04-06-2021, 04:28 PM
04-06-2021, 07:14 PM
I am still very tired like I was fews ago when I wrote the previous entry.
I think Shannon is right about what is happening. It seems like a recurrent pattern occuring more or less after a week of usage of a new program.
It is like that for few days then the exhaustion goes away and my energy level returns to normal.
Today gov local gov did announce a return to lockdown for some BS reasons. Gym is closing again after tomorrow. So, it is kinda silly it did only reopen for about a week after a shutdown that has lasted 6 months.
Given that the gym is my main source of social interaction, idk if it make sense to continue NSFM as I did apprehend correctly as something possible happening.
As a detail worthwhile to mention related to the program goal, the girl that I did mention about few posts ago that she did seems very interested to connect with me.
She did look for me on FB, initiated a convo with me that I did ignore because I didn't recognize the name. I thought it was some spam/scam kind of thing. Therefore, I did unknowingly created some intrigue because she was wondering why I wasn't replying.
Upon my arrival to the gym... I did great her gf... and she shouted at her friend to tell her that I was here. So my interpretation is that she did discuss about me to her friend and tried to figure out why I wasn't replying... It is very funny...
So, yes the girl of my previous post told me that she did chat with me on FB... This is at moment that I connected about the dots. I told her what did happen when I did receive her messages...
I did exchange few messages with her tonight after having come back from the gym... I'm still not sizing up her interest to me... We will see if something good comes out of this...
I think Shannon is right about what is happening. It seems like a recurrent pattern occuring more or less after a week of usage of a new program.
It is like that for few days then the exhaustion goes away and my energy level returns to normal.
Today gov local gov did announce a return to lockdown for some BS reasons. Gym is closing again after tomorrow. So, it is kinda silly it did only reopen for about a week after a shutdown that has lasted 6 months.
Given that the gym is my main source of social interaction, idk if it make sense to continue NSFM as I did apprehend correctly as something possible happening.
As a detail worthwhile to mention related to the program goal, the girl that I did mention about few posts ago that she did seems very interested to connect with me.
She did look for me on FB, initiated a convo with me that I did ignore because I didn't recognize the name. I thought it was some spam/scam kind of thing. Therefore, I did unknowingly created some intrigue because she was wondering why I wasn't replying.
Upon my arrival to the gym... I did great her gf... and she shouted at her friend to tell her that I was here. So my interpretation is that she did discuss about me to her friend and tried to figure out why I wasn't replying... It is very funny...
So, yes the girl of my previous post told me that she did chat with me on FB... This is at moment that I connected about the dots. I told her what did happen when I did receive her messages...
I did exchange few messages with her tonight after having come back from the gym... I'm still not sizing up her interest to me... We will see if something good comes out of this...
04-07-2021, 06:29 PM
Last night, I have made an erotic dream. It has been a very long time since the last time that it did happen.
Tonight was that last time I went to work out before the gym close again. There is some talk that the owner may defy the forced lockdown and I'll support the initiative if it happens but I'll beleive it when it happen.
Before leaving, I was having a discussion with a buddy and a young woman from the class did invite herself in the discussion and we ended up talking a little bit together...
There isn't much more to say about this anecdote except that she overheard what I was discussing and she felt compelled enough to join the discussion.
Could be something... Could be nothing... just documenting my currently rare interactions with the opposite gender.
Tonight was that last time I went to work out before the gym close again. There is some talk that the owner may defy the forced lockdown and I'll support the initiative if it happens but I'll beleive it when it happen.
Before leaving, I was having a discussion with a buddy and a young woman from the class did invite herself in the discussion and we ended up talking a little bit together...
There isn't much more to say about this anecdote except that she overheard what I was discussing and she felt compelled enough to join the discussion.
Could be something... Could be nothing... just documenting my currently rare interactions with the opposite gender.
04-09-2021, 11:05 AM
Last night, I did make a lot of dreaming that is usually a good sign that a program is operating.
However, the dreams had nothing to do with seduction. It was more related with work.
I can also report that the extreme fatigue is for the most part gone. The fact that it coincide with the start of my heavy dreaming period might be a sign that the fatigue was a symptom of resisting and now the part that was resisting has just given up and this is why I am dreaming and the fatigue gone too.
