I know everyone is doing DSMI, for the last 3 months I've been running Ultra success and luck 5.5. I have gotten good results as far as video game luck. I felt I wanted to recreate some of my results from my second run of AMV6. My main concern is my drinking habit, during my second run I went 3 months sober. Also nearly went to the gym every day for 2 months.
Today is day 19 of stage one, I currently work nights as a bouncer. I've been drinking nearly every day for the last week. What I did today was not drink to 8pm. I decided to use this a stepping stone since last weekend I had to turn a shift. I was drinking earlier in the day and was called last minute.
I feel I can learn alot from my new job. Since I'm a bouncer I have to be sociable and outgoing. The only thing I'm not confident about it the opposite sex. Now I'm forced to interact with them. My manager is a part of the actors guild so I'm excited to learn some fake it till you make it body language.
AM6 Stage 1 day 20
I heard from the lead guard that the boss wants him to start grooming a guard to take over his position. After my shift he invite me out with another guard he used to work with. I had a great time and felt I'm already starting to grow a better friend circle. He a pretty chill dude and I know I can learn a lot as far as social and job performance. Today was the first day back in the gym in 2 weeks. It is also my second day of PMO, after the first night I slept a lot better. I feel it working in my favor, I'm trying harder in the gym. If you can't satisfy my sexual need myself I need to work hard to get someone else do it.
Stage 1 Day 32
My new job is going well I'm find myself slowly turning into an extrovert. I'm enjoying interacting with all the customers. I feel more confident, starting to notice that women are hitting on me. I'm sure they were before but didn't notice due to low self-esteem. If beautiful women already find me attractive it's a load off my mind. I can just be myself without over thinking it.
I'm excited because this is all still on stage 1, which only about removing of negative beliefs and behaviors. I'm already seeing alot of positive benefits. I start stage 2 tomorrow. As far as drinking, PMO, and gym hockey it's as following. My drinking habit is half the quantity and half of the days. I used to drink daily, with PMO it's the same I only do it 2-3 times a week. With most of those are with out the use of porn. The gym needs more work, it didn't help that I couldn't do my favourite exercise. The swimming pool has been out of order for the last 2 week. It along with the whirlpool(been closed for last month) well be opened tomorrow.
Stage 2 Day 9
My job is going well I feel the layers of doubt peeling away and feeling more comfortable in my own skin. I have started to go to the gym more often the last couple weeks it I missed a lot about 2 weeks. I have started to go at least 2 to 3 times a week. The drinking I find a get drunk a lot quicker than I used to which means I've been drinking less than before this third run. The PMO is going about the same as last reported 2-3 times a week. I find now I've been using more of my imagination of watching porn lately.
In 6 days I leave for Vegas, one of the new friends I've made since starting my third run. He was heading to Vegas for a conference and had already booked the hotels. He invited me at first I thought I wouldn't go since I didn't know him to well yet. I figured I haven't left my state in my life and having my passport for the last 4 years haven't used it. I've been learning a lot from him about life. I have even started help him out with some of his magic shows for some extra money. I know this audio is about becoming Alpha. I do believe in learning from others, they say your most like the 5 people you hang out with most. My old friends I had 1 out of 5 that were good with women, now its up to 3-5. I would like to get it up to 5-5 and things are looking good. Sometimes friends are like anchors you need to cut the rope for the ship to keep sailing.
Stage 2 day 16
So Vegas is been fun it's my second day here. First night was fun I stayed at a hotel on the strip. I meet a great girl at a bar we talked for hours I got her number. For the rest of the couple days I'm staying in a hotel near Vegas about 25min Uber. The crazy thing is the girl I met on the strip lives in the town where I'll be staying for the rest of the week. Tonight we went out so she could show me around town. Things went well were going out again tomorrow.
If this is only stage 2 I'm excited to see the results of further stages. I'm glad I chose to go for a 3rd run, I'm getting ready to run DMSI again after this run.
Stage 2 day 21
I'm back home from Vegas and it was just what I needed. The last day in Vegas I spent most of the day on a date with the girl I met. She likes to take things slow but I was pushing as far as she felt comfortable with. She is really easy to talk to, we are very like minded. Since we're in different states she didn't want to have me wait for her since I am a handsome man and it wouldn't be fair we're in an open relationship. We already have plans for me to visit again and for her to come visit me. I'm excited to see where things we'll go but also to start having fun in my city. It was a great experience I'm glad I took a calculated risk in trusting my new co-worker. I felt it was AM6 guiding me, I often felt in times of self doubt I would remind myself I had backup.
I also took away some good knowledge from some of the magic conversation. I learned to embrace the feeling of being uncomfortable. You can only change if you are welling to try something different. There was sometimes when going for the physical touch I would feel uncomfortable but I just went for it because what worst that can happen. I have even started to push myself harder in the gym because I'm getting more used to the uncomfortably of exercise. I'm super excited to continue my school work which I have been putting off.
