Hi everyone.
Just joined today in order to share my experiences with the AM 6.0. Last night was day 16 of stage 1 for me, so I've been in this for a few weeks already.
So far I've noticed a few things, but nothing drastic as I consider myself close to an alpha male, with a few areas that really need improvement to get me to where I really want to be. For example, I still have problems with sticking to my comfort zone, and not wanting to go outside of that. I have a close group of friends but I don't really look to expand on that and make new friends. This is something that I really want to change.
Another thing I want to change is my experiences with girls. I feel comfortable around girls that I have met through friends and ones that I hang around for a while, but I still need improvement with going up to random girls and talking to them.
So far the biggest thing I've noticed in the 16 days is I actually feel a little less social than when I started. Also I feel a little less motivated at work. I don't know if that is the sub working on something or not, but that's just what I'm feeling so far.
I'll try to update this as much as possible
Hi Bayern, welcome to the form! The first two stages of AM are known to make you a little less social. It helps you spend time focusing on yourself so you can grow. The later stages will make you feel more social. Just hang in there and enjoy the ride.
Hey Bayern! Are you from Bayern?
I think this is a good sub you chose there. It works great for me so far. :-)
Thanks for the welcome.
@Uncle Bob - No I live in the states, just a fan of Bayern's soccer team.
Been following other threads of others using AM6. Looking to get great results along with everyone.
Hey man, good luck with the program.
Alot of it is about doing your own thing and becoming more self sufficient.. so atleast initially you may be less social as you're noticing. I noticed that early in the program but then closer to the end I was more social again. (AM 5.0)
Days completed - 18 of Stage 1
Still having the anti-social feelings. Even though a lot of my job is talking to people, I just feel like sitting there and not talking and just focus on my work.
Also, as I've read in other threads, I've been having some weird dreams. From what I can remember from them, they are all work related whether it's with my coworkers or the people that I'm supposed to interview/talk to face to face.
Days completed - 20 days of Stage 1
Yesterday was a very good day in regards to how I felt and wanting to be around other people. Went out to dinner with my family, and felt good about being around a lot of people. Definitely having some crazy dreams this entire week, and have actually been able to remember a lot of them (something that I haven't been able to do usually).
Another thing that I was hoping this program would help me work on is the use of porn and an addiction I've had to it for years. I can definitely notice that I don't have the urges to look at porn as much as I used to, and that's something that I'm already thankful for.
Something that came up this morning is I was out at a few stores, and was really annoyed with people in the stores. I'm already an impatient person when it comes to shopping and people that take their time in stores, but it seemed to have worse than usual today.
This will probably be my last update for a couple of weeks, since I'm going on out of town for about 10 days on Monday.
Haven't been able to update recently, been on vacation and have been out of the country for a little bit.
Some things I've noticed while on my trip are that I've felt comfortable in a new surrounding, which is very unusual for me especially since it was difficult communicating being in a different country. Also, I've been getting very irritated with a lot of minor things from family members that were with me on this trip. It wasn't to the point that I said anything or acted out towards it, just things that annoyed me inside.
Another thing is that during this trip I had to do a lot of walking, which will hopefully get me over my laziness towards exercise that I've had for the last few months. This trip hopefully will have helped me in more ways than I can think of right now.
It was difficult getting as much time in with the sub since I had to use headphones and I'm not used to listening to the sub through headphones, but I was able to get time in.
Noticing more of the little things bothering me. It's been even worse the last couple of days, and I think it's to the point where I showed it more. Currently listening to the last night I have of stage 1, so hopefully that changes when I move on to stage 2.
One thing that I've noticed so far in stage 2 is that after a couple of days I'm not annoyed by the little things people say or do like I was at the end of stage 1. Also let go of the antisocial feelings that I had over this weekend and really wanted to be around other people this weekend. So far I'm liking stage 2.
Had a crazy dream last night. This wasn't even about an ex of mine, but an ex of a friend. They were dating for about 5 years, and I like to think I was a friend of hers during that time. During the dream my friend's ex was trying to put all of the blame on their relationship ending on me saying I could have kept it going by doing a couple things differently as their friend. Normally I would get pissed off and have a bunch of built up anger that I would let go of, but this time I just laughed it off and walked away. The next night (in the dream still), she tried to do it again since I didn't give the response she was looking for, I again just laughed it off and walked away.
Nothing too major to this story, just something I thought I'd share. I know it's just a dream, but this is a lot different than how I would normally react to this type of situation.
Been feeling really tired this week using stage 2. Dind't have any problems with sleep during the first stage of the program, but this stage has hit me hard in regards to how tired I am.
For an update on what's happening in stage 2 for me.
- My sleep issues have gone away thankfully since last week was just an awful week for me in terms of being extremely tired.
- I feel like my procrastination has been decreasing steadily over the last 3 or 4 days. I've been reading the Game of Thrones books in order to catch up on where the show is, and have been able to read a lot in the last week. Reading is normally something I would not like to do before. Also last Thursday I felt like was one of my more productive days at work over the last 6 weeks or so.
- I'm starting to have a strong urge to not want to go out to late night bars anymore as I get really bored at them. I don't mind going to sports bars with a group of friends, since I'm a big sports fan and having something on the TV keeps me entertained.
- I feel like the amount of respect that I'm getting from others is starting to increase. Unfortunately had a run in with the law not too long ago, which would have normally made my parents really made at me. Now they seem to know that I'm capable of taking care of it and get it sorted out on my own.
That's all for now, still going strong on the hours that I'm getting with the sub.
Hey man, I really like your journal. I plan to do AM6 in June so will be keeping an eye on your Journal to see your progress. Can you give a little bit more about your background?
Thanks
Fonzy