I really felt like I needed a break from healing, so I'm switching to DMSI 5.1 (so FRM + DRS).
I'm planning to run it until the end of May, so a proper run this time around.
Currently it feels really relaxing and puts me in a good mood. Wonky Sensations™ are indicative of FRM action going on, though, in two spots primarily.
I shall report if anything interesting should happen.
After this DMSI run, I'll probably return to PTRA for a 2-month run. A bit of a staggered approach to healing, but I really could use that break and run something more fun for a change.
But believe you me, PTRA is a great program and has increased my quality of life quite a lot already and comes highly recommended!
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Oh yeah, lest I forget, I'm running the "tough case" protocol.
Now I'll be having both PTRA and DMSI 5.1 going on in my head for a week or two, so things could get wonky. What I did get is a really funny dream in which I was a runaway slave - running away f. in. from my ex girlfriend - and when I ran away with the assistance of another dude, they were all like, "but we're gonna make her a slave now, you want that?" and I was like, "you keep her", lol.
Currently feeling very good after the switch, I can feel my bounce in my strut and I'm in a better mood. The incessant healing was making parts of me very morose.
Currently, my mood and energy levels are greatly improved - I'm now working out like mad (added in pull-ups and hanging knee raises recently to the mix) and am tempted to go out and simply strut my stuff around town (but this could have to wait until it stops being so cold, we'll see. I don't need much, just not subzero temperatures).
I can feel the progress I've made on PTRA compared to the previous time I ran DMSI 5.1. Although FRM is still in action - maybe it'll be more focused on stuff that's DMSI-related only, we'll see.
Singing practice went great today.
The nearest social event I have is March 8, so that should give me plenty enough time to get back into the swing of DMSIng.
Apparently, the theme song of his DMSI 5.1 run is going to be "You Spin Me Round (Like a Record)" by the dirty disco band Dead or Alive, because it's been going over in my head ever since I switched subs. So here it is for your listening pleasure!
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PGNiXGX2nLU
The wonky point in my right foot is acting up, I'm experiencing physical pain there from time to time. But it's just one resistance point against a 6G program, this is going to be *executed*. haha.
(02-16-2026, 12:36 PM)Have at ye Wrote: [ -> ]The wonky point in my right foot is acting up, I'm experiencing physical pain there from time to time. But it's just one resistance point against a 6G program, this is going to be *executed*. haha.
Any idea what's being resisted?
Well, this particular "trauma point" seems to be related to workplace mobbing mostly, and quite possibly a fear reaction that I'd rather avoid that in the future whilst knowing that in my business being irresistibly sexually attractive is going to bring on quite a number of haters. At least that's what I think it is!
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But I'm not all that worried consciously because I have my ways now to detonate them + DRS v2, so...
By the by, the most recent - and quite serious (as I ended up hospitalized) - situation I had like this was not, in fact, a reaction to DMSI 5.x, but a reaction to... OSC.
Yup, these are the sorts of people I get to work with.
(02-16-2026, 06:29 PM)Have at ye Wrote: [ -> ]By the by, the most recent - and quite serious (as I ended up hospitalized) - situation I had like this was not, in fact, a reaction to DMSI 5.x, but a reaction to... OSC.
Yup, these are the sorts of people I get to work with.
How the hell did you end up hospitalized over OSC?!
(02-17-2026, 01:14 AM)Shannon Wrote: [ -> ] (02-16-2026, 06:29 PM)Have at ye Wrote: [ -> ]By the by, the most recent - and quite serious (as I ended up hospitalized) - situation I had like this was not, in fact, a reaction to DMSI 5.x, but a reaction to... OSC.
Yup, these are the sorts of people I get to work with.
How the hell did you end up hospitalized over OSC?!
I got mobbed by people I heretofore considered my "friends". They were salty I: a) came prepared (they didn't), b) started singing a zillion times better than I used to (and they didn't), c) I got a great rapport going with the beautiful Lady Director (and they just kept pissing her off - she ended up hospitalized as well, BTW., due to anxiety attacks caused by the production). d) Really hated the fact I came in extremely self-confident even though they knew I had a mental crisis, because I'm open about it (it's a little thing we like to call "stigmatization" in the peer support community).
Add to that my crazy older bro was in the hospital during, and I had to spend a lot of time with my immediate family because of that, and you get a potent mix of "WTF is going on".
I think what did me in was that they kept escalating the worse they were off, and still pretend to be my friends, lewl.
Anyway, next season we're doing the show again, so I have ample time to prepare for those bozos.
Getting my first IOIs.
Just had nappy time and a very interesting dream - in it, I was literally fighting off haters who attacked me for having, in the dream, magical powers, but the dream ended in a very hawt girl offering me sex in a public place due to those powers and we had it with gusto. So we're working through the aforementioned fear of retaliation response (as well as pieces of "sex is dirty" worries - yes, indeed it is - but in a good way! Hah!)
DMSI 5.1, compared to PTRA, is really making me energetic and wanting me to leave my place (which I've quite expertly decluttered, about 80% done with my living room/bedroom, then I'm giving the bathroom and kitchen the same treatment. Entire place feels way different now and also should soon be ready for ladies who'd like to stay over for breakfast), but the weather is bad for the struttin' of stuff (though it's set to improve next week).
I got a ticket for a random metalz gig next week of a performer I had never heard of before because I want to check out the really hot goth-chick bartenders at the venue it's at.
Listening to music and dancing around, singing a little, gradually working on a translation job I have today. Gonna do some traditional singing practice in the evening.
The FRM is going at it, though - I can tell by dreams and FRM-related wonky sensations. Though there's tremendous progress after PTRA, compared to my previous month-long run of DMSI 5.1. Back then, the FRM was so intense it was actually making me despondent. Now it's making me want to go all "oh yeah?" and get some action going.
Purchased Stage 0 of AM7 to run after this three-month DMSI 5.1 run-through. It's really tempting to switch instantly, but I really do believe I need a leeel break from healing and that one ain't gonna mess around, I think! (Which is more my speed than "go at your own comfortable pace" because I want it all and I want it *now*, as the man said).
Apparently, I can handle FRM stand-alone just fine and it doesn't bother me none. It was the healing aspects I was tired of (well, 5+ mnths on EHPRA 6G and then PTRA, that's a lot I think). The reuslt speak for themsleves though (f. in. I'm working out like mad now and almost done with Operation: Declutterification of my living space now).
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Well, the only downside of Stage 0 I see is that there's no shield, but given how much is packed into it that's understandable. I think a run between June-September should be fine, though, as it's usually my off-season.
I love how DMSI 5.1 is making me feel right now. Apart from the occasional hiccough brought on by FRM doing its thing, I feel like I'm "in the zone" for stage work - when whatever comes I attempt to embody the Golden God of Sex and Song, but on DMSI this is becoming my normal. It's why I love it for stage work - not only does it give my Charisma stat at least a +5 boost, it also automatically puts me "in the zone" for performance.
Also it's funky how my musical tastes adjust according to the program I'm running. F. in. on DMSI today I was on an AC/DC - Thunderstruck and Motley Crue - Kickstart my Heart kick. \m/
"You've been... thunderstruck!"
That's the effect I'm going for, oh yeah.