(11-27-2012, 01:19 PM)Delight Wrote: [ -> ]Day 18 ->Just been thinking that this sub is directing me into (unconcious) actions that supports my well-being and health. I love incence sticks and last week I bought myrrh incence sticks without knowing the positive effects. Myrrh calms the mood and helps with women ailments. Although I don't feel well physical I have a more balanced mood today.
I feel relaxed and calm. I have just a little back-pain and headache but it is not disturbing.
My headache went away and I no brainfog.
Day 19 ->Great day today, no back-pain, relaxed and calm emotions. Motivated to do things. What I forgot to wrote down is that past weeks I had increased food cravings what actually is not typical me. I sence that the food cravings are less yesterday and today.
I noticed that the XM guided me in a lot of subtle and "unconscious" ways. It's very interesting to observe your journey. Do you believe you are trending toward less and less pain?
Day 20->I have dreamed this night about a situation that happened a year or so ago.
I was deeply disappointed about some clients (we have a business). This situation
was still on my mind unconscious. In the dream I told them how I was thinking what happened in that time and I was furious. The dream was like reality and I was very happy that I dreamed about this. It felt like I finally could say to them how I think about it and it felt like a relief of frustration and anger. I woke up very refreshed and I the first part of the day was good and relaxed. Then I did have a client and sometime when I talk to someone I can have that feeling
that it makes difference if I am talking to a wall or to a client. They can't "hear".
After this session my mood went to zero and went to very depressed into "life doesn't have
any sense", emotional pain etc.
No physical pain today.
Day 21->Actually I went to bed early and couldn't sleep well. I woke up tired and the first part of the day the same emotions as the last part of yesterday. A lot of crying and a lot of feelings that I am stuck in my life and I really don't know how to get out of it. I am questioning myself am I taking over the emotions of other people. Is there a possibility that my psychic boundaries are damaged or not strong enough.Why do I have this intense switching of waking up clear and why can it change so fast without knowing why. I don't feel well today. A slight back-pain, mental unclear, body feels stiff and I am feeling very cold. Just questing myself is this the right sub for me. These emotional states is also the same as what I have during and before my monthly period. My period is not yet to come. In the midst of the day I felt much better......felt energized and clear-headed......Great!
Day 22->Perfect amazing day, motivated and did a lot of things. No pain and mental clear.
Yes!!
Re Shannon->Yes I do believe that I am trending toward less and less pain.
Excellent. As long as you are moving in the right direction, I am happy.
Day 23 ->Good day today. No pain.
Some anger in the end of the day. As I received some mail from the hospital. They sent me some information about
medication and it triggered my anger. Follow and trust your instincts!
Day 24 ->I've been sleeping well and woke up refreshed. Again intense real dreams can't remind them. It seems
that I solve a lot of unprocessed issues issues in my dreams last nights. No pain. Some tingle near my left eye.
Day 25->Very tired today and I feel down, my body is a bit stiff. The weather is cold, grey and rainy. Not the best weather for my mood :-) So during the end of the day something there was a big shifting in me and a big awareness. I am reading several books about controlling behaviour and verbal abuse. I am attracted to these books because of my experiences with some people in my life. I was reading in one of these books. In these books they are writting about the difference between Power Over and Personal Power. I realized that I am raised in a Power Over environment and that I am still confronted with Power Over environment.
In other words I recognized the Power Over pattern connected with me.
A Power Over environment (or pattern) for me gives me feelings of confusion, sadness, frustration, shame, fear, guilt, hopelessness and depression. So I consciously choosed for Personal Power and decided that no one else then me can define my reality. I am the owner of my own energy field. I visualised my energy field and added the Personal Power pattern. It was like a golden light that slowly but very powerfull filled my energy field. For me this is a great step forward.
Day 26->Great day! During the day I am visualising my own energy field that is full of Personal Power.
