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(09-22-2014, 12:20 AM)Natious Wrote: [ -> ]You don't really need to put yourself down in here by saying that it sounds dumb.

Haha I'm just referring to the way I phrase it.

I'm currently running Maximum Learning Speed and Improve Your Grades and Study Habits. I've got a journal in the "User Journals" section. It's not much to look at though.

I will definitely be running AM6 sometime, but it won't be for at least a year. I'm focusing on school and want to use subs related to that over the next 9 months, then once summer starts, I'll probably buy SM3 and give that a run through...then maybe AM6 again after that. I've got probably 2-2.5 years of school left, and really should be focusing on that, because I've failed more classes than you can possibly imagine and need to finish.

Out of curiosity too, what are the areas that you see that I could improve on?
In the SM3 instructions it states that it needs to be run with a no longer than 3 months break from AM. You'll need to run AM again ideally.
Well, from your writing I can guess that you have quite a few insecurities left, like you want to take aim towards getting somewhere, but you don't think you're good enough (that might be wrong, I like to analyse other people).
Coming to think of it BASE would be an another good choice, it has a lot to do with removing negative programming, it has EPRHA and focuses on necessary aspects of school as well. In case you don't mind coughing up the money for a new 6/7 stage program, you might want to use BASE although going for a second run through of AM can make the programming stronger, more deeply installed and it still works on your deeper issues with EPRHA.
Quote: In the SM3 instructions it states that it needs to be run with a no longer than 3 months break from AM. You'll need to run AM again ideally.

Damn, I was not aware of that. I haven't looked into SM3 much yet. I wonder if running the Refresher stage for a month or two would work? If I have to run all of AM6 again though, that's fine too.

BASE is also on my radar too, but I think I'd prefer to wait to start that after college. I've wanted to own my own business (and make my OWN money, and grow, raise, and run it) since I was 14 years old. But for the next two years, school is the first priority. I really want to run SM3 because hey...it's college.

Could just cycle for the rest of my life BASE, AM6, and SM3 (maybe MLS too because I like to think and learn). I think those cover the desires every man has lol.
Personally I'd just run AM6 again from the start. I'd imagine the second run to be better than the first as you would have beat any resistance the first time around - therefore the time you spent resisting it will be time spend benefiting from it instead. At the moment I'm planning to run MLS next, then BASE, then back to AM6. I believe AM6 should contain everything you need with women (& have a balanced life style concerning them).
@Adam can please send me that instruction? WM too if you have it.

thanks.
Here you go... I don't have WM or SM. They are available from the forum though. You need to search....
I am on my second run of AM6 and have two days left of Stage 1. During the few months after finishing my first round, I'm pretty sure I could feel the changes fading. I can't say that for certainty though. So far Stage 1 has been good, nothing extreme happening. I can't believe I actually read a book on my own accord, The Law of Success in Sixteen Lessons. For some reason I felt compelled to read it, and just finished it today. It's definitely the longest book I've ever read, and one of only a half dozen books I've ever fully read (excluding children's books lol).

I've also been trying my damnedest to stick with my workout routine, and am finally starting to see results in the mirror.

I hope Stage 2 is not as bad as last time, but am not even going to think about it so the placebo effect should not come into play.

Edit: Ok I might as well mention a couple more things. New Year's eve I managed to go home with a girl, first girl in like 6 months since my ex-girlfriend moved out. We were visiting friend in the city, so I went with her and her friends back to her place. I got in the car with a drunk driver, never a good idea, don't wanna press my luck.

There was another thing I was going to mention, but I can't remember what it is now. Oh well.
I remembered the other thing I was going to say from my previous post: Porn has taken a dramatic drop in usage and no longer interests me like it used to...so that's good, I'm glad I've been using it less.

Stage 2 has been much better on this second run. I have one week left and am just running each stage for 5 weeks to keep thing simple. I don't think I've had any resistance at all and it definitely feels like it's pushing me to do something with my life. I feel like I'm going to go very far in life and be an important person. I know that whatever I do, I'm going to be successful. School has been going pretty well too.

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One weird thing I just can't figure out is that since I started the program again, I keep having dreams about my ex-gf, and it's always along the lines of me telling her I don't want to get back together.
(In real life) I haven't even considered reaching out to her at all, so I don't know why I'd even dream about her at all. Other dreams are along the lines of being a super hero and kicking ass---which resembles how I feel in real life.
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Also, I've come to decide that women are most definitely not my first priority in life and my happiness comes from within...and from accomplishing my goals. It's been quite a freeing realization, and a relief holding this belief now. I am so glad I decided to run AM6 again. And because of this now, WM and/or SM has gone down my priority list.

