Subliminal Talk

Stage 1, Cycle 1, Night 3

Slept well, had one dream of note:

I was at a gathering where a sexy, naughty-looking and flirtatious redhead was giving me a lot of attention.  I have always viewed redheads as people with a naturally higher sexual appetite, so it appears this was how this person symbolically appeared in the dream.  I remember playfully pinching her ass, and then she sat across for me and spread her legs, continuing to talk to me as she gazed into my eyes.  I let my gaze wander to her crotch and back to her eyes, again and again, which seemed to please her.

While I am a very sexual person, I tend to hide that fact in most situations, and guard myself closely.  Perhaps this dream is showing me that I am working on becoming more comfortable with expressing my sexuality/desire, and dealing with some shame and/or guilt associated with that.

Dude,just read your post!! Wow!! I AM astounded at just how much progress yawl are making ,using LTU6 in such a SHORT amount of time.Wow!! I mean dayummm, ya gotta admit this is purdy friggin' amazing,to say da least!!
Wow!!

As MY Japanese friend,who was DIRECTLY from japan on visa,here, used to say in her broken Jinglish, "A-May-Jing"
( amazing)
I learned some baby Japanese.....along the way and can still speak what little I know,if I had a year in Japan I know I could be 85% fluent in Japanese( so this is noooo slam on Japanese people. I Loved my good friend Yuko-san and would love to see her again,after 40 yrs and Kenji Nakagawa,too!!).

Soooo Ah-May-Jing RtBoss!! ha!!

Tonight marks 1st SASRB night off.

Last night, I once again woke up around 4:30 AM.  Remembered a bit of a dream where I was talking to beautiful women who were attracted to me.  Love those dreams, lol!

Thoughts kept streaming in, so in short order, I was pretty wide awake, with some minor anxiety in my chest.  Used the bathroom, went back to bed.  I don't know how long it took to go back to sleep, but I remember hearing my wife get up and get ready for work at 5:30 AM, so it must not have taken to long.  Next thing I know, I woke to my 7:40 AM alarm.

Again, feeling great this morning, any trace of anxiety gone.

Went outside and cleaned up my yard from a storm that took down quite a few branches off various trees this last Monday.  Hadn't wanted to do it before now, but easily did it without a second thought today.  

I've been spending a lot of time looking into cryptocurrencies.  It's almost becoming like a focused obsession, and it really didn't come into my mind until this week.  I'm having fun.

Last night was my 2nd and last SASRB day of Cycle 1.

Went to my wife's friend's (a close coworker) pool yesterday.  This was the couple we were supposed to go to Hawaii with back in April, before the trip was cancelled due to COVID.  Her friend's husband was there, and we've never really had a chance to get to know one another.  We got on really well, and it seems like our friendship was merely delayed.  He asked me if I was interested in having him as a workout partner, and I said yes.  I need to start exercising again, and it seems like our mutual goals are aligned.  Two guys who want to get in shape, but aren't ego lifters.  We're gettin' older and want to avoid getting injured - just want to look and feel better.  So that's cool.

Dreamed last night that I did something wrong and was sentenced to life in prison.  It felt so real, I thought, "How could this be my life?"  I spent the remainder of the dream trying to figure out a way to get out of it, or make the authorities see it as a huge mistake.  I also remember appealing to some famous athlete to use their pull to get me out of it...Not sure how it all turned out.

I woke up at 10 AM.  I must have been tired.  I probably could have rolled over and gone back to sleep, but I got up.  Got the usual, "Finaaallly!"  from my wife.  She's just jealous she couldn't sleep in, haha.

Tonight I begin 2nd Cycle.

Tonight marks night 3 of listening - Stage 1, Cycle 3.


I've been out-of-town at a wedding since last Wednesday.  We had to fly.  I've had a fear of flying, ranging from mild anxiety to near panic-attack, since I was in high school and had a scary experience.  I've been working on that fear for a long time - consciously dealing with it a multitude of ways for years.  I don't fly often, so I haven't had many opportunities to work on it. It's been slow-going.

Both flying out and coming back, I had mild anxiety at times, but for the most part, I felt pretty good.  I even laughed during a turbulent decent that had my wife digging her nails into the armrest - but even she did well.

Made some new friends, re-engaged some older relationships with people we haven't had much time to spend with over the years.  Behaved myself very well at different social gatherings.  It was a good time.  

Not remembering dreams at the rate I was during OF.

Instances of deja vu, more frequent than usual.  

Been more calm, and slow to anger.  More apologetic, when necessary, with my wife, and finding it easier to initiate the peace process after a tiff or argument.

Concerning the detox module, was drinking at various social gatherings for the out-of-town wedding,  and at a high altitude.   No hangover any day.  I thought that was odd.

After the SASRB, we had two nights of listening at the hotel.   Both nights, my wife woke up for over 90 minutes in the middle of the night with over active thought patterns.  Last night, at home, she slept through the night.

Detox on this one seems to be reflecting the extremely powerful impact this program has as a result of the new build and scripting methods.

