Yo.
So I'm starting a new journo. I will be reporting way less than previously, though, as I decided to social distance myself from these forums here a bit because of *reasons*. The plan is to run the DRS + USLMaxx 4.2 once and if it's released, plus the SDM for fun and profit (I love the fact it's DRS-compatibile).
Anyroad, got my tax rebate, purchased that fancy SDM there and ran it yesterday (paypals took their sweet time processing my funds transfer, like 5 days or so, but I got the order approved by the IML squad almost instantly, so thanks for that, Ben and co!). It made my intimates parts all tingly and funny feeling and I started getting noticeably horny. I did get knocked out due to what felt like hatin' attack right after, lol, because I started getting depressed for no reason. It passed after I did some clearings and DRSed some more. Oh, ye lovely people.
So I guess that's the crux of the issue here.
I do feel a bit more sexually driven today, though, so I guess it's going to work but could take several days to get me back up to snuff, so to speak. I'll be running it in the "long-term programming mode" for the time being.
This is my future self running the DRS + USLMaxx combo:
I thought SDM already had DRS equipped? Or did i get that wrong
(04-21-2020, 12:02 PM)LiquidMind Wrote: [ -> ]I thought SDM already had DRS equipped? Or did i get that wrong
Does this program include an Auric Shield? Yes, it has the Directional Reflection Shield built in. This will cause any negative responses from others to your increased sex drive and sexuality to be reflected back to them, instead of affecting you. The result is that it enables you to enjoy your higher sex drive without being affected by guilt, shame, fear and other subtle energy-based manipulation tactics.
(04-21-2020, 12:02 PM)LiquidMind Wrote: [ -> ]I thought SDM already had DRS equipped? Or did i get that wrong
It does indeed.
Nevertheless, I find myself having to pretty much carpet-bomb the darn thing, even though DMSI with its in-built NDRS must have played itself out by now. Else I find myself too off-balance to do the things I gotta do.
It's the current weathering, so to speak. People are siting at homes and *thinking* about one another.
The going appears to be good. I'm feeling good.
Will be returning to the big city shortly (I went to visit my crazy parents for the holidays and elected to stay there for a bit as the aura in the city was getting a touch overbearing. My hometown's way less populous and pretty much comatose at the best of times
). My vocal coach says we can work, she'll just wear a mask and gloves, lol (I was planning to do a little recording by May 15th).
That SDM there, when used for 4 loops per day (the "long-term programming" protocol), appears to have an interesting side-effect of actively dealing/clearing out shite that would stand in its way. F. in. apart from making my intimates all tingly (and making me kinda hard
) I'm getting dreams directly related to some playah gals from my romantic history and how my sex-drive got blocked off by each.
Apart from that, feeling like "I sure do feel like have tons of sex with some sweet little blond girl or something", but interestingly I have no desire to, f. in., watch pornographic material, play with myself and such. I guess the best way to see the SDM in action is just find some nice little lady and get to it.
Also had some very interesting "song on loop out of the blue" situations here, related to the above, heh. Good songs, though!
My sex drive is definitely and steadily increasing, and I feel good. Going back to the big city the day after tomorrow to get some work done, and other things.
The SDM is making me very physically hungry after I'm done with the loops, though - it's not energetically draining, but there's lots of juice definitely going into something (probably a lot of it is fueling the DRS because oh, humanity!, but whatchagonnado
).
Have come to some conclusions, including that there's at least one long-time "friend" I gotta cut off completely (if you remember from my previous journals, that composer-pianist fella). I've always known he had issues (it's a darn sad thing, really), but apparently he copes with them by shitting all over my personal and professional life when I'm not looking, to make himself feel better, lol. Fuck you, friend!
I might, or might not, tell him about it to his face. We'll see. Depends on how he acts post-quarantine.
(04-30-2020, 06:49 AM)Have at ye Wrote: [ -> ]My sex drive is definitely and steadily increasing, and I feel good. Going back to the big city the day after tomorrow to get some work done, and other things. The SDM is making me very physically hungry after I'm done with the loops, though - it's not energetically draining, but there's lots of juice definitely going into something (probably a lot of it is fueling the DRS because oh, humanity!, but whatchagonnado ).
