Subliminal Talk

Quote:My last post didn't go into a lot of details, and now that I had a few hours to shut off, I feel like I can put some more detail into the last few days.

To add some context to Wednesday, the friend who called me and wanted to treat me to lunch, I'll call her A. I've known her for a few years. She was in the early dating stages of her current relationship when we first met, and later on it got serious between her boyfriend and her. I see her pretty infrequently, and the last few times prior to Wednesday's lunch, her boyfriend was with her.

Anyway, she called me out of the blue on Wednesday and said she was close to where I was and wanted to grab lunch, her treat. Over lunch she got into the details of her relationship, and then she mentioned in passing how her boyfriend was uncomfortable with her having lunch with me.

Again, there was something about that, that just triggered this feeling within me where I just came to the conclusion of, well, if he's going to be uncomfortable, why the hell am I holding back? Her boyfriend and I aren't friends, we're acquaintances and I have no allegiances to him. That's when I told her what I did.

Anyway, we finished lunch, she picked up the tab and we walked for a bit. Before parting ways I held her close to me, and she stayed in my arms for a long time. And then I kissed her. We're seeing each other again either next week or the week after, depending on how my schedule looks.

Wednesday night I had drinks with C. That was interesting also. I told her I would meet her at one of my spots, because one of my boys was going to pass through. This particular spot I would frequent with my boy D often, because he's tight with the bartender there. She's a really attractive model / actress (every hot bartender in NYC is either an actress or model). I'll call her H, because she apparently has a role in my new DMSI influenced life now.

Anyway, My boy is really tight with H, and I know her, we banter, but I'm not tight with her like that.

So as I'm walking to the spot I see C enter, and I trail right behind her. So as she's scoping, she turns around to see me standing there, and she gives me a really big hug. I then see H, and H gives me this really hostile look. I brush it off, and ask C what she wants, and she says the same I'm having, so I order two ciders. H gets two bottles and literally rips the caps off the bottles. Even that, I was like wtf. Anyway, she gives me the bottles and I take a seat at one of the bar stools with C and we just get into catching up.

About 15 minutes later my boy D rolls in, says what's up, and grabs a seat at the bar and orders himself a beer, away from C and I. Anyway, H starts interrogating him about who C is and why she's there with me. She was being loud enough that I could hear her. Halfway through my time with C, D texts me and tells me that H is catching feelings about me being there with C.

Anyway, D leaves at some point, stops by to where I'm sitting before he goes, and C and I carry on. I was with her C almost two hours. At some point in the conversation she tells me that I have a fan club, amongst the group of women that I know C from. She says that she's also one of my biggest fans. I brush it off. We then talk about going away to a beach resort for a weekend together once the weather warms up. It starts getting later into the night, and I decide to cut it and head home as I was tired. I go to close out the tab and H gives me the cold shoulder. I pay and am about to go back to where I was sitting to grab my jacket, except that C already has it in her hands and is holding it for me.

C and I take the train together, and as I'm getting off on my stop, she comes in and goes for a long, intimate hug.

Thursday I was hanging with my boy D again, and two of my other boys were in town for a work conference. We ended up grabbing dinner at a spot in Hell's Kitchen, and the waitress we had was stunning. She'd look at me every time she'd pass by. Eventually we had a group of 3 girls and a guy take the table next to ours. The girl I found most attractive in that table kept locking eyes with me. I was tempted to step to her, but I reminded myself that Thursday night was to chill with my boys.

Anyway, one of my boys picks up the tab for dinner and as we start to leave, our waitress practically slams into me. Her lips just barely missed pressing against mine. barely. She was flustered afterwards and kept apologizing. I laughed it off and left.

Next we ended up at my favorite doughnut shop in Chelsea for dessert. The girl working the register was this really cute Asian girl. She was adorable. So I bantered with her for a bit and she gave us free donuts and discounted my overall order price also.

Thursday I had also heard from someone I hadn't spoken to in almost 6 months. She was also someone I knew for a few years, who had moved out of NYC in the last year. Anyway, we touched base briefly on Thursday, and on Friday night she called me and we had a chance to catch up. She was planning to come back to NYC and wanted to see if I would be around. I asked her when she was coming, and after she told me her dates, I said I would be in town. She then asked me if I could take time off while she was in the city because she wanted to spend the majority of her time with me.

I agreed to that as well, and asked her if she wanted to just stay with me. She was pretty enthused about the idea and said she'd be more than happy to do anything I wanted while she stayed with me. I jokingly said that she'd have to cook for me and give me sexual favors. She said she was happy to do both.

This morning I get a call from K. She ended up waking me with her call, and then told me that she wanted me to come over as she was in the mood to cook for me. Honestly, my first thought was that she was trolling me for April Fools - she's gotten me good in the past. Anyway, I get out of bed and get dressed, I didn't even bother showering, and headed over to her place. She lives 20 minutes from me, give or take.

