Few things happening in the women front I don't want to talk about till it happens.
Basically DMSI is moving towards it goals but instead of instant sex, with these interactions, it seems to be taking slightly longer, but whats important is its moving towards its goals. Ive gotten approached in a coffee shop, and the person is trying to escalate, inviting me to come out in a social setting etc.
Weird dreams. Had a dream that I summoned a UFO and they were tryna abduct me but I sent them away angrily. This felt more like a OBE than a dream as I was sleeping in bed and the UFO was right outside my window. I could not physically move either. They spoke in a very robotic way saying they were going to abduct me now. When I 'woke up' (I was still half asleep), I could hear a scratching noise. This only went after I fully 'sent the UFO away'. The scratching sound was definitely real, it just seems a weird coincidence that it came and went with the 'UFO'.
IDK how I 'summoned' it but there was a feeling that I did.
Few more war dreams, but I just about won. Nice change to the ones where I kept getting slaughtered.
My rageful episodes are turning into ego building episodes.
For example, it went from "I fu**ng hate *whoever*" to "im the baddest mother f**ker ever".
All using the same energy.
I seem to process way more on my break days than my 'on' days.
Way more dreams, feel way lighter and I have been more focused at work than probably ever before.
Had dreams of being in school (11 yo) where the older girls would try have sex with me, show me how to have sex etc. lol
Im acting masculine and feminine at the same time. Its weird, the base is masculine but some of the ways I act is slightly 'feminine'? Either way, I feel/act sexy as hell and people notice it. This version has changed me a lot internally than all other versions put together. I 'know' how to act like a sexy 'celebrity' unlike before.
i also ignore women ALOT more than before. They seem to like it.
Women are staring at me with a straight face (whereas before it was a 'smirk' face) but this straight face seems more intense. It puts me off guard sometimes.
Baristas joking compete with each other over who serves me. I think every barista in the starbucks I work in daily on my business has a crush on me. No joke. And its not what they say but how they energetically act.
Also noticed, the more optimistic I am about my business, the better I execute.
Ive also started learning more about subconscious mind and a lot of rule 4 things that come with it. These subs work.
I've had a group of 17/18 year olds gaping with their mouth open at me as a group till one of them got angry at the rest of them and said 'lets go why are we staring at him'
Girls readjust how they act around me to become more 'cool' for me.
I feel like I got no competition. If I was actively pursuing girls (which I wont do until I reach certain business goals, as I have a history of getting distracted ) I feel like I can get 100% of the single girls that I am
exposed to on a daily basis. But frankly, ignoring them and doing my work seems to get girls to like me a lot more and almost gives them 'space' to come towards me.
Couple of my friends are secretly angry at me because their long time 'crushes' seem to be smitten by me. Not my fault, if anything, I was trying to help him by giving him advice, which if he had taken, he would have got her. Oh well.
I reject girls attention more than they reject mine nowadays. If I was more 'open' I think I would have been approached. Guess thats the next step for me.
From reading your posts from dmsi 3.2, I pictured you as being this intimidating looking guy. Am I mistaken? Maybe the slightly feminine qualities are just a softer version that makes you seem more approachable to women?
Maybe, though Im not that physically big. I usually have a screwface though, just so that girls don't get too cocky thinking im checking them out. lol
The feminine qualities I guess can best be described by Robert Greene's art of seductions' "Dandy" type. So im not even complaining, its just what it is. I like it too.
The 'intidmiting' mindset I seem to be projecting probably stems from childhood growing up in a 'rough' area mixed in with some emotional trauma mixed with rejection mixed with me beating them and getting pissed off that it ever happened and making sure itll never happen again.
Whats important is that it gets cleared.
Ive also stopped going on Instagram to look at random models now. I feel like 'wtf is this gonna do for me' every time I unconsciously go there
(03-15-2019, 06:38 AM)Oversoul Wrote: [ -> ]Ive also stopped going on Instagram to look at random models now. I feel like 'wtf is this gonna do for me' every time I unconsciously go there
That's excellent! I recently deleted the app from my phone entirely. Felt so good. . .
I swear the biggest obstacle right now for me is being emotionally attached to my thoughts. Emotionally attached about what used to be, how people were, how people treated me etc how I feel about it and too attached to a reasoning to why I am like what I am now.
After reading what another user wrote, I can kind of see whats blocking me to a small degree, It is the refusal to let go of a 'story' Im telling myself and soon enough, it becomes self perpetuating.
Parts of me are too emotionally attached to a certain 'story' or 'parts' of myself and a certain negativity that comes from it makes me feel important.
