(12-31-2015, 01:06 PM)hiddenalias Wrote: [ -> ]DAY 20 - 19 Days of listening
8.5 hours ultrasonic tones using USB while sleeping
30 min ultrasonic tones using USB while awake
1 hour using over the head headphones trickling stream while awake
30 min using over the head headphones US tones while awake
total 10.5 hours
MISSED ONE DAY OF LISTENING
Dreams:
I usually don't mention dreams no more becuz it is so irrelevant and random and not based on the topic that I am listening to. Soooooooo this time however it was different, I literally had a dream "school related" (speaking of max learning speed). So here is what I remember......(I swear just using USB makes me get vivid dreams; I might try again blue tooth one more time tonight and see if that gives me vivid too or not) both on US.......
So I dreamt I had a class and get this, Judge Judy, was my teacher! And the dream I had was missing a big piece of an assignment I think I did either wrong or forgot to hand in.....now the emotion I was feeling was FEAR....I was afraid of asking Judge Judy to give me a 2nd chance and let me get a specific piece of paper that had instructions or something to do it right; now she was being strict.......and I was like merciful PLEEEASSSEEEEEE let me have a 2nd chance!! and what I remember was that I was in a room she was sitting and I was by her desk standing......and there was this guy I think asking her for bathroom keys??? I perceived him as her husband........but the room was filled with people.......on the outside there was some contest I think occurring......it was sooooooooooo vivid but I wish I remembered ALL THE DETAILS......(remind me to write immediately upon waking so I dont miss out on the details)........I think in the end, she was gonna give it to me (the paper) and I hit a cord with her that she has a 'sensitive' side.....but thats beside the point; the moral of story might have tapped into my thoughts and the emotion of FEAR and MERCIFUL was brought up of missing a giant assignment cuz I probably wasnt paying attention or was being lazy to do it or something.....but if I dreamt further, I think she was turning soft and gentle with me that she would have let me get a 2nd chance on the paper.....
(end of dreams)
Note that the over the head headphones I have may not play up to 20 khz since Ive had them for a while before IML so I dont know if it will do me any justice.....however the mp3 player I have also may not be worthy of playing 20khz; so now that I am done with the disclaimers, let's begin. So today I am back on the wagon to do a self training learning experience; I found another seemingly credible ethical hacking program on Youtube. I watched about maybe 5 or 6 video tops; they're broken down into less than 10 min per vid and seem quite simple to watch.....they have a total of 75 vids; tonight the basic vids and key concepts etc I skipped over that; unfortunately I am not hands on with this program yet but more of a lecture listening in for acquiring knowledge sort of observation I did; again i am more interested in hands on learning to acquire a skill with this idea and not really interested in the 'knowledge' side of things at this time......however becuz it is my first night watching, the first couple of vids were to "understand" the core concepts and keywords......makes sense; dont wanna dive right in without knowing basics......I was listening to the vids without the subs even playing.....when I was trying to absorb the information, my brain was quickly trying to find ways to "remember" key concepts using past thoughts to fuse together ideas that would help me to recall information.....we're talking about information I never heard in my life.....and yeah it works the way I try to 'keep track' of factual information hearing it for the first time, but that doesnt mean I am remembering literally everything just as much as I can; becuz you cant expect to watch over 10 vids to 70 for instance, and think you will recall everything instantaneously for the first time of just watching something that you dont even have any knowledge on the subject matter.....so I concluded I'd watch about 9 vids per day and that would take 10 days for this learning experience and see how well has MLS really been developed in my mind listening to it for close to 3 weeks now.....and how quicklly I can adapt and utilize this skill in the real world.....I am guessing in the real world without MLS it would have taken me months to master something but with MLS see if I can recall and retain what I learn in days to weeks.....I will also register to become a certified ethical hacker.....and take a test at the end.
Good to hear its working for you dude!
I used to have dreams about university, where i missed a deadline for assignment and then failed the course. I wake up so relieved that i did pass, but it scares the hell out of me when i dream about it!
(01-01-2016, 01:07 AM)ArcticFox Wrote: [ -> ] (12-31-2015, 01:06 PM)hiddenalias Wrote: [ -> ]DAY 20 - 19 Days of listening
8.5 hours ultrasonic tones using USB while sleeping
30 min ultrasonic tones using USB while awake
1 hour using over the head headphones trickling stream while awake
30 min using over the head headphones US tones while awake
total 10.5 hours
MISSED ONE DAY OF LISTENING
Dreams:
I usually don't mention dreams no more becuz it is so irrelevant and random and not based on the topic that I am listening to. Soooooooo this time however it was different, I literally had a dream "school related" (speaking of max learning speed). So here is what I remember......(I swear just using USB makes me get vivid dreams; I might try again blue tooth one more time tonight and see if that gives me vivid too or not) both on US.......
