Subliminal Talk

I can only make it go so fast without causing instead of dissolving.

She wants to share her food with you and do a "You massage me, I'll massage you," session. You're in, bro.

(09-13-2016, 05:53 PM)RTBoss Wrote: [ -> ]She wants to share her food with you and do a "You massage me, I'll massage you," session. You're in, bro.

Just set up a "massage session" on Saturday just the two of us and hopefully her father is out of the house. been texting her and It seems like shes interested.

Forgot to add an interaction yesterday.
After class ended, I decided to walk down the stairs and this girl decide walk directly next to me. In class, I wasn't sure if she was looking at this one dude when he speaks or just staring at me because we were both basically within the same field of view. She arrived and matched my pace for a few seconds and I started talking to her, Albeit asking a lot of questions and talking about myself, before resistance had a chance to mobilize. She seemed interested but I always forget to ask her for her fb/phone number.

Day 10 (9/14/16)

Entire day I felt really calm yet happy. Its super subtle form of happiness. like everything is okay and nothing can really faze me.

Been checking myself and my reactions to negative triggers. If i saw something that makes me jealous then I would recognize it then subconsciously the emotional charge is gone and consciously I would has if I really should spend the finite F**ks I have on it. Learned the conscious part of it the process through Mark Manson's book and DMSI may have played a part in the subconscious.

Even in the creative aspect of photography, I came up with a couple of ideas that triggered some form of anger but it was quickly neutralized and I remained happy. It was like a quick hot flash.

Day 11

-Just finished one of my classes, the entire class was basically talking to the girl from yesterday. If Iois was a floating emoji, she would have flooded the room with it. So we started like neural but then in quickly esclates to a tease fest initiated by me. I made everything about her because she was very quirky and easy to tease. Everytime she looks into my eyes it was with a smile and would look away. Some of the teases made her expression change as if it held enormous weight. I was subconsciously instructed to look at her eyes. Which I saw very dilated pupils.
-She hinted that she was single(I think) by loosely implying why her and her bf broke up.
-Soon enough she asked if I had this one IM app, which i didnt, instead I asked her for her number. She rejected it and the rejection slid off me like a misunderstanding. Planning to install that app now.

I have been frequenting a particular food tent and there's is this pretty black girl. When she saw me the first few times, she felt cold but today she has the warmest half smile ever.

I'd rather insist on getting that number, you don't need that app. Or just take her somewhere after class. If she resists, just tell her exactly what's on your mind. She's definitely interested in you.

Been "peeling the onion" and tackling of past experiences in the relation to women and relationships. I have been realizing that I have more control over my emotions and grounding myself. I can clearly feel and see the past interactions but with a much clearer and less emotional view. It's almost as if DMSI preps me to release them when I can

Academics are tanking because Im lacking motivation to do work and study.

Saturday is off because something more rewarding to me emotionally came up.

Went to a club I help organize, I have been glancing at this one girl we shall call K. K is younger than me by a few years. So I catch her either glancing or staring at me. Didn't do anything about it because I had a hell of a great time chilling out and singing to my throat gives out. Later she toppled something over, and she got embarrassed. I naturally came over with the other organizers to help her out.

Later, nearing the end of the whole event, I decided to move my seat to somewhere much closer to her and talk to another girl. K glanced at me while I made that move and she panicked or something. After about 5-7 mins, she began saying her goodbyes and packed up and left. She was on the verge of fighting the guy so she can leave.

I think I creeped her out or something that sucks.

(09-16-2016, 05:58 PM)Aventus45 Wrote: [ -> ]Went to a club I help organize, I have been glancing at this one girl we shall call K. K is younger than me by a few years. So I catch her either glancing or staring at me. Didn't do anything about it because I had a hell of a great time chilling out and singing to my throat gives out. Later she toppled something over, and she got embarrassed. I naturally came over with the other organizers to help her out.

Later, nearing the end of the whole event, I decided to move my seat to somewhere much closer to her and talk to another girl. K glanced at me while I made that move and she panicked or something. After about 5-7 mins, she began saying her goodbyes and packed up and left. She was on the verge of fighting the guy so she can leave.

I think I creeped her out or something that sucks.

Think maybe she bolted 'cuz you didn't go talk to her instead? Perhaps she couldn't handle her own disappointment.