Was your wife only showing hyperactive thoughts, or was there indication that she woke up because she was processing something in particular?

(08-25-2020, 08:41 AM)Shannon Wrote: [ -> ]Detox on this one seems to be reflecting the extremely powerful impact this program has as a result of the new build and scripting methods.  

Was your wife only showing hyperactive thoughts, or was there indication that she woke up because she was processing something in particular?

I just asked her, and she said it's mostly just stress related to various responsibilities at home - especially with how we're homeschooling the kids b/c of COVID.  A lot of concerns related to how she's doing "as a mom."

Stage 1, Cycle 3 Complete 

Tonight marks the next SASRB.

Woke very tired.  Started loops at midnight,  so the playlist ran all night.  Had a hard time getting to sleep,  and then I realized (in bed) I didn't take my usual benadryl and melatonin.  Probably took at least an hour to nod off.

I'm at home with the kids for my wife's 24-hour shift at the hospital.  Since we're homeschooling,  it's my first day as "Mr. Daddy." Anyway, I wasn't looking forward to it, since I woke tired - feeling like doing absolutely nothing today.  I think part of it is post-vacation blues. Back to the grind, so-to-speak.

I also have to write a sentimental letter to my dad to include with his retirement present.  I have not been looking forward to that, and it needs to get done today.  Funny, because although I've avoided it, now that I'm forced to face it, I suddenly have ideas about what to write flooding in, and that is easing my anxiety about it. 

Well, off to teach kindergarten and preschool, lol.

Ugh, how is it teaching the preschooler was so easy, while the 6-year-old is so frustrating? Seriously, teaching a willful child to read is an exercise in patience.

My wife texted, "Majorly dragging today." Seems she is working on or fighting something, and ready for SASRB, as well. Though it could be the UTI she picked up while we were OOT. Forgot about that.

Teaching a willful child is best done by making them want to do whatever you want them to do. I was a willful child with a lot of fear, and I decided I could not read when I was 4 years old. My mother taught me the alphabet and how to sound out words, but I decided it was impossible for me to read.

So she tricked me into reading. She would start a story I really enjoyed, and then when I got good and interested, she would put the book down and go do something else. When I asked her to keep reading she suggested that I might try to read it.

I insisted that I couldn't. So she sat next to me and pretended to have trouble figuring out what a word was, and asked me to sound it out for her. As time went on, I got good enough at it that I was too impatient to wait for her when she would put the book down, so I picked it up and started reading. Then she pointed out to me that... hey... you're reading! Congrats!

Maybe that will help.

(08-26-2020, 04:55 PM)Shannon Wrote: [ -> ]Teaching a willful child is best done by making them want to do whatever you want them to do.  I was a willful child with a lot of fear, and I decided I could not read when I was 4 years old.  My mother taught me the alphabet and how to sound out words, but I decided it was impossible for me to read.

So she tricked me into reading.  She would start a story I really enjoyed, and then when I got good and interested, she would put the book down and go do something else.  When I asked her to keep reading she suggested that I might try to read it.

I insisted that I couldn't.  So she sat next to me and pretended to have trouble figuring out what a word was, and asked me to sound it out for her.  As time went on, I got good enough at it that I was too impatient to wait for her when she would put the book down, so I picked it up and started reading.  Then she pointed out to me that... hey... you're reading!  Congrats!

Maybe that will help.

Thanks, great idea.  These "BOB" and "Pete the Cat" books are insufferable, but it's a great resource for helping kids use word sounds and sound out the words to learn to read.

Your mom was very wise utilizing that strategy!

(08-26-2020, 04:57 PM)RTBoss Wrote: [ -> ]

(08-26-2020, 04:55 PM)Shannon Wrote: [ -> ]Teaching a willful child is best done by making them want to do whatever you want them to do.  I was a willful child with a lot of fear, and I decided I could not read when I was 4 years old.  My mother taught me the alphabet and how to sound out words, but I decided it was impossible for me to read.

So she tricked me into reading.  She would start a story I really enjoyed, and then when I got good and interested, she would put the book down and go do something else.  When I asked her to keep reading she suggested that I might try to read it.

I insisted that I couldn't.  So she sat next to me and pretended to have trouble figuring out what a word was, and asked me to sound it out for her.  As time went on, I got good enough at it that I was too impatient to wait for her when she would put the book down, so I picked it up and started reading.  Then she pointed out to me that... hey... you're reading!  Congrats!

Maybe that will help.

Thanks, great idea.  These "BOB" and "Pete the Cat" books are insufferable, but it's a great resource for helping kids use word sounds and sound out the words to learn to read.

Your mom was very wise utilizing that strategy!

My mother was a special education teacher. 

At the end of the day, when I ask what has LTU6 done for me...

I think of the new $56 dual jet bidet add-on to my "Thinking Toilet" that is now keeping my tooshie squeaky clean, European-style.  No more TP rubbing me the wrong way!

My ass has deserved this for a long time, lol.