Subliminal Talk

Day 107 of FYPJ,day 70 of STC

I noticed I have a sense of deserving a great job and pay.
I am aware that I will be awesome and if I don't get hired
to a job it's their loss.I am good and getting better all the time.

There's some feeling out of sync at the background.It's like being
still in the middle of something and feeling energy is changing around me.

STC is so wonderfully brilliant,I notice challenges around me and than I
jump and run towards them until I'm done and than go to look for the
next one.I'm constantly trying to get out of my comfort zone improving
myself and my skills.

I don't care about mistakes,looking bad or being embarrassed or admitting
that I'm not yet good at something.I take the necessary steps to master
each challenge.

I went to a job interview this week at the company I sent my resume to
the second time.The interviewer remembered me and decided to sent me
home without an interview.Not much of a loss because they had nice
tea there but no waffles and biscuits,they had horrible work hours as the
high tech companies policy here is to work the employees until they
fire them or the employees can't take it any more and change careers.

Other than that it was lots of fun,I had lots of tea,met friends there
and started talking to another pretty female job applicant that got
there.The secretary was pretty too and showed IOI.Maybe I should
send my resume to them again.

The thing about STC that I really like it's the sense of freedom
after being done with a challenge.It's about moving beyond my fears and limitations,letting them go and being better and doing what I couldn't do
or was afraid to do before.

Hey Roy sounds like you are doing great regardless of not having gotten that perfect job yet. I cant wait to run STC!

Roy, what kind of challenges have you been seeking and succeeding in?

@ALI6NMENT,the difference is that ASC works on self confidence generally.
It will helps to a lot things.It causes to get out of the comfort zone because if the increased confidence but it's not focused on that.

STC is all about noticing the challenges,jumping,running and moving towards them as fast as possible while improving at the fastest possible rate.It causes to get out of the comfort zone to the challenge until done with it and than go looking for the next one.

@Spiral,some are getting out on weekends which I don't know why I haven't done before,releasing a lot more,pushing myself more on my yoga practice to more complex and useful routines that are more helpful to my current goals that I previously put off because I thought they were hard and complex.

Pushing myself more on meditation and mental enhancement practices
that I do and also contact juggling,salsa and I have some more ideas
on new things to do and try now that keep coming to mind.

It's almost like my mind is constantly urging me to improve and do new
things which should be fun,I have to experiment on them first.

Day 127 of FYPJ,day 90 of STC

After 90 days of STC I'm going to stop using it and change it to remove
negativity within.It's has such incredible effects and got me into facing
and succeeding in lots of stuff I wanted to.

There's total disconnection from embarrassment about making mistakes
and screwing up and I'm persisting even when being not good enough.

Anyway I'll write more about it's not 5:43 AM and I went to salsa and danced and danced.Interesting effect in salsa is me starting to learn and model things that other people do rather fast.The not caring about making
mistakes and doing new stuff helps a lot.

I tried new stuff because I bored with the usual stuff I normally do and
tried to improvise moves.It seems something is getting into me when
learning new stuff and improving.

One curious thing today was during dancing I felt so hollow,cold and
emotionless.There were some dances I did brilliantly and women really
enjoyed and I was so empty inside.In one I did lots of more sexual/sensual
stuff which is fun but will be lots of writing to explain.I felt my body getting
a somewhat aroused which is natural after getting a really cute woman
close,getting her to touch my chest and abdomen and doing similar
things to her.It took me less than about two weeks with about
two or three dancing sessions to learn and getting comfortable with this.

Maybe it's because of too much meditation I'm doing lately.I have to look
into it.Or something with the flow state.I'll figure this later.

And I have no idea what to do about going on with finding a job.

Day 131 of FYPJ,day 4 of RNW

On the first two days of RNW I was very happy from some reason.I had
lots of negativity about my life coming up yesterday.I also had some very
vivid dreams in those days.I had one when I was walking in the city I
live in,it was flooded and than the water started moving back and than
there was a huge wave flooding me and I tried to hang on to something.

Than there were cops that got hit by things from metal changed to minotaurs and started chasing me.I forgot the rest.

Minotaurs and not zombies,that's new.

I got a call from one place I sent my CV to for a software QA position.They
asked about my payment expectations and tried to get me to accept as low as they possibly can get me to.Far away,boring job at the lowest payment they can give.

I'm getting pissed about it and starting to think more about opening
a business of my own.

Dew it Roy! I'll work for you

Day 144 of FYPJ,day 17 of RNW

RNW is definitely working.It brought up lots of negativity in the last two days.Yesterday it was quite hard and I was seriously depressed and flooded
with negativity and started crying from some reason.Also lots of anger about
my life and how it's turned out is coming.I'm pi**ed about people manipulating me and my life.Also things about my financial and employment
situation is quite irritating.

