Cycle #2 day On #4
This is a wrap-up to this short DMSI experiment. The whole purpose was to prime my attractiveness for my gym Christmas party yesterday.
I did carpetbomb DMSI in the 3 previous days in an attempt to boost the effect in a 'all or nothing' attempt.
I did almost flake on the party. My current working project is exciting and it is hard to detract my attention from it. I did finally convince myself to take baby steps. I would at least go at the 4PM workout and take it from there and see how things would go and decide when to come back home if things were boring. (I went back home at around 9:30PM...)
If I'm honest with myself. At that point, I realize that there was maybe a little bit of social anxiety behind this dilemma. I did finally convinced myself to proceed that way. It went fine. at 5PM, there was the beer mile activity. There was 9 contestants in the race (including myself) which consist of running a quarter mile drink a beer and continue running. After 10 minutes, with 4 beers in... This did grease out any remaining social anxiety that I might have. I had buzz... I couldn't drive back anyway until the alcohol wears out anyway.
The party was fun but I haven't felt that any present girl was attracted. I got few pleasant interactions but nothing beyond nice and friendly.
I have mixed feelings about the experience and this goes back to how I should be after AM6/SM3...
1. I haven't noticed any sexual attraction from any women that DMSI could/should have produced.
2. How I felt about that (unaffected and I was still feeling high value) is certainly due to my AM6 learning
3. I did play it very safe. *I* am attracted to many of the girls of the gym... It did never occur to me to voice out this interest to any of the girls. This is some behavioral changes that I would have expected to have in me after a fresh and recent SM3 run. My usual excuse is that girls go to the gym not to be hit... By itself this is arguable whether or not the reason has merit... but yesterday, with a party context, loud music, some alcohol in play... nobody would have said anything if I did make few advances... Here is the thing... I didn't make any conscious effort. I could have done a short briefing with myself before the party so that I have "conscious" goals in mind to do it.. But I haven't made any of that. I did trust my subconscious and I did let go things flow naturally and I haven't pulled the trigger at all during the evening. I must then conclude that what others/the group is thinking about what I do and say is taking too much importance in my head subconsciously I presume... There IS a fear behind this. No doubt about that..
So this is it... I'm giving myself few days off (about a week) then I start running BASE on 12/31 (The date is chosen so that the end of the first 32 days period coincide with the end of January to ease the listening management a bit). Lets work on making myself become a better man in other areas and lets reconsider giving DMSI another try after during the "prime" social summer period...
This is a wrap-up to this short DMSI experiment. The whole purpose was to prime my attractiveness for my gym Christmas party yesterday.
I did carpetbomb DMSI in the 3 previous days in an attempt to boost the effect in a 'all or nothing' attempt.
I did almost flake on the party. My current working project is exciting and it is hard to detract my attention from it. I did finally convince myself to take baby steps. I would at least go at the 4PM workout and take it from there and see how things would go and decide when to come back home if things were boring. (I went back home at around 9:30PM...)
If I'm honest with myself. At that point, I realize that there was maybe a little bit of social anxiety behind this dilemma. I did finally convinced myself to proceed that way. It went fine. at 5PM, there was the beer mile activity. There was 9 contestants in the race (including myself) which consist of running a quarter mile drink a beer and continue running. After 10 minutes, with 4 beers in... This did grease out any remaining social anxiety that I might have. I had buzz... I couldn't drive back anyway until the alcohol wears out anyway.
The party was fun but I haven't felt that any present girl was attracted. I got few pleasant interactions but nothing beyond nice and friendly.
I have mixed feelings about the experience and this goes back to how I should be after AM6/SM3...
1. I haven't noticed any sexual attraction from any women that DMSI could/should have produced.
2. How I felt about that (unaffected and I was still feeling high value) is certainly due to my AM6 learning
3. I did play it very safe. *I* am attracted to many of the girls of the gym... It did never occur to me to voice out this interest to any of the girls. This is some behavioral changes that I would have expected to have in me after a fresh and recent SM3 run. My usual excuse is that girls go to the gym not to be hit... By itself this is arguable whether or not the reason has merit... but yesterday, with a party context, loud music, some alcohol in play... nobody would have said anything if I did make few advances... Here is the thing... I didn't make any conscious effort. I could have done a short briefing with myself before the party so that I have "conscious" goals in mind to do it.. But I haven't made any of that. I did trust my subconscious and I did let go things flow naturally and I haven't pulled the trigger at all during the evening. I must then conclude that what others/the group is thinking about what I do and say is taking too much importance in my head subconsciously I presume... There IS a fear behind this. No doubt about that..
So this is it... I'm giving myself few days off (about a week) then I start running BASE on 12/31 (The date is chosen so that the end of the first 32 days period coincide with the end of January to ease the listening management a bit). Lets work on making myself become a better man in other areas and lets reconsider giving DMSI another try after during the "prime" social summer period...
