(04-24-2023, 02:59 PM)Conqueror Wrote: [ -> ]7 loops (Day 1 of Cycle 5)
Number of looks have been steadily increasing. As far as the girls I'm attracted to, I'm not getting any different reactions than the ones they've been giving me. Today, there was an attractive girl in the gym who has eyed me before. She went from the rowing machine over to my area of the gym and was doing some cable work. When I got done with my set, I headed over to the pull up bar which was right next to the cables she was using (literally 1-2 feet max). I just barely looked in her direction and she immediately looked at me and asked if I was wanting to use the cables. I then told her no and that I was going to use the pull up bar. At this point, I was doing some muscle ups (a pretty rare thing to see in the gym) and a lot of guys (some I didn't even know) started getting around me and tried to start a conversation out of the blue complimenting me on how many muscle ups I could do. After having some small talk with 3 or 4 guys, one guy came up to me and asked "Is that cable taken?" He was referring to the one that the girl was using. At this point, the girl was about 10 feet away doing some other exercise so I naturally looked over to her and asked if she was done with the cables and she said yes. Again, it seemed like she was expecting me to look at her and talk to her.
Ever since about loop 6, I feel like I've had an increased level of confidence. This is very deceptive to me since I haven't initiated a real conversation with an attractive girl since running 6 loops so not sure if this is real or not. But, I know that the girl felt my confidence. I could tell she was nervous to be around me, yet wanted to. Was nervous to get into a conversation, but shows that she's open to it. To be honest, I felt like I was the alpha male in the gym. Guys would talk and look at me nonstop. Girls secretly trying to sneak in looks. It would be interesting to see if this level of confidence carries over into real conversation with attractive women because barring any self-sabotage, it would look to be real easy to get a girl's number.
It sounds like you are making progress. Soon you be asking her out.
(04-24-2023, 03:59 PM)Z-Man Wrote: [ -> ]It sounds like you are making progress. Soon you be asking her out.
I hope so. Talked to another girl today that I hadn't seen in a while. Not sure if she's 18 or not but she was very engaged and happy to talk. Convo was 10/10 but I don't consider her attractive.
Every time I talk to a girl who I don't find attractive, I always have great conversation for the most part. When it comes to attractive girls, I usually limit my opportunities subconsciously or self-sabotage in other ways. However, once I can start having great conversation with girls I find attractive, then I'm golden.
7 loops (Day 2 of Cycle 5)
It's been getting interesting...
The aura is getting pretty powerful to the point where sometimes I'll be crossing paths with a girl and they look like they're fighting to not look at me. Pretty cool feeling. Also, ever since playing 7 loops, I've had more small conversations with different girls that I've never talked to before. I don't know if this is one of X4A-1000's goals but I'm happy that it's happening. One of the conversations was with 2 8's asking for directions and a 6 carrying her dog that she just got. Both conversations went well but there's a common theme with both: tension. Not sexual tension but internal tension.
I feel like there's a lot of stress that goes in my mind when talking to attractive girls, likely due to resistance. It's like there's an unnecessarily heavy weight that I've having carry through these conversations for no reason. I feel like my mind is afraid of allowing myself to have a great conversation with a girl because there's a high likelihood it could lead to sex if that happened. So my mind does what it can to make it difficult to happen.
I mean, I remember one time I was in the gym a few months ago. I was talking to a 9 and having a great conversation and all of a sudden, I felt nauseous. Never has this happened to me before. So I stop the conversation short (one that I was very much enjoying and comfortable in) and go to the bathroom and in minutes I feel better. I go back out and I could tell she was turned off by me stopping the conversation short when talking to her again so I know I missed my shot.
Ultimately, if I can just get through this internal weight, then I can achieve the ultimate goal of the program: sex
(edit): Just wanted to add that once I was done typing this, I got an invitation to hang with some friends (multiple guys and girl) that I haven't been around with in months and had a good time tonight. Reason I'm mentioning this is because of what I talked about in the first paragraph (I've definitely have gotten a lot more social opportunities as of late and more small talk with random girls).
7 loops (Day 3 of Cycle 5)
Continuing off of yesterday's theme, I am in more conversations with guys and girls than usual. Whether that's meeting new people for the first time, catching up with friends I hadn't seen in forever, or just simple small talk, I've been in way more social situations than I normally am in and I'm not even trying. It just happens.
