Subliminal Talk

Quote:Things are getting better every day. My desire to post isn’t really there. I notice things, and I want to talk about them, but then I realize how much work I have to do to explain so that I can be understood, and even then to probably be misunderstood anyways, and I just decide to keep it to myself. Suffice to say that OGSF3 and E7 are fucking awesome and the real deal. If you want to make real progress I recommend these two programs wholeheartedly.

What’s something that’s happened recently I can post about? In general I’m noticing things that feel normal, but are significantly different than even the previous day before. That’s also part of the reason I don’t feel like posting. It’s like why would I even post about it, it’s no big deal. Even if I know logically it’s a very big deal.

It’s one thing to want something. It’s another thing to actually achieve it. I’m not fully done achieving the end goals, but I’ve walked across some milestones and it’s kind of surreal.

Another thing. Sometimes I have pain body attacks (trauma flare ups), sometimes I feel good for no reason. Isn’t that crazy? Instead of feeling numb and heavy and in excruciating pain, I just feel good for no reason. Like when the wind blows near me it feels like it’s caressing my skin, instead of it feeling cold and lonely. I feel like I’m being embraced by the world. My experience of the world is dramatically changing.

Anyways, I wanted to post something, even if the quality wasn’t the best. Basically I’m still alive, still getting good results. I’m still human and have human flaws and stuff, but things are getting fucking awesome and it’s weird that it’s actually happening.