I miss a lot journaling about my trading project when talking about it was relevent to overcome fears (of success?) and when I was running BASE.
but I'll limit myself to say that 2 of my optimization tasks that were a big burden on my shoulders since at least last fall have been completed.
A third that is expected to be a game-changer one and which was a major refactoring task (it did take almost 2 weeks to realize) is about to come to completion...
What I love about major refactoring it is that by shaking a lot the code structure, it makes visible bugs that have always been present but did stay invisible until the refactoring. I did catch 2-3 of these with the latest refactoring... Those small discoveries are very satisfying...
I am very excited about it (actually much more than by potentially seduce women...)
However, the dreams had nothing to do with seduction. It was more related with work.
I can also report that the extreme fatigue is for the most part gone. The fact that it coincide with the start of my heavy dreaming period might be a sign that the fatigue was a symptom of resisting and now the part that was resisting has just given up and this is why I am dreaming and the fatigue gone too.
I miss a lot journaling about my trading project when talking about it was relevent to overcome fears (of success?) and when I was running BASE.
but I'll limit myself to say that 2 of my optimization tasks that were a big burden on my shoulders since at least last fall have been completed.
A third that is expected to be a game-changer one and which was a major refactoring task (it did take almost 2 weeks to realize) is about to come to completion...
What I love about major refactoring it is that by shaking a lot the code structure, it makes visible bugs that have always been present but did stay invisible until the refactoring. I did catch 2-3 of these with the latest refactoring... Those small discoveries are very satisfying...
I am very excited about it (actually much more than by potentially seduce women...)
04-16-2021, 06:48 PM
It has been a long time since the last journal entry.
I simply had nothing to say about seduction for a couple of days. A lot of things did happen with my trading system but I can't talk about it in this journal because it is unrelated. I can't wait starting UMS just for that exact purpose. I feel like I am going to get a strong TID with this one since I have kept going with this goal...
2 things did happen today that made want to write about...
I went to order some food at a drive through service. At the interphone, I had unexpected surprise to speak to a girl that had a very sexy and flirty voice. This was almost turning me on... I didn't openly flirt back consciously but my voice intonation must have changed to match her vibe.
When I did reach the window, I did try to spot the lady with the headset taking the orders to see who I was talking with but I could not see anyone with a headset so the sexy voice will remain a mystery.
Next, I did exchange few messages with a woman few weeks ago. Possibly sometime right around when I started NSFM. At some point, I took the conscious decision to steer the convo toward sexuality because this is where I had interest to see the convo going. She didn't answer and I couldn't care less. Prospect not biting to the bait that I put in water aren't the kind of fish that I am interested in catching anyway.
but out of the blue, she did reply tonight 3 weeks later and the answer is rather favorable to what I was seeking to hear.
We will see...
I simply had nothing to say about seduction for a couple of days. A lot of things did happen with my trading system but I can't talk about it in this journal because it is unrelated. I can't wait starting UMS just for that exact purpose. I feel like I am going to get a strong TID with this one since I have kept going with this goal...
2 things did happen today that made want to write about...
I went to order some food at a drive through service. At the interphone, I had unexpected surprise to speak to a girl that had a very sexy and flirty voice. This was almost turning me on... I didn't openly flirt back consciously but my voice intonation must have changed to match her vibe.
When I did reach the window, I did try to spot the lady with the headset taking the orders to see who I was talking with but I could not see anyone with a headset so the sexy voice will remain a mystery.
Next, I did exchange few messages with a woman few weeks ago. Possibly sometime right around when I started NSFM. At some point, I took the conscious decision to steer the convo toward sexuality because this is where I had interest to see the convo going. She didn't answer and I couldn't care less. Prospect not biting to the bait that I put in water aren't the kind of fish that I am interested in catching anyway.
but out of the blue, she did reply tonight 3 weeks later and the answer is rather favorable to what I was seeking to hear.
We will see...
04-23-2021, 06:14 PM
3 women that I find attractive have met my path today.
I didn't flirt with any of them except maybe by unconscious non-verbal communication but my attention was on my mental state and my feelings. and I did like what I saw and felt.
