Subliminal Talk

(12-04-2016, 06:22 AM)LiquidMind Wrote: [ -> ]

Hmm today was weird.

After I woke up I did an action which then triggered some kind of brief vision in my minds eye. Soon after this a bit later on this vision actually occurred in front of me.
Felt very odd afterwards.

I'm guessing it is to do with the projecting into the future feature found in DMSI.

Least I know it may be working.

Going to do my Loops later on before I go to sleep this time.

That's cool - if it's not too personal, what was the vision?

(12-04-2016, 04:30 PM)RTBoss Wrote: [ -> ]

(12-04-2016, 06:22 AM)LiquidMind Wrote: [ -> ]

Hmm today was weird.

After I woke up I did an action which then triggered some kind of brief vision in my minds eye. Soon after this a bit later on this vision actually occurred in front of me.
Felt very odd afterwards.

I'm guessing it is to do with the projecting into the future feature found in DMSI.

Least I know it may be working.

Going to do my Loops later on before I go to sleep this time.

That's cool - if it's not too personal, what was the vision?

Wasn't anything sexytimes related but

I went through some items on the couch at my friends house. He was upstairs and I got a very strong sense that my mate has gotten or will get angry trying to find something in this same pile but would be unsure as to why.

Sure enough a little while later this happens exactly as I envisioned

Funny thing is this isn't the first time I've predicted a future outcome before so I have no clue if its DMSI related or I have some weird freaky powers. IDK

So I'll just keep a journal for the things I've experience while on the newest DMSI.

I've experienced some things more so than I ever did on 3.0 or 3.1

I've had women stare right at me in the first few days. More head turns from women in cars and on the streets too. Men however seem intimidated/annoyed.

A girl at work who I was convinced didn't like me at all, came past me while on break and asked me if I was okay and stroked her hand on my shoulder.

Last night I tried to listen to it but for some odd reason my PC decided to go to max 100% disk and it kept freezing the playback momentarily. So I didn't get the full loop while I slept. Kept doing it over and over. Needless to say it p**sed me off. So gonna get a full uninterrupted loop before work this afternoon.

Got more to come but for now just wanted to add the more recent things.

Trying to keep this up to date as possible but my body and mind want me away from procrastination so this forum has been out of sight and out of mind.

I'll post some observations for the internal and then external.

Internal:

My body is wanting to change a lot. I recently got some beta blockers for my anxiety and adrenal fatigue and they've been working a treat. My mind is no longer a negative marching band, thumping through the hours of the day. Now it's more like a silent mime. Still there if you give it enough attention but not trying as hard to take over.

I've found myself gipping and dry heaving randomly and one night I even threw up some tea I drank 10 minutes prior. Didn't feel ill or sick or anything. Wonder if this has something to do with the anti bulimia thing or just a purge.
I can't masturbate to my imagination or fantasy anymore. I've been on and off with fapping but it's been better than it was before I started. Last time I fapped it wasn't satisfying and now my body is wanting my to get outside to achieve my goals. This brings me to the external.

External:

So Friday night I decided to go to a club. ALONE..
Which I never do. Before the subs you'd have to beg and wheedle me to go out and that had to be on specific occasions.
This time I just said "fuck it." and set off on my lonesome. I had a good night in a rocky/punkish club. Here are some highlights

• Had people, mostly girls, constantly nudge past me or rub up next to me all night.
  
• Had head turns and attention from people most of the night.
  
• Danced with a lot of girls who, the least attractive were wanting me attention and the most were trying to tease/flirt
  
• Went around asking everyone how their nights were as a form of social proofing
  
• Got hit on by a guy...
  
• One girl wanted to dance with me, did so, then refused any touching, hugged me, said thanks and left
  
• There was a very attractive girl dancing with me, then said had to get back to BF than left
  

So I ended up without any that night but it was still a lot of fun. I try to limit my alcohol level for the night so I don't overdo it.

Thinking of going out again tonight. Which is very very very not like the old me at all.

That's all for now. Catch up later.

So wanted to wait to post so I could take the previous night in.

Let me tell you something you already probably know already..
Girls can be batshit crazy.

