I don't know what to make of UMS,
I think it's running a lot behind the scenes working on some mindsets but nothing feels overly obvious. The conclusions I'm reaching seem to follow a train of logic that seems natural, but, given my normal train of thought actually isn't. It's actually completely foreign to me but feels natural. I think there is a lot of reorganization happening in my thought processes at least that is what I hope is causing very little to manifest in my life save for mindset shifts, which are the beginnings of manifestations.
part of me wants to do more than 1 loop every 8 days but I am resisting that urge.
There is a lot of mind shifts needed for me to accept abundance and wealth and I'm fairly confident that's whats going on right now.
Much more detached from my emotions. It's not perfect but I have a large amount of choice if I want to embrace anger and especially fear.
Motivation isn't as present as before.....................I think. It will take a few more loops to get some solid info. AND THAT IS ONE OF THE BIGGEST THINGS I PERSONALLY AM HESITANT TO JOURNAL ABOUT.
After running UMS only once I'm not sure what is UMS and what is the product of other subs, especially LTU. I have been hesitant to post because of such concerns.
All in all I'm not sure where I'm at and have been hesitant to post any updates due to trying to sort out what is UMS and what isn't.
Business and product ideas are literally zero. Nothing new since starting.
Might be getting a better paying but possible more physically demanding job, but it's up in the air.
have a goal of 7500.00 USD after expenses per month.
Artist formely known as Prince....nosw a symbol....now back to Prince.... UMS formerly known as UMS...now UMS...swfit move! :-) here to more money from many different places,directions and ways,seen and unseen,known and unknown ways!! Yahhooo!! Rock it Wharbee!!
Tell me about your urge to play it more.
(07-14-2019, 08:23 PM)Shannon Wrote: [ -> ]Tell me about your urge to play it more.
The desire to play it more is , from what I can tell, from the expectation and normal usage pattern of all the previous subs. As well as I feel like some of the parts of UMS seem to last the 7 days on between loops and some parts seem to stop 2 days after use. I'm not feeling the energy I was after the loop and the next day after it. Personally I would like to do the 3:7 but do a day on and then a day off for 6 days and then do a 4 day break for the 3:7 ratio.
So I experienced TID from UMS today at work. I haven't played a loop since last Sunday. to have TID from a sub you are playing leads me to believe that not all of UMS is at 1 loop 1 day then 7 days off. However, It's also possible I have no idea what I'm talking about and I admit it.
TID was motivation and energy at work, as well as extra drive and work was more fluid and required less effort. Also excitement about life and seeing work as a stepping stone for my financial goals. All of this on the most difficult day of the week workload wise, and today was worse than normal.
That's part of why I changed the instructions.
(07-15-2019, 04:00 PM)Shannon Wrote: [ -> ]That's part of why I changed the instructions.
Ok I was wondering what caused that this morning and then I started to get TID. While we aren't there yet, it's still exciting to think that we are close to it.
Done with my loop. A lot of the same things happened again but less emotional clearing. Also stuttered and 19:59 for some reason.
A long term update is that from somewhere in my LTU run I have come to the conclusion that I am not a stubborn person, I was a scared person. I thought that I resisted subs out of stubbornness, I now realize it was fear. I now want to execute subs.
Haven't I been saying that "all resistance stems from fear"? Stubbornness is simply the polar refusal to cooperate in the face of fear.
(07-15-2019, 06:41 PM)Shannon Wrote: [ -> ]Haven't I been saying that "all resistance stems from fear"? Stubbornness is simply the polar refusal to cooperate in the face of fear.
Yes you have said it many times and I agreed with you. But i believe i only mentally agreed with you. Now i am believing it and the difference is like going to a foreign country instead of just reading about one.
I seem to be in the flow created by UMS. My activities are now more centered around money making and if I attempt to deviate it's like trying to go against the flow. This is more outside of work. Attitude is better but I seem to have this thing showing up about every little mistake. It feels like some part of me makes a big deal over every mistake, not a fan. People are treating me better, and I woke up this morning at 4 am for some reason and stumbled upon a possible long term income stream, currently learning about it now. Pretty happy with this sub so far. Only wish I got more of the USLM aspect of it like others have been getting.
Spent all my time off work researching this income stream, and eating, for most of that. That type of behavior is not normal for me, I like it.
A little back and forth in my life currently. It seems that the idea of change is interesting to me but it's not quite at the surface level of action. Currently using Ultrasonic version instead of hybrid which wears me out. 1X3 then break, still trying to find a decent number of days off. 3 is too little I think.
I'm seeing some of the results already happening is actually frustrating me. Not anyone's fault and I'm not blaming you for my emotions it's just hard seeing you all getting "better" manifested results and me still feeling like I'm sitting at the starting line. I know that the goal is important and where you start from may cause you to take longer to get there.
At the same time, I'm seeing flashes of a new version of myself. The version that realizes that I am free to choose whatever I wish whenever I wish to. That little flash is causing a great deal of tension and at the same time, frustration.
What I am about to say next is probably one of the most profound and somewhat scary realizations I have ever had in my life.
I think I am ready, or almost ready, to leave behind allowing my beliefs about who
I was dictate who I am and will be.
This is not easy and I can see why many would choose not to. One of the first reactions to this idea is a straight-up identity crisis as well as a challenge to most of the way we have come to understand ourselves via intuition and feelings, and by feelings I mean more than just emotions. How much of a sense of existence do we get from traumatic events in our lives? Most likely more than we would readily admit. The feelings surrounding traumatic events can give us a deep sense of comfort in knowing that we "exist". Those feelings, even though they are bad, provide a twisted sense of validity to our experience of life and we are very hesitant, our outright afraid to give them up because if we do who or what are we? This leads to a life that can no longer be considered as being fully lived in the present as part of us becomes stunted due to trauma and we usually never fully process through that to move on. I can no longer be considered whole or fully present in the wondrous way children are in every moment.
However, I do not think that we need to let the past define us if we do not wish to. I am settling into the belief that I don't have to stay there if I don't want anymore. I am finding out more and more that the phrase " As a man thinks in his heart, so he is" is one of the truest phrases I have ever heard in life. Think about it, how fair is it for the things that happened in our lives in the past or when we were younger to define us for the rest of our lives? I'm also arriving at the concept that any defense against that concept is based on wrong "heart thoughts" aka beliefs or a desire to keep those negative past experiences based on the fear of losing a sense of identity or a fear of the unknown that says that if we leave that behind there may be something worse that comes along. It is my personal opinion that traumatic events that define us for our lives are a twisted version of attaining a sense of identity and should be purged for the sake of the individual.
I have events in my history that I want to keep and want to go back to as a signpost that points me back to a sense of identity in difficult times and to be a linchpin for me to hold onto when things get rough. However, I don't want those to be traumatic or debilitating in any way, shape or form. I also do not believe that we were wired to be that way either. Now granted we can turn a negative into a positive and it can be a badge of honor or it can be worked out for our good. I'm just not comfortable with letting events that produced trauma sit and continue to fester in me all the while sapping my potential and killing my productivity in making this world a better place
Long story short, I think the FRM module is working better than it ever has on me.