Sure enough, she had a pretty amazing breakfast spread laid out for me. So we had breakfast together, and after I was done she just came over to where I was sitting and straddled herself on me.

After we had sex, I just lounged in bed with her until the early afternoon, at which point I came home.

I spent the rest of my day at home, just zoning to music. Today was 10 days of side B. I'm going to stay on B for another 10 days or so before I switch back to A for another run.

I'm seeing Y again later this week, and there are a few other women I met late last week that I am going to be seeing soon. The list of women is ever expanding.

Quote:Day 32
(v3.1B, Day 2)

v3.1b is the SHIT. I've had six women flirt with me today in ridiculously blatant ways. Approaching, smiling, touching me, etc.

#1: Hot asian neighbor while walking out of my apartment building heading to Muay Thai class.

#2: Hot black chick @ Muay Thai.

#3: Hot white chick @ Muay Thai

#2 and #3 occurred minutes after each other. The first one approached and flirted, then I turned to my left and the other was right there and did the same thing.

#4: Clerk at the movie theater (do NOT go see Ghost in the Shell -- God, that movie sucked so f*cking bad).

#5, #6: Two attractive waitresses at IHOP getting takeout. I was sitting in the lobby, and both waitresses kept walking up front and vying for my attention. Keep in mind I had my earbuds in and was chatting with my friends on Hangouts (warning them not to see Ghost in the Shell). The white one finally comes over and asks me when I'm coming back to "actually eat," and letting me know that she "gives good service," which she delivered with the most seductive tone.

The "aux effects" as others are deeming it have been amazing. Not gonna go into huge details, but I'm dominating in the gym and at my job

We're talking about two days. TWO DAYS. Can't wait to see how this goes.

Quote:DMSI3.1.0B: Month 1, Day 1:

So after another amazing successful day on A yesterday, I've decided to switch to version B 2 days early. I ran 30 full days of A and feel absolutely over the moon. I feel as if the OGSF in 3.1 is so, so strong--I literally feel like I am living through life right now without experiencing any fear or guilt or doubt in my life right now.

I feel really positive, energetic, motivated and hopeful. I know that I still have a long, long, arduous journey ahead of me to get where I want to be, but I also am starting to feel like I am better than most (but not necessarily all) and if I continue to work hard, put my nose to the grind, and constantly try to improve myself like I have been doing since I moved to SoCal, I can make every single one of my dreams come true.

The first 2 weeks or so on 3.1A were exceptionally rough, but having gotten through them in one piece I can honestly say that I am way better off for having done those 30 days.

I'm excited to see what Version B of this program can do for me. I feel like I am finally just now starting to come into my true form of success and sexuality. Amazingly sexy girls on the streets are staring at me or smiling at me, and I have no fear/anxiety or problems with making small chit-chat with them, maintaining eye contact, and just generally being sociable. I'm hoping that Version B will take a more direct approach to defining my raw success and sexuality.

This image that I've always had of myself in my head as a sexy, successful dream god is closer to fruition than ever before, and now that I feel as if at least 99% of my fear and doubt has been removed by version A, I am hoping that Version B will take a more direct, stronger and faster approach to helping me reach that level of sexuality, social confidence, and success.

Quote:So I jumped on the DMSI 3.1A train and I'm on DAY 7.

I made a huge list of all the positive changes and the resistance I encoutered but I lost my phone so I won't post them now.

The reason why I'm posting is that I got my first sex without having to do anything.

A girl I met 3 months ago just messaged me to say that she dreamt about having sex with me and that it was really powerful.
She said it was the third time already so the only thing I did was asking her if she would like to come see a movie.

She happily accepted and started to dirtysex talk on the conversation.
Then this same night she came to my place and we had the craziest sex I ever had for a first time with a woman...

Quote:I'm pretty sure L is trying to set me up with AFF. They worked out together on Monday and the sequence of events that played out has been far too coincidental. I wonder if that module made it into 3.1, where women introduce you to others who fit the criteria of dimsee.

I'm getting an apartment with L in the next 30 days, in the same neighborhood that AFF lives in. L told AFF the entire ordeal about L and I getting a place together. L also made sure to put any suspicions to rest by telling AFF "everyone thinks eternity and I are dating, but we're not. We are just best friends". L told me she said that, and felt like shit for lying through her teeth. L knows AFF and I would be a great match. I KNOW she's trying to set us up together. Talk about wild...

AFF is also an ENFP. We share much the same traits, and interests. AFF is also making it very clear that she's trying to seduce me (In the best way a female ENFP can). She invited me to go to Florida for a convention. I told her I'm saving up for an apartment, and she was like "I'll pitch in for you if you need!" Her and I are also going to start some gurdjieff teachings starting next week.

