08-24-2022, 11:28 AM
Hello all,
Wasn’t originally going to write about my usage of OFv4, but I feel compelled to after noticing a few things that the sub has been working on. Bought the program the day after it came out, so it’s been about a month or just over now. I was using the normal usage pattern, but ultimately ended up switching to the special case usage pattern since I felt like the increase in days would help.
One thing I’ve noticed, which may very well just be a coincidence I have no idea, is that coming off the hormone subs that all had the very powerful detox module in them to OF, I got very sick about two weeks in, and got sick two weeks in a row with different things. First, I got the worst cold that I’ve ever had in my life, which wasn’t COVID since I tested negative 3 times. I had to take four days to feel remotely normal again. The very next week I got food poisoning that wiped me out for an entire day.
One thing that I’ve noticed is that I’ve been doing things just out of nowhere that I would normally overthink and worry about what people think about me. And I’m talking basic **** like grilling out in my back porch or doing yard work. I couldn’t care less what people think of what I’m doing now. Same with eating patterns. Going through the grocery store I find myself just skipping crap foods like soda and chips and fries to put in the air fryer that I would normally get every time. Now I just get healthier foods from the store, and I’m also noticing that I just stopped eating out nearly as much. Porn is just non-existent in my life now. I’m in control of my thinking and don’t have FOMO now. I don’t feel like I have to be a part of every conversation, and I only care about what I’m working on. The DRS on this sub is POWERFUL I must say! People have been nicer to me, have been a lot more open with me and my experiences with just everyone has improved immensely over the last month.
Now, to talk about some resistance or clearing or whatever you want to call it part of the sub. Two big fears that I have and have noticed that I have still are being financially independent and debt free, and also a fear of being alone in life. My mood towards money has shifted in a very positive way, and also coincides with what I’ve mentioned above about not going out to eat nearly as much.
For the fear of being alone, I noticed this not too long ago. I was at a wedding where I really didn’t know anyone but the bride and groom, and still have an issue/fear of just letting loose and having fun in a social setting. Also, I do notice that I’m overly fixated on a girl that’s pretty significantly younger than I am rather than just trying to find anyone that would be right for me, even though she would be. I got an intense sadness being single at a wedding and not knowing anyone, it really hit me deep down that I still have something to work on there.
Finally, I’ll mention something I’ve noticed in my skin. @StridingStrider mentioned in his journal some skin changes he’s noticed so I wanted to talk about one. I can’t remember if it’s noted in my previous OF journals, but there’s one big mark on my left hand that has been there for years now. In the last week, it out of nowhere just started to heal and has been looking MUCH better. I’m sure this has something to do with some healing from the sub cause I haven’t changed anything else, it wouldn’t even change when on the hormone subs.
That’s all I’ll mention for now. I probably won’t update a lot, but maybe once a month or if/when I notice more.
Thanks for reading.
Wasn’t originally going to write about my usage of OFv4, but I feel compelled to after noticing a few things that the sub has been working on. Bought the program the day after it came out, so it’s been about a month or just over now. I was using the normal usage pattern, but ultimately ended up switching to the special case usage pattern since I felt like the increase in days would help.
One thing I’ve noticed, which may very well just be a coincidence I have no idea, is that coming off the hormone subs that all had the very powerful detox module in them to OF, I got very sick about two weeks in, and got sick two weeks in a row with different things. First, I got the worst cold that I’ve ever had in my life, which wasn’t COVID since I tested negative 3 times. I had to take four days to feel remotely normal again. The very next week I got food poisoning that wiped me out for an entire day.
One thing that I’ve noticed is that I’ve been doing things just out of nowhere that I would normally overthink and worry about what people think about me. And I’m talking basic **** like grilling out in my back porch or doing yard work. I couldn’t care less what people think of what I’m doing now. Same with eating patterns. Going through the grocery store I find myself just skipping crap foods like soda and chips and fries to put in the air fryer that I would normally get every time. Now I just get healthier foods from the store, and I’m also noticing that I just stopped eating out nearly as much. Porn is just non-existent in my life now. I’m in control of my thinking and don’t have FOMO now. I don’t feel like I have to be a part of every conversation, and I only care about what I’m working on. The DRS on this sub is POWERFUL I must say! People have been nicer to me, have been a lot more open with me and my experiences with just everyone has improved immensely over the last month.
Now, to talk about some resistance or clearing or whatever you want to call it part of the sub. Two big fears that I have and have noticed that I have still are being financially independent and debt free, and also a fear of being alone in life. My mood towards money has shifted in a very positive way, and also coincides with what I’ve mentioned above about not going out to eat nearly as much.
For the fear of being alone, I noticed this not too long ago. I was at a wedding where I really didn’t know anyone but the bride and groom, and still have an issue/fear of just letting loose and having fun in a social setting. Also, I do notice that I’m overly fixated on a girl that’s pretty significantly younger than I am rather than just trying to find anyone that would be right for me, even though she would be. I got an intense sadness being single at a wedding and not knowing anyone, it really hit me deep down that I still have something to work on there.
Finally, I’ll mention something I’ve noticed in my skin. @StridingStrider mentioned in his journal some skin changes he’s noticed so I wanted to talk about one. I can’t remember if it’s noted in my previous OF journals, but there’s one big mark on my left hand that has been there for years now. In the last week, it out of nowhere just started to heal and has been looking MUCH better. I’m sure this has something to do with some healing from the sub cause I haven’t changed anything else, it wouldn’t even change when on the hormone subs.
That’s all I’ll mention for now. I probably won’t update a lot, but maybe once a month or if/when I notice more.
Thanks for reading.