Have come to some conclusions, including that there's at least one long-time "friend" I gotta cut off completely (if you remember from my previous journals, that composer-pianist fella). I've always known he had issues (it's a darn sad thing, really), but apparently he copes with them by shitting all over my personal and professional life when I'm not looking, to make himself feel better, lol. ***** you, friend! I might, or might not, tell him about it to his face. We'll see. Depends on how he acts post-quarantine.
Hunger after loops will be down to two things: either it's triggered by fear, or it's being triggered by you using that food to generate energy. If you start gaining weight from it, 99:1 it's fear.
(04-30-2020, 08:15 AM)Shannon Wrote: [ -> ] (04-30-2020, 06:49 AM)Have at ye Wrote: [ -> ]My sex drive is definitely and steadily increasing, and I feel good. Going back to the big city the day after tomorrow to get some work done, and other things. The SDM is making me very physically hungry after I'm done with the loops, though - it's not energetically draining, but there's lots of juice definitely going into something (probably a lot of it is fueling the DRS because oh, humanity!, but whatchagonnado ).
Have come to some conclusions, including that there's at least one long-time "friend" I gotta cut off completely (if you remember from my previous journals, that composer-pianist fella). I've always known he had issues (it's a darn sad thing, really), but apparently he copes with them by shitting all over my personal and professional life when I'm not looking, to make himself feel better, lol. ***** you, friend! I might, or might not, tell him about it to his face. We'll see. Depends on how he acts post-quarantine.
Hunger after loops will be down to two things: either it's triggered by fear, or it's being triggered by you using that food to generate energy. If you start gaining weight from it, 99:1 it's fear.
Nah, I don't think I'm gaining weight. We'll see. I doubt it, though; I'm hungry but I'm not overeating.
(04-30-2020, 08:33 AM)Have at ye Wrote: [ -> ] (04-30-2020, 08:15 AM)Shannon Wrote: [ -> ] (04-30-2020, 06:49 AM)Have at ye Wrote: [ -> ]My sex drive is definitely and steadily increasing, and I feel good. Going back to the big city the day after tomorrow to get some work done, and other things. The SDM is making me very physically hungry after I'm done with the loops, though - it's not energetically draining, but there's lots of juice definitely going into something (probably a lot of it is fueling the DRS because oh, humanity!, but whatchagonnado ).
Have come to some conclusions, including that there's at least one long-time "friend" I gotta cut off completely (if you remember from my previous journals, that composer-pianist fella). I've always known he had issues (it's a darn sad thing, really), but apparently he copes with them by shitting all over my personal and professional life when I'm not looking, to make himself feel better, lol. ***** you, friend! I might, or might not, tell him about it to his face. We'll see. Depends on how he acts post-quarantine.
Hunger after loops will be down to two things: either it's triggered by fear, or it's being triggered by you using that food to generate energy. If you start gaining weight from it, 99:1 it's fear.
Nah, I don't think I'm gaining weight. We'll see. I doubt it, though; I'm hungry but I'm not overeating.
I figured that would be unlikely for you. So it's most likely using that food for powering what SDM is doing to and with your body and your energy then.
Sure feels like it. First two loops usually have a very obvious "aphrodisiac" effect, so to speak (
), and seem to be energizing (i. e. I would not recommend 2 loops directly before going to sleep
) then the latter two seem to be going a bit deeper and doing other wonky-feeling stuff, and make me a little bit sleepy in contrast to the first two.
Back to the city. The govm'nt is planning to start gradually lifting the quarantine, so I guess it's time to get back to it. I'm still out of work until the end of May at the very least, but I should be able to get some proper bardic practice in.
Anyroad, now the SDM is making me heat up quite a bit. Apart from that, it's doing what it's been designed to do, apparently, because my horniness is increasing. The nice thing about is that it feels like I'm in total control of the increased horniness; it's not like back when I was 15 or something, when I'd pretty much want to copulate with anything that wouldn't try to make a break for it, so to speak.
Still, certain individuals apparently *do not* like what I've been doing recently (which is basically stuff for my own benefit, as well as a... let's just call it "a call for justice", lol), but that's what we've got the DRS for, don't we (I'm still kinda carpet-bombing it. Whenever I'm at my computer and am not running the SDM, I play the ultrasonic version of the DRS. And I have no intention to stop
)
Is the effect of SDM continuing to increase over time?
Actually, since yesterday, it seems to have dropped down a notch. I'll see today after I put on my loops; I could simply be tired due to traveling.