So the dynamic is gonna be interesting. Living with a woman I have been intimate with, who is setting me up with another woman? And all I have to do is simply be?

Y u gotta do htis, dimsee? -_-

Quote:Hello everybody, long time no see. I wanted to really experience this sub, so decided not to journal, however I want to show our masterchef Shannon what is going on with me since the start of this new sub.

I call him masterchef, a gastronomical masterchef. If DMSI is like a soup, this one has amazing ingredients. What did you put in this one man? Every day I discover something new. Things have changed, a lot.

You see, I am using DMSI 3.1 since March the 3rd. I am getting some unusual results. I had a job interview yesterday. My second job interview in my life actually. I used to be very scared of getting my resume out there, didn't think much of myself, always thought they wouldn't even consider me. Something inside me snapped. I saw the job opening and immediately sent out my resume. So yesterday the interview. I wasn't nervous. I wasn't struggeling to find my words. I was killing it. Within an hour I got a call back. I got the job. They didn't want to wait a few days like they normally would do.

Am I excited? Yes. But not like I used to be. It is more a feeling of: I deserve this! Why is this important? Because DMSI is getting me to get of my ass and make something of my life. I think the first major step is taken. But I hear you thinking: What about the goals of the sub? Where are the girls?

They will come, actually a funny story. I went clubbing and saw a girl I used to see a lot back in the days. She was a bartender and one of the most beautiful girls I ever saw. 16 year old me was to awkward and self conscious to do something about that. Now, 14 years later. We talked a bit. We kissed a bit. But her sister hates me for some reason and she said she had to go home. I think without the interaction of the evil sister, I would have gone home with her. Oh well, no big deal. I will get there. Maybe she is my long distance sniper? I am not sure yet, but she was one of the most lovely girls when I was younger, so maybe...

For now, after the new job that I will start in a few weeks, the next goal is looking for an apartment. I think after that deal is done, more results will be coming my way...

Quote:...On the flip side, for the first couple of days of running B, happiness, hopefulness, and confidence were the main themes. I can probably say that I haven't felt that good ever before. I also realize that the way my life is currently going, I'm going to end up alone. That's by choice, simply because I am not convinced of living my life with someone else. I feel that would lead to more stress and less freedom than anything else. I might be wrong and might change my mind. But that's the way it is at this point. Strangely enough, I'm okay with the idea. I fear it, sure. But I'm okay with it. Shannon and Duke.Togo seem to have mastered this and any words of wisdom or advice on how to take it on would be really appreciated!

IOI's seem to be more blatant now. Or I started noticing them more. First day after running it, I thought nothing was happening. I'm getting that feeling a lot on this side in general. No physical sensations whatsoever. So, after the first 2 loops, I went to a restaurant. I instantly liked the receptionist, she was pretty and was wearing a real nice outfit. Then, whatever happened, she spilled some water on her. So, she ended up changing her outfit and putting on a mini skirt, showing more skin and the sexy boots she was wearing. I'd like to think that I caused that. During the same time, 3 Hispanic women stepped in. Not sure why, they decided to show each other about some haircuts they like to have. That ended up with them flipping their hair in my direction in all sorts of ways. One of them even started braiding it, while pointing it at me! After that I noticed a woman across the room staring at me. All after the first run. Nothing close to this happened after that incident unfortunately.

Some random things to note.

I have more chest hair.
Girlfriend told me that she wants to eat me because of the way I smell. I had taken my shower 10 or so hours before that, and I haven't been wearing any deodorants lately. She was on her period too when that happened.
I cried of gratitude for the first time ever in my life!

Quote:...Here's how B worked - after three days on it, I got an invitation from my ex to visit her for coffee. She was all huggy and stuff. After about an hour, she invited me to lay down in her bed with her and cuddle. After about 15 minutes of that, she asked "how 'bout we get naked?". You can imagine the rest. No effort on my part required....

Quote:All of the attention I'm getting is awesome. The enthralling effect I have on people is really noticeable.

All of this is coupled with an IDGAF attitude that I consider the strongest of any version so far. I am noticing women checking me out, but lots of times it won't consciously register. I believe this has a compounding effect.

There was a car stopped at a light, and I noticed this very cute 18-22 year old girl was looking at me intensely. I looked closer and she looked STUNNED. Her eyes were wide open and her mouth was agape like a deer in headlights but more dramatic even.

She got a little nervous and tried to turn her head for a second, but was unable to stop looking directly at me. I kept walking with a smile on my face, and when I looked back she literally had her head halfway out the window and was busting her neck to watch me walk away. When I got inside I threw my head back and let out a belly laugh because it was so awesome.

