04-08-2016, 09:37 AM
Hey guys. Coming towards the end of Stage 2 of my second SM run and thought its about time I start my journal! This journal will only contain things of note, concrete sex-related things, I'm not going to be posting things like some cashier who smiled and played with her hair!
To summarise what's happened since beginning:
-My ex (of about 3 and a half years) who I've been just friends with since breaking up, and hadn't seen for about a year came to see me in a musical I was performing in. We agreed we'd hang out and have drinks afterwards, so she came over to mine after the show. Couple of hours of chatting, laughing, talking about sex/dating lives etc, she tells me since she's slept with 5 men, she doesn't know if she wants to start a "new hand" (meaning 5 fingers for one hand, if she slept with a 6th, it'd be counted on a second hand). Naturally I say, so if we hook up, you'd be fine.. Leading us to kissing, heading to the bedroom, me going down on her and then... No reaction from my johnson. Great. Here she was, looking hotter than ever, but nope. Likely I was putting too much pressure on it, this had been a fantasy of mine ever since we broke up. But hey, we still had fun, and I'd say another go is still on the cards. This time I'll make sure I take some cialis, just to ease my mind..
-I ended things with my 1 and a half year fwb, who I actually started things with during my last sm run. She was beginning to annoy me, I found I didn't enjoy her company at all, and she was also way too needy. Felt great after ending it.
-Went on a date with a chick, didn't work out as shortly after agreeing to come to mine for the second date, she bailed saying she didn't want to complicate her love-life since she will be travelling a lot this year. Next.
-Went on a date with a 19 year old cutie I consider a personal 9.5(I don't believe in 10s). She saw the musical I was in and added me on facebook afterwards and we chatted from there. A short 90 minute drink, I touched her a bit, talked about sex and didn't kiss her. Second date, she came over to "watch a movie", we fooled around but she was on her period, so it ended with a handjob. 3rd date, a week later, she comes over, this time no period and we have sex. Wasn't amazing, but pretty decent, I find its very rarely great the first time with a girl. Finding I actually think she's cool and enjoy her company though. Week later, round 2.. This time the sex was phenomenal.. She still has a fair bit to learn being young and experienced but I'm more than happy to teach. The sex was great because A) I was super turned on, and B) It was the performance of a lifetime. I was extremely immersed,
finding myself being naturally dominant without having to force it, it was just on. Gave her her first ever orgasm (outside of using her own hand), which on the previous date she said "I can't orgasm unless I'm alone".
I should note the entire reason I'm running SM is that I've always found it difficult to hook up with women who I considered truly attractive. I'd consider this girl to be the at least equally (to my ex actually) or the most physically attractive woman I've slept with.. This is super important to me, despite some guys saying looks don't matter (they're lying to themselves). I want to be hooking up only with girls who I consider super hot, and out of those, some might be more fun, or more intelligent, or more caring than others, and that will affect who I want to stick around, but I don't want to be hooking up with girls that I consider physically average anymore.
So this is where I'm at now, that last encounter was a few days ago. Feeling pretty good after an AM run where I didn't sleep with anyone new. Will keep updating as I go along, hopefully with more sordid details.
To summarise what's happened since beginning:
-My ex (of about 3 and a half years) who I've been just friends with since breaking up, and hadn't seen for about a year came to see me in a musical I was performing in. We agreed we'd hang out and have drinks afterwards, so she came over to mine after the show. Couple of hours of chatting, laughing, talking about sex/dating lives etc, she tells me since she's slept with 5 men, she doesn't know if she wants to start a "new hand" (meaning 5 fingers for one hand, if she slept with a 6th, it'd be counted on a second hand). Naturally I say, so if we hook up, you'd be fine.. Leading us to kissing, heading to the bedroom, me going down on her and then... No reaction from my johnson. Great. Here she was, looking hotter than ever, but nope. Likely I was putting too much pressure on it, this had been a fantasy of mine ever since we broke up. But hey, we still had fun, and I'd say another go is still on the cards. This time I'll make sure I take some cialis, just to ease my mind..
-I ended things with my 1 and a half year fwb, who I actually started things with during my last sm run. She was beginning to annoy me, I found I didn't enjoy her company at all, and she was also way too needy. Felt great after ending it.
-Went on a date with a chick, didn't work out as shortly after agreeing to come to mine for the second date, she bailed saying she didn't want to complicate her love-life since she will be travelling a lot this year. Next.
-Went on a date with a 19 year old cutie I consider a personal 9.5(I don't believe in 10s). She saw the musical I was in and added me on facebook afterwards and we chatted from there. A short 90 minute drink, I touched her a bit, talked about sex and didn't kiss her. Second date, she came over to "watch a movie", we fooled around but she was on her period, so it ended with a handjob. 3rd date, a week later, she comes over, this time no period and we have sex. Wasn't amazing, but pretty decent, I find its very rarely great the first time with a girl. Finding I actually think she's cool and enjoy her company though. Week later, round 2.. This time the sex was phenomenal.. She still has a fair bit to learn being young and experienced but I'm more than happy to teach. The sex was great because A) I was super turned on, and B) It was the performance of a lifetime. I was extremely immersed,
finding myself being naturally dominant without having to force it, it was just on. Gave her her first ever orgasm (outside of using her own hand), which on the previous date she said "I can't orgasm unless I'm alone".
I should note the entire reason I'm running SM is that I've always found it difficult to hook up with women who I considered truly attractive. I'd consider this girl to be the at least equally (to my ex actually) or the most physically attractive woman I've slept with.. This is super important to me, despite some guys saying looks don't matter (they're lying to themselves). I want to be hooking up only with girls who I consider super hot, and out of those, some might be more fun, or more intelligent, or more caring than others, and that will affect who I want to stick around, but I don't want to be hooking up with girls that I consider physically average anymore.
So this is where I'm at now, that last encounter was a few days ago. Feeling pretty good after an AM run where I didn't sleep with anyone new. Will keep updating as I go along, hopefully with more sordid details.
