Subliminal Talk

I feel you man. My job is good but I'm wondering what now. Because I don't want to do it anymore.

spiritman-obviously its not the purpose of the set but just curious if you noticed any difference with relating to woman..you mentioned you'r more indifferent but what about with woman your attracted to..are you more aloof, more confident to speak you mind etc..?

(04-03-2012, 12:41 AM)RainbowAbyss Wrote: [ -> ]spiritman-obviously its not the purpose of the set but just curious if you noticed any difference with relating to woman..you mentioned you'r more indifferent but what about with woman your attracted to..are you more aloof, more confident to speak you mind etc..?

Rainbow so far I seem to be aloof and not caring much about what happens, just going with the flow. About speaking my mind, lately all I have been doing is speaking what I think or feel depending on the conversations. Women have been telling me, when a woman tells you to do something, you do it. I tell them, first off, I am my own man; I do what I want, when I want. Women don't tell me what to do, if I don't want to do something, I'm not going to do it. They turned around and say, well then you're not going to get any woman acting like that.


I tell them, that's not true; I just won't have a woman who is controlling and trying to manipulate me. Or trying to make me do something I don't want to do. It just feels so refreshing and freeing to tell women what I want to say and have no regrets. I can tell they don't like what I say but that is probably cause they're so use to controlling me in some way. Overall, it just feels great to say what's on my mind and tell people that I feel are disrespecting in some way. Then be able to put them on the carpet about it, so they know they have crossed the line.

You have hit the nail on the head. Many women are used to submissive, easily controlled and manipulated beta males in this country. They have a thousand of him for every one they reject, so they can get away with acting and thinking like that.

Many of them have been raised from birth believing that is simply how you deal with men, and especially in some sub-sections of the population, which are decidedly matriarchal, including the average American black family, from what I have seen.

But it's the men who will not be controlled, who refuse to be manipulated, who do their own thing and say what they think, who get the respect, and in the end, have the best options. Because the best females will always go for the best males, and what these women are saying to you is really, "You aren't going to get any woman of my caliber that way." Well, sweetie, your caliber isn't on my level, so that's your problem, not mine. Women tend to try to find men they feel on par with. Higher quality men get higher quality women. More dominant and self directed men get higher caliber women. That's just the way it goes.

So enjoy. When women tell you stupid crap like that, chuckle. They have just admitted, without being smart enough to realize it, that you're out of their league.

hahahaa women are full of shit when they say stuff like this.

Reminds me when I was doing security while doing Alpha 2011. Some girls abused me at the door because their friend had no id, one of them was going "oh I bet you don't have a girlfriend, your an asshole" and all kinds of shit. In the end I actually said "just fuck off, i've had enough of your shit" and they were shocked and stopped, being nice wasn't working so I decided to be 'flexible'.

Next time I seen that girl she was talking to me normally and was attracted to me. It's just a manipulation technique and as Shannon said when they don't get away with it, they are like "hmm I like this guy".

These 2 journals make me more excited for Alpha 5.0, I feel alot of the changes I made during 2011 have been lost unfortunately and I loved how confident I was while on the set. I know it will definately take a few run throughs for me for it to be more natural.

-Ben

(04-05-2012, 05:49 PM)benjamin Wrote: [ -> ]hahahaa women are full of shit when they say stuff like this.

Reminds me when I was doing security while doing Alpha 2011. Some girls abused me at the door because their friend had no id, one of them was going "oh I bet you don't have a girlfriend, your an asshole" and all kinds of shit. In the end I actually said "just fuck off, i've had enough of your shit" and they were shocked and stopped, being nice wasn't working so I decided to be 'flexible'.

Next time I seen that girl she was talking to me normally and was attracted to me. It's just a manipulation technique and as Shannon said when they don't get away with it, they are like "hmm I like this guy".

These 2 journals make me more excited for Alpha 5.0, I feel alot of the changes I made during 2011 have been lost unfortunately and I loved how confident I was while on the set. I know it will definately take a few run throughs for me for it to be more natural.

-Ben

That is funny Ben about what you said to those girls, I bet they weren't use to a man standing up to them like what you did. Which caused the one girl to be attracted to you.