So I dreamt I had a class and get this, Judge Judy, was my teacher! And the dream I had was missing a big piece of an assignment I think I did either wrong or forgot to hand in.....now the emotion I was feeling was FEAR....I was afraid of asking Judge Judy to give me a 2nd chance and let me get a specific piece of paper that had instructions or something to do it right; now she was being strict.......and I was like merciful PLEEEASSSEEEEEE let me have a 2nd chance!! and what I remember was that I was in a room she was sitting and I was by her desk standing......and there was this guy I think asking her for bathroom keys??? I perceived him as her husband........but the room was filled with people.......on the outside there was some contest I think occurring......it was sooooooooooo vivid but I wish I remembered ALL THE DETAILS......(remind me to write immediately upon waking so I dont miss out on the details)........I think in the end, she was gonna give it to me (the paper) and I hit a cord with her that she has a 'sensitive' side.....but thats beside the point; the moral of story might have tapped into my thoughts and the emotion of FEAR and MERCIFUL was brought up of missing a giant assignment cuz I probably wasnt paying attention or was being lazy to do it or something.....but if I dreamt further, I think she was turning soft and gentle with me that she would have let me get a 2nd chance on the paper.....
(end of dreams)
Note that the over the head headphones I have may not play up to 20 khz since Ive had them for a while before IML so I dont know if it will do me any justice.....however the mp3 player I have also may not be worthy of playing 20khz; so now that I am done with the disclaimers, let's begin. So today I am back on the wagon to do a self training learning experience; I found another seemingly credible ethical hacking program on Youtube. I watched about maybe 5 or 6 video tops; they're broken down into less than 10 min per vid and seem quite simple to watch.....they have a total of 75 vids; tonight the basic vids and key concepts etc I skipped over that; unfortunately I am not hands on with this program yet but more of a lecture listening in for acquiring knowledge sort of observation I did; again i am more interested in hands on learning to acquire a skill with this idea and not really interested in the 'knowledge' side of things at this time......however becuz it is my first night watching, the first couple of vids were to "understand" the core concepts and keywords......makes sense; dont wanna dive right in without knowing basics......I was listening to the vids without the subs even playing.....when I was trying to absorb the information, my brain was quickly trying to find ways to "remember" key concepts using past thoughts to fuse together ideas that would help me to recall information.....we're talking about information I never heard in my life.....and yeah it works the way I try to 'keep track' of factual information hearing it for the first time, but that doesnt mean I am remembering literally everything just as much as I can; becuz you cant expect to watch over 10 vids to 70 for instance, and think you will recall everything instantaneously for the first time of just watching something that you dont even have any knowledge on the subject matter.....so I concluded I'd watch about 9 vids per day and that would take 10 days for this learning experience and see how well has MLS really been developed in my mind listening to it for close to 3 weeks now.....and how quicklly I can adapt and utilize this skill in the real world.....I am guessing in the real world without MLS it would have taken me months to master something but with MLS see if I can recall and retain what I learn in days to weeks.....I will also register to become a certified ethical hacker.....and take a test at the end.
Good to hear its working for you dude!
I used to have dreams about university, where i missed a deadline for assignment and then failed the course. I wake up so relieved that i did pass, but it scares the hell out of me when i dream about it!
People usually say that a sub that is working, they get vivid dreams, again last night I had a vivid dream as always......I dont feel different about 2/3 of the month later of listening....but then again, if you have been following my journal posts, you will see that there were some rare occasions that resulted becuz of MLS 5g; it isnt fair justice becuz what I shouldve done is pick a random selected topic to "learn" on and then started with MLS 5g; not start 2/3 of the month later.....just last night I started learning a program I dont even know so now we get to find out the real deal how effective it has influenced me...but at the end of running the program I will do a comparison chart of what manifested and what didnt (at the 32 day mark possibly).
My assumptions of MLS 5g was that it was supposed to make me smarter (memory, thinking of what to say on the fly without searching for the right words, etc.) However MLS is obviously for things like learning any new skill one has not acquired and learning it along with listening with MLS cuz it will "train you faster" so to speak on the discipline of study.
But like you I have had 1 or 2 dreams related to school thus far so maybe it is doing something just taking a bit longer.....my only explanation why subs dont work is becuz there are blockages, if we know how to deal with it, then we can do as others have done in this forum and to produce results very effortlessly. Thanks for keeping up with my posts
DAY 21- 20 Days of listening
MISSED ONE DAY OF LISTENING
9 hours ultrasonic tones using USB while sleeping max volume; vivid dreams - yes
2 hours ultrasonic tones using USB whille awake
Total 11 hours for the day
I wanted to make a quick notation that if the mind is fogged and you are listening to Shannon's MLS 5g, dont expect miracles to occur becuz if you are like me, constantly thinking about jibberish BS non stop random thoughts attacking your mind, you wont know for sure that the sub is working; today, I tried to shut off all the mental thought noise and be in the "now" and clearly focus on what is happening in the present time of what I am doing without dwelling into the vortex of nonstop mind chattering......and I actually experienced clarity of understanding on what I was watching on TV......the watching what show on tv is not as important as the point is that you can understand more of what you do whether watching tv or reading a book and infuse points together without having to either re read a passage in a book or rewind a scene on tv to rewatch it to 'understand' what you didnt.
So what I am getting at is MLS 5g will not serve you any purpose if you cant stop thinking about random mental garbage clogging your brain.....
