Subliminal Talk

(03-11-2015, 09:46 AM)iceman Wrote: [ -> ]Finding it extremely difficult to wake up on time. Procrastination is in another level.

I experience similar things on stage 2. I used to think it's resistance but if you're feeling it too it might just be a reaction to this stage. It's not as bad in my second run as it was in the first.

Yea, I remember reading some journals about this. Just few more days to finish this stage and then its stage 3. Its gonna be interesting.

Stage 3:
Day 4:

Doubts started creeping in towards the end of stage 2 and the first few days of stage 3, Left me wondering if the program was even working. I started thinking that the results obtained from the past two stages were merely a placebo effect. I am really angry with just about everything. I was/am angry with the way I have been taken for granted, or how I have been manipulated in the past. Procrastination is in another level. Not wanting to even go for the regular jog and yoga exersices I used to do earlier this year.

But respect is contining to grow, people take me much more seriously. My boss wants to raise my salary, he has a feeling that I may leave. I am starting to display a more serious attitude, yet I continued doubting this sub.

Just few hours back I did something that I would have not done in the past. While having a meeting about the feedback from a client, one of my colleague (who is a actually a nice guy) continued to annoy me by saying irrelevant things. Sometimes he repeated the same stupid naive thing year after year during every presentation. I lost my temper and yelled yet him to stop bullshitting in front of everyone. Not a nice thing to do, but I did it anyway. I had been wanting to do this for a very long time but I put this mr.Nice guy mask in the past and tried to ignore it.
Later my boss asked me to calm down (after 2hours) and asked me the reason why I exploded. I explained it to him and he agrees with my view, but he asked me not to repeat it, but I disagreed in a very polite way by saying that if he does it again, I will put him back in his place.
It does sound childish and contradicting the fact that I am becoming more matured as a person. But no, I am getting more matured and its just that I am displaying this 'STOP BULLS******* WITH ME' attitude, by the end of the AM6 training I expect to be polished.
Anyway this whole incident has changed the political atmosphere in this tiny little office as people who didn't take me seriously are more aware of my presence.

AM6 works like a MOFO

I would like to do more work on my romance side though. :|

Nice.

Btw, how is your experience with no pmo?

Well, It went very well when I didn't see or wank. I started hooking up with hot chix even though nothing really happened. Then for the last 10 days I have been looking at soft artistic nudes on pinterests, and I noticed the drop in urge to spend time with real girls.
But I didn't watch porn and wank for the past 67 days.

great result so far Iceman happy for you

(03-19-2015, 07:10 AM)iceman Wrote: [ -> ]Well, It went very well when I didn't see or wank. I started hooking up with hot chix even though nothing really happened. Then for the last 10 days I have been looking at soft artistic nudes on pinterests, and I noticed the drop in urge to spend time with real girls.
But I didn't watch porn and wank for the past 67 days.

Cool. I'm re-thinking my position on it yet again lol.

How about your social skills?

(03-19-2015, 07:52 AM)SargeMaximus Wrote: [ -> ]

(03-19-2015, 07:10 AM)iceman Wrote: [ -> ]Well, It went very well when I didn't see or wank. I started hooking up with hot chix even though nothing really happened. Then for the last 10 days I have been looking at soft artistic nudes on pinterests, and I noticed the drop in urge to spend time with real girls.
But I didn't watch porn and wank for the past 67 days.

Cool. I'm re-thinking my position on it yet again lol.

How about your social skills?

Erections are rock solid. Last night I was woken up due to pain caused by my morning wood. I think
Social skills are above the average. But I need to be around women more to tell you exactly. Its been a sausage fest lately and even if there are girls they are usually my friends gfs. Like I said earlier, once I stop looking at pics I seem to have urges to talk to women and spend more time. I find a way. So, I am working on it....Just blocked pinterest on my office PC.

(03-19-2015, 12:23 PM)iceman Wrote: [ -> ]Erections are rock solid. Last night I was woken up due to pain caused by my morning wood. I think
Social skills are above the average. But I need to be around women more to tell you exactly. Its been a sausage fest lately and even if there are girls they are usually my friends gfs. Like I said earlier, once I stop looking at pics I seem to have urges to talk to women and spend more time. I find a way. So, I am working on it....Just blocked pinterest on my office PC.

Sweet. Rock-solid erections are the bomb.

I know what you mean about the relationship between porn and socializing with women, though. When I was approaching last week, I hardly looked at any porn at all, and now that I'm not so comfortable approaching again, porn is back lol.