Stage 2 day 23
I broke my PMO after 7 days, I'm slightly disappointed but going that long is an improvement. My drinking is getting alo better even in Vegas only had 2 days were I had more than 1 drink. On those day still never got drunk just kept a buzz. I forgot to pack gym clothes and the hotels pool was closed for the season. Since back 3 days been in the gym every day. I've been pushing myself harder I have a goal to look good in a swim suit. I added some boxing and heavy weight training it's been a lot of fun.
Stage 3 day 4
Today is also my day 4 of sobriety. I made a
$50 dollar bet I could go for 32 days. I've heard this work for people trying to quit smoking. It's working so far, almost over all the withdrawal symptoms. No single drink is worth losing out on $100 (50 I already etransfered and 50 for winning).
I haven't been to the gym in a week, due to the flu. I'm almost of it and excited to get back to the gym to get ready for summer. I have been keeping my diet up of healthy food. I had bought a new pair of jeans before I went to Vegas 3 weeks ago. They fit perfectly with out a belt now they are 1.5-2 sizes to big.
Love life is slowly progressing, the girl I met in Vegas sent me some nudes for Thanksgiving. It's the first time I've gotten nudes from a girl. I dont think I have to worry to much on where things are headed. I've also signed myself up for the reddit secret Santa erotic audio exchange. It's kind of out of my comfort zone. I've already started working on the script. While I worked on it, I was getting more motivated to met girls irl.
Stage 3 day 7
Today was the first photo shoot of the season as Santa. I was a bit nervous but I used what I've been learning in my books. The kids were so happy that it made it easy to keep a smile going and even dance a bit.
I've been practicing finding my voice with erotic audio. It's out of my comfort zone to be more of the dominant one in bed. With the practice and help of AM6 it's slowly feeling more natural. I plan on recording a few before I have to do the secret Santa gift.
Stage 3 day 11
Yesterday, I went out with some friends for brunch. It was great to catch up again. I practiced some of my techniques from my current audiobook. "How to talk to anyone 92 little tricks for big success in relationships
" In the past I've been worried what to say to women. So far I'm a third of the way through and finding great success already.
Last night I was talking with a girl and she had very similar interests. I also noticed she had a tongue piercing and was wearing a choker. We all know a choker means she enjoys being choked in the bed room. I used a tip on a better way to ask for the number of worked. I told her she would enjoy one of my meetup groups. Here comes the best part later I can overhear her on the nearby bench. She was talking with an dude saying "You know I love you". The dude started mad dogging me. He later apologized to me after I did send the group information. I did notice them together before I did start talking with her. To me they just seemed like friends not in a relationship. Hr doesn't really no what's going on but I'm not going to push it. You can never have to many friends and she can always introduce me to her other friends.
Another big things I've been noticing is people have been avoiding eye contact with me while they talk to me. It's been even happening while talking with my supervisors. My eye contact is top notch now. I can hold eye contact throughout the whole conversation, I'm getting great feedback for this especially from women. Women have also been telling me I have a firm handshake. The female bar manager informed me it shows women your not a pussy.
Stage 3 day 12
Today I did my first photo shoot in a professional studio. It was a fun experience and the photos look great. We even got a few funny ones. Its a great conversation starter, the women are well enjoying it.
I'm still see more evidence that I'm slowly becoming an alpha male. I'm in control of my emotions, I take control of the conversation, and I feel comfortable making the decisions. I feel it's my duty to do so otherwise people just stand around waiting for someone to take control anyways. I have things to do and don't like wasting my time.
Stage 3 day 27
I've been keeping in touch with the girl from Vegas. I get confused sometimes because she can be forward but distant. Shes given me nude photos on Thanksgiving and asked me what I'd like as a gift for Christmas. She is doing another photo shoot and would send them to me. I did ask her if I could call her my girlfriend. She explained she needs to stay single for work and she was dating others. Which I can understand it is an open relationship. Based on all this I have to take the lead to keep pushing things towards what I want.
Stage 4 day 23
It's been a while since my last update. Let's start with work, I'm currently taken over as the head guard for the rest of the month. My first day on shift as head guard one of the guard had a flat tire and couldn't make it. My boss had to fill in so he got to see first hand on how well I can do the job. The next day he had me work a grand opening of a new contract. In his words he wanted to give a great first impression hence why he sent me. I've also been planning on asking for a raise and that gig he payed me what I was planning to ask for.
I was putting off going to the doctor for a month now. In fact I had an ear infection, I now have sympathy for Shannon. However I still have been going to work, I have given a cold to almost everyone in my family. The different is they take time off. I drink the cough syrup and take the pills because I need the money.
Last night I girl(bartender) from the club I'm working as the head guard. She came to see her friend play in the band at another place I work. It was great she was extra frisky all night. She is what you call a cougar, I've even called her out on it. She was all over me all night, but something I noticed being a virgin. There are many girl that are after me, no matter my self doubts about my body. There only been showing me the affection that I feel comfortable with at this time.