I had a hard time waking up this morning. Yesterday evening I took about 5 onzes of vodka throughout the evening... Nothing excessive but I don't see other reasons why I'm lacking energy this morning...
I will download DMSI 3.2A sometime this week-end and start using it on Sunday. It may help with the occasional BS internal dialogue like the one I had yesterday at bar #2...
I also got this other realization. What I was lacking yesterday at club #1 is a strong intent.
The intent of getting laid that a strong libido impose on yourself. I wasn't feeling it yesterday evening but this morning... it is bothering...
I was feeling like going with the flow... Not wanting anything from anyone... No particular desire... I did felt strong attraction with at least 2 women there. I felt a tension. They felt it too... One was busy and asked if I would stay around so we can talk later... My decision to leave was already made... The other one she was with his bf so kinda off limit... (isn't interesting that we are attracted to what is forbidden or impossible...) but we did look at each other with naughty eyes... Could be interesting if I have the opportunity to see her again...
But how about the 3 single women at the bar that turned their head and looked at me with a glance filled of something that could be lust when I was on my way out...
I like my certainty. I made the unshakable decision to leave and I'm glad that it is not simply a woman looking at me that made me change my mind..
but why did I want to leave? If I had the strong intent to meet a woman and have sex last night. I would have made sure to check if there was something between me and one of these 3 single women...
Next time that I go out... I'll make sure that my intent is clear and always present in my mind. What is it that I'm looking for...
I know that there is thin line between strong intent and neediness that women get turn off from. but I definitely think that you can have a strong intent while not needing something...
I'm going to let my intent grow...
I will download DMSI 3.2A sometime this week-end and start using it on Sunday. It may help with the occasional BS internal dialogue like the one I had yesterday at bar #2...
I also got this other realization. What I was lacking yesterday at club #1 is a strong intent.
The intent of getting laid that a strong libido impose on yourself. I wasn't feeling it yesterday evening but this morning... it is bothering...
I was feeling like going with the flow... Not wanting anything from anyone... No particular desire... I did felt strong attraction with at least 2 women there. I felt a tension. They felt it too... One was busy and asked if I would stay around so we can talk later... My decision to leave was already made... The other one she was with his bf so kinda off limit... (isn't interesting that we are attracted to what is forbidden or impossible...) but we did look at each other with naughty eyes... Could be interesting if I have the opportunity to see her again...
But how about the 3 single women at the bar that turned their head and looked at me with a glance filled of something that could be lust when I was on my way out...
I like my certainty. I made the unshakable decision to leave and I'm glad that it is not simply a woman looking at me that made me change my mind..
but why did I want to leave? If I had the strong intent to meet a woman and have sex last night. I would have made sure to check if there was something between me and one of these 3 single women...
Next time that I go out... I'll make sure that my intent is clear and always present in my mind. What is it that I'm looking for...
I know that there is thin line between strong intent and neediness that women get turn off from. but I definitely think that you can have a strong intent while not needing something...
I'm going to let my intent grow...
