I look back and I'm almost two months in. Around a month ago I tweaked the listening process to 5 days ON an 3 days OFF.
Currently on my 2nd day of not using it. I woke up earlier than normal this day. I'm not getting enough sleep and sleeping at 2am for the past two weeks. Totally not good for healing. On the flip side last week was among the best weeks I had with very minimal chronic stomach pain. This day was different since I experienced pain yet again. I can probably attribute it to not being able to drinking my digestive enzymes before lunchtime. The pain was getting very minimal that I already forgot to take it. I also almost forgot to take it before dinnertime so I took it during dinner. It's evening now and the pain continues. Stress probably have added but not as much since the past few days I experienced very minimal pain. What's giving me stress is currently our city is on lockdown due to coronavirus and its getting harder and harder to get supplies. I manage to stock up a month before but my diet is very strict and full of natural foods so I can't stock some of the foods included in my diet.
Hope everyone is doing fine during this time.
Into day 4 later of listening MHS v2. As far as I know I'm listening to it for more than two months. I've been feeling really tired and even sleepy even after 8+ hours of sleep. I dreamed last night of being with a close friend of mine. We're in some kind of a big building and we traverse the building through elevators. Each elevator has a place and we are in a bar or casino like location. My 20's were mostly spend going to bars and clubs and it is one throwback. Since I'm not drinking anymore I promise not to drink that night (I can't drink since it is detrimental to my illness) but I couldn't help it in the dream and I started to drink. Then I got the buzz and before I know it I was drunk. My friend went to the casino while I can barely remember anything. Then after a few hours there this lady friend who told me I did a lot of silly things and I told her I can't remember anything. When its time to go home I went with my close friend even knowing fully well my path home is on another floor. When he and my lady friend went their own way (they stopped by on one floor of the building and they said its their way) I don't know where to go anymore. I can't remember what floor I need to go in order to go home. Pretty much my dream ended with that.
My stomach pains hopefully were getting minimal. There are still times within the day when I feel it but it is far from the debilitating pain I experienced before.
However I now experience back spinal pain probably due to a movement I did a few days ago or what not. I'm putting my hope again to MHS v2 on this one. Today the back pain was quite troublesome.
Last night of listening MHS v2 last night (Day 5). Next 3 nights will be without listening to any subs.
I had another vivid dream last night. I dreamed that my best friend back in pre school and early elementary days just transferred and will be staying at a house next door. I get to meet him as soon as he transferred and I remembered we used him in some work I am currently doing. I cannot anymore remember the details but I go back and to from his place to discuss the whereabouts of our job and to catch up as well. The last time I had contact with him was around 5 or 6 years ago. We went to the same elementary and high school but was only able to catch up around on our 6th grade and last year of high school. I was able to contact him 5 or so years ago when we both added each other on Facebook.
Anyhow not much specifics from the dream as far as I can remember. Good thing I am able to remember it.
In regards to my health, digestive issues still remain pretty quiet which is a good thing but back pain is getting more common. Going back to meditate at least once a day.
I started this program 1/12/2020 so I'm almost three months in.
When I had my 3 days OFF not listening to this subliminal, I don't know if its just placebo but I felt more depressed and the pain is more noticeable. I also notice my back pains is becoming more common. Since I can't go to a doctor to have this checked out my guess is that it is just muscle pain. I've been doing daily yoga for three days now not just for it but also for my digestive issues. Specifically my back pain is not that painful just a minor disturbance but it gets irritating because I experience it throughout the day.
Currently finished Day 2 of 5 days ON with the program.
I've got a go signal from Shannon that its ok to continue this program past 3 months. I need the power of MHS v2 5.75g to its fullest extent.
Last night I had pretty fucked up dream. In my dream I was one of the good guys, or so I think. We are fighting some demonic entity or antichrist of some sort. But in this case its kind of blurred because me and my friends who are also fighting these "demons" also have demonic power. In a nutshell my dream is religious in nature and me fighting against what I think was demonic in nature.
