Remove the negativity within and gratitude are literally transforming my life. What was a crippling fear two months ago that I couldn't have even imagined has now become a possibility.
I'm out and looking at flats to move into to get out of my parents place. I couldn't even have imagined doing this two months ago let alone actually doing it. I still have some fear there but its dropped a significant amount and theres even some excitement about it. I know the two fears are
a) fear of rejection
b) Fear of the unknown (This has dropped a lot since using RNW and gratitude)
I also joined an acting class the other day I just turned up and knew absolutely nobody. Thats another thing I couldn't have imagined doing two months ago.
I also feel I can now see a future without my ex. There have been one or two days where thoughts have popped up around I can't but they are gone in a few minutes.
I'm also so much more optimistic and enjoying what I have now instead of feeling like I need more. I've had some negativity the last few days but it pails in comparison to what I used to have and other days there has been none.
The list of changes is two big to go into detail here but in there
* Fear of the unknown has decreased
* Increase in optimism
* Being able to see my future in a positive light
* Being able to think big again and think outside the box - This is something I thought I'd lost
* Most of the time being a bit more social
* Decrease in constantly searching for what is wrong with me
* Being more relaxed in general - I have had a few people comment on how relaxed I seem now
* Able to just laugh things off when people get angry and treat it like a joke. Its amazing how this can change their mood pretty quickly when done in a none offensive way
* More assertive without being aggressive - After Alpha I was extremely closed up a lot of the time and could get very aggressive
* Mood has stabilized a lot still fluctuates a bit but thats just life
I've most likely missed a few things off that list but the change has been huge and people have noticed it to more so than they noticed my changes in alpha. I quite honestly believe next run through with AM5 is going to be so different to how AM11 was. All the goals I set out with have been achieved at least to some level so i'm interested to see what the next two months on these subs bring