Day 12

So far, I am noticing that I tell people how I feel at the present moment if they do something that annoys me. Lately, which has been a lot of things, the stupidity of people I have to put up with at work as really hit a nerve with me. I have noticed that when I disagreements with people, I am able to express my view without being rude about it. Or get nervous, I am just able to say what I want, if they don't like it, tough.



Plus, I have been sticking to my ethics, morals, mostly dealing with my virginity. A lot of guys at work have said that I should just pay to lose it or find a girl that is willing to give it up. I just tell them that I am not that easy by giving it up like that. Also, I want a woman of high status who has higher standards for herself and the men she wants to date. It will happen when it happens, if you guys don't like it, tough it is my life I chose to do with it what I want.

Day 13

I noticed now I can tell people no without feeling guilty. Before when someone would ask me something, I didn't want to do like switching days or anything else, I would have a hard time saying no. But now I just say no without any hesitation.

(03-29-2012, 02:59 PM)spiritman Wrote: [ -> ]A lot of those people at work try to talk down to me, they mostly do it to make themselves feel better because they have low esteem, confidence. My current work environment is VERY negative. Filled with rumors, gossips, ass kissing the bosses, double standards, lip service, hypocrisy. Anyone who tries to stand up for themselves, gets put down as not being a team player, being part of the problem, not a solution. I am not trying to focus too much on what is going on there, but I wanted to give you guys a preview as to what I deal with daily.

I can relate man! I've also experienced that especially with my first job. A lot of gossips, putting other people down to get ahead etc. The best thing to do and what I did was to just ignore them and do my own job. Even though I am not the focus of their gossips, and when my colleagues are talking about others I just stay quiet and try to steer the conversation on a more positive light. I've had enough of people talking shit about other people. People also started to like me more because I talk more about exciting positive things. Deep inside even though we somehow feel good when we talk about rumors and backstabbing other people, it isn't helpful to us in any way. It's just our ego running wild again. In the end, I resigned that job and frankly I can say I am happier career wise. It's a good experience on my part.

Keep on being awesome spiritman!

Day 15

I just had my second sexual dream and this time; I could take the next step. What I mean is I was at a car wash/dealership some how, washing some old red car. The car looked like those beetle bug cars. As I was washing the car, I got too much soap on the hood of the car, and tried to spray it off. A few seconds later, I was inside the building looking around. For some reason the cops showed up, they searched the car I was getting into to leave. They found some kind of sex toy box, but it was empty. Some how this one girl comes into the picture with the cops after they find the sex toy box, and they tell me that I'm not allowed to have this. Mostly, because the girls on the box are under age.


Well, after a few moments of going rounds with them telling them that on the box it says they're of legal age and so am I, it some how turned into a prank like the show Punk'd. lol After that, the girl who was there became naked, then she was about to leave. I told her to hold on "let me just feel you." So, I put my hand on her upper body right below her breasts, feeling her up and down her body. A few moments of doing this, I got all excited and things started to fade away. As I was waking up (can't believe I am writing this lol) I had a wet dream, which I have to say I had to clean up a little mess. Either way, at least now I was able to take the next step by reaching out to touch her, unlike in my first sexual dream.

(04-05-2012, 06:14 PM)spiritman Wrote: [ -> ]

(04-05-2012, 05:49 PM)benjamin Wrote: [ -> ]hahahaa women are full of shit when they say stuff like this.

Reminds me when I was doing security while doing Alpha 2011. Some girls abused me at the door because their friend had no id, one of them was going "oh I bet you don't have a girlfriend, your an asshole" and all kinds of shit. In the end I actually said "just fuck off, i've had enough of your shit" and they were shocked and stopped, being nice wasn't working so I decided to be 'flexible'.

Next time I seen that girl she was talking to me normally and was attracted to me. It's just a manipulation technique and as Shannon said when they don't get away with it, they are like "hmm I like this guy".

These 2 journals make me more excited for Alpha 5.0, I feel alot of the changes I made during 2011 have been lost unfortunately and I loved how confident I was while on the set. I know it will definately take a few run throughs for me for it to be more natural.

-Ben

That is funny Ben about what you said to those girls, I bet they weren't use to a man standing up to them like what you did. Which caused the one girl to be attracted to you.


Day 12

So far, I am noticing that I tell people how I feel at the present moment if they do something that annoys me. Lately, which has been a lot of things, the stupidity of people I have to put up with at work as really hit a nerve with me. I have noticed that when I disagreements with people, I am able to express my view without being rude about it. Or get nervous, I am just able to say what I want, if they don't like it, tough.