While I was running DMSI and SM3, on many occasions, I did mention that I was self-censuring myself due to societal norms, concerns about others may think and so on...
Today, I felt that I was less than an inch away from saying outloud what I was thinking...
Of course, I do have a full OF run under the belt but I feel that NSFM may still push forward the work in that area and that I still make some progress...
On another totally different topic... I finally have my second server up and running in the Seattle area... This move has shaved off about 10-15ms more from my reaction time...
This transition took me about a week of hard work. I did run after trouble a little bit. I kinda make a contract with myself which was to fix minor issues and add a small feature that has been on my todo list for a very long time. Along with that goal, the exchange code did evolve and added a new feature that slightly changed its behavior. This has demanded code change in my system as well and finally, the surge in trading volume following the crypto crash did put in evidence problems in my system.
Finally, when you make a huge amount of change, almost inevitabely, your are going to insert some regression problems as well. I believe that I must have fixed at least 3 core dumps in a 48h period. Before that, my system didn't crash for weeks.
IOW, I have chased a running rabbit the whole week. I felt like I was progressing very slowly but as I am writing this entry, I am also updating a release note document to keep track of all the changes done and this makes me realize the very impressing amount of work done in a week...
I think that I have stumble accidentally into a method to increase my productivity... I set a bar in order to give myself a reward. The reward was playing with my new server....
Unfortunately, this didn't translate to more trades yet... but I am sure that this isn't because the move isn't potent... Markets have calmed down a lot after the bloody hell that it went through in the last 2-3 days...
After 24h-48h hours of operations, I have a conviction that the improvment will show up big time...
I didn't flirt with any of them except maybe by unconscious non-verbal communication but my attention was on my mental state and my feelings. and I did like what I saw and felt.
While I was running DMSI and SM3, on many occasions, I did mention that I was self-censuring myself due to societal norms, concerns about others may think and so on...
Today, I felt that I was less than an inch away from saying outloud what I was thinking...
Of course, I do have a full OF run under the belt but I feel that NSFM may still push forward the work in that area and that I still make some progress...
On another totally different topic... I finally have my second server up and running in the Seattle area... This move has shaved off about 10-15ms more from my reaction time...
This transition took me about a week of hard work. I did run after trouble a little bit. I kinda make a contract with myself which was to fix minor issues and add a small feature that has been on my todo list for a very long time. Along with that goal, the exchange code did evolve and added a new feature that slightly changed its behavior. This has demanded code change in my system as well and finally, the surge in trading volume following the crypto crash did put in evidence problems in my system.
Finally, when you make a huge amount of change, almost inevitabely, your are going to insert some regression problems as well. I believe that I must have fixed at least 3 core dumps in a 48h period. Before that, my system didn't crash for weeks.
IOW, I have chased a running rabbit the whole week. I felt like I was progressing very slowly but as I am writing this entry, I am also updating a release note document to keep track of all the changes done and this makes me realize the very impressing amount of work done in a week...
I think that I have stumble accidentally into a method to increase my productivity... I set a bar in order to give myself a reward. The reward was playing with my new server....
Unfortunately, this didn't translate to more trades yet... but I am sure that this isn't because the move isn't potent... Markets have calmed down a lot after the bloody hell that it went through in the last 2-3 days...
After 24h-48h hours of operations, I have a conviction that the improvment will show up big time...
04-29-2021, 06:16 PM
Yesterday was my off day. And during my sleep, I made a related dream.
In my dream, I did seduced a cute young woman, and she agreed to my idea that we go back insider her apartment to get naughty.
Once inside her apartment building at the lobby where the elevators are, the lobby was more crowded than what it might look at the empire state building lobby to visit the top.
From there the attention wasn't what we intended to do up in the apartment but how in the heck are we going to take an elevator in the next hour...
Then, once we finally have been able to make it to the elevator, it was a weird elevator. It was more like a 2 seats rocket. and not long after entering this rocket like elevator, I woke before having the chance to consume the fruit of the seduction...
oh well... Subconscious must be communicating me something with this dream but what ??