I already knew about the theory back in the day but it is too hard to naturally focus in the present time and not be tempted to dwell on random past thoughts......I guess with practice it will serve you well....(only speaking of the sub for MLS) it doesnt apply to any other subs of Shannon's I'd presume.
DAY 22 - 3 WEEKS OF LISTENING
9.5 hours listening of trickling stream while sleeping (volume 13/31)
3.5 hours listening while awake trickling stream (volume 12/31)
total 13 hours listened today
MISSED ONE DAY OF LISTENING
So I want to say that I do recall dreams but I dont know if they are as vivid as listening to them on US tones. Today I felt (using trickling stream only) that I kind of was mentally more "sharp" to say the least. I am also including the set volume above so you will know how loud the sound is playing over the course of the day.
I notice words come to me when like, writing on the forum, for example, the proper words come to me without me "thinking" for it......I had this weird thing where I was trying to find the right word, again it did come only after a few minutes.....then I kind of feel is that when I just am just focused on the word, a second later, it disappears and then I try to remember what it was again; I mean it was just not even a second ago I was just thinking of it....maybe the whole memory thing might need more effort to fix beyond MLS......again MLS prime focus I dont think is memory but learning skills.....kinda drives me crazy that I cant do word recall sometimes, was trying to think for another word, just read it on google and now I forgot it.....
For this reason, I am thinking of using binaural tones for recall purposes (since the beats/tones are NOT subliminals with spoken words) so it is okay to use along with the sub......I would prefer using earbuds for the tones/beats.....had some good effects with them before I discovered IML years ago.
But using trickling stream seemed to have some kind of affect on me in a good way of course; I again am putting the ethical hacking on the backburner just becuz I feel it isn't "complete" in its course for active hands on learning so I guess I am going to go with some other topic of interest, maybe affiliate/internet marketing would be good.
Well it just happenend to me as I was writing, the specific word I was trying to remember finally came to me; at first my brain was scanning for the word, then I recalled it started with the letter P and finally lots of minutes later, BANG!!! the light bulb clicks over my head and now I remember what it was......lol and now I forgot it - easy come / easy go I guess..... (EDIT: 30 min later here I go, recalled it again)....I am just wondering if some kinda wiring in my brain is "loose" like a loose plug that doesnt charge a laptop sort of deal; same with my memory bank -- the cord is cut, needs replacement or is just loose and needs to be pushed firmly back in for the juice to flow more smoothly....
So I have to say MLS is TRYING to get me to recall so I know it MUST be working but this whole word recall BS is just frustrating even if I do get it minutes to hours later.....so I know it works but my main focus shouldnt be on word recall it should be on learning a skill set.
Cant use bluetooth yet but that would be more ideal for me and preference anyways. When I find a good device that easily operates 20 khz for bluetooth, I will use that.
Tonight I also did an assessment for a job again. (side note - the sub was not playing at this time) but I think I felt that I didnt have to re read the questions two times before I made a decision on the answers; then I also skipped on instructions and grasped how I am supposed to answer the questions. Then they made me do a test to see which items were different and which items were teh same with alphanumeric codes jumbled together........and I had one minute to answer them; and I just accurately responded to all of these......I understood the scenario without having to re-read it again......thanks possibly to the wonders of MLS becuz before the sub, I would prolly read a passage scenario multiple times before comprehending what was being asked of me on a multiple choice to select the proper one......so maybe MLS is having affects after all.....but unfortunately I failed the assessment prolly cuz the answers I thought "fit" wasnt preferable for management. Oh well.
DAY 23- 22 DAYS OF LISTENING
8.5 hours listening trickling stream while sleeping (volume 10/31)
3.5 hours while awake trickling stream
Total 12 hours listened for the day
MISSED ONE DAY OF LISTENING
I toned the volume down a bit when it comes to trickling stream as it gets unbearably too loud at higher volumes when trying to sleep. I had a dream last night not related to MLS but I think I like sharing dreams regardless of how random it was so here it goes....(love sharing dreams)
So basically I had a woman that I slept with about almost 12 years ago and she visited me in my dreams; in the real world, I sneaked her in my house and "made love" to her without my parents ever knowing.....but my dad suddenly came downstairs as the door was locked and wanted to see what was going on and (as always) he has a pissed off facial expression when I tried to acknowledge nothing happening down here....hid the chick in the bathroom when he came down; when the coast was clear I brought her back out...anyways the reason why I am telling you this story is becuz the way it was related to my dream is that it was the same woman and it felt that I "sneaked" her in the house somehow and was afraid for her to get spotted and it felt that there was "no way out" for her this time.....so I even tried to "get it on" with her in the dream and she resisted; but she did kiss me on the lips in the dream meaning that's as far as it would go...just a 'peck' on the lips; in the real world she wouldve resisted going further cuz she said she had a new man in the real world....so anything that happened in the dream wouldve played out as if it was the real life I am sure.....but in the end, she did manage to leave without any issues and without me getting into trouble....and I felt a massive amount of relief!
