Subliminal Talk

Yeah, STC is a good one.

Day 75 of FYPJ,day 38 of STC

I went to an interview last Sunday and I thought I did well but I
got another no reply yesterday.I also went to a an interview yesterday
for teaching math to help students in the afternoon as a part time
job for a few months,nice payment,not a lot of hours,the interviewer
seemed to really want to hire me.

Than I did the personality tests of completing sentences,copying figures
and that stuff.Today I got a no answer from them.Doesn't matter,I got
a call for an interview from another electronics company after sending
them my resume five times.

STC continues to work,it seemed to have stabilized in the last few days.
I am enjoying contact juggling a lot,it's tons of fun,there's something
very meditative and some of the movement are very similar to tai chi.

I have a birthday today and am now 30.I get into a melancholic mood in my birthdays.It was a fun and interesting year and passed too fast.I have a lot less regrets from the last year compared to the rest of them.

My your birthday be a pleasurable one, and filled with what become happy memories for you. May your regrets dissolve and become as dust in the wind, and may you seek the challenge, remembering that it is the path of persistence in the face of failure that teaches us what we need to do to succeed. Never allow yourself to surrender, and success will be yours, no matter how begrudgingly it may be so.

Have a happy birthday Roy. It seems we are both hitting the 30 year mark this year. I have a feeling this is when the true fun in life starts. Enjoy the day to the fullest.

Shannon, you have such a way with words.

Happy Birthday Roy! Best wishes in finding your perfect job as soon as possible! GOD Bless!

Happy Birthday Roy! Hope it's a great one. Maybe your bday wish will help with that perfect job.

Happy Birthday buddy!

R

Day 82 of FYPJ,day 45 of STC

The day I got the no from the teaching job I was called by a DSP
company to interview for a logic design engineer position.I had
a relative working there so he helped me prepare for a interview.

I drank lots of green tea with waffles and biscuits during the interview and
I answered most of their questions correctly.I got along with the interviewer and even told some one liner about logical gates.

Today I got a rejection letter from them.I wanted to get to the next interview,I didn't feel I had enough tea,waffles and biscuits.
I have no idea why I got a no answer.Or how to find a job in my field
of electrical engineering.There are about 200 resumes sent for each
job,20 are interviewed,the odds are not that high.I even had to lie
and increase my grades average on my resume by 3 points to 85
to get this interview and send them my resume several times.
To make matters worse I have no job experience in this field.

Still feeling out of sync from time to time.

I'm really enjoying STC,improving in stuff,learning new things and having fun doing it.It appears my mind is constantly coming
with ways to do things better and improve.I seem to be on the lookout
for the new challenge or new thing to learn that I can't do yet.

Other than that I would really like FYPJ to work already so I can return
to my sex crazed guy wanting to get something for nothing way.

Day 84 of FYPJ,day 47 of STC

I had a lucid dream today,haven't had one for a year,something there
triggered my brain to notice I'm dreaming,it was a combination of
the location and time and events.Anyway most of the themes and events
were either related to STC or FYPJ with job environments.

Kind of lost some lucidity later in the dream but still tons of dream recall
from it.Forgot to remind myself it's a dream so I sort of fell back into it.

Still feeling out of sync.

I have insane levels of motivation to improve and do things better.

Hey Roy, when you got to 70 days of ASC, was the effect more cemented? I ask, because right now, I feel like I'm mostly over the hump however I still feel my old fears yanking at me although it's not as powerful as it was before. I'm hoping by day 70-90 most of these problems will be gone.

Day 99 of FYPJ,day 62 of STC

@K-Train,when I got about to day 40 it was pretty much cemented with the occasional bursts here and there.It's about self confidence and part of it is that it is easier to face your fears instead of waiting for them to vanish and go away.

Had another job interview that I got to it by complete coincidence.
I managed to get another one this Sunday by sending my CV again
to a company I already had an interview in and wasn't hired.

Had a dream about an old job tonight and I noticed that the negative
things about it were neutralized.

Seek the Challenge is so much fun.I'm pushing out of my comfort zone
and it expanded a lot.I'm doing a lot more and being more motivated and
doing new things.I'm getting comments in salsa that I'm improving very
fast,I think it might be related.

I got a decluttering urge two days ago and started to get rid of useless items.There's a lot more mental clarity and energy after doing that.
It usually means a change of self image and making rooms for new things
in my life.

That's always a good thing.

About 6-8 hours of STC and 8-9 of FYPJ.