Subliminal Talk

Super random but I just realized your a DBZ fan too! I love Dragon Ball, One of my dogs is named Goku, & I have two Dragon Balls tattooed on me.

My EX in Colombia also has a Pitbull named after DBZ, Yamcha, for some reason this makes it harder for me to forget about her.

Day 64/180 Rest 3/3

Today I was feeling confident and dominant for most of the day and perhaps a tad narcissistic. I very rarely am like this so it's worth noting down.

I have a feeling that I won't be returning home anytime soon. There's already excessive covid restrictions and a lockdown is highly likely. Why confine myself to those conditions when I can travel and work from anywhere? Right now I'm like a lion, free to explore and develop myself socially. When I think of home, boring routines, excessive work and lack of social life. comes to mind.

(12-01-2021, 06:31 PM)Raykon Wrote: [ -> ]Super random but I just realized your a DBZ fan  too! I love Dragon Ball, One of my dogs is named Goku, & I have two Dragon Balls tattooed on me.

My EX in Colombia also has a Pitbull named after DBZ, Yamcha, for some reason this makes it harder for me to forget about her.

Yeah DBZ was a blast when I was a kid. But man... I think you took it a bit too far lool . And where are the other 5 balls that your missing bro?

(12-02-2021, 01:46 PM)SaltyMeatballs Wrote: [ -> ]

(12-01-2021, 06:31 PM)Raykon Wrote: [ -> ]Super random but I just realized your a DBZ fan  too! I love Dragon Ball, One of my dogs is named Goku, & I have two Dragon Balls tattooed on me.

My EX in Colombia also has a Pitbull named after DBZ, Yamcha, for some reason this makes it harder for me to forget about her.

Yeah DBZ was a blast when I was a kid. But man... I think you took it a bit too far lool . And where are the other 5 balls that your missing bro?

Well I am a big fan of Japanese Tattoo's I have a Dragon holding one Dragon Ball on one arm, & a Phoenix Holding another ball in the other arm. 

I get a Dragon Ball whenever something significant happens in my life, The first ball is from the first time I moved out at age 19. The second Dragon Ball is from when I had my first real GF at age 22. 

I am getting my next one when I own my own home/property. I might also get a ball for my business that I started, & when I get married will be the one after that.

My arms & one chest are covered in Japanese Irezumi Style Tattoos. I am getting more. It's never affected me in my business or anything having "thuggish" tattoos. Plus i am a Hip Hop Artist & don't really care about other people's opinons anyways even if I was too be judged. I've come to realize it's more about how you portray yourself & the energy that you have, vs the tattoos ect.

People really like me when they meet me because I am good hearted person & super empathetic.

That being said, the reason I haven't got a hand tattoo or neck tattoo is fear of being judged or it affecting my business, or future business that I do.

I will probably wait on that until I am wealthy enough where It doesn't matter anymore.

Tattoos are very common, even tattoos like mine, where I'm from, allot of police officers have Japanese tattoos or full sleeve tattoos where I'm from in Vancouver, I'm not sure if it's the same elsewhere.

Day 65 - 2 loops Hybrid

I overslept this morning and I am wondering if it has something to do with running the sub. I could of easily slept another 2-3 hours but it was time for work so I got up. I needed a good coffee to wake me up.

Day 66/180 - 2 loops Hybrid

So I am moving into an airbnb apartment. It's a private room hosted by a female. This will be my second experience with private rooms. I really enjoyed my first one and it's really cheap so I save a lot of money compared to renting a hotel. Also, you get to live like a local and enmesh yourself into their culture.

I am feeling extremely grateful and privileged to be able to travel and live so cheaply. I'm also making an effort to talk to strangers and meet random people through couchsurfing hangouts. Here I get to really practice my social skills. It's been a week since I came and it's been really positive.

Day 67/180 - Rest 1/3

I just moved into another apartment and now living with a local female. She's not the best looking, maybe a 6 or borderline 7. I haven't jerked off for atleast a week now and mind is creating all sorts of images and movies about me banging her. She's clearly single and doesn't have much going on in her life. A big turn off for me though is that she smokes. The whole apartment smells of that shit.

Yesterday I couldn't fall asleep until 4am. Probably coz of all the coffee I've been drinking. Also, I haven't bee exercising much at all and eating out almost everyday. I need to fix this because my mind is getting too comfortable again. Whenever I start eating crap that's a sign that I'm becoming lazy and less driven to do the important things.

Day 68/180 - Rest 2/3

Awful day. The sleep deprivation has really got to me. I couldn't do any effective work all day. Fortunately I made friends with a person living in Dubai. He offered me a chance to crash at his place. So now I have a decision to make, it's either going to be Thailand or Dubai as my next travel destination.

Day 69/180 - Rest

Great day. I moved into another apartment close to the last one I was staying. I met some cool people and had dinner with them.

I have this desire now to run DMSI after I finish OF which is a deviation from my initial plan to run LTU6. The reason for this is because I have noticed so fucking many limiting beliefs and insecurities with regards to attracting women. I really want to prioritise this aspect of my life because I am clearly deficient. If I am to have any success with women I believe that it must come from within. I am done with the fake it till you make it approach. I am actually feeling very optimistic about DMSI because it's one of the most popular and well developed subs.

Day 70/180 - 3 loops hybrid

I ran 3 loops and noticed that I was mentally tired when I got out of bed this morning. @Shannon Is this a sign of overuse? It has happened numerous times now. With 2 loops I feel normal the next day.

I noticed this...after running 8+ loops. It could be overuse (for you) or resistance. You could try running more loops for a short period of time, and see what happens.

(12-08-2021, 05:50 PM)RTBoss Wrote: [ -> ]I noticed this...after running 8+ loops.  It could be overuse (for you) or resistance.  You could try running more loops for a short period of time, and see what happens.

Thanks, I'll experiment with playing even more loops just to split test this.

Day 71/180 - 2 loops hybrid

I developed a cough about 3 days ago and it's only gotten worse. Today I was feeling somewhat afraid and experienced a mini panic attack (Negative thoughts about the future, heart palpitations and a feeling of being lost and confused). Luckily this only lasted for a short while and I had to do some breathing exercises to calm myself down. I had some brief moments of homesickness and cravings for comfort like being around my family. I'm beginning to think that this is resistance from the sub. Let's see if I have any crazy dreams tonight because that may reaffirm my assumption.

Day 72/180 - REST

Took some small risks here and there by opening strangers and mingling with people in various clubs. I met 3 girls and exchanged numbers. 1 Ukrainian girl was beautiful as f*ck and she seemed to be into me. The whole night I was flowing, not giving much f*cks about anything. I did not expect it to be so great....

This morning everything was failing for me, website got hacked and I couldn't fix it, made small and clumsy mistakes which made me feel like a fool. And so I thought the rest of the day will be like this. How wrong was I??