(end of dreams)
So I have ultimately decided what I want to learn - I have decided to learn Photoshop CS 6 through Youtube; as the sub was playing and while I was "learning" as a beginner on the subject, I managed to get through 3 videos of the total 29. As I was listening, I actually easily grasped the subject matter fusing together ways to recall the newly acquired knowledge. However the ultimate test is not until tonight when I do it on my own without looking back at the videos for guidance and review. Also while listening to the subs, I started getting a headache and started feeling "drained" and tired........while learning something for the first time at the same time of listening to the sub. I felt so drained I had to take a break.....now I feel like yawning......is this cuz of the sub??
So I managed to complete 5 parts of the (actually) 27 video training tutorials on Photoshop CS 6; I thought it was 29.......it's pretty simple to understand and I don't know if it is easy to follow cuz of the help of MLS 5g or the 'instructor' has an easy method in teaching; naa it's MLS 5g....of course it helps that the whole series is not full length in training meaning all 27 vids jam packed into one (which would bring it at about 2 hours I think)....but I feel 'good' about this that I am grasping what is where; yeah I forgot (some) how to's but hey I only watched it that 1 time; I think I did pretty good for a first time watcher that has no freaking clue about PS CS 6; I actually navigated myself to 'recall' as much as I could remember without re-watching the first few vids and I am glad to say I did overall pretty good. I'd say I recalled about 90% of what I learned watching the vids ONLY ONCE.
Tonight I am gonna utilize learning spanish via audiobook as MLS plays as I sleep....worth to experiment I guess.
Recall has been better than most days today too so that's good news.
DAY 24 - 23 DAYS OF LISTENING
MISSED ONE DAY OF LISTENING
at least 7 hours listening trickling stream while sleeping (volume 9/31)
So I lost track of how many hours I used the sub last night while sleeping but I am sure the minimum definitely was at least 7 hours;
Did several more Photoshop CS 6 tutorials online and though they did not 'stick with me' yet, it was easy to grasp what I was listening to. Some parts actually did stick; as mentioned, just listening to them one time will not make you remember everything only bits and details; the truth is that MLS I feel is made to make you learn faster (duh) so for instance without it, maybe it wouldve taken several months to master a skill; but with MLS it may only take less than 2 months I theorize; so just cuz you didnt get it viewing it one time doesnt mean the end of the world, you could repeatedly watch the tutorials several times but with MLS it would be wayyyy lesser than normal to learn them in comparison if you were learning the tutorials without MLS, it wouldve taken much much longer. So I won't be disappointed just cuz something I dont even have any knowledge of I dont recall how to do it just watching it a measley one time. I am going to keep track of my training with Photoshop CS 5 and have a start and end date of when I started learning the skill and when I master it.
I feel concentration and thinking to recall stuff has been rather smoother today; I think I feel more focused and actually concentrate when using active listening when someone explains something to me and when I review a tutorial. Havent played the sub since waking up this morning so I should really get back on that again especially putting it on a loop......I think I feel some sense of change now......I am going to continue testing and experimenting.
PS -- I also noticed tonight talking to someone on the phone that my details in explanation about a situation were easier to explain than struggling to find the words to explain a situation; it was like it was smoothly explained without 'trying' to find words to explain to them about what happened.....usually I would just try to think for words to say and get stuck in sentences to explain to them about situations or maybe not clearly explaining well enough. So that is a new thing that occurred with me, too.
DAY 25- 24 DAYS OF LISTENING
MISSED ONE DAY OF LISTENING
at least 7 hours listening trickling stream while sleeping (volume 9/31)
1.5 hours trickling stream while awake
Total 8.5 hours
Well I forgot all about anticipating the arrival of my speaker system that has capacity of 20khz and it came in today.....it is pretty straightforward and simple and very "miniature" as long as it will do the job......so this means tonight as I write this, I am not listening on my Sony stereo system any more; I guess it wasn't so bad to use it but I'd rather save my $180 some odd bucks especially that I am not working. But the good thing about this speaker set is that I can conveniently place it as close to me as possible near my bed on a table (unfortunately not on the sides yet since as mentioned my bed is pushed against a wall. I also sleep on my side too so. However it's too bad that this system does not have any bluetooth capability becuz I think bluetooth really had some influence on me. But oh well maybe next time some day I will again get a bluetooth capability stereo set. Need to get back into playing it on loop mode again.
I continued 'learning' the Photoshop CS 5 program on youtube; I am about 10 vids away from finishing all of the tutorials. I would rather go through a one time watching per vid all the way through rather than repeatedly until it 'sticks' before moving onto the next vid.
Funny thing is that I 'understand' what the tutorial is teaching me but then (even though watching it only 1 time and first time ever) I 'forget' how to proceed on my own; some things I do remember but not everything...I am fine with that cuz I am finding ways to remember steps with visual imagination; something my brain is making me do.....never learned this kinda way before I believe.