Moving on now to my illness, there's little improvement on my back. But good thing I have a spine and back support brace which I now wear when I seat and stand. Daily yoga is still being practiced and it just makes me realize more how inflexible and clumsy I am. I wish I have started this years ago instead of just weightlifting.
My stomach pain is same as before. Still minimal and only gets painful at certain times of the day. Good improvement but I still keep on my diet and researching on how to further improve it. The city lockdown sure makes it hard to get natural foods but I have to stay optimistic. I need to keep on stating that STRESS is a big part of my illness. I want to be a person who can manage my stress and anxiety levels not only in this time but to the rest of my life.
I can honestly say that throughout my sickness I have multiple suicidal thoughts because of regret, what ifs and pain. Instead of me looking optimistic and putting a smile on my face and seeing this as a challenge I need to overcome, I because fearful of my present and what will become of me in the future. I am into self improvement since 2009 and for a decade I wasn't able to fully utilize it due to my fears. I think now is the time for me to not only become fearful but also become fully accepting of myself and this life. Also to be grateful every single day. There's always something I will be grateful the moment I wake up.
Unfortunately that dream goes a bit too much into rule 4.
Edit. Didn't want any issues. Disregard.
(04-01-2020, 03:32 PM)Benjamin Wrote: [ -> ]Unfortunately that dream goes a bit too much into rule 4.
I will make edit or delete it if you require me to. It's ok.
Yeah that'd be good man. I know it's annoying but we have it for a reason.
(04-02-2020, 02:44 PM)Benjamin Wrote: [ -> ]Yeah that'd be good man. I know it's annoying but we have it for a reason.
Edited already. No worries at all.
I decided to add additional "2" days on using it just this once so the total was 7 days using it. Fatigue and tiredness are still prominent throughout my day even though I'm only at home and doing few things. I stopped doing bodyweight exercises to gain muscle like what I have been doing for years (around 6+ years) due to my back tingling feeling and pain. It's not that painful and more likely due to poor posture. As such I researched hard on the topic and practicing stretching exercises (Used Bob and Brad Physical therapist YouTube videos). Hopefully they will help. I'm practicing light yoga as well.
Bloating in my stomach got a bit more intense for the past days. I was burping more than usual and feeling of wanting to vomit. I've had this feeling even back years ago when I think I'm ok. Kind of like feeling when I am tense or will do some stressful thing like going to bungee jumping. I know it is different from the usual burping I feel before. I'm not sure if this means I am improving or not. Just gotta relax and stay on course. Quarantine is extended at my city.
For the nights following my kind of "nightmare" or "nightmarish" dream last 4/1/2020 on my update, I had almost the same. One night I dreamed of me giving up and telling my dad I'm accepting my fate already if things get worse. Got me crying in the dream. When I woke up I felt really sad and depressed. But I still and press on. I still believe in my heart and mind I will get healed. I won't give up. Things are getting harder even in our current situation. Like my friends are all getting heated up due to the coronavirus crisis. People are getting political and hating on the government. But I feel apathetic to all of them and mainly because I feel it won't do a single thing if I took those as my business. My main concern is still to get healed and stay grounded amidst this crisis.
Last night was a somehow good dream. I dreamed that I'm with a lady friend (whom I like) and we went to a lady friend's place for her wedding. It was nice.
I'm three months in with the sub. I can't believe it was already three months already. The only sub I was able to listen longer was E2 as far as I can remember.
Anyhow, too put it bluntly, I'm kind of disappointed with this sub in regards to my back pain. I've been having these back spinal problems for almost a month now and it has gotten worse in some days. I've been doing daily exercises to relieve the pain and also been standing up for the majority of the day but to little avail. As I said on my previous post I was really hopeful but little to no improvement was made. But in a way I started this sub to improve my stomach and digestion problems which I think helped because my digestion improved and stomach pain get lesser over time. But I was also in a strict natural diet that is meant to treat and stop my condition.
I'm still hoping that this sub works for my back pain. My back pain even started while I am using this sub. I believe in its notion of "The ability to regenerate damaged parts should be significantly more powerful, capable, efficient, effective and rapid in this version of the program."
