I got dates with different women 3 days in a row starting from last Thursday.
First girl on Thursday was for a possible FWB setup. If everything was good, we would have hooked up together Saturday evening. During the date, she said that she hasn't felt chemistry between us. Actually, she didn't say it explicitly, she did just talked about chemistry in general... She just stopped pursuing me. She was focusing on things that weren't good enough instead of focusing on what was good like: She said something like she prefer taller guys. I didn't take it personal. I know that I have MSI. She is the problem.
Bottom line, my interpretation is she has the will to fully embrace the life of a modern single woman but she isn't able to let go from her previous LTR that lasted over 15 years since she became single 1 year ago. She did even admitted that she has met a lot guys for drink and they always had something that she didn't like and things never went further than the first meeting. So IOW, I fell into her pattern and I did get the same result than all the others who have tried before me...
Friday, at lunch time, I had a sushi picnic date in a park with another girl. This one too is taller than me. I'm 5'7 and she is about 5'10 AND she was wearing high heels. So, that was kinda funny because my eyes were straight at the same height than her breasts. I had a very nice view on her boobs... She didn't care at all that I was shorter than her... And the date ended up with some light making out and kisses.
Saterday around the end of the afternoon at 4PM, I did receive an invitation to go to a chick place. When I did arrive, she invited me in the living room, she has offered me a drink. We did some small talk and within 10 minutes we are kissing each other on the couch. Few minutes later, she did ask me if I wanted to visit her bedroom.
Then something horrible did happen. I could not get it up. I was hard while I was talking to her over the phone from my place before meeting her. I was hard when I came back home. but I could not get it up while I was naked in bed with her.
IOW, something in my head was stopping me from having an erection. Ok, I kinda lost the habit of having new partners. The last new partner I had was last summer. With partners that I have for a long time, I can have sex for a very long time. I could last an hour if I wanted but 20 mins/30 mins seems about right but I could continue if I wanted (I did just that last week)...
After fooling around naked with the new girl, I have finally achieve to get an erection, and right after I initiated penetration, I have been blowing my load after less than 4 strokes. Possibly my worst sexual performance that I ever had.
If I was to guess what did happen, I would say that I did suffer from performance anxiety. If I know that I have more experience than my partner (usually true with younger women), than all is good. If I perceive that my new partner is more experienced or have performance expections, that type of shit can happen. I didn't felt pressure but that must be what did hit me.
The girl was very kind and comprehensive by saying shit, it is the first time we get intimate, next time it is going to be better. But there is what you say to others to be kind and there is what you are thinking. We were meeting to initiate a FWB relation. I have failed to make a good first impression. Despite being clear in my mind that I am able to deliver much better than that, I'm pretty sure that she isn't wondering about the second round and being aroused about it. We will see if she calls back for more, but my expectations about that happening are low... I'm more seeing that as a learning experience, as I am looking forward giving good sex to next new prospects...
This leave me one question. I have been listening DMSI for about a year. So, isn't it suppose to contain a Best possible sexual performance module in it? Why did it not kick in for me when it would have been useful to have it?
First girl on Thursday was for a possible FWB setup. If everything was good, we would have hooked up together Saturday evening. During the date, she said that she hasn't felt chemistry between us. Actually, she didn't say it explicitly, she did just talked about chemistry in general... She just stopped pursuing me. She was focusing on things that weren't good enough instead of focusing on what was good like: She said something like she prefer taller guys. I didn't take it personal. I know that I have MSI. She is the problem.
Bottom line, my interpretation is she has the will to fully embrace the life of a modern single woman but she isn't able to let go from her previous LTR that lasted over 15 years since she became single 1 year ago. She did even admitted that she has met a lot guys for drink and they always had something that she didn't like and things never went further than the first meeting. So IOW, I fell into her pattern and I did get the same result than all the others who have tried before me...
Friday, at lunch time, I had a sushi picnic date in a park with another girl. This one too is taller than me. I'm 5'7 and she is about 5'10 AND she was wearing high heels. So, that was kinda funny because my eyes were straight at the same height than her breasts. I had a very nice view on her boobs... She didn't care at all that I was shorter than her... And the date ended up with some light making out and kisses.
Saterday around the end of the afternoon at 4PM, I did receive an invitation to go to a chick place. When I did arrive, she invited me in the living room, she has offered me a drink. We did some small talk and within 10 minutes we are kissing each other on the couch. Few minutes later, she did ask me if I wanted to visit her bedroom.
Then something horrible did happen. I could not get it up. I was hard while I was talking to her over the phone from my place before meeting her. I was hard when I came back home. but I could not get it up while I was naked in bed with her.
IOW, something in my head was stopping me from having an erection. Ok, I kinda lost the habit of having new partners. The last new partner I had was last summer. With partners that I have for a long time, I can have sex for a very long time. I could last an hour if I wanted but 20 mins/30 mins seems about right but I could continue if I wanted (I did just that last week)...
After fooling around naked with the new girl, I have finally achieve to get an erection, and right after I initiated penetration, I have been blowing my load after less than 4 strokes. Possibly my worst sexual performance that I ever had.
If I was to guess what did happen, I would say that I did suffer from performance anxiety. If I know that I have more experience than my partner (usually true with younger women), than all is good. If I perceive that my new partner is more experienced or have performance expections, that type of shit can happen. I didn't felt pressure but that must be what did hit me.
The girl was very kind and comprehensive by saying shit, it is the first time we get intimate, next time it is going to be better. But there is what you say to others to be kind and there is what you are thinking. We were meeting to initiate a FWB relation. I have failed to make a good first impression. Despite being clear in my mind that I am able to deliver much better than that, I'm pretty sure that she isn't wondering about the second round and being aroused about it. We will see if she calls back for more, but my expectations about that happening are low... I'm more seeing that as a learning experience, as I am looking forward giving good sex to next new prospects...
This leave me one question. I have been listening DMSI for about a year. So, isn't it suppose to contain a Best possible sexual performance module in it? Why did it not kick in for me when it would have been useful to have it?