I was listening to Fight Club Audiobook by Chuck Palahniuk (hope I spelled that name right) while driving today and I felt as if I understood every little detail the narrator was reciting through my cell phone without any confusion or not 'getting it' in the story. So that should be a sign MLS is having some influence on me; heck I even recalled Chuck's last name accurately without struggling to remember it in my recalls and havent even thought of him in maybe a few years....same with whatever I watch on TV I 'get it'. I think a 6 month to 12 month committment will make me become Einstein I theorize?
I am sure it will........but that's all to report for today.
DAY 26 - 25 DAYS OF LISTENING
MISSED ONE DAY OF LISTENING
6 hours listening trickling stream while sleeping max volume
30 min listening trickling stream while awake max volume
Total listening time 6.5 hours
Still trying to find some time to play the sub on loop mode. I keep leaving the house so putting it on a loop is near to impossible. I could only do 6 hours last night cuz I had to go to a job interview and I guess I am at fault cuz I am not starting the subs earlier in the evening which could add more time.
I did 2 more vids on Photoshop CS 6; I was kind of in the mode of 'not caring much about the tutorial' and understood some key concepts but I guess my heart wasnt into it tonight.....for who knows what reason. I could say this much is that the vivid dreams have stopped ever since starting to play the sub on my new device; hopefully it will come back starting tonight.
POST UPDATE: Okay so here's the beef.....sure I am posting up my progress with the sub....but I donno it is so bland......you are geting the details but I think I want to convert this post to more than just a sub progress; basically make it more fun and entertaining to read with my "stories" for the day so that you guys can read the progress and be entertained with my crap life at the same time lol.......consider it I guess a "my diary and sub journal". Probably will break it down into 3 sections, the dreams (if applicable), the sub progress and how my day was today.
So basically today I had an interview and what I discovered was how to look for jobs "the right way" that I got today only cuz I made the call to find out what happened to my job resume upload I put in on indeed.com; I mean if I didn't call them to let them know, they wouldve never scheduled an interview and the good news is that the guy wants to move forward and "hire me" with a non paid training and then start paying me at a rate where my old job was where I got fired from but the downside is that it is a "part time" and not full time like my last place......
Talked to a girl on the phone today that was supposed to be my arranged marriage girl and she is sooooo into my culture like my parents, my bro in law, n my sister. I mean she is "modern" but she also doesnt like texting which is a drag.....I wish she would like to text n enjoy each other's company but I guess its all good; she sounds sexy on the phone and what Im afraid of is that she isnt gonna be kinky or sexual.....but we talked for 90 min about so she seems cool but her outlook on my religion is lame; I respect your choice in religion selection but if I am not into it and you are, it may seem lame but she seems fun just kinda boring with the whole religion crap; so thats why I need AYP cuz if it does work with her and she still isnt sexual or kinky, I need AYP to get my own "ideal" girl that is like me and just go with this new girl....if she doesnt want to work it out, thats fine she wasnt my religious aspect kinda girl.....
I even asked a girl if she'd like to go out on a date while ordering some food from a restaurant at the drive thru window;
lol heck I also asked someone that interviewed me on Skype for a job to see if she'd like to go out for a coffee date; she responded with "sure sounds good we can talk more about the job position if we do meet" but I responded to make it clear that "I want it to be more than just talking about the job; I want to get to know you personally"....sort of deal. But she is in Cali and I am in TX so we'll see how she replies.
my mom still thinks I cant handle myself or take care of myself and when I said 'people will be afraid of me' (by using AM 6)? she didnt believe me.....(why else would I say it)? the parents are dragging me to this stupid funciton this friday and I dont give a shit for.......sucks when you got people making you do things you dont wanna do; I guess with AM 6, they wouldnt think twice of dragging me along if I didnt wanna go.......
DAY 27- 26 DAYS OF LISTENING
MISSED ONE DAY OF LISTENING
9 hours listening trickling stream while sleeping
1.5 hours listening trickling stream while awake
Total listening time 10.5 hours
Well can't report nothing exciting today; haven't watched the photoshop tutorials even though I got 7 or 8 vids remaining; I guess I am just being lazy or "bored"....tonight instead I started trying to watch a statistics course on youtube from a college lecture; specifically looking for one that matches to my course I failed back to back during my undergrad years.....tried to even see if my university had one uploaded on the internet. No luck with that. Tried to experiment tonight while listening to trickling stream to see how much I can 'understand' the lecture while the instructor was explaining the course.....
I think I am beginning to realize that you can't just watch a vid on a subject matter you hardly no about and expect to 'understand' it even if the instructor is talking fast.....so I came up with an idea (possibly due to MLS 5g)? that for instance if I am watching a college lecture on youtube, pretend I am in the class and actively get involved with a pen and notebook and when an important keyword comes up or is being explained then just jot it down in a way that will help you recall the key words (in my own creative methodology to recall the points).
I wonder if this is how students with good grades strategize their approach? Donno if MLS is making me approach learning in different ways that fits my style (might be different from person to person) but this is how I'd learn something; creative visualizations on key points. Just by watching new things I dont know about and how fast the explainer talks wont really help much if you are just learning the topic as for the first time;
I can testify this much that even little bits and pieces of lectures I listen to online a few key points do "stick" like literally if not everything; my brain just tells me to think on the fly to find a way to quickly somehow recall the important details as the speaker speaks; don't know if it is MLS again that is making me learn this way; I mean heck if I knew this back during my undergrad years, I bet you I wouldve came out in flying colors that I didnt have to go to some stupid online college and spend 7 total years finishing an undergrad degree.