Nothing significant in terms of talking to attractive girls but they are much more obvious in their attraction to me than before, similar to what I mentioned yesterday. In one instance, a girl who has shown interest (eye contact, body language, etc) who I usually see in the gym every day made the effort to get physically closer to me. She has a boyfriend so she can't be too obvious about it. As I was going to go grab a dumbbell for my exercise, I noticed she was walking right behind me with my back turned. When I grabbed the dumbbell and turned around to walk back to my spot in the gym, she immediately started making a conversation with 2 guys right next to where I was standing and strategically stood in a spot where I had to walk right by her to get around them. I wouldn't consider this anything noteworthy but she did it again 15 mins later with her boyfriend right next to her! Almost like she was trying to get in my way. Also had another girl in the gym who was staring me down completely the whole time I was in her view. If I stared at a girl as much as she was staring at me, I'd probably be called a creep. All to say, this makes me feel pretty good.
I feel a sense of optimism about loops 8 & 9 and I don't know why. Overall, I'm skeptical of what will happen but something is happening. I can definitely feel the effects increasing. I don't think I've talked to this many new people since the first week of college. I'm hoping something big will happen but I just need to take it one day at a time...
7 loops (Day 4 of Cycle 5)
Today... was weird.
Sleeping for 7 hours with earbuds gets kind of annoying after a while so I was happy when I got to sleep on my rest night with no earbuds. But when I woke up, it was like the sub was having the complete opposite effect as the past 3 days on this cycle.
For example, it was pouring down raining outside this morning so instead of getting soaked, I decided to miss class (missed social opportunity). When I left my dorm room for the first time today to go grab a bite to eat, the first person as I leave my dorm room is a custodian but right when he made eye contact with me, he started to walk away like he didn't want to be next to me. Moments later, as I was walking I saw 2 girls that I know pretty well and said hi to them. They said hi back but it was almost like they were thinking "Why are you talking to me?" Then after that when I finally arrived at the dining hall, I grab my food and I see one of my friends and go to sit down with him but as I walk towards him, he immediately starts to get up and leave the table. He said he had to go to class. So for lunch I sat by myself.
Even when I went to the gym, usually I see a lot of girls but it was like 95% guys in there. I saw one girl I was attracted to and that was it.
If I'm being honest, I think there has been a huge difference of effects whenever I play the sub that night or when I don't. Before, there was no difference but now there is. Almost like my brain is fighting to limit my opportunities to see and talk to women like I have been the past 3 days. Note that the aura has fired just fine today when I'm around attractive women. The difference between from today and the past 3 days is from the number of opportunities to socialize. The past 3 days, I didn't have to try and people would find a way to talk to me. Today, it was the complete opposite.
I'm intrigued to see what will happen tomorrow since I'm starting Cycle 6.
8 Loops (Day 1 of Cycle 6)
Sleep was a little uncomfortable after playing it for 8 hours with earbuds last night but today has probably been my best day yet with X4A-1000.
Today, I've felt/experienced a repeat of the effects I was feeling from 7 loops (increased social opportunities, seeing many more attractive girls than usual, etc). But with 8, I'm starting to experience a new urge: the urge to talk with people. Before, other people would initiate or it was a forced conversation based on the circumstances. For example, during one of the 7 loop days, I open the door to the staircase at my dorm and at the same time, there is a girl carrying a dog (which is very unusual since there's no dogs allowed at my dorm) so conversation naturally occurred out of curiosity. But now, I'm initiating conversations with people I know more and people who I've never met before. Another example: when I was at the gym today, I saw a guy with a Oregon ducks basketball jersey on and felt the need to ask him if he's a ducks fan. It went from casually talking about his favorite team to him wanting my contact info. I've noticed him workout all year long but today I actually went up to talk to him and get to know him which is what made this interesting.
I have probably approached at least 5 or more people (guys and girls) when I normally wouldn't have so far today. At this point, I'm almost feeling guilty for not approaching and talking to more of the attractive girls I see on a regular basis. Speaking of attractive girls...
They won't stop looking at me. They try their best to act natural but some of these girls will just try to stare as much as possible. When I was sitting with my friend today for lunch (the one I talked about yesterday), there was a 9 who just kept staring in our direction (wasn't the first time she did this with me) and after she walked out of the dining hall, my friend immediately was curious as to why she kept staring at us, especially since she has a boyfriend. Later, he told me that he thinks she was staring at him (I was laughing inside because I knew the truth).
Also, I seem to get a much greater impact with the more attractive a girl is. And girls with boyfriends are not off limits either. Seems to effect them a lot...