Plus, I have been sticking to my ethics, morals, mostly dealing with my virginity. A lot of guys at work have said that I should just pay to lose it or find a girl that is willing to give it up. I just tell them that I am not that easy by giving it up like that. Also, I want a woman of high status who has higher standards for herself and the men she wants to date. It will happen when it happens, if you guys don't like it, tough it is my life I chose to do with it what I want.

Are you interested in losing your virginity to a woman you feel you love/really close to or just any woman you find cool and attractive enough..?

(04-08-2012, 02:25 PM)RainbowAbyss Wrote: [ -> ]

(04-05-2012, 06:14 PM)spiritman Wrote: [ -> ]

(04-05-2012, 05:49 PM)benjamin Wrote: [ -> ]hahahaa women are full of shit when they say stuff like this.

Reminds me when I was doing security while doing Alpha 2011. Some girls abused me at the door because their friend had no id, one of them was going "oh I bet you don't have a girlfriend, your an asshole" and all kinds of shit. In the end I actually said "just fuck off, i've had enough of your shit" and they were shocked and stopped, being nice wasn't working so I decided to be 'flexible'.

Next time I seen that girl she was talking to me normally and was attracted to me. It's just a manipulation technique and as Shannon said when they don't get away with it, they are like "hmm I like this guy".

These 2 journals make me more excited for Alpha 5.0, I feel alot of the changes I made during 2011 have been lost unfortunately and I loved how confident I was while on the set. I know it will definately take a few run throughs for me for it to be more natural.

-Ben

That is funny Ben about what you said to those girls, I bet they weren't use to a man standing up to them like what you did. Which caused the one girl to be attracted to you.


Day 12

So far, I am noticing that I tell people how I feel at the present moment if they do something that annoys me. Lately, which has been a lot of things, the stupidity of people I have to put up with at work as really hit a nerve with me. I have noticed that when I disagreements with people, I am able to express my view without being rude about it. Or get nervous, I am just able to say what I want, if they don't like it, tough.



Plus, I have been sticking to my ethics, morals, mostly dealing with my virginity. A lot of guys at work have said that I should just pay to lose it or find a girl that is willing to give it up. I just tell them that I am not that easy by giving it up like that. Also, I want a woman of high status who has higher standards for herself and the men she wants to date. It will happen when it happens, if you guys don't like it, tough it is my life I chose to do with it what I want.

Are you interested in losing your virginity to a woman you feel you love/really close to or just any woman you find cool and attractive enough..?

I am interested in losing my virginity to a woman I love and feel really close to.

Quote:I am interested in losing my virginity to a woman I love and feel really close to.

You may disagree but this is what I see here.

We are programmed to think of it like this, usually by females/mothers etc.

"Oh you have to love somebody to have sex".

And usually there is guilt and alot of other emotions around it.

So i'd explore whether you really want it like that or it is just what you have been taught.

Love is a pretty strong emotion and I believe doesn't develop for a while.

There is nothing wrong with having a physical relationship, you can connect with a woman without being in love with her, that develops over time.

Nearly all the girls i've been with i've slept with very quickly, some the first date, some the second, but never too long, it's just normal to me. And it doesn't mean anything about them (as I expect judgements on girls who 'are like that'), just that it is a natural thing and it also doesn't mean it is just one night, alot of these girls I have had relationships with for a long amount of time.

-Ben

Very interesting progress! I don't use subliminals anymore, but I have sort of gone through my OWN changes.. Like today, I just decided to be A$$%hole day. I would literally let it all out and be an arrogant a****hole with a bad attitude and doesn't give a s*** about anybody but himself. Who cares if it was mean or not! Or if it conditioned to EVERYBODY elses standards. (Which are lame by the way)..

So anyway, needless to say, This experience has been pretty drastically life altering. From a confidence stand point..

Spiritman, I see your journey and its very interesting one. Once I did this 'challenge', I felt as a new man. Empowered, Confident and powrrful, it was crazy. As for the girls disrespecting you at work, no f*** way. Wouldn't dare do it to me on my terms. You did right by standing up for yourself. Its better though to laugh it off and say somet

Instead of getting overly frustrated. Because they will think you are weak.been there brother. Over it.