Well the vivid dreams have stopped unfortunately; I bet you it was the stereo system I was listening on....If I wasnt such a cheapskate (lol) I wouldve just kept the stereo system that I guess I felt was working on me (both with bluetooth) and the vivid dreaming.
I am now playing the subs with just speakers that you use a jack to stick into your laptop or smartphone to play the music....
Today I watched Rocky I. Yeah the old school movie.....just out of the blue I felt like wanting to see it and I am not even a big fan of boxing; started watching it yesterday and finished it today; pretty decent movie; I think I actually watched it tonight like ever in my life.
The owner of the preschool actually called me earlier this week (back on Monday) and I am actually afraid of picking up the phone and talking to someone in real time cuz I have social anxiety; (referring to superiors) friends I can do easily; so I left her a voicemail tonight to let her know we are all still good there was no big issues at all; told her she was like family to me I saw her as a 'sister' blabla and let her know that I enjoyed my days being at the preschool; it felt really nice that she left me a voicemail; she really didnt have to since we were only strangers and I was only there as a sub-contractor....but the fact that she did kinda lets me know that she 'cared' so it felt nice.
I am also feeling confident now in my job hunting strategies that I've never considered doing 15 yearrs of my life since I finished HS. It's like I reported I had 4 interviews the first 2 weeks and then 3rd week nothing; this week being the 4th week I have one new phone interview tomorrow and one more developing for next week. Never ever had 6 total interviews within 5 weeks in my lifetime. Oh and I didn't hear back from the girl by email to see if she wanted to go beyond just a business meet up date...oh well; doesnt faze me.
DAY 28- 27 DAYS OF LISTENING
MISSED ONE DAY OF LISTENING
5.5 hours listening trickling stream while sleeping with speakers connected to phone
1 hour listening trickling stream while awake with speakers connected to phone
2 hours listening trickling stream while awake USING over ear headphones
Total listening time 8.5 hours
Today I finally went to Best Buy and swap out the hearing aid for the subs; so I returned the earbuds and bought a pair of Sony over ear headphones. The cost was just $10 more from the earbuds that I had swapped out. The headphones says they have a capacity in sound frequency of up to 22 Khz! I am actually listening to the sub right now while writing my journal.
I also feel very "icky" about wasting $$$$ on an in app purchase for a game I've been so f**king addicted to.....it is so irresistable I just "wasted" $50 altogether and everytime I keep saying NO MORE, I keep getting tempted to go back in and buy more, UGH!!
So nothing exciting to report today except that I returned my old stereo set to Best Buy and as you know swapped out the earbuds with the over ear headphones. Had an interview with a job and they seem very excited to have me on board. A bit far away but hey I am finally getting those interviews that I never did before; in fact before I'd be waiting on a timeline of 6 months to get another job if I got dismissed from my prior; Don't know if it is the sub's attribution to this but since listening to it I have gotten more interviews in a month between December of 2015 and January of 2016 than I have in a lifetime! None of that ever occurred pre-MLS 5g.
Don't know if it is manifesting the job interviews to occur or is it that I am just becoming "smart" with its use that I have found out a strategy to get more interviews to start work ASAP from the time I was working prior (Dec 1, 2015).
I will start with my ideas on the whole learning theory with a notebook and pen rather than just watching and hoping I 'understand' how things work; should look forward to report its findings within the next few weeks. The 32 day end is coming near with MLS 5g for me, but until I start a job to save up money for AM 6, I will be committing to MLS 5g for another 64 days after the 32 day mark.
This means another full 2 months totalling in the end 96 days or 3 months of MLS 5g usage (however you wanna look at it).
DAY 29 - 28 DAYS OF LISTENING
MISSED ONE DAY OF LISTENING
8.5 hours listening through speakers while sleeping listening to trickling stream
2 hours listening through speakers while awake listening to trickling stream
Total of 10.5 hours listened
So where should I begin? Well let's start on the MLS of course. So tonight, I again didn't do any photoshop CS 6 however I did do something else; one of my many passions in life is to learn about cars and how they work; so tonight I spent watching a video on youtube almost 30 min long and as I was listening to the sub, (half the time) half the time I was the other half I wasnt, I was beginning to outline the key points of a car video; now usually I would get 'bored' or 'tired' or 'exhausted' of outlining the key points in a video (this video I am referring to in particular I've already been thru it several times and never managed to watch it at a full length; before MLS, I'd say that I broke it down into several sections watching the vid to its completion for outlining the key points; but after MLS, I smoothly watched the whole video outlining the key points.
So anyways, I broke it down into sentences everything I jotted down; basically it started out in paragraphs but then I broke it into sentences; I thought of a formulated idea to 'absorb knowledge' by abbreviating the sentences and then thinking of a fancy sentence for it so that I could easily remember what the factual knowledge was. But that didn't seem to work as the abbreviation tactic was nonsensical and I thought "how'd I remember the key point if the randomized sentence is jibberish that has no linkage to the statement being studied???" So this time I included the keywords into the randomized sentence and that is how I am going to be studying.