Before those last two days I began noticing I'm sometimes happier,more
relaxed socially and better communicating with people and more centered.

(05-07-2012, 09:12 AM)Roy Wrote: [ -> ]Day 144 of FYPJ,day 17 of RNW

RNW is definitely working.It brought up lots of negativity in the last two days.Yesterday it was quite hard and I was seriously depressed and flooded
with negativity and started crying from some reason.Also lots of anger about
my life and how it's turned out is coming.I'm pi**ed about people manipulating me and my life.Also things about my financial and employment
situation is quite irritating.

Before those last two days I began noticing I'm sometimes happier,more
relaxed socially and better communicating with people and more centered.

Sometimes, removal necessarily comes from expression.

Day 163 of FYPJ,day 36 of RNW

I have noticed that after RNW most of the time I'm a lot more clear
headed and with a very quiet mind.It's a feeling like a lot of negative stuff
is not there anymore.

I have noticed I'm being too hard on myself.I push myself into every challenge I can find in order to improve faster and sometimes think I'm not improving fast enough.It's also the situation in my life at the moment.I seem to looking and searching and can't find a good job to get better income and become more independent,get a car and whatever.

Currently I'm quite frustrated about lots of stuff.I got more no responses
from work places than everyone else I know and I keep trying.
In the skills I'm working on I keep challenging myself and keep learning,
getting out of my comfort zone constantly.It causes me to feel sometimes
that I'm not good enough.And I know it's not rational and
I have to go through it to get better.

I went to a job fair and went to every company there with hardly any results.Even one I had a short interview there and it went really well resulted in nothing.

I am considering changing FYPJ to something else.

Also somehow from RNW I'm better socially and with better sense of
humor and more relaxed with people.I'm stopping sometimes to enjoy
small beautiful moments in life and enjoy them.

Hey hang in there. I'm glad remove negativity is working out for you. I think that's what I'm going to start using next and can't wait. And dude I've been looking for a job for the past 8 months. about a fourth of the time I've been investing into researching and looking for jobs online. It's challenging to say the least. You'll find something soon man. I know you will if you keep working at it.

Ultra Success day 20,Maximum Learning Speed day 14

I switched from FYPJ after 170 days and RNW after 49 days.RNW worked brilliantly and removed lots of stuff that was inside.It's harder to relate
to other people negativity,it seems so useless to me.

Haven't found a job yet and it was lots of time already on FYPJ so I changed it was time to switch.

US has the same effects it had on me previously.I noticed a boost in motivation,wanting to get things done,and things working out better,
it also appears that there's less effort involved.People come and help
with stuff I'm working on.

MLS caused me to feel mental overload in the first few days.There's an
effect that I'm remembering things I saw or heard.I'm also understanding
and learning new and complex things faster and I don't understand
why I didn't get it earlier.I also seems to be more focused and interested
when learning new things.

The plan is to finish with US and MLS and than use AM 5.0.It's been long
enough since running AM 2010 and I need to refresh and get the programing deeper.

Awesome Roy! I want to get on Maximum Learning Speed in the future. May be after my next 6 stage set.

(06-22-2012, 08:08 AM)Roy Wrote: [ -> ]Ultra Success day 20,Maximum Learning Speed day 14

I switched from FYPJ after 170 days and RNW after 49 days.RNW worked brilliantly and removed lots of stuff that was inside.It's harder to relate
to other people negativity,it seems so useless to me.

Haven't found a job yet and it was lots of time already on FYPJ so I changed it was time to switch.

US has the same effects it had on me previously.I noticed a boost in motivation,wanting to get things done,and things working out better,
it also appears that there's less effort involved.People come and help
with stuff I'm working on.

MLS caused me to feel mental overload in the first few days.There's an
effect that I'm remembering things I saw or heard.I'm also understanding
and learning new and complex things faster and I don't understand
why I didn't get it earlier.I also seems to be more focused and interested
when learning new things.

The plan is to finish with US and MLS and than use AM 5.0.It's been long
enough since running AM 2010 and I need to refresh and get the programing deeper.

When MLS first started kicking in I felt a mental "awakening". It was as if my mind instantly had an IQ increase. I rememeber when it first started kicking in I actually started doing chemistry problems for shits and giggles (and I hardly EVER do chemistry outside of a classroom). I'm 51 days in and I can tell you this sub is awesome. If you can, try to get 60 days of use under your belt. This sub is really underrated IMO.

Think about it, if you can learn fast that means that whenever you get a new job it will take you less time to adjust and in life it will make you more versatile because you can adapt and adjust to new/different circumstances much faster than a normal person could.
I'm sure you'll love the effects as time goes on.