I've also decided that when/if I do get a girl(friend), I'm not going to put up with much shit from her. I don't want someone who is dramatic and likes to fight and argue when they are drunk. I had that with my ex-gf, and while I put up with it, I just don't want to anymore. One of my best friends just argues with this gf when we go out and drink. I hate that, and if she were my girlfriend, I would give her a few chances to cut that shit out, and if she doesn't, SEE YA. I hate drama, it serves no purpose. I like to sing(shout), dance, and have fun when I get drunk, and if I have someone is preventing that, I will remove them from my life. It feels so good not care (as much) about girls anymore and be free of their games and shit!
I have five days left of Stage 3.

I didn't realize what was going on until well into this stage, but it's definitely been making be irritable and, amongst other reasons, sad at times. As I write this, I'm neither sad nor mad, just tired lol.

I remember from my first run, getting annoyed with my co-workers for not doing much work, and I'm right back there now. I'm also in the mood to argue and be confrontational more often than not, which is part of the cycle of feeling angry a lot of the time. Again, I didn't even realize this until 3-4 weeks into this stage.

I've also been sad at times lately because I keep thinking about the past and how much fun I had when all my friends were in college, and how I'll probably never have that much fun ever again. I'm the only one left in college and still have 2 years left, which makes me a bit sad and mad because I failed 5 semesters and didn't make progress for years. Everyone has gone their separate ways and we don't see each other as often as we used to. But I've been thinking about previous events in my life too and realize, despite how badly I fucked up in school and wasted my early 20's, how wonderful my life has been. I can honestly remember jumping up and down in my crib when my mom was trying to teach me to pronounce my name. I've been reflecting on elementary, middle, and high school times as well. It sucks being able to remember all these events with such vivid detail because if feels like they happened yesterday, but really, it was 10 frickin' years ago. But it makes me realize how much fun I've had and how thankful I am to have the friends and family I do have. Lmao it sounds like I'm 80 years old.

I've been sticking with my workout routine too, (surprisingly) and am beginning to see it in the mirror which is nice. School is going pretty decent too, for once, so that's good.

Summarizing this stage, I'd say anger and sadness have been the most pronounced emotions. I guess some of that is the "let go of the past" portion of the script? But I'm in no way miserable every day of my life or anything, I just lost the optimism about the future that accompanied Stage 2. If I recall correctly, things started getting much better in Stage 4 during my first run through. We'll see.

Unrelated: One day I developed a headache around 9am and felt like shit the whole day. I didn't know if I was getting sick or dehydrated or getting a migraine or what it could have been. When I went to bed that night, I put on the sub and it hit me like bricks. I had the ultrasonic playing much louder than usual (because I had the knob turned up on my speakers from listening to music). I usually leave the knob in the same position and control the volume on my laptop. Turned it down to the normal volume level, and woke up feeling fine the next day. It may have been a total coincidence, but since I never get headaches if I'm not sick, I have to guess it was from the ultrasonic sub. I CAN hear the sub when it plays...if that makes a difference.
@TangoDelta,
How much exposure time did you get each stage? 300 hours? 400 hours? 500 hours?
(03-18-2015, 08:53 PM)GlaizenGold777 Wrote: [ -> ]@TangoDelta,
How much exposure time did you get each stage? 300 hours? 400 hours? 500 hours?

I aim for 8 hours of ultrasonic while sleeping, and 5 hours during the day of masked. Sometimes it's less than 5 hours and sometimes it's more. But I'd say the average is 5, and I'm running each stage for 5 weeks/35 days. So, (5+8)*35=455 hours.

I wish I could to more hours of masked, but I just can't be wearing headphones all day...because of class and work.
Stage 4 concludes today and I start listening to Stage 5 when I got to bed tonight.

At the beginning of this stage, I felt powerful and had a Idgaf attitude. That has subsided quite a bit however. The past week I have hit absolute hardcore procrastination. I can't bring myself to go to class, do homework, study, practice blackjack, workout, or play guitar. I don't know what happened, but it was/is bad. I was doing so well and then it was like a I hit a brick wall. It made me want to do the Overcome Procrastination sub. I wanted to do the "Ultimate Learning Sub" after AM6 but it doesn't look like that's going to happen.

I *think* I'm noticing more attention from the ladies. Strike that, I definitely am. And I can confirm that from the bar we went to last weekend. I'm still not looking for a girlfriend and definitely want to remain single, but if a girl I really like comes along, we'll see what happens.

I read Stop Giving a Fuck, and am currently reading No More Mister Nice Guy. I cannot give my endorsement for Stop Giving a Fuck. It is full of grammar and spelling mistakes...at least the version I have is. The content wasn't all that useful for me either. If you just read and apply the title ("Stop Giving a Fuck"), that's pretty much all you need to know. I might read The Law of Success again because that book actually motivated me to accomplish stuff.
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