Hi man,
I know what you are talking about, because I have been in the same situation. Tried doing AM during a period where I was experimenting with smoking pot and doing third-eye meditations without knowing what I was doing led me to loose footing totally and the situation was comparable to the one you are in today. Now I am almost out of it, feel a lot more grounded and my mind isn't so receptible to other people anymore.
The problem is that you have highly overactive upper chakras (third-eye and crown) while your lower chakras are underactive, and can't support the upper ones.
You are not fucked, not totally. Pretty fucked, but not totally. There is a way to get back, but you need to calm you mind and start getting into your emotions.
- First, stop using subliminals until you feel more into your body. Subliminals are a tool, like a hammer, but if your wood is wet and rotten you are just going to do more damage than good trying to hit a nail (poor metafor but the best I could think of).
- Start doing meditation on your lower chakras. Start with the root and work yourself up. Start with 60 days on the root, 60 days on sacral, 60 days on solar plexus and then start over. This series is good:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JTqktSAmG30
- Here is a relaxation tape for root chakra: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OMPaU5L3zy0
- Look into TRE, it's relaxation exercises to help your body to release tension
- Start getting massages if you can afford it
- Start exercising. All exercise is good, but I would recommend running and mixed martial arts or Yoga
- Take warm baths and try to relax your body with your breath
- Find someone to talk to
- A great grounding exercise I do every morning is the "chair pose", which is a yoga pose. You bend your knees, put your arms in between your legs and then grab your ancles. Stay put into this for 3 minutes, breathe (if you can't do 3 minutes, do as long as you can and increase duration over time.)
You are going to get yourself out of it, but it takes some work. The reason for that you got into this situation is that you maybe weren't grounded enough to use subliminals from the begining and you used it blindly from the instructions instead of listening to yourself where the limit was. That's logical if subliminals were your "last resort" and you felt pretty bad from the beginning.
I know the hell you are experiencing, believe me. I'm sending you some thoughts on this. Best of luck with your way back.
and - lay off the pot - fully. That is just heading you in the opposite direction from where you want to go.
EDIT:
I know what you talk about "brain change the way it use energy" and that is true. Your brain uses energy from the environment because it can't get energy from your body and from your digestion. By starting to activating those chakras, your brain will start to be able to withdraw energy from yourself and become "independent" from the environment. This is at least my theory.
I know what you are talking about, because I have been in the same situation. Tried doing AM during a period where I was experimenting with smoking pot and doing third-eye meditations without knowing what I was doing led me to loose footing totally and the situation was comparable to the one you are in today. Now I am almost out of it, feel a lot more grounded and my mind isn't so receptible to other people anymore.
The problem is that you have highly overactive upper chakras (third-eye and crown) while your lower chakras are underactive, and can't support the upper ones.
You are not fucked, not totally. Pretty fucked, but not totally. There is a way to get back, but you need to calm you mind and start getting into your emotions.
- First, stop using subliminals until you feel more into your body. Subliminals are a tool, like a hammer, but if your wood is wet and rotten you are just going to do more damage than good trying to hit a nail (poor metafor but the best I could think of).
- Start doing meditation on your lower chakras. Start with the root and work yourself up. Start with 60 days on the root, 60 days on sacral, 60 days on solar plexus and then start over. This series is good:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JTqktSAmG30
- Here is a relaxation tape for root chakra: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OMPaU5L3zy0
- Look into TRE, it's relaxation exercises to help your body to release tension
- Start getting massages if you can afford it
- Start exercising. All exercise is good, but I would recommend running and mixed martial arts or Yoga
- Take warm baths and try to relax your body with your breath
- Find someone to talk to
- A great grounding exercise I do every morning is the "chair pose", which is a yoga pose. You bend your knees, put your arms in between your legs and then grab your ancles. Stay put into this for 3 minutes, breathe (if you can't do 3 minutes, do as long as you can and increase duration over time.)
You are going to get yourself out of it, but it takes some work. The reason for that you got into this situation is that you maybe weren't grounded enough to use subliminals from the begining and you used it blindly from the instructions instead of listening to yourself where the limit was. That's logical if subliminals were your "last resort" and you felt pretty bad from the beginning.
I know the hell you are experiencing, believe me. I'm sending you some thoughts on this. Best of luck with your way back.
and - lay off the pot - fully. That is just heading you in the opposite direction from where you want to go.
EDIT:
I know what you talk about "brain change the way it use energy" and that is true. Your brain uses energy from the environment because it can't get energy from your body and from your digestion. By starting to activating those chakras, your brain will start to be able to withdraw energy from yourself and become "independent" from the environment. This is at least my theory.