So after all on a random Tuesday night I decide to head out to town again. I went to the same place as before but it was dead as a doornail this time round (circa 11pm)

I grab a drink, drink it in the cubicle (didn't want to be a wallflower drinking alone in full view) finished it then head on out to try find some other places. I walk round for maybe an hour, nothing else open so I head back to the club.

When I return things are more lively. More people and the music is a lot better. I grab a drink and start getting into it, trying to make it look like i'm here for a good time.

As the night progresses I'm getting some attention but not near enough the same as last time. Few girls looking my way, shoulder rubs etc. Although one girl did actually open me and kiss my hand like royalty (left a big purple lip stain on my hand)

Majority of the night I run into some guy who claims he's gay hanging round with some girl. Now this girl went from cool to crazy in like no time flat. Let me tell you:

She was into me most of the night, we went outside to chill, I give her my jacket, we're cosying up sitting her on my lap etc....

Then she just goes bat shit crazy

Basically the bouncer told her she can't go back in because she's hammered. She kicks off big time. She starts arguing, shouting, crying, even began getting physical with the bouncer. I had to step in and try calm her down.

Then she's acting like the most bratty, immature, stubborn child like individual I've ever met in my entire life. I even let out some emotions I rarely ever do and basically demanded my jacket back off her.

I do NOT have time for girls like her. Not one second of my time is worth it. So while DMSI failed me in the goals, it did show me what girls can be like when they act out.
Don' get me wrong, I love women and I'm sure there are some pure classy ladies that exist that are worth your blood sweat and toil in life. But where I live I don't see any of those.

I do hope DMSI can bolster my status as I begin to work on my life and get to where I want to be. It's important to not let the Ego go out of control. I know every guy who uses DMSI is gonna be like "oh hell yeah pussy man let's go!" when life is more than just that.

I'd rather have a healthy ego and not let my expectations get too ahead of myself next time. I don't think I'll do nights out again. Much better to meet girls under sober and similar circumstances i.e meeting them online healthily or through hobbies etc. :idea:

So yeah just a short update from Tuesday. Girls are fucking NUTS!
Looks like this version really did take out the anti sniping. Eek.
Stay alert guys!

Peace.

I do see that as a success! You had standards for yourself and stood up for it, not putting up with that shit. That's only a good thing.

If she kicked off like that over just not being let back in, then she would have caused other issues for you.

(03-29-2018, 04:22 PM)Benjamin Wrote: [ -> ]I do see that as a success! You had standards for yourself and stood up for it, not putting up with that shit. That's only a good thing.

If she kicked off like that over just not being let back in, then she would have caused other issues for you.

Yeah in sober hindsight it is a good thing.

I just wish that women were a lot more straight forward and logical haha.

If they like you, they should just come out and say so and forget what everyone else thinks.

Boy what a world that'd be like to live in. If only.

How exactly did DMSI fail you?

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(03-30-2018, 01:42 PM)Shannon Wrote: [ -> ]How exactly did DMSI fail you?

Maybe fail is a strong word but it felt like even though I was getting interest from girls, I wasn't able to do anything with it. Perhaps more to do with an issue of me than DMSI.

It's hard to see how DMSI works unless you already can socialise quite well (something I'm bad at)

Made the soft switch to 3.2A the day after rest day when the 3.2B asrb ended on the 14 day period.

So far things seem a bit happier but not by too much. That was yesterday.

Today there was naf all in the cafeteria (normally I just eat junk food mostly, I'd say 80/20 of my diet is junk food to actual healthy stuff but today was different. I grabbed a chicken salad, no skin and lightly seasoned it. When I finished work I decided to stay on this health streak (lol..) and got a morrocan chicken and some fruit.

Right now I'm not sure but I feel it's the rage in a cage from the DMSI. Only made possible by the fact eating good food has managed to actually make me feel some goddamn emotion for once. Not fake emotion or a happy smile on my face I have to fake while in Public. I feel anger but its a good feeling.

It may not seem like much (I'm sure some of you are body builders or gym rats who watch what you put in your body but I was always IDGAF when it came to food.) So this is huge for me.

I'll continue this trend of good food eating for a while and see what I can do with myself.

Peace