I hope others here can chime in here and enlighten me with my current problems. The problems of my back is adding stress to the coronavirus quarantine. I'm just down because as soon as my stomach and digestion problems are getting relieved, another new physical problem is arising. I've been following the way to listen to this sub with the "ON" and "OFF" cycles religiously.
For the record I now switched to Hybrid Trickling Water Stream instead of the Ultrasonic version. Will that improve the effectiveness? I really really want this to work and finally be healed and cured of all my ailments. I want to be healthy again.
Still not much improvement with the back pain. Research and others said it is "intercostal neuralgia", pretty much a pinched nerve on my spine that makes tingling or specifically feeling some insect is crawling on my back.
I've been doing the multiple exercises suggested for it daily at least 3 times a day. Hope it really helps with my recovery. Sitting makes it more painful as compared to standing that's why I pretty much stand the entire day and made a set up that I can do things while standing. It made my toes and feet numb but I know I will get used to it. My emotions are at a low point again but in a way I see some good points that this in a way will help me improve on my posture. All my life I have bad posture and even though I bought a back brace last year, I barely wear it. Now I have to wear it everyday to make my posture straight.
In regards to my stomach pain, I know it is improving but as always it is really slow. But hope is again up as I manage to find the book, Medical Medium, which can help me more in my natural healing. I've been doing the celery juice thing that it recommends for more than two weeks already but it turns out I was adding water to it and eating the pulp of the celery. This makes it less effective. My goal is to drink at least 16 oz. of celery juice every morning after I wake up. Getting celery during this quarantine is hard but I will manage. In a nutshell I can probably say this time of my life starting November last year when I was sick was the hardest time of my life. Just got to go out of this thing in a good way and believe me I have learned a lot of lessons. I'm pretty much not the same person anymore.
Had an exciting dream last night that I was in some form of a team and there are 8 of us. I remember we are doing a project of some sort like in school. I can't remember much from that.
Around 2 to 3 weeks ago I remember that I had a really nasty dream. I was visiting the cemetery with my father and there I was looking at some of the tombs until I found a really big mausoleum sized tombed. Like the door is as big as a church. When I entered I saw that the remnants of the dead are still there together with his clothes. It seems he died a long time ago but the embalming process turned him into a mummy. His wife is also there inside this big "tomb room". What's puzzling is that their clothes that they used to own are still there on a rack beside them and you can peruse and even get one if you want. I saw other visitors browsing upon these clothes upon my shock. When I went out due to the horror of it I am like in a car and driving around different tombs until I saw the tombs of our former president of our country. Quite creepy again. If my healing needs to come I need to get past this dreams of death.
Moving on, I think I am more in more getting in control of my emotions. I was almost to the point of saying violent reactions over people who have different opinions on me online then I realize it is a good time to practice what I learned from Stoicism and just let that go.
I was browsing my past journal entries and around a month ago I started feeling the back tingling and pain. I'm still experiencing it to this day.
Around 3-4 days ago I had another pretty positive dream while listening to MHS 5.75g. I remember I was a businessman as well. A more secure and more financially well version and I have more employees now. I even have a store at a mall. I went to another store to help an employee of mine because we're in a partnership with another store. I then meet this girl who is kind of just ok looks wise but is pretty cute nonetheless. Turns out she's the owner of this one. I'm not sure if we set up to meet again because I can barely remember much.
I can somehow tell that my pain due to bloating in my stomach really lessened during the past few days. One thing I made different was drink one 8 oz. glass of celery juice every morning. My goal is to get it up to 16 oz. but its hard to get that much celery during quarantine. It is reported that the quarantine or lockdown here is extended to May 15. Even then we have no assurance that the lockdown parameters will lessen. In a way this is good news for me. I'm feeling positive that my digestion issues will be fully solved.
Not much improvement with my back numbness though. Still practicing daily exercises that can help to improve it.
Still listening to this sub and following 5 days "ON", 3 days "OFF". Switched to Hybrid Trickling Stream two weeks ago from Ultrasonic format.