Stage 2, Day 2 evening:
I went to my Yoga class and I have seen the 2 women that gave me few IOIs in the past. Both were cold and distant. It is really weird. One time that I meet them, they are super friendly and are chasing me all around the gym. The day after, it is the opposite.
you know what? I really don't care at all. It is their problem not mine. I did pretty much ignored them as well and I felt great about it. Their loss.
I wonder if that change of mind is in any way related to Stage 2 goal found in its description:
Focus on causing women to notice, become interested in, and approach you is introduced. Automatic detection of, and refusal to have sex with, women who are attempting to manipulate you with sex...
Stage 2, Day 3:
First lay since starting SM3!
The plan with the nurse from Tinder was to meet her for coffee on Friday morning to see if there was chemistry between us before deciding if we get into a casual sex relation or not. I think that I awoken lust in her with my texting as she insistently invited me at her place yesterday afternoon. I was planning to go at the beach but pretty much everything didn't go as planned and only very little time was remaining for that. So, why not? I accepted her offer and went directly at her place.
Upon greeting me, she did kiss me on the mouth and we went in her bedroom. We did small talk for about 5-10 minutes before getting into it.
It has been a 1 hour and half marathon. She got plenty of orgasms. She kept saying how it was good and complimented me on my stamina (Yeah crossfit is paying out....).
She texted me back later to tell me that it was good but to be more rough next time... Honestly, I'm perplexed about that remark. Prior to meeting, she told me that she loved to be submissive and I think that I did deliver that.
I have commanded her to do things such as being on her knees to suck me or look in my eyes when she cums... I did choke her a bit (tbh not very hard. I'm not used to be with girls who like that) and did bite her nipples. I did lead and tell her how to place herself. I have been slapping her breast and ass (I admit NOT hard enough for her skin to turn red). I was pulling her hair as I was doing her from behind. When I was on top of her, with the way her mouth was open, spitting in her mouth did cross my mind but I did stop myself from doing it... It did seemed too hardcore to do that... but now I'm wondering if she wouldn't have like it...
My thrusting strength and speed was varying from slow to fast and pretty hard but tbh, the sensations has to be pleasant for me. If I thrust too hard... It stops being pleasurable for me and even start to be painful so I don't want to go there. So, I haven't been that rough but I wasn't gentle neither...
So bottomline, I need to ask her to be more explicit about what she wants when she wants it rougher because I don't know what more I can do. I felt that I have been pretty dominant with her. Or maybe Being dominant is something else than rough... Beside, I would be curious to figure out the female psychology of rough sex. What is it that they like about it? Is it feeling fear, pain, loss of control, all of these answers?
The other interesting detail is that she also did ask again to be honest with her and to tell her if it is only casual so that she doesn't get disappointed. Being beta, being worried about hurting her feelings, I would have felt uncomfortable replying to her question. But not this time. I did confirm that it was only for sex. And she did almost seem happy of my reply. She said great because I have an big libido!
This is a big ahah moment. Women keep testing your frame to see if you are still Alpha or if you are falling back into becoming beta...
I left her house 15 minutes before my crossfit class. Needless to say that I was pretty much exhausted after those 2 intense physical activities... The interesting part was a cute and sexy asian girl that I felt was attracted to me, she was entering into my personal space and looking in my eyes with lustful eyes last summer or 2 summers ago when I was on DMSI (it is documented in my DMSI journal). I could feel sexual tension back then. I did see her randomly on and off I did try to flirt with her to reignite the spark that I felt but it was gone... Very distant and cold... Except that yesterday, I have been surprised that at the end of my workout (she was in the next class), she came over to come talk to me...
I went to my Yoga class and I have seen the 2 women that gave me few IOIs in the past. Both were cold and distant. It is really weird. One time that I meet them, they are super friendly and are chasing me all around the gym. The day after, it is the opposite.
you know what? I really don't care at all. It is their problem not mine. I did pretty much ignored them as well and I felt great about it. Their loss.
I wonder if that change of mind is in any way related to Stage 2 goal found in its description:
Focus on causing women to notice, become interested in, and approach you is introduced. Automatic detection of, and refusal to have sex with, women who are attempting to manipulate you with sex...
Stage 2, Day 3:
First lay since starting SM3!
The plan with the nurse from Tinder was to meet her for coffee on Friday morning to see if there was chemistry between us before deciding if we get into a casual sex relation or not. I think that I awoken lust in her with my texting as she insistently invited me at her place yesterday afternoon. I was planning to go at the beach but pretty much everything didn't go as planned and only very little time was remaining for that. So, why not? I accepted her offer and went directly at her place.
Upon greeting me, she did kiss me on the mouth and we went in her bedroom. We did small talk for about 5-10 minutes before getting into it.
It has been a 1 hour and half marathon. She got plenty of orgasms. She kept saying how it was good and complimented me on my stamina (Yeah crossfit is paying out....).
She texted me back later to tell me that it was good but to be more rough next time... Honestly, I'm perplexed about that remark. Prior to meeting, she told me that she loved to be submissive and I think that I did deliver that.
I have commanded her to do things such as being on her knees to suck me or look in my eyes when she cums... I did choke her a bit (tbh not very hard. I'm not used to be with girls who like that) and did bite her nipples. I did lead and tell her how to place herself. I have been slapping her breast and ass (I admit NOT hard enough for her skin to turn red). I was pulling her hair as I was doing her from behind. When I was on top of her, with the way her mouth was open, spitting in her mouth did cross my mind but I did stop myself from doing it... It did seemed too hardcore to do that... but now I'm wondering if she wouldn't have like it...
My thrusting strength and speed was varying from slow to fast and pretty hard but tbh, the sensations has to be pleasant for me. If I thrust too hard... It stops being pleasurable for me and even start to be painful so I don't want to go there. So, I haven't been that rough but I wasn't gentle neither...
So bottomline, I need to ask her to be more explicit about what she wants when she wants it rougher because I don't know what more I can do. I felt that I have been pretty dominant with her. Or maybe Being dominant is something else than rough... Beside, I would be curious to figure out the female psychology of rough sex. What is it that they like about it? Is it feeling fear, pain, loss of control, all of these answers?
The other interesting detail is that she also did ask again to be honest with her and to tell her if it is only casual so that she doesn't get disappointed. Being beta, being worried about hurting her feelings, I would have felt uncomfortable replying to her question. But not this time. I did confirm that it was only for sex. And she did almost seem happy of my reply. She said great because I have an big libido!
This is a big ahah moment. Women keep testing your frame to see if you are still Alpha or if you are falling back into becoming beta...
I left her house 15 minutes before my crossfit class. Needless to say that I was pretty much exhausted after those 2 intense physical activities... The interesting part was a cute and sexy asian girl that I felt was attracted to me, she was entering into my personal space and looking in my eyes with lustful eyes last summer or 2 summers ago when I was on DMSI (it is documented in my DMSI journal). I could feel sexual tension back then. I did see her randomly on and off I did try to flirt with her to reignite the spark that I felt but it was gone... Very distant and cold... Except that yesterday, I have been surprised that at the end of my workout (she was in the next class), she came over to come talk to me...