Yesterday, for the first time, I had the feeling that I could have any girl I want. That I have such value that any girl would be missing out not to be with me.

Quote:I just had a realization this morning.

I'm happy.

Before, it was "I get angry, stressed, run errands, work, take care of my son, eat, workout...(etc)" with a baseline of "life kinda sucks." Everything was underscored with a gray, negative frame. Right now, after enduring all this clearing and healing, the baseline is changing to happiness & joy.

I still get angry, stressed, etc. But the baseline's changed for the better. And just like I wanted by running DMSI, my relationship with my wife has gone through another wave of shit with the result that we're in a much better place than before. I respond to her in a much kinder, gentler fashion, and things that used to annoy me don't annoy me anymore. I listen better, help her more, and am much more affectionate. I appreciate her more in general.

This is awesome.

Quote:I am having an awesome time! The girl I'm seeing right now is one of the most beautiful girls I ever dated. She is all over me, people around us can't comprehend why she's with me. She started asking people around us: 'Don't we look cute together?'

We've only been on two dates, but can't remember the last time I was so happy with a girl. Our first date was supposed to be a dinner and after that I had to attend a birthday. We started talking and before I knew it, I was too late to go there. So I met the guys in a bar, she came along and everybody's jaws dropped to the floor. Nobody was angry with me, just sort of proud with the girl I was dating.

Yesterday we had our second date, and again it was amazing. The way she looks at me, the way she hangs around me, the faces of disbelief in other peoples eyes. Everything is good. She can't stop kissing me! I think it won't be long before we'll end up in bed together.

I wanted to go back on A, but I can't seem to pull the trigger. Things are going so well for me right now. My guess is the reality bending is doing it's thing, because I'm living a life right now I could only dream of last year.
Oh just another thing, she didn't say anything, but she smelled my neck and went: 'Mmmm!' I do not wear any cologne right now, so she must have smelled pheromones or am I going crazy?

Quote:A little update time. For breakfast I had some eggsalad sandwiches and a nice cup of tea. While contemplating the mysteries of life, sitting in my chair...yeah let's cut the crap and get you what you really want to hear: DMSI did it again. I got laid!

And it was with the most beautiful girl I recently started seeing. In the bar she said to me: "You're sleeping at my place tonight.' I exclaimed a loud: 'YES!' She started laughing. Went home with her and while it didn't last very long, it was amazing. I woke up with a feeling of invincibility. Even her sister who didn't like me at all is rooting for us now, saying she hopes we will make the best out of it because I have a great impact on her sister.
Waking up today next to her gave me one of the most enjoyable experiences of my life. And I have Shannon to thank for that. Even though DMSI is still work in progress, it gave me more sex in 1 year than I did on my own for 29.

The thing I learned the most is trying to keep calm. I never asked her for her number, I never pushed her to have sex with me and yet she gave both. Being chased is an incredible feeling, let them seduce you, what do THEY have to offer YOU?

She's coming to my place tomorrow, guess I'll update later some more...

Quote:Ok, now we're cookin'. I don't know if clearing something earlier today is what's helped, but gawd-damn!

We went to Cheesecake Factory for dinner. As we sat down, I noticed there was a college-aged blonde - EASY 9 - sitting at the table across the aisle from our booth. She was there with what appeared to be family (grandparents/parents, etc). No boyfriend.

She had an adorable dress on, perfect hair, light makeup (not that she needed any). This chick was probably too short, but I could see her as a contestant in the next Miss America pageant. I couldn't stop looking at her.

As the minutes ticked by, I felt undeniable attraction growing. My feet, hands, twig n' berries all started a'tinglin'. That's when she started taking peeks at me. She must have needed to be ignored, because I instinctively looked in her direction, but not at her (well, not when I felt she was looking for it, anyway). I could also see her foot tappin' under the table.

Halfway through our meal, it appeared they were done and ready to leave. She started to scoot along the bench, away from the table. She looked at me, uncrossed her legs...and then spread them wide. I could see every nook and cranny. And...I couldn't look away. I looked up and into her eyes...once again, not looking away. Then back down, and back up. Still looking, still spread wide.

We both snapped out of it. I went back to my conversation with my parents (who didn't notice, apparently). I looked back again, and her knees were pressed together, but her feet were apart and wiggling wildly. She then said her goodbyes to her family and left.

I can't get this whole experience out of my head. Especially those legs and panties.

Quote:DAY 39 - Track B rebooted

Holy ****. The German / Swedish M started sending me all these bra and cleavage pics, as well as a couple sexually provocative vids. I got an erection for 20-25 mins straight. I was like "You just gave me an erection. Stop it, M. It's your fault! Tongue". It made her send more and more, one after the other lol...