The best way I get past this is by reminding me that EVERYTHING comes from the subconscious first. Everything happens in the subconscious/dream state first before it happens in the conscious. So 'inner work' is more important than looking for signs outside. Not saying the signs outside aren't there,
The more self reflective I can become, and the more I learn about subconscious mind/rule 4 stuff regarding the subconscious mind and things related to it, it becomes more and more clear why things are the way they are. And I execute way more.
For me, self reflection while on subs is absolutely the key, Re-examining your thoughts and emotions and feeling them fully before letting them go is the best way for me. Not avoiding them, not refusing to feel them, not ignoring their existence, but feeling it fully and rooting it out and letting it go.
If Im not executing, sitting there in silence and going through my thoughts and feeling the emotions as fully as I can while *knowing* that I deserve more or better, shifts me into a different gear. feeling the thought and emotion, getting to the root and feeling the root emotion and letting it go while replacing it with concepts that align with DMSI.
And the best way to do this for me is to relax into myself. Any thought or emotion that comes up that I don't want, I go into it, feel it fully then let go while 'replacing' it with something that's beneficial to me. And this sometimes leads me to resent people/place/situations that put that thought/idea/concept there in the first place.
Its almost like I go into mental/emotional wars within myself with people/groups of people/ideas/concepts due to this. Funnily enough, the exact person/people that I would go to 'war' with within myself starts treating me way different almost instantly the next time I see/talk to them. Almost as if the thought/emotion within myself is somehow connected to them, and changing it changes the way this person treats me, no matter how they treated me before. And as compared to before, I always win these mental wars inside myself nowadays. Before, I would not have.
EDIT; SOME of these thoughts and ideas are my own assumptions. If I think 'that guy must get a lot of girls' sure enough, girls show them interest. Soona s I stop thinking that and put the attention on myself, that attention comes to me. Almost like Im controlling some small part of reality.
With all this being said, I swear I feel like I can get any girl.
At my big age of 26, I finally know my 'type'.
Whereas before I thought Id have different girls for the rest of my life, never committing, a part of me is actually willing to commit now.
Turns out I/my subconscious masks my fear of intimacy from myself using pride/overthinking. It could even be just intellectual pride of me thinking that I know the outcome to everything.
The less I think, the more limitless I feel.
Even if the thought process is 'positive'.
Solely for the fact that the 'positive' thoughts I have now on what I can do and what is possible, though probably more positive than a lot of people, is still not as positive as what my subconscious has learnt through subs.
So I need to let go of my current conscious thoughts for better thought patterns to come up.
The thing is, these thought are so silent, but theres so much of them, its hard to pinpoint any individual one. Guess I need to start meditating to start noticing them and letting them go.
Being accepted by certain people/ group/ culture/ subcultures seem to make some women feel like bad b**tches. Though DMSI does most other things, I hope it will be able to do that soon too.
I'm really starting to believe on an emotional level that beliefs create reality. However sometimes, I let the external 'how things are now' override my internal 'this is how it is, how I feel about it and what I do to assert it' and let it imbalance me.
The main way in regards to sabotaging DMSI being that imagining/assuming a girl finding some other guy attractive. Soon as I think it, it happens. However, in this version, its much less pronounced (if it was 8/10 before, its about 2.5/10 now).
That is, unless a person is deliberately going against me on some level. Someones been doing this and for some reason, said person seems to be able to assert himself energetically to rival me and create unnecessary competition and lower execution. And due to that energetic influence, my execution level everywhere else is lower also.
Ive become way more aware of people and their 'energy', and for some reason, I become receptive to it. I personally think something that stops you from being overly affected by other people's energy fields would definitely be something to consider (if it hasnt been added already that is).
Other than that DMSI is working really well. Im executing to a good degree even if I fapped 3 times yesterday (relapse after a month of nofap lol). No porn tho.
Certain people are also visibly affected by my presence. They literally shudder/flinch when Im around.
Caught an insight that my attentions sacred. Whatever i give my attention to, Im giving sacred energy to. If something is less than sacred to me, Im not giving it attention anymore. EDIT: this includes thoughts/emotions and perceived thoughts of others. If I have a certain thought or if I am imagining what someone else is thinking/someones else's thought patterns/perceptions, I just remind myself that my attention is scared and immediately detach. Almost like I know somewhere inside that most my thoughts aren't my own.
I also catch insights mixed with strong feelings coming directly from certain parts of my body. For example, I woke up today with a strong feeling in the middle of my chest and with a strong voice saying (in a half dream state) 'falcon'
Thought this sub was gonna just get me laid not put me through some sort of spiritual journey. lol. Not complaining though, I like what Im becoming.
IOIs are very strong with some and non existent (or hidden/not shown) by others.
I'm calm like a sea just before a violent storm. Do you feel the same?