So the sentences broken down from the almost 30 min long video was about 99 facts or 99 sentences. That is ALOT of notes and facts on the subject I gathered. So I decided now it is time to put MLS 5g to the ultimate test. Starting yesterday, let's see how quickly I can "learn" factual knowledge and keep it permanent in my memory bank.
I suspect that when it comes to MLS on any subject topic, my ideal timeframe to memorize and recall anything and "maximum learning" it would be about 7 days in "speed", which might be too unrealistic but doable......so maybe I'd give it a month or so now that I am sticking with MLS for 2 full months more;
So as of Jan 9th, I am going to be "maximum learning" this car topic for the next 7 to 30 days; In fact I might do 2 topics, the Photoshop CS 6 and this both within 30 days;
If I can succeed on 4 topics and learn each within 30 days timeframe, MLS 5g will be to thank.
One realistic point though with MLS is that without it, I am sure I wouldnt have outlined all the notes I needed from the full length 30 min video; like I said, prior to MLS, it took me days and in chunks to "outline" everything. Re doing the same exact video, I saw the difference -- getting it all done and outlined in one night.
Still going to have to do that 12 hour listening every day now - no more excuses.
That is all to report on MLS side of things for tonight.
On another scope I am becoming addicted to something; something just like cocaine or crack.....it is so disgusting in the end when I think about it but I think I have problems and need help......the game I was playinng in fact that I play every day, today I spent on the in-app purchase, a whopping $120!!!!! WTF!!!!!!!!!!! That is money that can be used for more emergency things not in app purchasing! UGH! It disgusts me to think about it........I've never bought any purchases from other games but this one in particular is HIGHLY ADDICTING you dont even know!
Dad was acting annoying and immature thinking he's funny as he always does.....same with my mom, hate to talk shit behind his back as I write this but I donno I just need to vent it somewhere....after all I did say I am going to write my personal 'diary' and make it a part of my MLS journal all in one. But that's it for now folks.
DAY 30- 29 DAYS OF LISTENING
MISSED ONE DAY OF LISTENING
8 hours listening through speakers while sleeping listening to trickling stream
8 hours using isochronic tones while sleeping along with listening to trickling stream
1 hour listening from over hear headphones trickling stream while awake
Total 9 hours
So I wanted to quickly say that I finally got a heavy crazy vivid dream last night (before I forget it I should note this down quickly). I think it was with the usage of the iso-tones that gave me this wild dream. So here is how it went, what I remember is seeing about 5 or 6 simultaneous tornadoes occurring close to my house. The next thing I know is that my parents are in between walls hiding under the doorway and I am going underneath my bed. The next thing I felt powerfully (it felt so real) is that I felt the tornado ripping through my room and finally getting to my bed literally and lifted me up and started 'taking me for a ride' so to speak and the next thing I knew it was over within a few seconds, I ended up 'landing' at some sort of place and there were people there and all I remember is landing on a chair sitting style and had a blanket over me, I felt underneath I was naked and a woman was asking me to take the blanket off.
(end of dreams)
It was really vivid I mean like it felt REAL especially with the tornado rippin thru; with the use of isotones it might have helped in vivid dreaming; of course Shannon's subs also gave me vivid dreams but I think its the specific stereo system you use; the newest one I have doesnt seem to be living up to its expectations as its former stereo that I owned so with the utilization of isotones it really made a big difference. Isotones should be okay to use alongside the subs since there is no verbiage like the subs and it is all brainwave entrainment.
Did 20 min of the car mechanics tutorial today; I was going to finish up but was in a hurry cuz I didnt want to be caught still at my home with the relatives coming by for a visit; good feeling is that things made sense and didnt have to necessarily rewind to understand what I was watching; so today was my nieces bday; she turned 4 years old; I kinda dont know if I was avoiding them in all but wanted to see the kids....I went on a joy ride to go and see what my posible company location looks like...not bad for 23 miles away from my home; I see them after tomorrow. I felt stupid coming home thinking the relatives were going to stay for a few hours only to be ready to leave as they had their coats on and stuff so that was kinda embarrassing then my mom blurts out what I got for my niece; I said I dont got the money to buy her anything so that was another embarrassing fumble in front of her parents; SMH; but the truth is cuz of my social anxiety I am shy giving my nieces their bday presents or gifts cuz thats just me; it really isnt about the money I dont mind buying them stuff I love seeing the joy on their face I am just shy to give it to them in front of their parents.
Today I did alot of planning of how I was gonnna escape and break ties with the family if I needed to; and what I was gonna write to my bro in law (thinking of leaving a letter for everyone and give it to him cuz since he's not biological familly he is still a in law relative); or I could just say what I feel without being dominated as if I am just acting as an immature child; I hope AM 6 makes me in a way where I can just say what I feel get respected for it and not be shamed for doing what I really want; cuz the current beta version of me if I were to pull that off, I'd be embarrased, yelled at, laughed at, lectured from a few people in my family and ultimately shamed to do such a thing.....so of course I wouldnt do it as I am now but as what I will become....
