06-19-2015, 07:23 PM
[size=medium][font=Times New Roman]Hey there!
First off all, sorry for bad english. Well, I'm 20 years old and a studient of a university. You can say that i've been living in this world that filled up with the darkness, oh lol.
When i was 4 or 5 years old, i had so many friends. It was easy to socialize. I did everyhting i wanted. It's different when i was in the secondary school and upper secondary school. I was anti-social. My mom and dad always got angry when i made a mistake. That makes me have trauma.
Well, i'm exactly in college.
I feel so shame, neediness, desperate,etc.
I am anti-social.
I hope i can get many friends here, but it seems impossible.
I have been feeling so lonely. I do everything by my self. I run my life in the darkness. I try to talk to others with expectation hope they like me. But nothing happen.
In front of them (all studients in the class), i assumed like a champion, but maybe i'm a shit and nothing for them. It hurt me bad.
Little story :
It was weeks ago, my father was building a new room with my brothers. They worked together very well. But i didn't. It feels like i was "un-used item". Only face no contributions. I wanted to help them, but sound like -- [Oh! Look at him, he's nothing, he can't do like we do, he don't know how to use the hammer]--.
Oh, men! It's poor. I want to be reliable. I want everyone count on me, rely on me. Untill now, i've been feeling like i can't do anyhting like all men can do. Being Shame, neediness, desperate, manipulated, etc., i hate it.
I want to overcome even erase all negative status.
That's my sory, let's see what a surprise can this product make.
Alpha Male Subliminal Training Set V6
The Journal
First off all, sorry for bad english. Well, I'm 20 years old and a studient of a university. You can say that i've been living in this world that filled up with the darkness, oh lol.
When i was 4 or 5 years old, i had so many friends. It was easy to socialize. I did everyhting i wanted. It's different when i was in the secondary school and upper secondary school. I was anti-social. My mom and dad always got angry when i made a mistake. That makes me have trauma.
- Secondary School
I got some studients, specially in my class hate me. They bullied me. Owh, i hate it, damn it! I didn't have any close friends. Untill it's on the 3rd grade, something happened. The persons that bullied me became my friend. Of course i was very happy.
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- Upper Secondary School
Here is very annoying. Everyone in the class hated me. There were so much conflicts. How come? Here is the reason.
"I loved studying, reading book, reading any articles. I always finished all assigments at the time. In fact, i could do it faster. I often answered the question correctly. I always said "Yes" when the theachers gave us home work which all studients in my class didn't like it. I wanted to get assigment/homework everyday, but the others said "No,no......" " So, you got the picture?
Well, i'm exactly in college.
I feel so shame, neediness, desperate,etc.
I am anti-social.
I hope i can get many friends here, but it seems impossible.
I have been feeling so lonely. I do everything by my self. I run my life in the darkness. I try to talk to others with expectation hope they like me. But nothing happen.
In front of them (all studients in the class), i assumed like a champion, but maybe i'm a shit and nothing for them. It hurt me bad.
Little story :
It was weeks ago, my father was building a new room with my brothers. They worked together very well. But i didn't. It feels like i was "un-used item". Only face no contributions. I wanted to help them, but sound like -- [Oh! Look at him, he's nothing, he can't do like we do, he don't know how to use the hammer]--.
Oh, men! It's poor. I want to be reliable. I want everyone count on me, rely on me. Untill now, i've been feeling like i can't do anyhting like all men can do. Being Shame, neediness, desperate, manipulated, etc., i hate it.
I want to overcome even erase all negative status.
That's my sory, let's see what a surprise can this product make.
Alpha Male Subliminal Training Set V6
The Journal
- STAGE 1
I got my self acting like mad.
Confident : not realy . On this stage i feel more agressive. I couldn't control my self.
I had new habbit like looking at my self in the mirror. I bought some new shirts. Some girls called me, i think they want to get my attention. Here i overcome anti-social.
But still :
o Feeling needy
o Shame
- STAGE 2
Still i couldn't control my self. But yeah, i got self maturity, masculinity, and feeling like ready to face other people, although the "shame" id there. The neediness is a little bit decreased.
NOTE :
I used to get my body languange like a WOMAN. "Owh! bad , hate to tell you about this guys but it's okey.
Also, i did exercise. In social world, i feel more relax but however the passive feeling is still there.
- STAGE 3
It's different with the stage 1 and 2. Here, i can control my self, calm, and more confident.
Oh yeah, i forgot something. I have some old friends. In that situation i can take lead. It feels like i'm better then them all and feel cooler then anyone.
o Overcome neediness, but i feel uncomfortable when i do something like men do. Feeling like can't do anything is around me.
o Self esteem : Increased
0Masculinity : Increased
- STAGE 4
Just started.