Overall, I am feeling the need to socialize, especially with the ones that have been looking at me a lot. I've definitely felt more confident with all of these looks but I shouldn't put too much pressure on myself when talking to these girls. I just need to have the "let the cards fall where they may" mentality and I think I'll be okay. I feel pressure but optimism at the same time. Just got to keep taking steps...
Have a good time with it. Remember... socializing is just a fun game.
Well... it didn't work.
Long story short, a few days ago I was having lunch with a group of guys when one of the girls that had been eyeing me for sometime sat with us since one of the guys there hangs out with her a lot. After having some conversation with everyone, we all put up our plates and I found this to be the opportunity to talk with her. So I went up to her and started a conversation. She seemed open and happy that I engaged her. Conversation was going great until I told her that my friend talks about her sometimes (which he does) and she then asked "What does he say about me?" And for whatever reason, I couldn't think of answer. I just tried saying like "Oh I shouldn't say" and I was being all awkward for no reason. She kept asking and I couldn't give her an answer. I couldn't think. I was so comfortable at first and it was like all of a sudden I couldn't really speak. So, with that I tried talking about other small talk stuff but at this point, she was already disinterested since I wasn't cohesive. We talked for about another minute and I left.
With that being said, I stopped playing the sub a couple of days ago since that's about as easy as it will get for me (or any guy for that matter). I also got some pretty bad headaches too. Had to take a Tylenol when I usually never do for a headache.
If anything, this has taught me that when beliefs are set, they are set. Some beliefs can be easily manipulated but for the ones that are deeply rooted, they can be nearly impossible to change, at least consciously. This experience has taught and shown me first-hand how much resistance, fear, shame, guilt, etc are holding back not only my own life, but everyone else's. At the end of the day, we are truly the only ones in our way. So with that being said, I plan on running OGSF next. Don't know how long. Not sure if I will explore option #3, but I'm sure if I did, it would help shorten the process significantly.
***From my experience, this sub should not be used by anyone with a lack of seduction skills/experience, lack of confidence, or lack of appropriate beliefs. However, if you have plenty of experience with women, then you'll have a field day. I promise you, if I didn't have all of this resistance and fear with women, I could have easily gotten with any woman I wanted, likely going out with between 1-3 women a week if I was really going at it. In short, this sub is a booster: if you have seduction skills, it will take you to the next level.
With that being said, I have a lot of belief-changing I need to get done. As for everyone else, especially for you Mavericks, you guys will be in for a treat if you haven't tried it yet.
So talking to ONE girl taught you that beliefs are set? I'm pointing it out in a ridiculous way to shake that up, because that is not true.
But you are correct in that response and what you've reported you're much better off on OGSF. Hope OGSF helps shift some things for you.
(05-02-2023, 10:07 PM)Benjamin Wrote: [ -> ]So talking to ONE girl taught you that beliefs are set? I'm pointing it out in a ridiculous way to shake that up, because that is not true.
But you are correct in that response and what you've reported you're much better off on OGSF. Hope OGSF helps shift some things for you.
No, not one girl, but many. Throughout my life, I've always tried to seduce women and have always come up short. Happens in a variety of ways. Mostly though, I can attract many 4, 5, and 6s easily because I know I wouldn't want to date them, generally. As for the 7+ girls, I either talk to them really well and then do something that makes myself appear less attractive or I just flat out act awkward and unlike myself. I've learned that the more likely I am to have sex with a girl, the more I make myself appear less attractive, either by being incoherent or just simply being weird. To me, that's self-sabotage at its finest since I feel no fear when talking to women. I'm guessing most of my fears and irrational beliefs come from my religious background. I feel like my mind associates these "sins" or negatively view things such as sex, having a lot of money, or simply having a self-centered way of thinking as really bad since they teach "sin" leads to death (including eternal death). Since my mind has been programmed to view these things as "deadly," my mind doesn't budge since it wants to protect me. At least that's my theory.
By "beliefs" I'm referring to the deeply rooting beliefs that come from fear, such as the ones in my case. I know beliefs can be changed. I was hoping that X4A-1000 could be a way around these fears. I just thought my stubborn beliefs towards women and sex could be more easily influenced if put in a different state and given new opportunities with X4A-1000. However, it looks like the only way I can achieve success with women is by removing these fears and irrational beliefs completely through OGSF. At the end of the day, it would have been hard to test this theory over the summer with the lack of girls around so I don't regret running it in the last month of school.
Also, been reading your OGSF journal. Hope it can make some profound changes for you