So last sunday, when it should have been my 1st day of Cycle 9, I f-ed up and self sabotaged, not royally but significantly enough to cause regret and considerable turbulence and annoyance. So I listened 4 loops of DMSI, thinking switching to it, BAD IDEA! Just when I started to feel really good about UMS again and JUST ABOUT TO TAKE ACTION I gave up to temptation. Self sabotage at its finest! Subconscious mind must have been realising that I was just about to mean business and it must have mustered all the force it has to have me press that play button...only on the wrong file! It was weird, I was like half conscious, realising that bad idea...yet I hit that f...ing button. Yes, my own responsibility, and I come back to that in a bit.
And as I was listening I felt that amazing, focused, moola-energy kinda draining from me, dissolving into nothingness...and being replaced by this restless yet lazy, and non focused energy that felt much "lower" (best I can describe) compared to the first one. It was strange. It felt similar to when you have build up a lot of sexual energy and if you then ejaculate you lose that energy. But I felt this not only in body but I literally felt the energy fields around me changing in the matter of minutes or faster. I am very in tune with energies, and dont remember this strong of training/switching happened before, with subs or otherwise. Now Im left with this anxious energy that takes me nowhere fast. I guess it would build into something nice in time if I kept using DMSI, but I dont want to have it right now as the goal of UMS is much more important (now that Im back in my senses, lost my marbles on sunday, but only temporarily) than that of DMSI, which leads me back to taking responsibility...
Lesson learned, self forgiveness given, UMS it is! So since I am already experiencing turbulence, I reckon it would be good idea to get back to it reasonably fast (instead of normal waiting period) as UMS should be still dominant sub in the background of my mind as at this point I have I listened it already almost 3 months vs. one day of DMSI. When I wake up it will 3.th day after the bad move, and I figured I will wait yet that day and then on 4.ht go back to UMS.
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Shannon , whats your advice, how long should I wait? My guts tells me to go back to UMS on 4th day, if not sooner. Also, you may find this bit of data useful: Something similar has happened few times before. Not switching back and forth, but switching to different sub all together just week or two before 3 months of usage. With MHS I took break instead of switching at least one time after 2 and half month period. This was due doctors order after doing more damage to my ears.With OP/UM I switched to US/LM due its release schedule. From US/LM do DMSI. (It was either OP/UM or US/LM where it was 2 and half months, with other bit less.) And finally, with at least two earlier versions of DMSI (around v3.0), 2 and half months! These are instances I remember. Always week or two or so before 3 months block. For variation of surface reasons; ear damage, something with my other aspect of health, release schedule, whatever it is. My subconscious has always found either reason, or creating/manifesting a reason, to do so almost like a clock work. As I have become aware of this pattern I have more power to avoid it. I was aware of it at some point earlier, but yet somehow managed to talk my self out of that awareness even then. And now this day of DMSI in the middle of UMS run (which got released, you guessed it, week or so before 3month usage)...f*** it! Aint gonna happen now...back to UMS!
Does all the subs after certain tech/gen have the module of preventing switch, um...prematurely, or just some? I think MLS had it (that which I did not switch, but took break from before resuming), DMSI I guess...how about UMS? If not, UMS2 should definitely have it in my opinion. Anyway, I hope my mentioned pattern is useful data. Not only for regarding to possible prevent switching , but also regarding to timing of it etc. I call for something like "Use 3+ Months Without Switching Or Your Head Will F***NG Explode!" - module. lol.
EDIT: Actually, now that I remember, with MLS there was short MIS break, then back to MLS , and total exposure of 8 AND HALF WEEKS , two weeks shy of 9 months (3 months blockages), and with BASE I had pause due doctors order. Nevertheless, pattern is there!