In my dream, I did seduced a cute young woman, and she agreed to my idea that we go back insider her apartment to get naughty.
Once inside her apartment building at the lobby where the elevators are, the lobby was more crowded than what it might look at the empire state building lobby to visit the top.
From there the attention wasn't what we intended to do up in the apartment but how in the heck are we going to take an elevator in the next hour...
Then, once we finally have been able to make it to the elevator, it was a weird elevator. It was more like a 2 seats rocket. and not long after entering this rocket like elevator, I woke before having the chance to consume the fruit of the seduction...
oh well... Subconscious must be communicating me something with this dream but what ??
04-30-2021, 08:45 AM
Perhaps your subconscious is telling you that it can "get you the girl," but it's working on the logistics of getting you to a place where you can do the deed.
Once it figures that out, things will take off - like a rocket.
Just a stab in the dark at that dream symbolism! Maybe someone else will be able to help out with their point-of-view.
Once it figures that out, things will take off - like a rocket.
Just a stab in the dark at that dream symbolism! Maybe someone else will be able to help out with their point-of-view.
05-05-2021, 03:46 AM
Yesterday, I went at the garage for my car tune up. While the clerk was taking care of my bill, I saw a very sexy brunette sllip in behind the counter to go tease some repairman through the window behind the counter...
No idea why but when she saw that I was looking at her, she felt compelled to justify her behavior to me by saying something along the lines: I do my best to entertain the guys in the shop...
I just love when women feel the need to justify to me because the underneath unsaid frame is: they submit their power to you. You become the judge of their actions and they are looking to please you and get your approbation.
I did simply replied back with a double meaning comment on a serious tone and that made her laugh...
I didn't push further the flirt but perhaps NSFM is starting to do its thing...
During the night, I made a dream. This time, I was with a cute blonde. When there is sexy women in my dream, I usually skip the preliminaries and go straight in business... In this dream, it was the opposite. The focus was on seduction... the small and fun mind games... Letting myself be desired and so on...
Weird thing is that the most eye opening dreams occur during rest days. Last night wasn't officially a rest day. It is just that a planned late night power nap got extended because I was really tired...
That shows me that rest days are important in the process...
No idea why but when she saw that I was looking at her, she felt compelled to justify her behavior to me by saying something along the lines: I do my best to entertain the guys in the shop...
I just love when women feel the need to justify to me because the underneath unsaid frame is: they submit their power to you. You become the judge of their actions and they are looking to please you and get your approbation.
I did simply replied back with a double meaning comment on a serious tone and that made her laugh...
I didn't push further the flirt but perhaps NSFM is starting to do its thing...
During the night, I made a dream. This time, I was with a cute blonde. When there is sexy women in my dream, I usually skip the preliminaries and go straight in business... In this dream, it was the opposite. The focus was on seduction... the small and fun mind games... Letting myself be desired and so on...
Weird thing is that the most eye opening dreams occur during rest days. Last night wasn't officially a rest day. It is just that a planned late night power nap got extended because I was really tired...
That shows me that rest days are important in the process...
05-05-2021, 03:49 PM
Quote:Weird thing is that the most eye opening dreams occur during rest days.I noticed that too, but only with the most recent technology, starting with LTU6 in my case.
05-17-2021, 10:39 PM
Almost 2 months done... I wouldn't qualify my social life as vibrant due to the lockdown so it is hard to evaluate the effectiveness of the program... If I was doing regular happy hours and networking events I could probably better appreciate the program...
but today, I went outside for doing a bicycle ride and I must have bumped into at least 4-5 attractive women. We did exchange glance and smiles. From what I was feeling from the vibe that they were giving me is that they would have been open to be approached but I didn't...
For having done 8 month+ of OFv1/v2, I can eliminate fear for a factor for not taking action... I guess maybe flirting and seducing women is maybe not my #1 priority right now and I do not feel compelled to approach attractive women.
I am currently using Hybrid track. I might try to play with the masked version for some time. From what I have read about OFv3, hybrid track isn't recommended anymore for the latest releases...
