confidence again I'd rather take the easy way out and avoid it to protect my ego.

That's it for now, but I'll be sure to keep track of any of my small achievements and update the journal. I gotta keep the snowball effect going and acknowledge the good things and give myself a pat on the back once in a while.

Another update, but this is gonna be more on theory or some of my difficulties becoming more of an alpha male.

Growing up as a kid I was sensitive, there was no doubt. I don't know what it is about little kids, but they tend to sniff out insecurity in others and then bully them for it. So there was no doubt my childhood wasn't the easiest. To boot I was a smart kid, so I got picked on for that as well.

Anyway at home I didn't always feel safe as a kid either. My dad had some anger issues, which at times led to me getting the belt to my behind. I don't remember why I angered him, all I remember is that he got very angry very easily. So as a role model, I don't think I took after him. Instead I feel like I was closer to my mom.

I'm not entirely certain, but I feel like I have some internalized form of misandry due to having a bad association with my father and I guess men in general. It's really only speculation, but as I grew older I still remained sensitive and being surrounded by guys that were major jerks didn't help matters.

So embarking on my alpha journey I didn't want to become the very thing that had caused me a lot of pain. I've noticed that the more masculine I get it kind of causes me anxiety.

Like I said it's all speculation and theory, but I just feel that a lot of the ways I was raised didn't result in a positive image of being a male. I feel like I've internalized that whole "men are dogs" attitude feminists seem to have and it made me think I was different than all the other guys growing up and they didn't know how to treat women right. Man was I wrong.

Also I feel like I grew up in a sexually repressed household. I remember one time I was making out with this girl up in my room when I was around 16 and my mom told me to leave my door open. It's like sex wasn't welcome and I was wrong for thinking of having sex with a girl. Quite literally I feel like I've internalized that sex makes me a bad person due to my mom's disapproval of it.

(06-15-2012, 07:13 PM)K-Train Wrote: [ -> ]No, I ran ASC but I honestly felt it was tackling the same thing. I did have thoughts of using Happiness and Joy but frankly, there were things inside me that I just didn't like and I was being consumed and crippled by fear. I wanted a subliminal that would force me to confront that fear/negativity which is why I turned again to ASC.

I did use Ultra-Success for 3 months along with ASC but honestly, I'm thinking I should have done Luck Magnifier. I will say this though: I was more driven in those 3 months than I had ever been and since then good things just...happen. I can't explain it, but I'm successful at my endeavors more. If it were me though, I'd say run Luck Magnifier simply because I feel it's more "in your face" than Ultra Success. Run Luck Magnifier for 90 days along with Remove Negativity and I'll bet that you'll be one clear minded lucky man .

And yes, I understand your apprehension but realize that once you've cleared away a lot of the garbage in your mind (and trust me, even the best of us have some garbage leftover) you will feel much better and this will enhance your future effects with subs like AM or WM.

K-train-thanks the answer and all that great input..
on break from next subs while I figure some stuff out but it all your info has been helpfull and will factor into my next choice I appreciate it.

Slowly I feel like I'm getting better. It's like all those negative emotions that were festering up inside of me are slowly being cleared out. I like being honest and saying how I feel the sub is working. Some days it does feel like it's not doing anything, but then there are days where things are great. But the important thing is I do notice a difference.

What I've really started to understand over the past few days is how your internal self image and beliefs have to be taken care of before anyone else can see you the way you want to be seen. This is pretty much self-help 101 here haha, but loving yourself first is so important. For a while I couldn't grasp that. What always amazed me were the individuals that think they are the greatest thing on the face of the planet. The really cocky guys who are so full of themselves, but just don't care or are so deluded. It got me thinking, their beliefs must be so solid and unshakable that they live in a completely different reality.

Now me. I'm humble. Too humble. I was never comfortable with attention and I'd always shy away. I started to realize there are two extremes, treating yourself as an unimportant person and treating yourself as the most important person in your life without regard for others. For too long I've been humble and treated myself as a person that was just not that important. I decided that I'd rather be humble than shine and face rejection. Also there is just a lot of guilt surrounding me being an attractive person. I'm not entirely sure, but I just remember when I was younger if I tried to dress nicer my older brother would ask me why I was wearing it. The way he said it just implied something along the lines of "Are you trying to impress everyone? That's pathetic".

So I just internalized never standing out, never trying to look good because then that would be me seeking validation from others and caring what people think too much. But I realized everyone cares what people think to some degree and it's not a bad thing to want to look good in the eyes of others. If you care too much about not caring what other's think you are still caring too much.

I just feel like I'm learning to value myself more and realizing that I'm an important person too. It's not arrogant, it's healthy. I think my problem was I saw the extreme and I didn't want to be like that. So I jumped to the other extreme, which is being so unimportant.

I feel like I'm pulling back the layers of my defensive shield. I think in my childhood I followed a sequence of events. First I was a little shy, maybe overly sensitive, but I just wanted to make friends like everyone else. As I got older I may have been bullied and trusted people less, still I had good intentions and maybe became a little needy. Eventually I started fearing people more, seeing how many jerks there could be and how I hated some of them. I wanted to push myself as far away from them as possible. Pretty soon I started pushing myself away from everyone, I became judgmental of people and I just stopped trying. It was easier for me to avoid people and be bitter about them than actually put myself out there and face rejection. This attitude led me to stop caring about myself because in my eyes the more I tried to fit in the closer I was to possible rejection.

I feel like a lot of people have the attitude of "it's not me, it's them". I'm guilty of this and I'm recognizing it now. A lot of the time we don't know who "them" actually are. Being judgmental is one of those things I've internalized as another defense to prevent rejection. If I reject them first, how could they possibly reject me? It's one of those subconscious things. Everything I do is just to prevent rejection, the more I try to fit in with people, the more I feel like I'm putting myself in danger.

So there are some thoughts. I'm pretty tired right now and I struggled to get a lot of that out. But I feel like it's some real progress in understanding myself a lot more.