(09-16-2016, 06:00 PM)RTBoss Wrote: [ -> ]

(09-16-2016, 05:58 PM)Aventus45 Wrote: [ -> ]Went to a club I help organize, I have been glancing at this one girl we shall call K. K is younger than me by a few years. So I catch her either glancing or staring at me. Didn't do anything about it because I had a hell of a great time chilling out and singing to my throat gives out. Later she toppled something over, and she got embarrassed. I naturally came over with the other organizers to help her out.

Later, nearing the end of the whole event, I decided to move my seat to somewhere much closer to her and talk to another girl. K glanced at me while I made that move and she panicked or something. After about 5-7 mins, she began saying her goodbyes and packed up and left. She was on the verge of fighting the guy so she can leave.

I think I creeped her out or something that sucks.

Think maybe she bolted 'cuz you didn't go talk to her instead? Perhaps she couldn't handle her own disappointment.

Probably, I need to hone the "fuck it just do it" attitude I had back in E2.

Day 15

-Casually waiting for the sniper effect to manifest and renew my faith in this program. Only half joking.

-Went to a field day with a conglomeration of the school clubs. Had fun with the members there, teased a couple of people. There was a chubby freshman who locked eyes with me and she felt this attraction because she couldn't stop glancing at me. I didn't really care for chubbs but it was cool knowing her. She is giving me signs and *I think (Warning I may be wrong as my memory is foggy)* one of her friends was encouraging her to do something. So she stood closer and behind me.

-on the Same day, I heard the news of a bomb going off in my city and it is located close to the train station I frequent on my way to school. The news was frightening but what threw me off was the last chapter of the book I'm reading which deals with the inevitable end of all of us. While I was reading the chapter and consciously letting go of the fear of death, I felt understandably terrified and the aura is activated and started spreading from my sacral area. Being conscious that I will die eventually puts all the petty stuff into perspective.

(09-19-2016, 07:37 AM)Aventus45 Wrote: [ -> ]Day 15

-Casually waiting for the sniper effect to manifest and renew my faith in this program. Only half joking.

-Went to a field day with a conglomeration of the school clubs. Had fun with the members there, teased a couple of people. There was a chubby freshman who locked eyes with me and she felt this attraction because she couldn't stop glancing at me. I didn't really care for chubbs but it was cool knowing her. She is giving me signs and *I think (Warning I may be wrong as my memory is foggy)* one of her friends was encouraging her to do something. So she stood closer and behind me.

-on the Same day, I heard the news of a bomb going off in my city and it is located close to the train station I frequent on my way to school. The news was frightening but what threw me off was the last chapter of the book I'm reading which deals with the inevitable end of all of us. While I was reading the chapter and consciously letting go of the fear of death, I felt understandably terrified and the aura is activated and started spreading from my sacral area. Being conscious that I will die eventually puts all the petty stuff into perspective.

Aventus, are you in NYC or Jersey by any chance?

We had a bomb go off in NYC in the Chelsea area this past Saturday. This was after my building had a bomb threat last week.

If you are in NYC, keep safe. It's crazy out here these days.

(09-19-2016, 07:57 AM)Duke.Togo Wrote: [ -> ]

(09-19-2016, 07:37 AM)Aventus45 Wrote: [ -> ]Day 15

-Casually waiting for the sniper effect to manifest and renew my faith in this program. Only half joking.

-Went to a field day with a conglomeration of the school clubs. Had fun with the members there, teased a couple of people. There was a chubby freshman who locked eyes with me and she felt this attraction because she couldn't stop glancing at me. I didn't really care for chubbs but it was cool knowing her. She is giving me signs and *I think (Warning I may be wrong as my memory is foggy)* one of her friends was encouraging her to do something. So she stood closer and behind me.

-on the Same day, I heard the news of a bomb going off in my city and it is located close to the train station I frequent on my way to school. The news was frightening but what threw me off was the last chapter of the book I'm reading which deals with the inevitable end of all of us. While I was reading the chapter and consciously letting go of the fear of death, I felt understandably terrified and the aura is activated and started spreading from my sacral area. Being conscious that I will die eventually puts all the petty stuff into perspective.

Aventus, are you in NYC or Jersey by any chance?

We had a bomb go off in NYC in the Chelsea area this past Saturday. This was after my building had a bomb threat last week.

If you are in NYC, keep safe. It's crazy out here these days.

Im in NYC. The bomb hit scarily close to where I frequent. I would hate to get the Game Over Screen before I test DMSI V3. Lol. You keep safe too!