STAGE 3:
DAY 5:

Actually I think I wrote a bit too early yesterday. I forgot my keys back in the office, and returned to pick it up, met my boss on my way back out, he did give me a small hint of a pay rise and a bonus few days back, but I wanted to know the numbers. I have heard it before, but nothing significant showed up on my account. This time I am not letting it go so easily. So, he says that he can't give me a pay rise since he is not the one deciding it, but he can raise my bonus for now. Not settling for it, its a temporary solution for a permenant problem. I conveyed my gratitude for the bonus but I want a significant pay raise. I want to live more comfortably. I want the finer things in life.
Along with the pay issues, I did let him know about this silly divisions in the office, where one group is left out in the dark in the decision making process. I literally cornered him and forced him to recognize my efforts and my presence. We spoke a lot, I let him know that I am not pissed off with anyone but just the situation and how things are handled but I continue to have a lot of respect for him, he is a very hard working man. 'I AM NOW THE TEAM LEADER OF A NEW PROJECT' (This was yesterday)

But still I am sticking with my plans to quit the job. Because even with a promotion there is only so much I can do here.

Today, back in the office, I feel I have more respect around me, mr. J wants to know about the discussions I had with my boss yesterday, I let him know that its none of his business. Things are not going great for him either. As I said, his asslicking and brown nosing habbits have back fired. He feels that the colleagues whose asses he licked are conspiring against us and are manipulating us...He is not feeling comfortable here anymore. He was saying random shit like he is gonna give up or even jump off a building. I asked him to let me know the date and time so that I can get him insured and claim the benifits, and adviced him to be more creative in the way he kills himself, Since he is working in a very creative field..Jumping off the building means I wont be able to sell his organs. . Idiot got it that I am having none of his bullshit, he said he was kidding, I replied 'I was not'.

Things between us were the opposite a year back. He used to try and make me feel inadequate, he used to find a way or say things to make him feel superior. Even if I offered help he would say, He doesnt need it in a very rude way. Ever since he joined he ganged up on me with the other colleagues. He used be very very cocky with me. Thing is that my NICE guy attitude was picked up as a sign of weakness. He was like this with all the junior staffs and used to pretend like he was our boss. Ever since I started doing ASC, he has kinda stopped. Now, my presence, performance and the new attitude along with newly gained respect he is feeling the heat. But for some reason he is craving for my attention too. He followed me for lunch today and thats when we had the earlier discussion.

I wish my romantic side were as dramatic as the events in my office.

Nice man.. love the results and how you're standing up to them.

(03-20-2015, 04:37 PM)Benjamin Wrote: [ -> ]Nice man.. love the results and how you're standing up to them.

Thanks..

Yes, but I need to control my outbursts. I hope by the time I fix all the mess with my job situation and find time to spend more time with girls, I will be more polished.

One area where I have yet to notice results is my tone of my voice. Its still the same and I don't sound masculine enough. I do have 'Develop a More masculine voice' 3g. I will have to wait till I finish AM6 to start that though.

Now I have found more time to go through the pages of members who are doing BASE. I am going to start my own company in few months. So I need to understand which subs can help me out the most. But That does not mean I am depending on subs alone to take actions.

STAGE 3:
DAY 9:
Nothing dramatic has happned on the outside for the last 2-3 days but inside there is a dramatic shift. HUGE ones.
I am starting to feel that I am not financially well rewarded for the amount of effort, personal sacrifice that I made in for the past five years of my career in the name of passion, yet I feel I am personally responsible for the situation I got myself into in first place. No matter how well I would have been paid, I would have found a way to blow the cash by the end of the month.
Now, I am looking for ways to make a huge leap, to point I am ready to change my career. But from now on I will spend my money wisely and I think I am ready to handle bigger flow of money and wealth in my life.
Well, things have started to pick up steam on the romantic side of my life finally. I don't want to go into details but things panned out in unexpected ways. No sex yet, but I am totally okay with it. (for now)

Stage 3
Day 17:

On the surface it still looks still, but inside every program that I have been doing is slowly changing me bit by bit. Sex and women have taken a back seat for now, I have stopped tapping and all that, I have completed one month of Paul Mckenna's program. I am seeing results bit by bit. But I plan to continue the hypnosis before I sleep as they are working in the background, and I don't need to put in so much effort. There are 4-5 quick visualization programs and boy they work. I see my luck changing bit by bit, then there is this program about steping into role models, I always first step into James bond, then followed by two leading entrepreneurs. One of my colleague has started calling me James bond out of the blue (I wish it was a girl) then another friend while talking to him over the phone about a certain idea says I am trying to become like one of the leading entrepreneur in to whom I step in whle visualizing. Damn good. The results have not come as fast as I expected but doing AM6 has has helped me to be more patient when it comes to these things, earlier I would have given up in the middle. I will try to get more creative as I progress.



There program called Unlimited Abundance Program with Christie Marie Sheldon.
I have applied for a 10 days trial. I would like to start today evening. Its an interesting program and I think it would compliment AM6. I feel Christie is much more pro when it comes to identifying and removing blocks, its a bit expensive, almost $400. I am curious so I will give it a go, if I see results I will update here.

Have a nice day everyone!