Day 27->Energy ok and no pain today. Feeling a little bit "down" because of the rainy grey day over here. Also thinking a lot about a talk I've had with one of our clients last night. The story my clients told me yesterday confirmed my trust issues.
My personality is that I always try to see the "good" and positive in people. When I see something not ok or negative I always thought it was my fault. Now I know there are indeed people with wrong (different) intentions. It also confirms for me the feelings that I decribed on day 21 that I felt that my psychic boundaries are damaged. Further I want to say that I feel great. I am 2-3 days before my period and I feel fysical great. I sense just a little bit of fear for what is coming.
Is this emotional unloading into your journal here helping your physical/emotional pain? Do you think it is a response to the subliminal?
Yes, Shannon. My physical pain and emotional pain are so connected to each other.
I hope it is not annoying to read. If so please let me know.
Day 28->Oops, a stress day today ;-) The stress is running through my body and I feel a little bit overwhelmed. I haven't "lost" myself yet. A slight headache is coming and my body is a little bit stiff. I seems that I am more vulnerable today. I felt bombarded with overwhelming energy from 2 of my clients who called. I sense that I am easily stepping into their chaotic flow.
Day 29->Strange dream tonight. When I woke up from this dream the middle of the night I was very scared.... This was just the first part of the day but something has changed and I want to
sing "I feel good from James Brown". My period started today and I am so happy that it all came so easily. I can't describe in a few words how I have been feeling the past 20 years the only thing I know it was very scary and very painful as my hormonal system ruled my life.
(12-07-2012, 01:41 PM)Delight Wrote: [ -> ]Yes, Shannon. My physical pain and emotional pain are so connected to each other.
I hope it is not annoying to read. If so please let me know.
I am just trying to better follow and understand.
Day 30->I am very happy and I feel great today. I feel so much grace. Normally I am sick and unwell during my period but now I can work and do what I normally do. Btw I also want to say that I no longer have nose bleeding since I use the sub. I used to have almost daily spontaneous nose bleeding in this time of the year.
Day 31->A strange dream tonight. I was holding a banner with the words "am I dead?". Feeling a bit unwell day pain in my ovaries BUT it is to overcome! Especially when I know how I felt in the past and how I feel today. Within a few days I can say how much my health improved. My monthly periods are my measure points. It is my first period since I use this sub. So far I am pretty content with the results. The only thing that is strange is that I have food cravings. Also my attitude with the sub is expecting nothing and go with the flow of the sub. Update about hubby. I have to say my hubby had a burnout in 2011. What he tells me is that the pain is not less and not more. He says he is sleeping better since 1 1/2 weeks.
Day 32->No pain today. Crying a lot today BUT I don't feel uncomfortable about my crying. It is ok. It doesn't make me feel unbalanced.
Day 33->No pain today feeling ok. Some crying, grieving about my pet.
Started re-reading the book "What happy people know".
Day 34->No pain today. Feeling good and balanced today.
Day 35->No pain today. Great and relaxed day today.
I am liking the trend you're experiencing.
Day 36->No pain today. I woke up tired and I am a bit emotional. My emotional pain releases through
grieving and that's ok.
Day 37->No pain today, emotional but that's ok. It is grieving.
Day 38->No pain today
Day 39->No pain today. Yesterday I did read something in a new book that confirmed my inner knowing about
physical pain and emotional pain. I am so glad with this sub not only for the physical pain but also for the emotional pain.
I have been thinking how long I have to listen to the sub because I don't choose for a quick fix I choose for a long term change.
When I did have these physical and emotional pain for at least 20 years, will listing to the CUPR sub for at least 90 days be enough for a permanent change. I also would love after these 90 (or more!) days to introduce another sub.
High on my list is Luck Magnifer or Ultra Success or Happiness and Joy. At least I think it is important after (at least!) 90 days to listen to the CUPR 5G on maintenance mode????
The amount of time required for a permanent change depends on the person and their personality type and a host of other variables which I can't know. You'll have to see for yourself if 90 days works for permanent change, or if you need to refresh it.