I have nothing to lose... This is weird... This is the first program that I do not feel its effect... Maybe that I am really not cooperating with its instructions or there something making the program incompatible with me...
but today, I went outside for doing a bicycle ride and I must have bumped into at least 4-5 attractive women. We did exchange glance and smiles. From what I was feeling from the vibe that they were giving me is that they would have been open to be approached but I didn't...
For having done 8 month+ of OFv1/v2, I can eliminate fear for a factor for not taking action... I guess maybe flirting and seducing women is maybe not my #1 priority right now and I do not feel compelled to approach attractive women.
I am currently using Hybrid track. I might try to play with the masked version for some time. From what I have read about OFv3, hybrid track isn't recommended anymore for the latest releases...
I have nothing to lose... This is weird... This is the first program that I do not feel its effect... Maybe that I am really not cooperating with its instructions or there something making the program incompatible with me...
05-22-2021, 07:24 PM
this morning, I gave the masked version a try. idk if it was a coincidence but I made a vivid dream related to the program theme.
06-01-2021, 11:42 AM
it has been a while since I have commented on my experience in regard to NSFM.
It seems like every one is doing OFv3 these days...
For at least the last cycle, I did switch format from hybrid to masked. It might have done something. I recall that the first night that I did the switch, I made some dream related to seduction...
Not sure if it counts because this isn't a cold approach but gf has stopped talking about breakout as if she did never bring out the topic and her sexual appetite has increased...
I guess that this qualify for seduction... Not the manifestation that I was expecting but all is good...
Not sure that I will have more to say in this journal until the end of it but the next program that I am expecting to use is UMSv2... Not sure if I am feeling the TID already but I have come accross the persistent idea of selling my digital marketing business...
I feel that I am on the brink of major success with my crypto trading venture... I am all over it right now and nothing else exist... This makes me neglect the marketing business and while I am doing that... It is depreciating... It would be much better to exit with a fair value from it... The only reason that I didn't do it before it is because the trading income isn't yet sustainable so I am keeping the business that is paying the bills. but looking at it optimistically, the price that I might be able to get for it could give money for living and paying all my expenses for at least the next 2 years...
It is practically impossible that I am not making a sustainable income from my trading venture in the next 2 years if I dedicate myself fully to the project in the next 2 years...
The fact that I am seeing this and that I am thinking this way about money... That has a very strong smell of some UMSv2 TID...
It seems like every one is doing OFv3 these days...
For at least the last cycle, I did switch format from hybrid to masked. It might have done something. I recall that the first night that I did the switch, I made some dream related to seduction...
Not sure if it counts because this isn't a cold approach but gf has stopped talking about breakout as if she did never bring out the topic and her sexual appetite has increased...
I guess that this qualify for seduction... Not the manifestation that I was expecting but all is good...
Not sure that I will have more to say in this journal until the end of it but the next program that I am expecting to use is UMSv2... Not sure if I am feeling the TID already but I have come accross the persistent idea of selling my digital marketing business...
I feel that I am on the brink of major success with my crypto trading venture... I am all over it right now and nothing else exist... This makes me neglect the marketing business and while I am doing that... It is depreciating... It would be much better to exit with a fair value from it... The only reason that I didn't do it before it is because the trading income isn't yet sustainable so I am keeping the business that is paying the bills. but looking at it optimistically, the price that I might be able to get for it could give money for living and paying all my expenses for at least the next 2 years...
It is practically impossible that I am not making a sustainable income from my trading venture in the next 2 years if I dedicate myself fully to the project in the next 2 years...
The fact that I am seeing this and that I am thinking this way about money... That has a very strong smell of some UMSv2 TID...
06-05-2021, 07:05 AM
still using NSFM while waiting for UMSv2.
Last night, I made a very interesting dream. it could qualify as an erotic dream except that I would rather qualify it as a seduction dream where its fruit was consumed over and over... A lot of emphasis was put on the teasing and seduction much more than the action itself.
It was fun... Is it my subconscious learning something and is telling about it?
Last night, I made a very interesting dream. it could qualify as an erotic dream except that I would rather qualify it as a seduction dream where its fruit was consumed over and over... A lot of emphasis was put on the teasing and seduction much more than the action itself.
It was fun... Is it my subconscious learning something and is telling about it?