Day 40->No pain today.
Day 41->No pain today
Day 42->No pain today
Day 43->No pain today, peaceful and clear mind
Day 44->No pain today
Day 45->No pain today
amazing progress you got there Delight.
That's such good news! I'm happy to hear this worked for you.
Day 46->No pain today
Day 47->No pain today (in the end of the day emotional unbalanced because of a situation that happened.)
Day 48->No pain today (during the day emotional unbalanced, a bit of hyperventilation, in the end of the day feeling better.)
Day 49->No pain today :-)
Day 50->No pain today.
Day 51->No physical pain, emotional unbalanced at the moment, hyperventilation in the end of the day deeply depressed.
Day 52->No physical pain, very emotional. I cried a lot today.
Day 53->No physical pain
Day 54->No physical pain, intense dreams these days.
Day 55->Physical pain today. I've been sleeping most of the day.
Give myself an B12 injection. I felt much better in the end of the day
I love seeing results like this, well done Shannon.
Lion, I only wrote the instructions. She's the one executing them.
Delight, is your husband a "hard" type of guy, very set in his ways and resistant to change or doing things in any way but his own?
(01-02-2013, 09:15 PM)Shannon Wrote: [ -> ]Delight, is your husband a "hard" type of guy, very set in his ways and resistant to change or doing things in any way but his own?
Oops :-) Yes :-) change is in most cases "fight"/discussion. He is the type of "hold" on to what you have.
Maybe sounds strange but the base of this behaviour is fear
AND he also has learned in his childhood to ignore pain.
Day 56->unwell sick during the day a light headache and sick very emotional. I am very frustrated today that I am not in control of my emotions these days.
I feel a lot of shame anger and frustration.
Day 57->I am just a few days before my monthly period and again I experienced that I am energetic much more vulnerable and sensitive in the days before my monthly period and
each time it is an horrible experience it feels like getting sucked with some elses energy.
Past days I also did have some slight nosebleeding but not as heavy as I've had before.
I have to say that I am still going forward with this sub! Insight is also getting forward!!
Today I feel much better and after these rollercoaster days since day 47 I am back to my self.
No pain, mental clearer and emotional in balance. I say hurray to that! What I really would love is to introduce beside this sub is "attract positive energy" to protect myself because when I read my journal back the only thing for now is the few days before my monthly period that I am to vulnerable and sensitive for energies. btw I also would love to tell that I no longer have these intense grieving about my dearest pet that I lost in June 2012.
btw I am also very dedicated to the sub each night I listen to the ultra and during the day
to the masked version.
Day 58->No pain today.
Day 59->No pain today. I've dreamed intense this night couldn't remember all parts.
I've dreamed that my hubby was for fun/for a joke driving (or something like that near a cliff)
me to the side of a cliff, in my dream I remembered the place where we where from dreams before (btw a beautiful beach area) and I was freaking and he was laughed about my "his joke" and scaring me. I also dreamed about my grandfather. My grandfather died last year 3 weeks after my pet died. This is the second time, since I use this sub, that I dream about my grandfather. This time I dreamed about the last days he was in hospital before he died.
I've done 2/3 of the sub. and I'll have to listen at least 31 days to the CUPR sub. Although I have a huge urge to the next sub I still have to be patient! I feels like I am ready to the next step (sub :-)) I think and feel that I have reached my goal around the CUPR and I have to work further on the stability of my emotions because when I read my journal I see that a few days before my monthly period I am vulnerable for toxic energies. Also I would create more success in my business with work that is more in sync and balance with me and my physicality. The work I do know in our business is mentally to heavy for me. That is nothing to be ashamed for, it is reality.
I tried before to change the work that I do into something else but I have never succeeded with it. More and more I get the feeling that I deserve also a successful and happy live.
I have had too much pain for too long. More and more I experience what I want in life. More and more I am aware that I deserve living my own choices instead of having the feeling of living the live or dream of someone else or carry the worries of someone else.
I have 3 subs on my list and 1 or 2 are following when the CUPR is done.
On my fav. list for now is;
*Overcome Guilt, Shame and Fear
*Ultra Success
*Attract Positive Energy
Day 60->Last night I dreamed about my the pet that I lost in June 2012. It was a weird dream. In my dream my hubby, I and our other pets where on a holiday and there was also my dear pet that died last year. In this dream it felt so natural that he was there and then I realized that he was there only because we where on holiday and that he only would be there when we where on a holiday because I know that he was actually "dead". This morning I also went to the dentist. I have had a huge fear for the dentist but I was calm and when I was there and it was
my time I felt a slight fear. The weird thing was that there was playing a song on the radio that has a special meaning for me related to my lost pet. The last time I was at the dentist the song was also playing so it was a very nice coincidence that the same song was playing again. It gave me a nice feeling that I was not alone in a situation where I was a bit fearful.
No pain today.
It is actually rather blatantly obvious that stubbornness usually comes from fear. It's how the "physical core" personality deals with their fears: they slam on the brakes and refuse to budge. The lesson for them is that they are in control of their pain, and that they are suffering needlessly by refusing to accept change. But that it is based in fear is a pretty obvious truth.
I think he would do well with 3-6 months of exposure to OGSF, and you too, after CUPR.
Day 61->sleeping well, much more clarity in my head. No pain today.
Day 62->sleeping well, this night I've dreamed again about my transitioned pet.
Emotional not ok.
Day 63->I woke up, extremely tired just feeling like I have the flu or something like that.
I've been sleeping nearly the whole day.
Day 64->intense dreams, woke up tired, back pain, flu like symptoms
In the end of day 64 I finaly seem so see what is going on.
I see the patterns that are burning me out. There is a lot of work to do
to change some patterns in my life. I will listen to this sub much longer then 90 days.
Day 65 Feeling better then the days before. Woke up more refreshed then the days
before. Emotional not ok
Day 66 Feeling better and more clarity in my mind. Relaxt day today. Just been thinking the past days about how I feel these past months emotionaly. I've felt this way also some months in 2008.
Day 67 Great day today. No pain.
Day 68 Went to late to my bed monday night. no physical pain.
Day 69 Dreamed a lot in the night, couldn't remember. no physical pain
Day 70 No physical pain.
Day 71 Great day no pain
Day 72 Great day no pain
Conclusions about this sub. I experience positive changes in my live. I will listen this sub longer then 90 days. After 90 days I would experience by listen at night to CUPR 5G and during the day a few hours to Attract Positive Energy 3 G.
Thank you for the feedback, it has been very useful.