So here is an update regarding MLS that I did after writing this journal; I started back in photoshop cs 6 but went back to video 1 and started my outlining strategy; I cant say I am learning by just watching and recalling the steps although I do remember some but not all; so that is why I am resorting to outlining notes and 'studying' them. Also I finished up the remainder of the car mechanics video so now the next step is breakin them down into pieces to 'memorize' them.
DAY 31 - 1 MONTH OF LISTENING
MISSED ONE DAY OF LISTENING
30 min listening through speakers while awake listening to trickling stream
1 hour listening through speakers while awake listening to US tones
6.5 hours listening through speakers while sleeping trickling stream
Total 8 hours
Well I have officially reached a milestone; Ran the sub for a full month; Felt longer than that though. In 2 more days I will have finished the minimal time to play the sub; I am committed for another 2 more months. I was curious to try out other subs to see if they will also impact me; like I said, I guess I felt some affects from MLS but I never 'learned' anything this whole month of its usage so for that reason I'd have to use it for at least another month or 2; that and I need to save up money to buy AM 6; I could always go to EPHRA after MLS before AM 6 but I think MLS is more important to me right now; I mean if I had the money to buy AM 6, meh I guess I'd quit on MLS and dive right into the AM 6 sub. All I can say is that if you dont feel any changes after 32 days of MLS usage, I think you need to be listening to it more often in a day (over 12 hours), give it more time so it gets deeper rooted into your mind to be permanent (2 or 3 months) or start learning a skill set and test yourself "how quickly did I learn and master this", or you're stereo equipment is just a POS that is not producing the sound required to 'transform' your mind to become a natural learning machine. Those are my 4 theories.....
Nothing to report today well maybe that I have been congruent and natural speaking in my dialogue with a 'friend' on the phone today; I'd usually get stuck with looking for words but I guess tonight was smooth conversating (happened one time before too but I think it needs to be more often). I started outlining Photoshop CS 6 today, did the first 2 vids I watched before; I think MLS is to be learned by internalizing knowledge through creative studying; at least that is my methodology; I wish I could just observe it on video once and it ingrains instantaneously into my mind without doing a re-watch.
I just got done completing another long length (25 min) tutorial on photoshop; breezed right through it and I honestly feel that I can easily understand the concepts and instructions on going about how to doing certain things; with auto repair topic, didn't do it today but yesterday I could tell that I kinda infused the logic idea together where it 'sounds easier';
I even tried experimenting with Chemistry 101 but I don't think I wanted to learn it......so skipped on that. But important thing is that I am 'understanding' concepts on the subject matters....at least it "feels" that way.
UPDATE: I wanted to include one other thing; I started learning a 3rd topic to 'study' and become knowledged in; and as mentioned in prior journals, before MLS I used to get frustrated outlining notes on vids that were in great lengths of even over 20 min but like about an hour ago, I finished outlining a full 66 minute video to internalize knowledge. I would break it down into chunks but not tonight; tonight, I finished it all the way through without seeming bored or impatient.
DAY 32- 31 DAYS OF LISTENING
MISSED ONE DAY OF LISTENING
7 hours listening through speakers while sleeping listening to trickling stream
Total 7 hours
Nothing to report for this day. I just cant do loop playing no more cuz my speakers need to connect to a laptop or cell phone and I like to have both near me and the speakers I set out further away in my room; I just connect the phone when I sleep and play it through that. I started 'learning' a 3rd piece of knowledge I'd like to challenge myself in to learn: DSM 5 (the psych book for mental health related workers). I watched the 2nd video of 3 today and try to absorb what I was listening to; I can say this much is I didn't grow tired or weary of watching it for up to an hour; whether it stuck to me or not, I just felt fresh in listening to it up to the point that I could complete the whole video which was an hour in length. I didnt do any photoshop cs 6 or car repair topics today cuz I wanted to focus on DSM 5 first.
Had 2 interviews today which I am sure went pretty well. They were back to back. I also went to a Fedex to pick up a package and they werent going to let me have it when someone on the phone said it would be okay to pick it up and apparently that wasn't the case. So I left empty handed. At the time, I was kinda disappointed I guess but now am over it.
My mom really frustrates me; I am a very clean kinda person and I am sick and tired of her using her stupid scrubbies for washing dishes; it looks disgusting, old, ragged and just YUCK! I think to myself WTF is wrong with this woman!? I told her I'd buy some fresh new ones and she didnt want me to; well I am still gonna anyways mom......I also prefer to soak the silver scrubber thingies in soapy water when done washing dishes but nooo my mom wants to leave it in the sink; I donno I just find it so disgusting that it is being re-used to wash what we eat and drink with....kinda drives me crazy!
Tonight I also, for the first time in my history of being a member of IML, started the tapping exercises, though fairly simple to remember but for a first timer, I think I can easily recall the points for tapping and attempted to try to utilize it with MLS directing my subconscious to help with MLS.